i have more subscribers in the last ten hours than i have views on the video i just uploaded.

youtube, you're fired.

no, seriously. whoever's pushing this model needs the boot. i've been through this. it doesn't require much thought to deconstruct it as nonsensical, and all i'm getting is empirical confirmation of that very basic analysis.

and, i know - i'm the product, right? it's how they sell it to advertisers, and they just expect everybody to conform to the system they're selling. but it defies reason, and the advertisers are going to figure this out, eventually.

that's the business world, right: fools selling nonsense to fools, who buy the nonsense because they're fools.

i should really just relax and enjoy my artist subsidy and not concern myself with it.

there is an upside to the subscriber count, i'll admit - the more subscribers you have, the higher your posts rank in the comment section. i have some ethical opposition to this, but so long as it's there, i can't complain about it. so, yeah, maybe i have 215 subscribers and apparently something like 20 of them are actually interested and it's annoying. but, they're helping me reach a larger potential audience and i should be grateful for that.

"subscribers! what's up with these weirdos? they say they want to get your videos in their feed, then they don't watch them. what's with that?"