05-01-2016: quitting smoking (false start)

tracks worked on in this vlog:
https://jasonparent.bandcamp.com/album/schizoid-terrorist-2
https://jasonparent.bandcamp.com/album/i-did-your-mom-2
https://jasonparent.bandcamp.com/album/on-sexual-confusion-in-adolescence-2

so, this is a surreal moment, and i thought it would never come, but it is finally here: i am resequencing my first record.

it is true that there are tracks i cannot reconstruct, but i don't really need to reconstruct any of them because they're instrumentals, anyways. so, i can create a reasonable replacement for this.

i bluntly didn't think this was possible. if i thought it was possible, i would have done it in the first place. much more of it become reconstructible than i thought, because i dumped most of the electronics to tape after all.

now that it is clear that this is possible, i can't not do it. i was able to salvage some of these a few years ago by equalizing the cd rips, but some of them were really beyond saving and absolutely had to be recreated. yet, i decided it was impossible and accepted what i had - mixes that i had ruined.

if i can fix it, all of that logic collapses and i have to actually do it. some of what exists right now just sounds awful on every level, but what do you do if you can't fix it? suppress it or release it? i thought it was better to release it. but, i don't have to make that choice anymore.

i should be able to fix the second record, too.

this is a huge update to my discography. it converts what were two semi-official recordings into two full-blown official releases. this is a happy occasion.

i'm going to be creative regarding how i mix the segues. i need some continuity, so i have to remaster them. but, i'm not holding to any specific historical truth.

so, these are the changes that are coming.

1) inri000-inri003 [96-97 demos] remain the same.
2) a sequence of singles (skaters, confused, hey god, schizoid terrorist, i did your mom, nope) is inserted that has various versions of each of these tracks. the singles will be the only sources of vocal versions for these tracks.
3) my first record, inri, is being completely resequenced. tracks will align with their final versions, which will be dramatic at points - such as the added sequencing for confused, or the full remix of the intersection. this will be entirely instrumental. the existing version will only be available on the aleph-0 disc.
4) there will be another sequence of singles over late 98 (eat my fuck, idiotic, suicide suite, boogeyman). this will again be the only source for vocal versions.
5) inriched will be resequenced and vocal versions will only be available on aleph-0. except "too cold", which i have no tapes for.
6) inrijected will likely see the vocal version of permission replaced, with the vocal version available only on the aleph disc.
7) inrimixed will likely fall back to it's previous incarnation, with the rest of it scattered across the discography - much of it on the actual records. the added section will be dropped as superfluous.
8) inriclaimed will specifically be a "straight from tape" project. or it may even be deleted!

the discography flips over after that.

so, if you want these existing mixes and don't want to pay $100 for an aleph-disc, get them in the next few days or hours because i'm happy to switch them out and will not put them back.

false completion on i did your mom (inri009)

if i was going to put up a slew of singles, i couldn't avoid this track. it is dated to mar 20, 1998 and is the new inri008. the format is the same as skaters: moving forwards from earliest to latest, and even has the exact same sequence.

half of me would like this track to take off in a new direction, while the other half wants it to die immediately. the blunt truth is that it "sounds done" to me; i don't hear anything i would like to add, despite it being a little sparse at points. it's ok to be sparse, sometimes.

so, it's done, and without any theatrics. that question has been resolved with an answer; the track is closed.

https://jasonparent.bandcamp.com/album/i-did-your-mom-2

publishing schizoid terrorist (inri014)

it looks like all of the singles are going to be a little different. this is the new inri007.

i'm also seriously considering rebuilding and replacing the two official records.

this is a double ep single; i've done this before. the idea is to separate newer mixes onto one ep, and older mixes onto the other. it's mostly a separation tactic.

the first ep is all 2015 mixes, whereas the second is a lineal movement from 1996 through to 1998.

i've also taken note of the fact that schizoid and terrorists were always tied together, and have merged them into a single track.

