jessica murray: January 2020

the desktop uses about twice as much electricity as either the laptop or the chromebook (the 90s laptop is in between, when it's on), so i was expecting a spike, but it's been offset by the lesser fan use, and the fact that i avoided laundry this month. if i hadn't had the desktop on all month, i would have come in under the $45 limit and paid down the balance. as it is, it's going to be about $2.00 over.

i have no intention of paying this bill. i'm going to pay it off via electrical saving. i just need to get the laptop fixed, first, so i'm not running the desktop all of the time...and in fact running two computers all of the time....

i don't see any specific usage that i can attribute to the 90s laptop, but we're going to keep it off for a while, anyways. at least until i can figure out what's going on with the windows 7 box.

the desktop will only be on like this for a few more days. i was hoping to get all of this done. life's always more complicated than i want it to be. but, i should start the troubleshooting process on friday or saturday...

the soundcard installed cleanly, so that's at least easy. and, i guess i'll need to install a recent version of chrome in the virtual machine to do the testing i need to do.

but, i'm concluding that i probably need to remove the line "codecs=flac". and, if i'm going to do that, i should remove the other codec specifications, too. just let me be sure that it actually works...

there are flac codecs in the system, but the version of the chrome browser that is installed on the 90s laptop is too old to be able to launch flac over html5, and it's picked for a reason - if i start using newer versions of the browser, the system won't run.

i'm a little concerned about that machine, though. i've been noticing for a while that every time i take it out of hibernation, it shuts off. this is actually primarily frustrating because it means i lose my place in the youtube video i'm watching and have to start over again. i don't have any interest in what's happening on that machine in general, but it was really overheating, and i'm concerned about the electrical, and it kind of defeats the point if i have to start the video over again every time i turn it on. so, it's now going to sit unplugged from the internet. there's no wireless in the device. and, let me check my electrical...

yeah, this is weird.

this is an example of my control:

<audio autoplay controls style="width:500px;height:50px" id="Player">
<source id=flac src="../inri - inrisampled - 02 war.flac" type='audio/flac; codecs="flac"'>
<source id=mp3 src="../inri - inrisampled - 02 war.mp3" type='audio/mpeg; codecs="mp3"'>
<source id=aac src="../inri - inrisampled - 02 war.m4a" type='audio/mp4'>
<source id=wav src="../inri - inrisampled - 02 war.wav" type='audio/wav'>
<source id=ogg src="../inri - inrisampled - 02 war.ogg" type='audio/ogg; codecs="vorbis"'>
</audio>

the controls work for all five types on firefox in windows, and for the last four types on chrome in the chrome os. i don't see any logical reason why flac breaks when mp3 doesn't, other than that chrome doesn't like being told to use that codec. so, i think that's more of a chrome-specific thing.

i want it to work, though....

i'm not even going to test on...they call ie "edge" now, right? whatever.

the fourth major browser is safari, and i don't have an apple device, so i don't do any testing with anything to do with apple - no apple lossless, no safari, none of it, because i just don't have access to it. sorry...

so, i can test with firefox and with chrome, on windows and on the chrome os, giving me four possible testing scenarios.

i'm going to then argue it's irrational to run firefox on the chrome os and rule out that possibility. so, the last thing i can try is the chrome browser in windows, and i do use chrome on the 90s laptop, because it's too old to launch a version of firefox that is new enough to run html5, which you now need for youtube. they forced me into it, basically.

i just did a search to make sure i'm not missing anything, and firefox' share has sure declined recently, although it's actually safari's share that seems to have gone strangely up. chrome has been at 65% for a while, now - i'm not surprised by that. but, how did safari get to 25%? i thought iphones were losing badly to android? double-checked - yup. are apple pcs up, then? no, they're down. ??. so, how can safari have a 25% market share if the iphone is at 15% and apple pcs are at 10%?

the last version of safari for windows was in 2013, and you would bizarrely need to run it via wine to use it on linux, according to a cursory google search.

but, you can install safari on android devices. so, i guess that a lot of people have switched from iphone to android, but don't want to let go of safari just yet? even so, the numbers are still weird.

it may be closer to the truth that firefox' decline is tied more to the general decline of the desktop/laptop and it's increasing replacement with phones. it may be less that people are moving away from firefox, and more that people are moving away from computers altogether.

i'm going to continue to resist this, and when i do finally move past firefox, it's going to be to some kind of fork. i could end up migrating to linux, and using a linux fork of firefox. i don't know what's still kicking, it's been a long time.

i've just had issues with chrome being particularly invasive, in terms of spyware. i had it installed for a while, years ago, but i kept finding it dialing home, and every time i turned it off, it would install itself back into the startup menu. it was acting like a virus, basically, and i don't have a lot of patience for aggressive corporate spyware like that. so, i ripped it right out of my machine, and i've avoided it ever since. i don't intend to go back to it....

but, i should check to see how this thing behaves on the 90s laptop, first. if...does it even have flac codecs at all?

if it was funny over aac or ogg, i wouldn't mind so much, but i expect people to download in flac, so i want this to work on the chromebook. in the world of windows and linux, flac is the default lossless audio codec.

