yeah, the remasters have to stand as they are. and they do generally sound punchier, and have better separation on the instruments. further, the higher mix is absolutely closer to the source.
there's a few tracks that do have one aspect or another in the originals that i like better, but dumping them in will pose continuity problems - because the tracks run into each other. it's kind of like the whole thing has to be done one way or another...
i know i'm going to revisit this again. as i stated before: it's probably impossible to get it perfect. but i'll wait until i do the reconstructions before i touch it further.
i'm going to end up trying to rebuild both of these from scratch. i fully realize that. but that's not a quick project, and i can't be doing it right now.
so, back to inri041...this shouldn't take too long to get up, maybe by the end of the night, even.
when i do the reconstructions, i'm going to be focusing on a handful of song suites rather than individual tracks. both the discs are split into 19 tracks. but i'll be interpreting it in runs of 5 or 6. so, it will be easy enough to sort of dump a mix out that i can shape back into an uplifted version of the source. but whether this is feasible or not is going to depend on how much i can phase shift out. i'm using different sound cards to take it in, they've been compressed...i keep saying i can't do this, but i sort of don't want to believe it, even though i know it's true. bah. out of mind. forwards!
Thursday, December 11, 2014
....and my headphone braces just finally snapped back apart. it's been a little unstable since i fixed it with epoxy, it was a matter of time. this isn't something that affects the sound. and they'll stay in place when i put them on my head, they just fall apart immediately afterwards.
i'll try and stick it back in place before i go to sleep tonight. presuming i can get enough goop out of the tube and don't need to buy more...
i don't think i can find the right kind of braces anywhere. these headphones are almost as old as i am.
actually, i think they're standard sized. i'm probably better off getting new braces. although...actually...
yeah. i just took the braces from the other pair that i lost a few years ago and can't fix due to them being soldered on. it's a little snug, but it'll do until i get a new set of braces.
so, non-issue.
i'll try and stick it back in place before i go to sleep tonight. presuming i can get enough goop out of the tube and don't need to buy more...
i don't think i can find the right kind of braces anywhere. these headphones are almost as old as i am.
actually, i think they're standard sized. i'm probably better off getting new braces. although...actually...
yeah. i just took the braces from the other pair that i lost a few years ago and can't fix due to them being soldered on. it's a little snug, but it'll do until i get a new set of braces.
so, non-issue.
so, my initial logic with this stands...
i only had four tracks at the time to work with, so i generally bounced all the electronic things to a single track - drum machines, sequenced sound card playback, live synths, digital noise. i then put all the guitars on one track, the bass on the third and the vocals on the fourth.
the isolated "digital track" is often interesting it's own kind of way, some of it sounds like early autechre, but it creates something anachronistic if i'm trying to create an ep of stuff from late '97, because a lot of the stuff didn't come in until 1998.
in order to rebuild this little ep, i'd need to redo the drums and sequencers completely. and there's nothing stopping me from doing that. except that there's really only one song that i think it's worthwhile to do it for.
i'm going to wait until i completely reinterpret each of the songs, and then put a series of singles up.
so, there's no lost release. and i'm probably not going to touch the remasters, although i am going to spend the evening listening.
the digitization was useful, but i don't think this little lost ep is worth fucking the discography up over.
i only had four tracks at the time to work with, so i generally bounced all the electronic things to a single track - drum machines, sequenced sound card playback, live synths, digital noise. i then put all the guitars on one track, the bass on the third and the vocals on the fourth.
the isolated "digital track" is often interesting it's own kind of way, some of it sounds like early autechre, but it creates something anachronistic if i'm trying to create an ep of stuff from late '97, because a lot of the stuff didn't come in until 1998.
in order to rebuild this little ep, i'd need to redo the drums and sequencers completely. and there's nothing stopping me from doing that. except that there's really only one song that i think it's worthwhile to do it for.
i'm going to wait until i completely reinterpret each of the songs, and then put a series of singles up.
so, there's no lost release. and i'm probably not going to touch the remasters, although i am going to spend the evening listening.
the digitization was useful, but i don't think this little lost ep is worth fucking the discography up over.
well, i'm not particularly convinced that collusion is not taking place, but i got the refill....
when i got there, he told me it wasn't in yet. so i yelled and screamed for a few minutes, providing the ultimatum to provide me a refund or get on the phone and call around to get it in right away. the owner just coincidentally happened to be in the back, and she took care of it - the refill was there in about twenty minutes. that's how you have to deal with shit like that...