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this single was created by running tracks 8, 9 and 10 on the cd together; it was never meant to be a unified track. 8 and 10 are proper tracks, whereas 9 is an experimental segue directly into 10. the process of compiling singles kind of accidentally led to this construction as a very natural combination and i'm now very content with it as the permanent home for both of these pieces.

these songs were both always musically driven, with kind of throwaway vocals that i don't really have any meaningful analysis for. neither of these tracks was ever conceptual or confessional or ever meant much to me on a personal level, so they don't have the kind of stories or explanations that the other tracks that were important to me do. i have not remixed the vocals into either of these songs; all of the tracks on the physical release are entirely instrumental. why bother releasing a single, then?

the reason is that i ended up with a number of mixes for both of them and just needed a place to house them. of course, that's not actually any kind of an interesting concept to build a single around. it was precisely because there was no retained concept underlying either of these tracks that the singles seemed pointless. but, once they were connected via the segue, the purpose of a single became readily apparent in that connection, itself.

the decision was sealed by a curious synchronicity in time. they were both originally written for the 1996 cassette demo, and separated there by a guitar/bass cover of "mellon collie and the infinite sadness". the entanglement is probably not entirely coincidental; i have a vague recollection of checking the tape to ensure i didn't forget any songs, and i may very well have repeated recording them in succession for that reason. however that happened to be, the synchronicity is a big part of what allowed me to create this ep the way that i've created it as it allowed me to label demo versions of the track with the same title.

while neither of these tracks have meaningful vocals, they are both important in my musical development. schizoid features my first multi-part string accompaniment and terrorists is a serious step forward in harmonic complexity. even the segue (titled "abusive") is something different: it's my first run at a 909 emulator, and a step out to lunch in abstract sound design.

so, as the last piece completed for my first record, this is somewhat of a portal to transit through, in terms of the developing complexity in my compositional abilities. but, it does not and never did have any worthwhile conceptual meaning to me. as such, there is no story to tell.

initially written in 1996. recreated mostly in feb, 1998 (schizoid, terrorists) but also partly in june, 1998 (abusive). sequenced in this form in june, 1998. a failed rescue was attempted in 2013. "terrorists" was reclaimed june 28-29, 2015 & remixed july 15, 2015. the main mix was corrected on nov 19, 2015. "schizoid" was reclaimed on july 12, 2015 & reprogrammed on dec 31, 2015. the main mix was corrected on jan 3, 2016 and remixed repeatedly jan 3-5, 2016. the lead track was sequenced on jan 5, 2016. released on jan 5, 2016. as always, please use headphones.

credits:
j - guitars, effects, bass, vocals, synths, drum kit, drum programming, sequencing, soundraider, hammerhead, cool edit synthesis, tapes, noises, found sounds, sound design, sampling, digital wave editing, production.

the rendered electronic orchestra includes organ, sitar, bells, violin, viola, cello, contrabass and synthesizer effects.

released june 16, 1998

https://jasonparent.bandcamp.com/album/schizoid-terrorist-2


1) single mix. initially written in 1996. recreated in feb, 1998 (terrorists, schizoid) and sequenced (with abusive) in jun, 1998. sequenced in this form in june, 1998. a failed rescue was attempted in 2013. reclaimed & remixed over the summer of 2015. corrected to control for malfunctioning electronics on nov 19, 2015 (terrorists) and jan 3, 2016 (schizoid). reprogammed on dec 31, 2015 (schizoid). sequenced jan 5, 2016.
https://jasonparent.bandcamp.com/track/schizoid-terrorist


2) from inricycled. initially written and recorded in 1996. remastered & recycled in 2013. dec 11, 2013.
https://jasonparent.bandcamp.com/track/alien-ship-caught-on-radar-causing-havoc-second-encounter


3) version reconstructed in 2015 from tape. initially written in 1996. recreated in feb, 1998. reclaimed july 12, 2015. corrected to control for malfunctioning electronics on jan 3, 2016.
https://jasonparent.bandcamp.com/track/schizoid-2015-reconstruction-from-1998-source-tapes