Tuesday, January 28, 2020

we're reimaging. that's fine. it will be quick, there's nothing to play with this time, i didn't really alter anything.

on second thought....no.

this is what i had:

type='audio/flac; codec="flac"'

i thought i had dropped the ' after the flac, and changing it to:

type='audio/flac'; codec="flac"'

did actually get it to work in the chrome browser, but now i'm concerned that it's going to be broken in firefox, because it should actually be wrong, and i don't have a soundcard...

these finicky browsers, huh? fuck...

i'm convinced that my hard drive is fine, so i'm going to turn the hd audio chip on in the bios and take my chances. i may have to reimage. whatever. i need sound. when i come up in the laptop next week, i'll need to add hardware components back in one at a time - including my new wired usb keyboard.

but, it's hard to understand how it could be a driver issue if it boots fine and is fine for a day or two. that doesn't add up.

i'm also going to copy over all five options for inri003 and test them thoroughly in the chrome os to see if i can figure out a pattern.

i think i want:

type="audio/flac"

...i.e. i should drop the codec specification. that seems to be what's confusing things. but i need to make sure it actually works.

so, let's try to get the audio up on the desktop, here we go....

to be clear, it's just the html5 frontends that need the update. the pdfs & docs are fine, so the stuff at noise trade can stay, and the music journals are ok, too.

it's just the zip files in each of the liner note packages...

and, then i'll have to redownload everything again and replace it on the external.

this is a pain in the ass. absolutely. but, it's just time consuming, it's not hard.

*sigh*.

i had only previously tested in firefox, and everything worked perfectly. so, i was a little surprised to realize that flac wasn't playing back on the chromebook.

it turns out i dropped a ' in the controls, and i did it consistently - hundreds of times.

so, i have to go back and fix everything.

that should take the rest of the night.

to be clear: it's very minor. but i have to do it.

it will give me some time to listen, and there's maybe more going on this month than i thought, after all.

Monday, January 27, 2020

i'm clearly not going to get this finished by the end of the night. i haven't started.

rather, i'm going to gorge myself, shower and then focus very strictly on finishing everything up over the next couple of days.

ok.

are we done here for the night?

i think we are.

i need to eat...and then i need to organize all of this loose data, before i get on to inri015.

that's all of the uploading for tonight.

i will need to reconstruct the music blog when i get to the general cleanup, but the general & dtk blogs are updated.

the facebook pages are updated for the night.

so, what's left to do is download the packages from bandcamp and cross-reference them to make sure they're correct.

the pdf conversion via microsoft's cloud seems to be flawless, even over 1500 page documents. google's conversion is terrible. so is adobe's. everybody should take note of that. but, i'm anal...i will bitwise compare in notepad++ and carefully sort through line by line to make sure it's lined up...

my desktop is still running. it doesn't have a soundcard, though. i stripped everything out when i was fighting with the interference patterns.

i will need to prioritize the court stuff when i wake up tomorrow, but i'm hoping i can accomplish the following posting schedule:

1) inri015 by the end of the day on the 27th (today). i'm looking at about 125 pages, but a lot of it is overlap with inri000-inri002.

2) inri021 by the end of the day on the 28th. it's also 125 pages, but it's the same overlap.

3) inri022 by the end of the day on the 29th.

4) inri023 by the end of the day on the 30th.

and, i will then need to do a february look ahead before i can get to finishing january, 2014. in fact, i could maybe start on that this week.

the factum from the oiprd will be here by the 31st.

i *am* going to want to try to load the laptop some time this week.

the liner notes for inri029 have been augmented by 4 pages, and the video for inertia has been added.

https://jasonparent.bandcamp.com/album/warning

the liner notes for inri028 have been augmented by 2 pages, as well.

https://jasonparent.bandcamp.com/album/pop-music-a-tribute-to-carbon-dioxide

the liner notes for inri027 have been augmented by two pages.

https://jasonparent.bandcamp.com/album/gene-os-a-soundtrack-for-an-italian-breakfast-cereal

the liner notes for inri016 have been increased by one post from dec, 2013.