the excuse they gave me was they thought they gave me seven days (but i take them twice daily, so they gave me 3.5). it's a bad excuse, either way, because they told me it would be in by monday....
so, i dunno. all the information to conclude incompetence is there, but it's not really sitting right with me. for the immediate moment, it's sort of irrelevant.
when i got there, he told me it wasn't in yet. so i yelled and screamed for a few minutes, providing the ultimatum to provide me a refund or get on the phone and call around to get it in right away. the owner just coincidentally happened to be in the back, and she took care of it - the refill was there in about twenty minutes. that's how you have to deal with shit like that...
the excuse they gave me was they thought they gave me seven days (but i take them twice daily, so they gave me 3.5). it's a bad excuse, either way, because they told me it would be in by monday....
so, i dunno. all the information to conclude incompetence is there, but it's not really sitting right with me. for the immediate moment, it's sort of irrelevant.
Wednesday, December 10, 2014
i'm going to drive myself nuts with this unless i just accept it's all fucked and move on. all i can do is kick myself in the ass.
it's the same basic problem with the drum parts. i have them dumped to chrome tape or i have them in 128 kbps mp3. the tape versions are missing depth and definition, as you'd expect. the mp3 versions are a little sharper, but distort at the edges of the spectrum, as you'd expect. i sold the ry30 about 2003 to go backpacking in bc, which is probably the single dumbest thing i've ever done.
i could maybe mix them together, but i'm going to get funny phasing issues.
...and i might when i do the reconstructions....
...but for now i need to just get what i can off the tapes and move on. i'm the only person in the world that knows that drum snare is supposed to have 33% more reverb on the right channel.
it's the same basic problem with the drum parts. i have them dumped to chrome tape or i have them in 128 kbps mp3. the tape versions are missing depth and definition, as you'd expect. the mp3 versions are a little sharper, but distort at the edges of the spectrum, as you'd expect. i sold the ry30 about 2003 to go backpacking in bc, which is probably the single dumbest thing i've ever done.
i could maybe mix them together, but i'm going to get funny phasing issues.
...and i might when i do the reconstructions....
...but for now i need to just get what i can off the tapes and move on. i'm the only person in the world that knows that drum snare is supposed to have 33% more reverb on the right channel.
i'm starting to think there's a conspiracy amongst the medical establishment in this town.
i went on saturday to fill my last refill on the emergency estrace prescription. they had 7 pills they could give me, and told me to come back on monday. i gave them a few extra days to make sure it was in. they didn't order it at all and told me to come back tomorrow...
i have a high expectation for incompetence in general, and am more than willing to assign it to the pharmacy at shopper's drug mart. but, there's a general pattern, here. did i upset somebody by going out of town for a rx? awww.
now, i have a new prescription and i haven't brought it in yet. if it's not there tomorrow, i'm going to have to take that prescription to a different pharmacy.
but i'm left wondering about collusion occurring. it's a small town....
then again, i know i get schizophrenic under stress. which is why i need to avoid stress. you dumb system, you.
we'll find out tomorrow...
i mean, they owe me 53 pills. i paid for them. i need to get them, eventually. but i need the refill by friday morning, too.
again: i think i might be dealing with a religious issue, which is the same problem i had with the local clinic. the main guy back there refuses to refer to me as jessica...
it seems to be a specifically muslim thing. i mean, i don't think one religion is more intolerant than the other with this. but it seems to be that some muslims in the community are having a hard time reconciling their religious value system with our dominant secular value system, and may be a little confused about what our law prioritizes when there's a conflict in place.
i don't have a lot of opposition to diversity. i don't think increasing immigration in a contracting economy is smart, but that has nothing to do with where people are coming from, it just has to do with the gross number of people in. given that we have little reason to think we can expect anything other than near zero to negative growth for the foreseeable future, i think restricting our immigration policy, overall, would be the preferable economic choice at this point in time. but that's an economic calculation, rather than a perspective on diversity.
however, i don't like this idea of religious people enforcing their value systems - regardless of the religion they're enforcing. and, i feel that may be a developing problem.
it's something that needs to be dealt with by the courts, who need to strongly enforce access to health care as a priority over religious objections to providing it. that law needs to be laid down, with extreme force.
i'd argue that it should be an offense that should necessitate a loss of license.
but we'll see what happens tomorrow.
i see that this is actually a current issue...
