it's 5:30.

i'm still awake.

when i turned the machine back on, i realized that the internet was randomly unplugged. that's quite bizarre. i was only gone for about an hour. if i get set up for something over usage while i was out mailing the review, it's documented over my camera.

the review got mailed. these things are low probability. but i think it's a necessity to try it. if i'm lucky, i'll trigger something.

stalling is a valid tactic, right now.

i spent the afternoon doing laundry and cleaning, and will have a smoothie and take a shower before i try to sleep.

so, what am i doing?

the review process has to unfold before i consider an appeal. but, this has to revolve around the market.

if i find something comparable, or maybe better (third floor would be better - no cats at the window), i would have to move at it. the thing is that i think that this is unlikely to the point of fanciful - i'm probably going to have to wait for months and months before something comes up on the market that i can accept as lateral. and, then what?

my options are very restricted by my gear and my income. it's a contradiction: i need a place big enough and safe enough for my gear as the absolute number one priority, but i also need it under $700. and, i can't and don't want to go to fucking work.

i moved 700 km to take this place. it was very hard to find. i didn't intend to move out less than five years later. and, it could take me a really long time to find a suitable replacement.

if i don't or can't find a suitable replacement, i'm going to have to go to the court of appeal as a stalling tactic. i have until around the 20th. i can't and won't move thousands of dollars of gear into a place it will be stolen, and i can't afford more than $700/month.

the likely reality is that i'm almost certainly stuck here. and. i'm not concerned about what the people around me think about it.

but, i have to look....

in the mean time, i have to find a way to multitask, too. maybe if i do one release a day, it'll keep me moving.