https://jasonparent.bandcamp.com/album/eat-my-fuck

this has now been updated as well, but the update is a single line in each of the documents, to stamp the release as 'jam001', and will not be noted further.

https://jasonparent.bandcamp.com/album/inrisampled

first liner note release for inri002

i've released a dozen different things with the title "inricycled", making it more of a concept than a release. it's not just the material i'm recycling, now, it's the idea of recycling material.

i hope this is the final iteration. the difference, here, is that i'm trying to isolate segments of songs that people interested in my more recent compositions would find interesting. these fragments aren't entirely void of lyrics, but they're very minimal. they're also quite short.

i've retitled most of the tracks to get a feel of what the music sounds like and/or what i was thinking as i was writing it.

the material in this volume is taken from the following cassette demos, , inri000 and inri001:
jasonparent.bandcamp.com/album/inri-cassette-demo-1 (1996)
jasonparent.bandcamp.com/album/inri-cassette-demo-2 (1997)

this is the best possible absolute starting point for my musical material.

written and recorded over 1996 and 1997. digitally remastered, sequenced and mildly modified in the fall of 2013. released dec 11, 2013. finalized as lp000 on july 3, 2016. first liner note release added on jan 26, 2020. i consider this my unofficial zeroth record. as always, please use headphones.

this release also includes a printable jewel case insert and will also eventually include a comprehensive package of journal entries from all phases of production (1997, 2013-2020). as of jan 26, 2020, the release includes a 106 page booklet in doc, pdf & html, with an html5 audio & video frontend, that includes journal entries from the remastering process over sept-dec, 2013, as well as the video for inertia, from dec, 2013 .

credits

released July 1, 1997

j - guitars, effects, bass, drums, vocals, keyboards, tapes, found sounds, metronomes, digital wave editing, production.

https://jasonparent.bandcamp.com/album/inricycled

Sunday, January 26, 2020

so, we're doing this one at a time, which means the posts will be stretched out a little. it seems like it's the long way if it's you, but it's really not if it's me.

inri001 has been updated to include the video for inertia, which also added a half a page to the liner notes at the very end. the doc & pdf files just had hyperlinks added, but the html file embedded it. this is consistent with the other media files.

https://jasonparent.bandcamp.com/album/inri-cassette-demo-2

i'm having difficulty focusing, again.

i've got the typos corrected for inri000. this is not a re-release, and barely justifies mentioning it.

https://jasonparent.bandcamp.com/album/inri-cassette-demo-1

the pdfs - there's 8 - are all downloaded and they look proper, but i'll have to rigorously run through them before i move on.

let's get the seven existing packages updated, first.

so, there was a shutdown on thursday morning, and i spent the day thursday finishing up the archiving from the desktop, and then uploaded everything thursday night and into friday morning. i reimaged the machine, got some fruit and passed out and slept until friday afternoon when i intended to start fresh and get a good session in, to finish everything up for sunday night....

there actually wasn't any reason to turn the modem on, as i didn't intend to connect from that laptop, and i had plenty of work to do offline. i was hoping to get everything updated, and turn the modem on when i was done. i had some concerns that they may have been using the chromebook as a relay, and i don't know how linux networking works, really, at all, so i felt there was little i could do to react to it. so, i shut it down partly to save electricity and partly to keep the fuckers out while i was working.

unfortunately, friday was really a waste. i simply couldn't focus, and i don't actually think it was pot, or at least not until later in the night. it actually felt like i was on mushrooms, and i don't have any good explanation for that at all. but, if you've ever tried reading on mushrooms....you can't.....it's impossible.....

i took a shower and made some coffee around 4:00, but i passed out not longer after. it was just a bust....

i was up in the afternoon, and i actually got a lot more done, before the machine went down again around 22:00. i have updates for inri000, inri001, inri003, inri016 & inri027-inri029, and i'm also going to be doing a first liner note release for inri002 by the end of the night. i was most of the way done inri002 when the machine went out...

this is a situation that caused me some serious pause. all evidence suggested that i was being shut down remotely by a server that was trying to deploy something, but the situation seemed to belie that - not only had i not connected this machine to the internet at all, but no machine in the apartment had been connected, and the modem was actually turned off.

if i was being shutdown remotely, it would have to be via a wireless connection that i didn't understand. there was only one networking device in the entire apartment - my wireless keyboard, a bluetooth device with a range of a hundred metres, at most.

in fact, i noticed on saturday night that my wireless keyboard was connecting as a composite device, indicating that it was accepting signals from more than just the keyboard.

i also noticed on friday night that i was able to activate windows without connecting to the internet - an obvious absurdity. but, it would indicate a backdoor connection.

further, my wireless keyboard is manufactured by microsoft.