http://rabble.ca/columnists/2014/08/doctors-do-not-have-right-to-discriminate-and-deny-basic-health-care
ok. it turns out that this is under review, and a set of stricter guidelines is likely to come into force in 2015.
so, that's good news. i'd expect some court cases out of it...
the court isn't going to think in terms of balancing one right against another - it's repeatedly rejected that kind of thinking. but there is a contradiction.
the way i see it is that people make a choice to be a doctor, and in doing so they waive their right to religious objections. doctors work in the service industry. they're required to provide the services they're requested. and if they can't carry out those requests, they should find a different job that doesn't conflict with their religious views.
what that means is that i think being licensed to practice medicine in canada should be attached to upholding a secular value system. you'd have to rephrase that in terms of upholding science to make it legal, but it's the essential idea.
another way you could look at it is that, in canada, doctors are quasi-employees of the government. they're not technically. they run private businesses and cash in insurance hours. but it's being paid for by tax money.
as such, they really *ought* to be under the same legal purview as any other government body (and i don't know if they legally are). but, if they are, as they should be, the argument turns around the other way: conscientious objection becomes something that infringes on the patient's freedom of religion. which is kind of what i'm *feeling* about it...
when a doctor refuses treatment based on a religious view, they're enforcing their views on the patient as much as they're upholding their own. which is really what the actual problem is and really what needs to be addressed.
i mean, consider the issue applied to any other government service. could you imagine welfare refusing to hand out checks to single mothers because it feels their behaviour is sinful? city hall refusing to hand out drivers licenses to women because it believes women should stay at home? that's not the analogy people want to use because we have all these wonky class ideas. but, in canada, it's closer to the right one - whether it conforms to the legal technicality or not.
i went on saturday to fill my last refill on the emergency estrace prescription. they had 7 pills they could give me, and told me to come back on monday. i gave them a few extra days to make sure it was in. they didn't order it at all and told me to come back tomorrow...
i have a high expectation for incompetence in general, and am more than willing to assign it to the pharmacy at shopper's drug mart. but, there's a general pattern, here. did i upset somebody by going out of town for a rx? awww.
now, i have a new prescription and i haven't brought it in yet. if it's not there tomorrow, i'm going to have to take that prescription to a different pharmacy.
but i'm left wondering about collusion occurring. it's a small town....
then again, i know i get schizophrenic under stress. which is why i need to avoid stress. you dumb system, you.
we'll find out tomorrow...
i mean, they owe me 53 pills. i paid for them. i need to get them, eventually. but i need the refill by friday morning, too.
again: i think i might be dealing with a religious issue, which is the same problem i had with the local clinic. the main guy back there refuses to refer to me as jessica...
it seems to be a specifically muslim thing. i mean, i don't think one religion is more intolerant than the other with this. but it seems to be that some muslims in the community are having a hard time reconciling their religious value system with our dominant secular value system, and may be a little confused about what our law prioritizes when there's a conflict in place.
i don't have a lot of opposition to diversity. i don't think increasing immigration in a contracting economy is smart, but that has nothing to do with where people are coming from, it just has to do with the gross number of people in. given that we have little reason to think we can expect anything other than near zero to negative growth for the foreseeable future, i think restricting our immigration policy, overall, would be the preferable economic choice at this point in time. but that's an economic calculation, rather than a perspective on diversity.
however, i don't like this idea of religious people enforcing their value systems - regardless of the religion they're enforcing. and, i feel that may be a developing problem.
it's something that needs to be dealt with by the courts, who need to strongly enforce access to health care as a priority over religious objections to providing it. that law needs to be laid down, with extreme force.
i'd argue that it should be an offense that should necessitate a loss of license.
but we'll see what happens tomorrow.
i see that this is actually a current issue...
http://rabble.ca/columnists/2014/08/doctors-do-not-have-right-to-discriminate-and-deny-basic-health-care
ok. it turns out that this is under review, and a set of stricter guidelines is likely to come into force in 2015.
so, that's good news. i'd expect some court cases out of it...
the court isn't going to think in terms of balancing one right against another - it's repeatedly rejected that kind of thinking. but there is a contradiction.
the way i see it is that people make a choice to be a doctor, and in doing so they waive their right to religious objections. doctors work in the service industry. they're required to provide the services they're requested. and if they can't carry out those requests, they should find a different job that doesn't conflict with their religious views.
what that means is that i think being licensed to practice medicine in canada should be attached to upholding a secular value system. you'd have to rephrase that in terms of upholding science to make it legal, but it's the essential idea.
