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it's very sad that we're finally getting some nice weather and there's really nothing to do outside because the government cancelled everything :(.

i have lots of work to do. i'll be fine.

but, it would be nice to go out and have a beer somewhere, and i can't.

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is there a connection between the rise of neo-liberalism (and the marketization and productification of everything) and a reality where undercover police officers legally smoke drugs in the house that they're supposed to be on a stakeout in, thereby pissing off the largely straight-edge yet supposedly dangerous radical that they're supposed to be spying on - and that knows they're being spied on because they can fucking smell the dirty, fucking pig smoking up?

i'm sorry if you don't see it, actually.

i did feel better this morning for having screamed, but i still had to sleep it off.

i'm going to finish that meal i started, take a hot shower and finish this up once and for all tonight.

let's hope the air stays clear for the night.

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i'm not joking - that yelling really took a lot out of me.

but, the air seems to have cleared out.

i really, really don't want to have to deal with this again, so let's hope this post doesn't jinx it. but, i'm feeling 1000x better than i have in ages, and i want to get back to this now.

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i yelled so loud, i strained my boob :\

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i've had an absolutely terrible night, full of yelling and screaming at the disgusting pig upstairs. i just kind of snapped. i guess the pot tripped my cortisol levels and pushed me into an anxiety attack.....

i simply don't want to be dealing with migraines all of the time, and i know that the second-hand smoke is what's causing them. on top of that, i was trying to do laundry. what could be more frustrating and disgusting than dealing with unwanted second-hand smoke in your own home, when you're doing laundry? the point of laundry is to get rid of the stink, after all.

she seems to have stopped, but who knows for how long.

so, i'm going to stop to eat, and get back to finishing up the journal afterwards, after that detour through the playlist, which is something i'd been wanting to do for a while but kept putting off.

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so, i took a slight detour over the last few days, in building a meta youtube list for the deathtokoalas blog:

that list will get updated whenever i add a new journal entry.