you can see what i'm putting together with this.

i have three ps/2 keyboards, and a half dozen connectors the other way, but no way to connect a keyboard to a laptop via usb without using wireless, just right now. i'd have to get out to the factory direct, and i did resolve to do so, but i wanted to get this done first. next week...

i then accidentally booted into the laptop's hard drive using the desktop's motherboard, and i knew at that point that i had to test it - i could use the ps/2 keyboard on the desktop, and if there's something else going on in the laptop, i have no expectation that they've gotten to the desktop. not yet...

if the pc crashes the same way in the end, i'm going to have to try to swap out the hard drives. i've been resisting this because it isn't rational, but short of the operating system expiring, the hard drive would be the only remaining shared component. if the same thing happens, it has to be the drive....

but, if the pc stays up for the next week, i'm going to need to buy a usb keyboard, i guess. we can't have wireless keyboards in canada, i guess - the cops will use them to hack into your computer and shut you down. the true north strong and free, huh. so long as you don't think for yourself, i guess...

you are free to shut up and be a good slave.

you are free to do what you're told....

tellingly, i've been unable to activate, indicating there's no backdoor. and, i've been getting weird error messages informing me that i'm disconnected from the remote server.

in the long run, i'm clearly going to need to wipe this down. but, it's not going to help if they just capture the machine again.

it's one thing to have these paranoid observations. it's another to have them confirm themselves. it's still another for the confirmations to build up.

it really, honestly seems like somebody is slaving my windows box to a domain server via the bluetooth in my wireless keyboard - a shortwave radio with a very short range connection, so short range that that person would basically need to be directly upstairs.....

i crashed from about 5:00-11:00, and finished up inri002 this afternoon. here she comes....

i'm on the chromebook....

what happened?

well, to start with, i just noticed that my local archiving is working again, which is a good thing. i think it might be suggestive of a pullback in surveillance, actually. you'd think it's a matter of time before they pull their heads out of their asses...

i'm concerned about missing email, though. what else didn't get through over the last year or so?

i've actually had an eventful weekend. and, there's stuff on it's way up to bandcamp soon.

re: court stuff - i got a factum from the windsor police that i haven't read yet, and i'll need to call the divisional court in the morning, because they left a message. this is actually all going according to plans.

but, let's start with a narrative of the weekend, because i think i'm coming to some very unsettling and very startling conclusions.

Friday, January 24, 2020

~~1) this is the noise trade link for the readable version of the third semester, 2013 archive for this blog:~~
~~http://books.noisetrade.com/j/092013-122013-music-journal~~

~~2) this is the noise trade link for the readable version of the full 2013 archive of this blog (current reality abridgement, so from july 16th-dec 31st):~~
~~http://books.noisetrade.com/j/072013-122013-music-journal-22~~

unfortunately, noise trade did not work out as a hosting solution, and i never got a clear answer as to why. but, i decided in the end that the site was full of ads and unworkable, anyways.

these archives are no longer available as standalones, but only as components in the full first reconstruction phase archive, available in the following places:
https://www.lulu.com/en/ca/shop/jessica-murray/full-first-reconstruction-phase-music-journal/ebook/product-p5v576.html
https://drive.google.com/file/d/1u37wZP4SrIuQDxqQMNWpfxgYH2KR1eTn/view

the bandcamp archives for july through to december are here:
https://jasonparent.bandcamp.com/album/07-2013-music-journal-2-2
https://jasonparent.bandcamp.com/album/08-2013-music-journal
https://jasonparent.bandcamp.com/album/09-2013-music-journal
https://jasonparent.bandcamp.com/album/10-2013-music-journal
https://jasonparent.bandcamp.com/album/11-2013-music-journal
https://jasonparent.bandcamp.com/album/12-2013-music-journal

Thursday, January 23, 2020

i think it passed the preliminary tests, so i'm going to upload the files and i'll come back if i find any problems.

the conversion seems to be working.

i'll have to go over it to see how well.

so, now that i have what looks like a stable conversion method, i can get to actually finishing the parsing for the end of 2013.

it's not entirely clear that this will work, but let's hope it does.

expect combined files for the last semester of 2013 to come up fairly shortly, once i'm sure they're all neatly formatted, locally.

well...

that seems to work.

i want to be clear: i tried uploading doc files to google drive and then downloading them as pdfs and the formatting often broke on them. the same thing happened at several of the free conversion sites, including at the adobe site. so, i mean, i tried this, and it didn't work.

the smallpdf.com site was particularly accurate for whatever reason, it worked when none of the other sites did, but it has those file size restrictions. and, i mean, i don't know where i'm sending my files to and from, here.