another way you could look at it is that, in canada, doctors are quasi-employees of the government. they're not technically. they run private businesses and cash in insurance hours. but it's being paid for by tax money.
as such, they really *ought* to be under the same legal purview as any other government body (and i don't know if they legally are). but, if they are, as they should be, the argument turns around the other way: conscientious objection becomes something that infringes on the patient's freedom of religion. which is kind of what i'm *feeling* about it...
when a doctor refuses treatment based on a religious view, they're enforcing their views on the patient as much as they're upholding their own. which is really what the actual problem is and really what needs to be addressed.
i mean, consider the issue applied to any other government service. could you imagine welfare refusing to hand out checks to single mothers because it feels their behaviour is sinful? city hall refusing to hand out drivers licenses to women because it believes women should stay at home? that's not the analogy people want to use because we have all these wonky class ideas. but, in canada, it's closer to the right one - whether it conforms to the legal technicality or not.
it was too cold to stand at a pay phone for an hour this morning....
and will be tomorrow, too. and probably also friday. it'll be nice on monday.
i still have over a month. and once i set this in motion there's not going to be any option but to work it out quickly. i mean, i'm not going to wait between attempts. i'm going to go back to camh and do it again the immediate moment i'm released, and i'm going to do it until they fill out the forms. they can't let that happen more than a few times...
i don't have any problems ruining everybody else's christmas, either. i mean, if you're still celebrating the birth of fictional characters, who can be bothered with your opinion? burn the tree already. yeesh.
bonus: if we were to collectively stop celebrating christmas, our entire economic system would collapse.
it's the wind rather than the temperature. it's actually been pleasant, temperature wise, all fall. it's hovering around 0 this week, which is fine. but the winds are coming in from the north at gale gusts and dropping the temperature to around -10. it's not fun to stand in...
it'll be nice when this pattern shifts.
i'm thinking the longer i leave it, the more likely i am to get an extension, as well. because they can tell me i still have a month. if i get an extension, it pushes the whole process forwards in time...that's what i really want...as far as i can push it...
and will be tomorrow, too. and probably also friday. it'll be nice on monday.
i still have over a month. and once i set this in motion there's not going to be any option but to work it out quickly. i mean, i'm not going to wait between attempts. i'm going to go back to camh and do it again the immediate moment i'm released, and i'm going to do it until they fill out the forms. they can't let that happen more than a few times...
i don't have any problems ruining everybody else's christmas, either. i mean, if you're still celebrating the birth of fictional characters, who can be bothered with your opinion? burn the tree already. yeesh.
bonus: if we were to collectively stop celebrating christmas, our entire economic system would collapse.
it's the wind rather than the temperature. it's actually been pleasant, temperature wise, all fall. it's hovering around 0 this week, which is fine. but the winds are coming in from the north at gale gusts and dropping the temperature to around -10. it's not fun to stand in...
it'll be nice when this pattern shifts.
i'm thinking the longer i leave it, the more likely i am to get an extension, as well. because they can tell me i still have a month. if i get an extension, it pushes the whole process forwards in time...that's what i really want...as far as i can push it...
so...
1) upload the two inrijected files. done.
2) ry30 ep.
3) compile a list of things added to the final mixes that are not in the cassette mixes.
4) decide how realistic reconstructing it is.
here's a random example: i recorded the sound of a printer sometime in 1998 and used it in the bridge of a song. there's no algorithm for that. the only way i could get the printer sound back to reintegrate into a new mix is by phase cancelling the drums, guitars and synths in the song. there's probably literally at least 100 further examples of this.
the other thing is that there's a lot of continuity between the tracks. so, they need to maintain a certain amount of flow in the process, which means while i may be able to reconstruct one song it's not useful unless i can reconstruct all six of the songs that flow in and out of it..
again: i don't think this is going to be realistic, and i'm going to have to live with either the compressed cd-r burn or the constructions i put together last year using eqs and mastering software. but i have to prove that to myself...
at least i'll have that ry30 ep, so you can hear what they sounded like, raw. yeah. yeah. yeah. that covers both options.
and, to capture that raw state, it's probably best if i mix them on the tascam. ok. i've got a plan...
1) upload the two inrijected files. done.
2) ry30 ep.
3) compile a list of things added to the final mixes that are not in the cassette mixes.
