Saturday, December 25, 2021

i'm just retracing my steps, it seems.

does it really keep changing or do i keep finding points to edit? every time i check my notes, it suggests that i'm editing and re-editing, and it's not changing, but it's not sitting well with me.

i gotta fix it. this is a shitty use of my time, but whatever.

it's now updated here, and i have to be clear: the reviews posted here are not final until they're updated to this pdf document and, even so, i might change them.

i have some ideas regarding what's going on. i wonder if somebody else wants to pretend they're me, which is just utterly pathetic, but i think it's happening, nonetheless. i wonder if the book publisher wants to edit the material, and i have to interject - this is not a wikipedia article. you have no grounds to edit a review, that's ridiculous. this is my intellectual property, not yours. and, i wonder even if whoever is spying on me isn't obsessed enough with their conspiracy theories that they think they're countering propaganda.

i'm writing a fucking book, you inbred retards. and, almost nobody is going to read it. ugh.

it's a very frustrating feeling to be convinced that your writing keeps changing, and not be able to prove it. it's disorienting. but, it's also incredibly upsetting.

it's for that reason that i have to just keep plugging at it, because i have to make the same decision, in the case of either possibility. if i just keep missing edits, i have to fix it because it needs editing, clearly; if the writing keeps getting edited by somebody else, i feel a moral responsibility to push against it as hard as i can. 

but, i get the impression that this could go on for a while.

this is a recent update, with many minor punctuation changes (punctuation i don't use keeps appearing), some replaced words (words i never use keep appearing) and a re-ordering of the two pre-foundation pieces, as the context is clearer if i place the imaginary before the hazing (even though the order of publication is reversed).