will the microsoft converters be on par with the smallpdf ones? well, i can hope so, but we'll have to find out. and, there will be files coming to test with soon enough, too.

if this doesn't work out, i can always try openoffice. but, i think i'm happy with this as an answer, so long as it's actually effective.

i don't know why i didn't think of this earlier. well, i guess that microsoft didn't come up in the google search, funny that....

google: fix your word--->pdf conversion. it doesn't work.

wait.

microsoft has a cloud, too.

can i use it to convert files? that would be easy.

and, why don't i use google docs?

it doesn't format right.

and, my experience has been that it's slow and tends to crash because it's autosaving far too often.

it's fine for smaller documents that don't have a lot of detail, but i need to be able to create documents that are hundreds of pages long and i need to be able to format them in very specific ways.

plus, there's data sanctity issues regarding access by law enforcement.

it's not an application that is properly delegated to a cloud-computing platform; this is something that should primarily be created and stored locally. it's just not the right tool for this job...

abiword is no longer being offered for windows from the developer (and you shouldn't download things from sketchy sites like softronic, pretty much ever), which is what i need it for, and it appears to rely on a pdf printer, anyways.

it was a nice, small file, though. no doubt a minimal install process; maybe even a standalone. these are the kinds of programs i insist on, nowadays. i don't need a word processor building a tower in my registry....

maybe i can find another clone. it's worth a shot before i resort to downloading oo.

if i'm going to download a large package and install it in a virtual machine just to get the functionality to convert from .doc to .pdf, i should be going with openoffice.

again: the way i've been doing this for years is to print it, and it worked just fine, except that the links lose their functionality (it's just like you're printing it to a piece of paper, but virtually, and you can't click the links on your paper, not until we get specific types of three-dimensional printing, so you can't click the links in the virtually printed pdf), and that is absolutely fundamental to what i'm doing - the end product needs to be interactive.

maybe i can get a very minimal version of openoffice..

this should be easier than this.

in fact, i remember seeing react os style freeware word 2003 clones, and you'd think they'd do it, so maybe i should look that up first. abi something..?

i don't want to upgrade the office software, either. the program does this natively after 2010, but i went through great lengths to strip office 2003 down to a 20 mb package. i really, really, really don't want any of this recent office software on my system. at all.

one way out would be to install 2010 in the virtual machine, and just open it up to convert, but that's kind of crazy.

why is this so unnecessarily difficult? why can't i find a plugin for word 2003?

yeah, it has built in print functionality, but i can already do that pretty easily.

can i find a printer driver that prints links?

installing latex would also be overkill. to an extent, i'd be happy to just upload the file in word and let you deal with it, but noise trade won't even take files in that format, and the pdf format is non-proprietary.

i just like word. i'm using word 2003, and it's a just very clean, uncluttered processor - minimal. kind of not very microsoft, but maybe the best word processor ever created, nonetheless.

there's nothing stopping me from continuing what i'm doing, besides file sizes and the awkwardness of it. like i say, this shouldn't be so hard.....really...

i don't want to download a cracked version of adobe studio. that seems like overkill. even if it's 15 years old, and it would be...

i'm actually a foxit user and have been for as long as i can remember. mid 00s, probably. i had an older machine and had to make an effort to fight the bloatware, and that was one of the steps i took, moving from adobe to foxit. you kids don't even know what bloatware is...

the newer freeware versions of foxit actually claim to be able to do this natively.

let's give it a try in the virtual machine, first...

i am awake, for the first time in, like, a week. hooray!

the smoke's better just right this second. somebody find me a hollowed out log to bash my head against.

there was some autocapitalization from facebook (fuckers.) that i had to fix, and that's been replaced, so i'm ready to get back to it, now.

and, i'm hoping that i don't move from in front of these two machines until i get 2013 finished, once and for all.

the plan is to do all of the office work on the windows machine and then upload it to noise trade and bandcamp via the chromebook. this is temporary, because i don't want to deal with broken windows boxes right now. something else i'm remembering about this chromebook is that i have to log in to turn the ad block on, which means typing out a 100 character pass phrase....

first, i need an answer to the pdf problem. surely it's not that hard. surely the right software is out there. i must go forth and look...