4) decide how realistic reconstructing it is.
here's a random example: i recorded the sound of a printer sometime in 1998 and used it in the bridge of a song. there's no algorithm for that. the only way i could get the printer sound back to reintegrate into a new mix is by phase cancelling the drums, guitars and synths in the song. there's probably literally at least 100 further examples of this.
the other thing is that there's a lot of continuity between the tracks. so, they need to maintain a certain amount of flow in the process, which means while i may be able to reconstruct one song it's not useful unless i can reconstruct all six of the songs that flow in and out of it..
again: i don't think this is going to be realistic, and i'm going to have to live with either the compressed cd-r burn or the constructions i put together last year using eqs and mastering software. but i have to prove that to myself...
at least i'll have that ry30 ep, so you can hear what they sounded like, raw. yeah. yeah. yeah. that covers both options.
and, to capture that raw state, it's probably best if i mix them on the tascam. ok. i've got a plan...
hearing the original ‘convoy’ for the first time
i thought i had lost it, but i've recently found the cover of this that i did in high school. i had no idea at the time that it was an actual song, i thought homer was just making it up as he went.
http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=1rTTC3M6lh4
http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=1rTTC3M6lh4
updating inrijected (inri022)
so, i've added four more silly minutes to this silly release of silly rejected outtakes from the late 90s...
https://jasonparent.bandcamp.com/album/inrijected
https://jasonparent.bandcamp.com/album/inrijected
convoy
originally constructed in april, 1998 on some kind of forgotten dare. reconstructed from source on dec 10, 2014.
https://jasonparent.bandcamp.com/track/convoy
https://jasonparent.bandcamp.com/track/convoy
i will say i was right to roll the
highs on the remaster, as they're higher on the tape, but it's more than
just that. there's clipping in the original files from digitizing it in
the red. the extra treble is closer, but it brings in that sort of
tinny compressed sound on the guitars that you get from running too much
digital compression. &etc.
agh.
fuck it. i did this already. i need to do the listening test, but with the intent on minimal replacements.
i also think it would help if i compiled a list of missing digital additions *before* i start mixing anything, so i know what i can do and what i can't.
again: this is why i wanted the reinterpretation, because i knew i wanted to remix it from the source but knew i couldn't recreate the original mixes. so, there's every reason to go to town, but then the old mixes need to be maintained....
i made the right choice in the first place. no use in second guessing.
but this record-keeping is useful, anyways. so i should do it.
perfectionists don't like situations without perfect answers :\
it torments us. we keep coming back to them.
i really wish i hadn't compressed the source when i was 17, but i did, and i can't undo and have to live with it.
first off, i actually need to compile my little ry30 ep and see what i can do with it. that will actually help...
i'm going to have to try the phase reversal, though. even if there's relics...well, it might be instructive, actually. but a lot of these effects are relatively short. if i can get them mostly out, it might be better than what i have...
fuck it. i did this already. i need to do the listening test, but with the intent on minimal replacements.
i also think it would help if i compiled a list of missing digital additions *before* i start mixing anything, so i know what i can do and what i can't.
again: this is why i wanted the reinterpretation, because i knew i wanted to remix it from the source but knew i couldn't recreate the original mixes. so, there's every reason to go to town, but then the old mixes need to be maintained....
i made the right choice in the first place. no use in second guessing.
but this record-keeping is useful, anyways. so i should do it.
perfectionists don't like situations without perfect answers :\
it torments us. we keep coming back to them.
i really wish i hadn't compressed the source when i was 17, but i did, and i can't undo and have to live with it.
first off, i actually need to compile my little ry30 ep and see what i can do with it. that will actually help...
i'm going to have to try the phase reversal, though. even if there's relics...well, it might be instructive, actually. but a lot of these effects are relatively short. if i can get them mostly out, it might be better than what i have...
when
i compare the three sources (cd rip from mp3s, "remaster", original
tape) it's no comparison - the tape demolishes the other two. plus, now
that it's digitized i can play with the source...
further, i'm realizing i dumped far more to tape than i thought i did.
i feel i don't really have a choice but to go through it all very carefully and update what i can update.
but i'm not going to be able to tempt myself from fucking with it, and i want to not do that.....yet.....
further, i'm realizing i dumped far more to tape than i thought i did.
i feel i don't really have a choice but to go through it all very carefully and update what i can update.
but i'm not going to be able to tempt myself from fucking with it, and i want to not do that.....yet.....
no, i can't phase cancel the vocals out because i compressed the files before i burned them.
