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again: i slept all day. and, i wish i knew why i'm so physically exhausted recently.

it's cold in here and it's cold outside, and i think that's a big part of it. i felt better last week when the humidity briefly peaked, and i feel better wrapped up in a hot blanket where i can sweat. so, that's really what i've been doing all day - trying to escape the cold by hiding in a hot blanket. it's going to warm up tomorrow, finally.

but, whether it's the weather or something else, i feel tense and frustrated and depressed and angry, and it's been constant now for weeks and i don't really understand it. i have a lot of work to do, but i'm not able to do it because i'm not able to mentally focus.

the best way to describe the situation is that i feel like i'm on drugs, but i'm not doing any drugs, so i don't....

let's just hope it gets better.

i'm going to try to wake up, take a shower, get my hydration up and get to finishing this up.

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ok, it's done, up to cross-reference, as i'm hacking through somebody smoking. fuck...

so, i'm going to need to hit the shower before i finalize this.

but, we've got:

travel blog - 15 pages
deathtokoalas - 90 pages
music journal - 175 pages
politics blog - 226 pages

expect it up before midnight.

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i stopped this morning to shower, and then to eat, and ended up sleeping, and got distracted.

i'm back on it now, and i am for real almost done - 29th, 30th, 31st. that's it. so, expect it up today.

i wish i knew why i'm so tired all of the time :(.