Wednesday, January 22, 2020

so, i do think that that's most of what i wanted done tonight, although i can't post to the music blog from here.

i've got the four blogs for december at noise trade, i've got the journal at bandcamp and i've got the links shared to three of the blogs, and also to facebook. that's everything except posting to the music blog.

so, i'm going to take a short nap, and then focus on finishing the remaining eight uploads to noise trade, many of which are quite lengthy. the longest one is 1600 pages and will have a suggested donation of $16.

i need to get a better answer on the pdf conversion, though.

for years, i used a pdf printer, but that is not good enough for this because i need to keep the links in place. so, i've been using this site, smallpdf.com. but, these files are no longer small.

this is no longer a one off, this is now a normal thing for me, so, surely, i can find a freeware pdf printer that maintains links and doesn't fuck up the formatting.

after i nap....

the sixth entry in the music journal series, which is the month of december, 2013 and is 113 pages long. i am not going to summarize the story, but it is available on the web over here:musicofjessicamurray.blogspot.com/2013/12/.

this is a compilation of written correspondences that occurred around me over december, 2013. it includes facebook posts, google+ posts, youtube comments discussions and emails with acquaintances and family members, in an attempt to document the first reconstruction phase of rebuilding my discography, including remastering and (re)publishing inri002, inri015, inri021, inri022 and inri023. the contents of this download are the dummy track, a word doc file and a pdf file, both written in a more readable, chronological ordering. i've also added the respective files for my other three blogs, for general interest, as well as 18 separate txt documents (17 html files + 1 further pdf document) that are referenced in the journal.

the events documented in this journal occurred in december, 2013 and were compiled into a narrative in several stages over the years 2014-2020. journal completed, released and finalized in doc and pdf format on jan 22, 2020. doc201312.

credits

released January 1, 2014

j - editing, participant

panglos - participant
joris van dijk - participant
nor easter - participant
futur incertain uncertainfutur (aka parhasard57) - participant
robert decreon - participant
trevor johnston - participant
tomhulcelover - participant
tom alma - participant
babalooey100 - participant
aussie dave - participant
matthew joseph harrington - participant
bryan piekarski - participant
happyhooliedaze - partcipiant
paul boisvert - participant
marios laskaris - partcipiant
lukmruk - participant
miaumiaucatmagician - participant
mattlaureys - participant
alfredo rodriguez - participant
randomusername987 - participant
sam steinhauer - participant
gonzocurt - participant
michael hamilton berry - participant

mom - participant
the initial landlord - participant
public works, city of windsor - participant
ollie - participant

https://jasonparent.bandcamp.com/album/12-2013-music-journal

here is the ~~noise trade~~ smashwords link for the readable version of the december, 2013 archive of this blog.

~~http://books.noisetrade.com/j/122013-music-journal~~
https://www.smashwords.com/books/view/1026617

ok, here we go.

there will be four noise trade posts to start for december, 2013.

this will be followed by four more that will run over first the third semester of 2013 (that is, sept--->dec) and then the entire second half of the year (july 16th-->dec 31st). these are large files, and it will take me some time to figure out how to upload them.

i will need to update the bandcamp site after that. this will have the december music journal first, and then updates to inri000, inri001, inri003, inri016, inri027, inri028 & inri029 (if any. i need to check.), followed by liner notes for inri002, inri015, inri021, inri022 & inri023, and subsequent rereleases of these records. so, there is plenty to post over the next few days, if i can stop whatever piece of shit that is causing me this grief from being such a piece of shit.

and, then i'll need to clean the last few days up at the politics blog. ugh.

the first four should be up very soon.

Tuesday, January 21, 2020

so, my laptop is running, and i'm doing the final stages required to finish these uploads, which is going over everything one last time to make sure it's all aligned properly, but i'm going to be refraining from connecting it to the internet until after i've uploaded everything, just because i want to get this done before i have to deal with any kind of bullshit.

so, expect that all to come up before sunrise. i know i've been committal on this recently and nothing has come up, but expect it this time, for sure.

these will be the last things to complete for 2013.

ok.

so, i'm going to want to get the documents updated at noise trade & bandcamp, now. we'll clean this mess up after i'm done.

i'm thinking about it though, and how do i get out of this mess, more generally?

in the mid to late 00s, i only connected to the internet over winlited xp images that had been reverse engineered to rip most of the networking functionality out of them. then my life changed drastically in mid-2011. i've been connecting with laptops for several years now, under the assumption that what's on the machine doesn't matter much, and i can always reinstall on short notice. but, with all of the screens burning out (under shady conditions.), i've had to reanalyze this - it hasn't been easy to reinstall, and i'm wasting large amounts of time on troubleshooting.

how do i get out of this?

i've tried installing to the laptop drive on the pc and then plugging it into the laptop, but it doesn't seem to want to pick up the chipset drivers. rather, i need to copy over the files from the existing install, which is messy and corrupted from the drivers from both systems.

it's been a while since i tried to boot from the dvd, but my memory is that the drive was damaged and, to the extent that it worked at all, it was very slow. i don't remember the right key combination to get it to boot from disc, but i could probably figure that out.

