i'm kind of back in the mindset i was in over 2014 & 2015.
what's the use in quitting smoking if you're planning on killing yourself?
but, then i got my disability renewed...
now, i'm not sure that's going to happen, so i'm back to planning for suicide.
don't think i'm going to pick it back up. but, i'm falling into apathy
around it. so, maybe it's making me sick and ruining my quality of life?
i'm going to fucking die anyways, right?