no.
i need recovery from the migraine.
hopefully, it's just a nap.
i'm
wasting days, but what can i do? this is medical. i had a headache for
hours. i do feel better, but i'm drained, and i need sleep.
Wednesday, October 25, 2017
you know, i'm not sure what i meant to say, there. i didn't think i was in aphasia, but that was some nonsense, alright.
i spent the morning cleaning. i had to stop to eat. still no response.
i want to get the temperature down in here and the air turned over so i can turn the heat on. it's not ideal, but it's the consequence of the air and the smoke - i either need the windows open or the heat on. i can't keep the windows closed with the heat off. not long term, anyways. it just gets awful in here. the windows will probably be open all night. and, it's going to be cold tonight. it's necessary.
i've got some typing done. i want to get a lot more done....
i spent the morning cleaning. i had to stop to eat. still no response.
i want to get the temperature down in here and the air turned over so i can turn the heat on. it's not ideal, but it's the consequence of the air and the smoke - i either need the windows open or the heat on. i can't keep the windows closed with the heat off. not long term, anyways. it just gets awful in here. the windows will probably be open all night. and, it's going to be cold tonight. it's necessary.
i've got some typing done. i want to get a lot more done....
aura hit on wednesday, this week.
thursday last week.
friday the previous week.
it doesn't seem as bad. or, at least, not yet. it's just blurry. flashing lights. it's a mushroom trip without the buzz, basically.
guess i need to stop for a bit. fuck. i'm going to go right for the aspirin, this time...
thursday last week.
friday the previous week.
it doesn't seem as bad. or, at least, not yet. it's just blurry. flashing lights. it's a mushroom trip without the buzz, basically.
guess i need to stop for a bit. fuck. i'm going to go right for the aspirin, this time...
yesterday was a wash.
i had to verbally close the string of discs i just finalized for the vlog, and it took me all morning. then, i spent the afternoon bitching with the landlord, who tried to create a situation out of nonsense and force an entry into the apartment due to an emergency based on an email from 2015.
their only defence is an inability to read. as half true as that may be, i do not believe that this is the important factor, in context. they were just trying to manufacture a conflict.
i was previously providing them with the benefit of the doubt. i had to, in a deficit of evidence. but, they've proven that they're ridiculously dishonest - as i've proven that i'm brutally honest. i no longer believe a word they say. and, they no longer deserve the benefit of the doubt. this is going to have a large effect on how i behave. and, they may be in for a set of surprises, as my previously overly reasonable behaviour becomes that much less flexible and that much more intent on enforcing literal interpretations of the law.
everybody gets a chance with me. they blew theirs. and, i'm not nice to people that cross me or demonstrate themselves as dishonest. it's the trait i dislike the most in people, and the one i have the least patience for. the liars of the world can fucking choke.
i should get something or other done this morning. but if i don't get an update on my case, i'm going to have to start looking at contingency options.
here's the thing: i will obey a court order, because i need to protect my stuff, and because there's not any point of being dragged out by the sheriff. but, i'm still thinking i have a good chance of winning the case. so, i'm not going to pay for storage or get out until i know.
i hope the judge gets a response out soon, whatever it is. obviously, i want to stay here, until they leave....
(and, they told me over email that they are in fact selling for $500,000, which is kind of a joke - i'm not qualified to appraise, but the place is no doubt worth half that. i lived in a $500,000 house for a while as a late teen in a much hotter market, and this isn't it. am i going to have to wait for them to cut the price? for how fucking long?)
....but if i must go, please tell me asap - and give me as much time as possible to deal wtih it.
i wouldn't drag it out, either. if i'm told i have to be out by jan 1st, i'll try and leave by dec 1st. i want as much time as i can get. but that doesn't mean i'm here until the last day.
anyways.
i'm going to get a smoothie and get back to what i was doing, which was prepping the wave of stuff over 2002. 2001 is completely finished. if i can get 54 done today, i think i'm doing well. i need to ship 56, 58, 60, 62 and three more in the late 60s or low 70s. so, i'm getting to the end of this, here, too.
if i get until jan 1st or dec 1st, i'll have to finish the order first. if it's earlier than that, i don't know what i'm doing. and, if i don't get a response at all in the next 48 hours, i'm going to have to start to panic.
i had to verbally close the string of discs i just finalized for the vlog, and it took me all morning. then, i spent the afternoon bitching with the landlord, who tried to create a situation out of nonsense and force an entry into the apartment due to an emergency based on an email from 2015.
their only defence is an inability to read. as half true as that may be, i do not believe that this is the important factor, in context. they were just trying to manufacture a conflict.
i was previously providing them with the benefit of the doubt. i had to, in a deficit of evidence. but, they've proven that they're ridiculously dishonest - as i've proven that i'm brutally honest. i no longer believe a word they say. and, they no longer deserve the benefit of the doubt. this is going to have a large effect on how i behave. and, they may be in for a set of surprises, as my previously overly reasonable behaviour becomes that much less flexible and that much more intent on enforcing literal interpretations of the law.
everybody gets a chance with me. they blew theirs. and, i'm not nice to people that cross me or demonstrate themselves as dishonest. it's the trait i dislike the most in people, and the one i have the least patience for. the liars of the world can fucking choke.
i should get something or other done this morning. but if i don't get an update on my case, i'm going to have to start looking at contingency options.
here's the thing: i will obey a court order, because i need to protect my stuff, and because there's not any point of being dragged out by the sheriff. but, i'm still thinking i have a good chance of winning the case. so, i'm not going to pay for storage or get out until i know.
i hope the judge gets a response out soon, whatever it is. obviously, i want to stay here, until they leave....
(and, they told me over email that they are in fact selling for $500,000, which is kind of a joke - i'm not qualified to appraise, but the place is no doubt worth half that. i lived in a $500,000 house for a while as a late teen in a much hotter market, and this isn't it. am i going to have to wait for them to cut the price? for how fucking long?)
....but if i must go, please tell me asap - and give me as much time as possible to deal wtih it.
i wouldn't drag it out, either. if i'm told i have to be out by jan 1st, i'll try and leave by dec 1st. i want as much time as i can get. but that doesn't mean i'm here until the last day.
anyways.
i'm going to get a smoothie and get back to what i was doing, which was prepping the wave of stuff over 2002. 2001 is completely finished. if i can get 54 done today, i think i'm doing well. i need to ship 56, 58, 60, 62 and three more in the late 60s or low 70s. so, i'm getting to the end of this, here, too.
if i get until jan 1st or dec 1st, i'll have to finish the order first. if it's earlier than that, i don't know what i'm doing. and, if i don't get a response at all in the next 48 hours, i'm going to have to start to panic.
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