super sore right arm...

the first thing that jumps to mind is that i've been dealing with a lot of symptoms of ms lately, and it's more evidence. but i feel that's jumping to conclusions. it might be correct, but what else could it be?

sore arm = heart attack? it's on the right side, which doesn't *really* matter. but it feels like a muscle issue. i've had my blood pressure checked several times over the last few months, and it's actually very low. so, i'm going to write that off as obscure.

carpal tunnel syndrome? don't laugh. i do absurd amounts of typing, and noticed my left wrist was a little sore the other day. i think i'm going to want to monitor that. but it's a little too high up in the arm.

for right now, i'm actually going to merely assume that i pulled it a little doing groceries yesterday. i ended up with a bigger bag of fruit than i was expecting because the strawberries and bananas were both on sale. and i had a coffee in the other hand, along with a knapsack full of soy milk and oj, because it was also on sale. so, it was a big haul. i felt it as i was walking, but not when i got home; then again, you generally don't notice it until you wake up.

i do a lot of walking, but no muscle training, so i'm in very good health but weak as a twig. the solution is to fix my bicycle and start using it...

a sore arm probably won't slow me down tonight, but it might. we'll have to see if it prevents me from sitting up or if i'm going to have to spend the night in bed.

this bloody track....

i've been experimenting with it off and on for thirteen years and it just won't connect.

but it will. it must. dammit...

i'm considering deconstructing the drum collage, which is built up from about fifty samples and is going to be a lengthy process. having the bass drum and cymbal crashes in the same file just isn't mixing well, as i really want to equalize them separately.

but there's a few things i want to try before i do that, because it's going to lead to a drastic change in the track that i want to avoid. like, i want to remix it, not rewrite it. this is a track that has all the components i want, but that i could just never mix the way i wanted it.

another problem is that the source is not clean, and the effects are mostly rather dry. it was the first time working in a real daw, and i didn't have the necessary foresight....

so, i may have to redo some of the guitars, but it's going to be a last resort.

i very, very rarely feel as though i need outside production help. but with all the focus i spend on effects and mixing, it's worthwhile to point out that i'm an experimental guitarist, i'm not a producer. this is the rare moment where i might want to talk to a techno producer about some specific eq/compression choices...

in the end, though, experimenting is the only possible approach, regardless of knowledge or experience levels.

it will sound "right" soon enough. just gotta keep tweaking it

i mean, i have tools available to me now that i didn't have then. i have no excuse not to nail it. and i will nail it.