Saturday, November 27, 2021

i don't want to waste my time figuring it out.

i don't want to compete.

i don't care. it's just a waste of time.

i care about my art.
i have no interest in fighting with some imaginary agency to take control over my computer. i'll have to figure out something else.

like, i may have to move directly to the 16 bit pc, for a while. there's definitely no way to force that board to run a wireless chip.
i remain exhausted and will need some more sleep.

but, i got my linked list updated from inri000 to inri081, which is here:

you can go all the way back, if you'd like.

i updated a lot of tags in the process, and added a handful of new packages.

unfortunately, my ps/2 mouse has gone out again and i don't think it's random, so, i'm going to disconnect again, probably for a few days, as i try to isolate it.

i've decided that if it's so important to have the wireless running that they disabled the ps/2 port to force me to turn the usb on that i'm going to have to leave the computer off, potentially indefinitely. that's a gigantic problem, but i'm baffled by the premise, and have no real choice.

i'll need to get some reading done when i wake up.
so, i'm finishing that up and i just want to post a list of bundles.

these act as 2xcd sets, which is what i'm going for, here - really sprawling epics. all of the official records are now in a 2xcd set, so this is in some ways the most authoritative (if not comprehensive) approach to the discography. and, you only have to pay shipping once, as well.

1) first & second official records  (inri/inriched):

2) third record + remixes/covers compilation  (inridiculous/inrmake):

3) fourth record + period 2.1 outtakes compilation (deny everything / inrimoved):

4) fifth & sixth records (jjjjjjjjjjjjjjjjjjjjjjjjjjjj / jjjjjjjjjjjjjjjjjjjjjjjjjjjjjj^2):

5) completed instrumental ftaa lp (7th record) + lp of reconstructed aborted sample collage concept.

the eight record is itself a double, flat out.

the following unofficial records are also in 2xcd sets:

1) rabit is wolf electronic & acoustic demos (rabit is wolf / imaginary tour demo):

2) reclamation of old demo tapes over 2015 (inriclaimed / electronic pieces in a primitive style):

3) period 2 orchestral & chamber works:

i also have the following symphonic bundles:

1) symphony 1 + symphony 2 [instrumental segments of first & second records]:

2) symphony 3 + symphony 4 [conceptually linked around systems collapse]:

3) symphony 5 [piano concerto] + unttled [guitar concerto]:

4) ambient works vol 0-2 [includes symphony 6]

5) symphony 7 is a 4xcd set:

6) reflections (symphony 8) & refractions; refractions contains remixes of reflections.

then, i've got this collection i'm calling "tetris" and currently has six volumes:

the following releases are also just doubles or triples:

lastly, there's the official records bundle:
is asimov really an important influence on my compositions? is this really worthwhile?

well, i'm just trying to produce an honest reflection of my actual childhood. again - there's minimal artistic license in the journal writing. i have to deal with a somewhat blurry chronology for the first few years as i was pretty young and don't clearly remember a lot of things, and the thing about a journal is that it doesn't attempt to tell the story from the perspective of others, so it's strictly my viewpoint and doesn't care if others like it or not - which is an idiosyncrasy of myself, as it would be. so, in a real sense, it doesn't actually matter. it's real - and that's what matters.

but, i'm sorting through this as i build the linked list, and it's pretty clear that i'm frequently using allusions and references to scientific ideas and concepts, meaning my music is, in a sense, a sort of science fiction. the narratives are more in a politicized punk rock tradition than what is really a dirty progressive rock trope, this mixing of science fiction in music. i'll be the first to acknowledge that it doesn't generally work out well. but, i'm doing this in a very different way - i'm really never trying to put a concept record to music, so much as i'm often trying to reflect on the aesthetic qualities of this or that naturalistic phenomenon.

i'm not going to run through this here, but i am going to record a very clear yes as the answer to the question - asimov is a clear, noticeable influence on my art, even if i've never consciously created anything with him in mind.