wish i had looked into these grants a few weeks ago....i'd never claim i'm an organized person....

there's one that's open. everything else is closed.

until may probably.

had i done this in september, i'd have more options.

the one that's open is for "popular music". that's a complicated, multifaceted and bluntly intimidating term.

i guess in the sense that it's "not classical" you could sort of call what i do "popular music".

except that a lot of it sort of actually really is better described as classical music.

again, it's the kind of thing i have to think comes down to the person making the decision. if i'm trying to get past of panel of american idol judges or something.....it's not what i do. i have no commercial potential. but, if they're a little more open-minded...

i lose nothing but time trying.

time is important, mind you.

it's the only truly quantifiable thing in our existence.

the only abstraction with any meaning.

time is not money. time makes money seem useless and worthless in comparison.

but i think this is worth it.