yeah. i'm taking a break to do something a little simpler.

this could very well go down like a lead balloon, but i think it's kind of necessary right now.

if i'm not making people angry, i'm not doing this right. this recent wave of inoffensive, vanilla folk makes no sense to me. it's fucking elevator music. and it's the antithesis of what folk music is.

this is going to be electric folk, i don't really "do folk", but it's in intent a folk tune, and going to come with a bit of a divisive message. i'm pretty sure i'm right. even if i'm not, hopefully it makes people think a little....

it's going to be a little weird, though, because i can't number a 2015 release from 2002. so, it's going to be unavailable for sale. for a long time. maybe it's better that way.

i've been putting aside new ideas. i mean, i have several i've thought up since i moved down here, but they've been put in sequence. this is ultimately going to be put in sequence, too, in the sense that it's going to be shelved. but it's going to become irrelevant if i wait two, three years to do it.

i've been thinking recently that, when i get over this 2002 hump, the music moving forward is likely to be more conceptual. i'm kind of out of my instrumental rock phase, in the sense that i think i'm coming up on completing everything i could do in the genre - i've made all the statements i want to make. which is tied into the sense of closure i'm attaching to the end of the discography. i expect releases dated after 2006 to be almost entirely conceptual. and releases dated after 2013 to actually be mostly literary.

i think this is an intersection that all modern musicians get to in their lives because the nature of modern music is so deeply juvenile. the last few generations have been struggling with this as they've entered their mid 30s, and especially into their 40s. i have the benefit of learning from those errors a little and getting out in front of it. there's no use in hanging on to the past. you will suck if you try that. you must grow up..

there's a long way to go before that's relevant. right now i'm just focusing on this track as a throwaway. i'd expect it will eventually end up in a single dated to february, 2015. but i can't tell if it's inri070, inri110 or anywhere else in between there.

it's amazing how easy it is to lose a week for no apparent reason. lol.

i've been playing with a bit of a jokey folk song, but it's a conceptual thing and i'm not sure about releasing it, yet. this would be something brand new, which i'm supposed to be putting aside for the moment. but i'm toying with jumping the queue...

i'll have a clearer sense of what's happening with my life on tuesday, although i'm not expecting any kind of reactionary measures until the first. what i will say is that if i don't get this thing moving, i may have to jump forwards significantly. i'm very overdue on it, and it's kind of screwing up a lot of things.

i suppose it's just more proof that nothing's ever really going to get me to give a fuck. i mean, i'm looking at a mountain of work to complete before a near certain suicide attempt within weeks and i can barely get the energy to get off youtube. that's not even slacking, really, it's just honestly not caring.

it's not like i haven't done anything with this. i've got four polished mixes over the last two months. that's really not bad. if i didn't have a surplus of ideas, i'd be done already, really.

i think it's also partially that what i'm about to embark on in finalizing this is flatly quite challenging. i mean, this is going to be some fairly advanced guitar work. and, i don't mean in the lamer scale-running shredder sense. that would be easy. i need the result to be more developed and more expressive than that.

which means i need to find the right tone, to begin with, which could itself take a week. i'll make decisions when i get back on tuesday. for now, i need to actually get some work done over the next 36 hours...