but, i stand by the view that a credit check is essentially useless for low income people.

you could have spotless credit. if you're low income, and you get fired, you're fucked. you could default. you could get evicted for non-payment. and, it wouldn't have anything to do with your existing credit. it's just a function of being poor.

it works the other way, too: you could have terrible credit, because you were fired, and you were evicted. you could have defaulted. you might live on social assistance, or you might have just had a bad year. it doesn't mean you're not getting money in NOW.

a credit check is designed for middle income people making middle income investments. it's an abuse of the procedure to use it as a means test to allow or disallow low income people into housing - because it's as likely to be wrong in it's conclusions as it is to be correct.

...and i don't want to hang out with boring bourgeois assholes or pretentious hipster dipshits. at all.

if i actually had a government or office job, i'd be the one that never goes to staff parties and eats lunch at my desk. because, i really don't want to hang out with you.

if it comes down to it, i would rather be unemployed and stay in than be employed and not be able to go out because i have to work.

ok, here's another idea: parking.

there's some bigger apartment buildings running around 760-775. i'd be permanently defaulting on night-life to take that; i'd be falling from $200/month spending to under $100/month spending and, with the exchange, it would really leave me without the ability to go out very often. once a month. i could gamble on settling down a little anyways, but i'm not comfortable with defaulting on the option. and, rent isn't where i want the funds to disappear to.

but, if i get a dedicated parking space - which i will never use. i don't even have a license. - i could rent it out for what looks like more than $50/month. all of a sudden, that looks affordable. and, if i could just let the building deal with it maybe they'd cut the rent down by the difference...

on top of that, i can always *ask* about separating the hydro. then, the 775 potentially falls to 700. and, if i explain the scenario, i might get a reasonable reaction.

a big one bedroom apartment on the 6th or 7th floor with decent anti-smoke insulation (no balcony) would be a definite improvement. if it only costs me $30/month, after everything, that's a positive investment.

i can make some calls tomorrow.

i'm done for the night. i need to focus on the discography for a few hours.

but, what you're saying there - that attitude of yours, those beliefs, that perspective - is exactly why i've been speaking out against you.

1. atheist speaks out against the oppression of theist doctrines.
2. theists oppress atheist.
3. atheist says "see?".
4. theists oppress atheist.
5. goto 3. 

you don't even have to give me hemlock. it's as old as fucking time. 

it's not irony. it's not prophesy. it's just obvious. and, i'm aware that you really won't get it if you're stuck in the fucking cave of religious ignorance.

but, i can hardly stop saying "see?".

see?

i'm also going to have to see if i can try and contact some of these property owners directly and explain to them that this management layer isn't just wasting them money but is actually preventing them from bringing in reliable and quality tenants.

i've had problems here, but it's because the family that lives here are idiots. most property owners would side with the tenants that want to mitigate smoke damage and cat feces on their property, not the ones that want to maximize the damage to it. nothing makes sense, here.

the truth is that i've treated this place better than the family that owns it does - and i've only come into conflict when i've insisted that they treat it better than they do.

i made a few calls this morning, but nothing much came up over night. there's one option that's a little more than i want but might be better - it's up a few floors, and the smoke issues might be better. but, it was up on short notice and i'm supposed to call back on friday.

i'm going to get something to eat and then give myself a few more hours. but, i'm going to need to pay my rent this evening if nothing else comes up before 17:00 - and then i'm looking for december 1st.

i've also decided that i'm going to get the appeals process in motion once i pay the rent.

the core loops involved in clarity were initially created in the late summer of 2001, with the intent of being the opening sequence in a new inri project (with the long kicked-around working title of 'trinri'). while i had fairly firmly put the inri moniker down around my 19th birthday (late 1999), i was also coming out of a lengthy "serious music" phase and was getting a desire to write in a more structured, synth-pop type direction, as i had for years previously. this urge was happening about the same as i was being coerced into starting a rock band with some high school acquaintances.

around october, i started working on a separate noise project that was meant to splice harsh electronic noise with anarchist politics. this produced two tracks at the time, which are now available as a short single as inri032. at the time, it wasn't clear to me where those ideas would lead.

by november it was clear that the rock band wasn't happening, but it turned out the singer had tastes that correlated reasonably well with what i was thinking about creating for the trinri project. these two projects consequently merged into rabit is wolf, and the material i was kicking around for use in trinri ended up becoming the core of what rabit is wolf became.

as i was recording parts for clarity, i ended up reusing ideas from the noise project. i further reused those ideas in constructing a 2004 noise collage for inclusion on the record that finally came out of the noise project. both noise collages are present in order to comprehensively explore the ideas existing within clarity.

zen was recorded with sean over december, 2001. i have chosen not to complete a version of the wave (inri053) that was also being discussed at the time, but would have fit into this release well, conceptually.

clarity was completed (with vocals) over january, 2002. the nature of rabit (along with the songs i had written for it) took a sharp turn towards folk almost immediately. this collection is consequently quite different than the official rabit demo, which is much more song-oriented. over the years, i've always wanted to have a rabit release that was darker, noisier and more chaotic and am glad to have it in the form of this ep-single, which could be viewed as a secondary demo. put another way, this is the comprehensive representation of the second (electro/noise/industrial) incarnation of rabit is wolf.

however, there are two factors complicating clarity as a solely rabit is wolf production. the first is that sean was never really happy with the result - a shame as i consider his vocal performance and lyrics to be the best of the songs we did together. the second is that i always felt the track was "mine" and should have had an instrumental mix. that is, i've always regretted not saving an instrumental mix.

for these reasons, i've revisited the track as an instrumental and left two snapshots - 11/2001 and 01/2002. this second snapshot (which is to be considered a final mix) will also appear on my upcoming 6th record, dated to the end of 2002.

recorded in late 2001 and early 2002. track 6 was constructed in may, 2004 out of files recorded 1999-2001. tracks 1-4 were reconstructed over october, 2014. final mixes were finished on october 18, 2014. disc closed on oct 30, 2017. as always, please use headphones.

the 2014 instrumental version appears on my sixth record:
jasonparent.bandcamp.com/album/jjjjjjjjjjjjjjjjjjjjjjjjjjjjjjjjjjjjjjjjjjjjj-2

the 2002 vocal mix appears on the rabit is wolf demo:
jasonparent.bandcamp.com/album/rabit-is-wolf

this release also includes a printable jewel case insert and will also eventually include a comprehensive package of journal entries from all phases of production (2001, 2002, 2004, 2014, 2017). 

credits

released February 1, 2002

j - guitars (electric, acoustic, nylon), mandolin, sequencers, synthesizers, drum & melodic programming, electric air reed organ, digital piano, flute, drum kit, sampling, digital and analog effects processing, digital wave editing, sound design (loops, granular synthesis, noise generators), production

sean - vocals/lyrics (3,5), harmonica (4,5)