even if i could get that to work, it would mean spending days setting the system back up, and who knows for how long.

what i'm wondering is if it's time to build a custom windows 7 image, if i even can. i don't think that anything like winlite ever came out for windows 7. but, if it did, i could get all of the patches in to it, then rip the core of it out, then copy over an actual fresh install whenever i get attacked.

i'm also toying with the idea of either installing xp in a virtual machine in linux or just putting xp on there, straight up. if my primary interest right now is security, though, then there are problems with both approaches.

i want to struggle through the rest of the rebuild for jan/2014, first, and i may find myself spending large amounts of time offline as i do it. but, i'm going to have to sit and figure this out, once that's done. this isn't sustainable...

Sunday, January 19, 2020

this is not intended to be a new site, it's just intended to be a placeholder to ensure that people searching for me can actually find me.

https://www.youtube.com/channel/UCHuac0RATJVAIQyXz0rxG6Q

fwiw, if you search on youtube, my site comes up first, and there's some various videos at my blog site explaining the process i went through to dismantle the site:

https://www.youtube.com/results?search_query=deathtokoalas

that said, i'm going to set up a placeholder just so people aren't confused and don't think the other site is me. i mean, it should be obvious that it isn't me. those are things i wouldn't like. that's not a picture of me. i don't kiss people, gross. etc. but not everybody that is looking for me is going to have read everything i've written...

again: i don't know what the purpose of this is.

but, i feel i have little choice.

i ate too much....

too much is 40 blueberries, 10 strawberries, 2 kiwis, 2 bananas, 2 scoops of ice cream, 2 glasses of soy milk, most of a litre of apple juice, and most of a plate of breakfast that consisted of 4 eggs on 2 slices of toasted pumpernickel, 8 slices of marble cheese and four slices of genoa salami, that i buy in bulk like a christmas ham.

i hadn't had a meal since friday morning, and this one was actually by accident - i wasn't supposed to eat again until tuesday night. now, it's put off until thursday night...

i'll have some fruit, daily, in between.

i can report that the machine's back up, but it'll be a while before i'm back online.

i went to upload some pdfs to noise trade and realized that i forgot to take screen shots on the windows 7 box. i don't know how to do that on the chromebook, or if i even can. that's fine, i'll do it in a bit and upload from here when it's done.

for right now, i want to keep the other machine up so i'm going to avoid connecting with it for a bit. yeah. well, this is what they get - they've got me logged into a guest account on a chromebook. try tracing or corrupting that.

first, i want to understand what this form 68 is all about; it's time to do that, now. i can do that from here. then, i'll make sure i get the noise trade stuff uploaded, and might upload the bandcamp stuff, too. then i can get to the deferral, which i'm going to want to email to the human rights tribunal by the end of the day tomorrow...

i can always email that from here, btw.

and, i now have email forwarding, as well.

so, i'd rather send from my dtk account. but, knocking out my windows 7 laptop won't stop me from being able to send email. that's how i'm posting to this blog, actually...

on second thought, that was one reboot too many.

i'm guessing that they got some kind of script in there, and that it took a few tries to undo it. so, we're jumping right to the reinstall...

i accidentally broke some eggs, so i need to eat them, and that's fine.

i'll be back on top of things in a few hours.

so, what am i doing?

first, i'm going to eat.

i need to run over a bunch of files on the machine. i can do that before i reimage it. then, i can upload these files on the chromebook. that's fine. i just don't have access to word on this machine...

then, i need to figure out what's going on with the court stuff, which i can do while i'm reimaging.

it's been a slow process of removing windows update components, and one thing that is positive about the last attack is that they weren't able to update the catroot. nor do they appear to have been able to install any drivers. but, i can't have some shady group that i'm only vaguely sure of the existence of gathering data on my computer - i don't consent to that, and would argue that if anybody is caught doing that then they should go to jail for it.

it takes me about two hours to reimage.

we can do it twice a day, if you want, until you fuck off.

i get the feeling that i'd be baffled by the stupidity of what i'm actually dealing with, if i was actually aware of it.

but, what do you want me to tell you?

either somebody's trying to cover up some kind of absurd lie, or that kid needs a serious psychiatrist.

liars always lose, in the end.

while i am unable to vote in the united states, i was a bernie sanders supporters over 2016 and eventually very weakly endorsed clinton as an imperceptibly lesser evil - although, had i been able to vote, i would have almost certainly voted for jill stein.

and, i am the person that posted as deathtokoalas on youtube over 2013-2017 or so.

this is my youtube site: youtube.com/deathtokoalas.

