i ended up burning out three times in a row at the end of the head clear. it's what happens when you go for more when you haven't truly slept it off yet - you just fall back asleep again. i was stuck in that ambiguous area where it just wasn't clear if i should get up or fall asleep, but i wanted to push myself to carry out the the binge. i'm still not sure if i should get up or not, but i'm hungry enough that i'm going to try.

i'm not going to push myself, now. it's gone. i'm going to catch up on my sleep. that's the whole point.

now, i must eat. but i may sleep most of the weekend, to catch-up.

the last week seems productive in contrast to the several previously, but the truth is that i could have worked more quickly if i was less baked. that's ok. the point of the last week was not efficiency, but establishment of clarity. once i wake up, i'll be more productive than i would have been otherwise.