so, there's two ways to finish a mix.

the first is to fuck with it until you get it right. the second is to fuck with it until you numb yourself to it, and what you've been listening to starts to sound right. the second approach is not inferior, as it reflects the way you've changed your idea of what it should sound like as you've brought it into reality.

this wasn't supposed to take this long; i didn't spend a lot of time setting the guitar modelling in the first place, i just got lost in it because something changed without me controlling it. so, i got lost in finding a "lost ideal". i need to acknowledge that and just move forwards with it.