4) version reconstructed in 2015 from tape. initially written in 1996. recreated in feb, 1998. reclaimed june 29, 2015. corrected to control for malfunctioning electronics on aug 11, 2015. corrected again on nov 19, 2015.
https://jasonparent.bandcamp.com/track/terrorists-2015-reconstruction-from-1998-source-tapes


5) updated electronic orchestra added to version reconstructed in 2015 from tape. initially written in 1996. recreated in feb, 1998. reclaimed july 12, 2015. reprogrammed and reconstructed on dec 31, 2015. corrected to control for malfunctioning electronics and remixed as alternate on jan 3, 2016.
https://jasonparent.bandcamp.com/track/schizoid-total-2


6) bass blur removed from version reconstructed in 2015 from tape. initially written in 1996. recreated in feb, 1998. reclaimed july 12, 2015. corrected to control for malfunctioning electronics and remixed as alternate on jan 3, 2016.
https://jasonparent.bandcamp.com/track/schizoid-clean


7) bass blur removed from total mix. initially written in 1996. recreated in feb, 1998. reclaimed july 12, 2015. reprogrammed and reconstructed on dec 31, 2015. corrected to control for malfunctioning electronics on jan 3, 2016. remixed as alternate on jan 5, 2016.
https://jasonparent.bandcamp.com/track/schizoid-totally-clean


8) this is an edit of the electronics only mix that fades the track in and out. originally written in 1996. recorded in feb, 1998. reclaimed june 28, 2015. remixed july 15, 2015.
https://jasonparent.bandcamp.com/track/terrorists-electronics-only-mix-cut


9) electronics only mix. initially written in 1996. recreated in feb, 1998. reclaimed july 12, 2015. reprogrammed and reconstructed on dec 31, 2015.
https://jasonparent.bandcamp.com/track/schizoid-electronics-only-mix


10) not from inricycled. rather, this is the unmodified (not remastered) ending section of the deleted original 1996 recording of terrorists. initially written and recorded in 1996. isolated in early 2016. jan 5, 2016.
https://jasonparent.bandcamp.com/track/alien-ship-caught-on-radar-causing-havoc-initial-approach


11) from the deleted inricycled B compilation. initially written in 1996. recreated in feb, 1998. remastered in late 2013. recycled jan 7, 2014.
https://jasonparent.bandcamp.com/track/evil-jazz-decepticons-trash-a-bowie-srv-show-circa-1985-hidden


12) deleted original 1996 opening sequence of side B of the demo tape. initially written in 1996. the middle section is a combination hendrix/pumpkins cover.
https://jasonparent.bandcamp.com/track/schizoid-terrorist-original-1996-demo-mix-2

13) deleted sequence of tracks 8-10 on the original 1998 cd. initially written in 1996. recreated mostly in feb, 1998 (schizoid, terrorists) but also partly in june, 1998 (abusive). sequenced in this form in june, 1998.
https://jasonparent.bandcamp.com/track/schizoid-terrorist-original-1998-cd-mix-2

14) 2013 remaster of the original 1996 opening sequence of side B of the demo tape. initially written and recorded in 1996. the middle section is a combination hendrix/pumpkins cover. remastered in 2013.
https://jasonparent.bandcamp.com/track/schizoid-terrorist-2013-remaster-of-1996-demo-mix-2

15) deleted 2013 remaster of the sequence of tracks 8-10 on the original 1998 cd. initially written in 1996. recreated mostly in feb, 1998 (schizoid, terrorists) but also partly in june, 1998 (abusive). sequenced in this form in june, 1998. a failed rescue was attempted in 2013.
https://jasonparent.bandcamp.com/track/schizoid-terrorist-2013-remaster-of-1998-cd-mix-2

16) full electronics only mix. originally written in 1996. recreated in feb, 1998. reclaimed june 28, 2015.
https://jasonparent.bandcamp.com/track/terrorists-full-electronics-only-mix-2