i am so remarkably discouraged right now. literally nothing sounds right, and i don't have the slightest understanding as to why.

i have five years, now.

i'm considering putting it down for a few weeks and focusing on some reading, instead. the closest i can get to a decent sound is through bandcamp, which is a streaming mp3 at 128kbps. everything else through every other combination is completely wrong.

i dunno. like, if somebody wants me to give up on this, they might be disappointed at what i do instead. it's not going to be more productive. it's going to be writing essays of eighteenth and nineteenth century literature and posting them to a website nobody reads.