i was born in ottawa, ontario on january 13th, 1981.

that makes me 39 years old plus a few days.

i have never been to new york, i don't use twitter and i don't play video games.

my pages are on the side of the blog.

it's out of principle, at this point.

even if they're not harming anything on my machine, i did not consent to being spied upon, and will not allow the report to send if i can stop it.

so, what's going on?

i spent all day yesterday updating the files offline, because i know what happens when i go back online. the files are all updated, and i should have something up at noise trade soonish.

and, sure enough, it didn't take long for the machine to crash once i went online to splice the files...

but, i turned off a few specific things, and it seems to be preventing the bluescreen. now, it comes up with some kind of listener over udp, instead, that appears to be trying to send some kind of report back to head office.

it doesn't matter.

so, i will need to reformat that machine before i go back online. it's perhaps an improvement, but it's not safe to connect with it, for right now.

i'm also noticing that, when i went to go search for my blogspot site, the teenager's pages are at the top of the feed. see, this is kind of getting the point across - somebody wants the world to think that deathtokoalas is from new york, instead of from canada, despite the fact that the poster was obviously canadian, because they pointed it out every other day. anybody that actually read my posts knows i'm from canada. it's just absurd to suggest i'm from new york.

i don't know what the end goal is here, but there is no endpoint but failure, and i should have my blogs from december up within a few hours.

and, yes - i'll have to reformat the other machine before i go back online. and, did you lose your report? awww.

Saturday, January 18, 2020

ok.

so, i snuck the updates in first. i need to cross-reference before i can publish, but, tentatively, and as stated, this is a much smaller document. it's a shame about the cyberstalking, because i could have been done by the end of the year.

politics - 178 pages
music - 113 pages
deathtokoalas - 102 pages
travel - 5 pages

i will need to publish liner notes for inricycled, inri, inriched, inrimixed and inrijected. inrimake & inridiculous are coming, soon, as well as the first deny everything releases.

if i can stay up, it will be done in a few hours.

Friday, January 10, 2020

i got slowed down a little this week with technical problems but should be back on track in a day or two.

...but i want to make a point clear. it should already be clear...

...but if i don't go to your shows, or review your records, or otherwise acknowledge your existence, chances are pretty high that the reason is that i think you suck. and, there's a lot of bad music in detroit, controlled by a lot of filters with very bad taste.

so, i mean, if i'm not "supporting your scene", it's not some kind of accident. it's because i don't like it. and, i don't care how cool you think you are, either.

broadly speaking, art should not and cannot be thought of as a transactional process. this idea of "supporting the scene" is exactly why there's so much garbage out there - people get shows because they did somebody a favour, and are consequently expected to buy into a system before they can get something out of it. it's pay to play. and, it's bullshit, and i won't have anything to do with it.

i understand that i need to meet people and network, that i can't just create the greatest thing ever and expect it to magically sell, that i have to find some way to market it. i understand that i live in a capitalist reality, whether i like it or not.

but, i'm not remotely interested in any sort of "scene" that rewards loyalty over talent. that scene is going to suck, and it won't take long before it's full of dumbass macho bros sitting around by themselves wondering why nobody shows up.

i need you to evaluate my art on it's merit and i want to be a part of a scene that values my talent, not one that rewards me for seniority and for showing up.

there's reasons i'm at the age i'm at and have kept an arms-length distance from every scene i've ever been near. after a while, i basically hate virtually everybody, and the feeling is often fairly mutual.

but, i need it to be about the value of the art, or i don't want to show up at all.

Sunday, January 5, 2020

as mentioned a few times already, the process i've been carrying through with for the last couple of years is coming to an end, as a consequence of extending the alter-reality back a previous ten years.

this process has been slowed down, this year, it is true. but, i've tried to state, repeatedly, that i am carrying through with a process. the liner notes i've been producing are not any less important than the music, they are a part of a holistic whole, in terms of completing a historical document.

my artistic focus has always been historical. i've never been interested in creating music that is specifically current, or aligned with prevailing fashion ideas. i want my music to be enjoyed by future generations, and i am fully cognizant of the reality that most of my audience has not been born yet.

well, maybe some of them have been born now. it's 2020. time to start implementing some hindsight, right?

i'm most of the way through december, 2013. i want to finish january, 2014 before i move on.

but, i will be moving to period three, soon.

as my focus is historical, making new music for the purposes of fitting into a fashion scene does not make sense, in the context of my artistic vision. the reality is that i have several records that i need to complete before i can consider moving forwards, and the more i'm slowed down, the longer it will take.

so, i say i'm not interested in new music.

at this rate, i won't be done my old stuff until i'm 50. and, i might not live much longer...