i guess the thing is that i'm 40 some releases in now and these two releases (inri005, inri007) are the only things that aren't available anywhere in their original forms - or with extremely minor edits. i know i'm going to redo them. so, why not just put them up as they were? and the reason is that they didn't sound very good as they were. but i need to reconvince myself of this.
if i'm doing anything further to them, though, this is the time.
there were a few files i had to accept compromises on. maybe if i could overlay a guitar part or two...
i'll see.
i guess the thing is that i'm 40 some releases in now and these two releases (inri005, inri007) are the only things that aren't available anywhere in their original forms - or with extremely minor edits. i know i'm going to redo them. so, why not just put them up as they were? and the reason is that they didn't sound very good as they were. but i need to reconvince myself of this.
if i'm doing anything further to them, though, this is the time.
there were a few files i had to accept compromises on. maybe if i could overlay a guitar part or two...
i'll see.
Tuesday, December 9, 2014
no....there's too many things i can't do. it's not an option.
but do i like the treblier mix, or do i want to just re-upload the original files? i suspect i'll convince myself of the remixes. i mean, there were reasons for it...
i'd kind of like to just upload the original cd-r as one half of a double and a fully instrumental version as the other half. i could maybe do that by phase cancelling the vocals.
reality: this is never going to stop bugging me. but maybe it's a good time to listen to everything one more time...
i'm going to set it up in a playlist, with original-remaster all the way through and see how i respond afterwards.
but do i like the treblier mix, or do i want to just re-upload the original files? i suspect i'll convince myself of the remixes. i mean, there were reasons for it...
i'd kind of like to just upload the original cd-r as one half of a double and a fully instrumental version as the other half. i could maybe do that by phase cancelling the vocals.
reality: this is never going to stop bugging me. but maybe it's a good time to listen to everything one more time...
i'm going to set it up in a playlist, with original-remaster all the way through and see how i respond afterwards.
ok, that gets me through the first 6 tapes (that's 24 channels) from
1998, which were labelled. now i have another dozen that aren't. i think
most of them are half empty, but there's a period in early 1999 that
i'm hoping is in there somewhere. i think i should be done digitizing by
the time the sun comes up.
listening through a few snippets, i seem to have bounced the drums together with sequencers and effects, meaning i have little space to play with what comes off the tapes. to me, the value in isolating the songs at this stage is to draw attention to the drum machine, which tended to sometimes get lost in the mix. but there's only a couple of tracks where this is really meaningful.
the more i think about it, the more i have to place it in proper sequence between inri004 and inri005 and there isn't anything that i want to really take out. so, how? well, on the one hand, i realize it would be useful for a consumer to get these appended to the end of inri004, which is otherwise only 11 minutes. it's about the same time frame, too. but i separated inri004 out for it's conceptual value, and this is necessarily a different concept as well. so, i might, instead, create a consolidated cd release with two separate downloads - inri004a and inri004b. inri004, then, is the fall of 2007, which is what it is right now - i'd just be looking at it two different ways. that's my leading mental concept right now, anyways. but i'm not likely to do this at all unless i'm convinced that the results are going to be substantially different than the reconstructed versions i'll do next year. if i think i'm just going to take the bases of these files and add stuff on top, i'll wait and maybe do a few singles when i get there, just adding the material on as bsides. i'll also want to take that approach if i only pull out two or three songs.
it's almost done; i'll make these decisions over night.
listening through a few snippets, i seem to have bounced the drums together with sequencers and effects, meaning i have little space to play with what comes off the tapes. to me, the value in isolating the songs at this stage is to draw attention to the drum machine, which tended to sometimes get lost in the mix. but there's only a couple of tracks where this is really meaningful.
the more i think about it, the more i have to place it in proper sequence between inri004 and inri005 and there isn't anything that i want to really take out. so, how? well, on the one hand, i realize it would be useful for a consumer to get these appended to the end of inri004, which is otherwise only 11 minutes. it's about the same time frame, too. but i separated inri004 out for it's conceptual value, and this is necessarily a different concept as well. so, i might, instead, create a consolidated cd release with two separate downloads - inri004a and inri004b. inri004, then, is the fall of 2007, which is what it is right now - i'd just be looking at it two different ways. that's my leading mental concept right now, anyways. but i'm not likely to do this at all unless i'm convinced that the results are going to be substantially different than the reconstructed versions i'll do next year. if i think i'm just going to take the bases of these files and add stuff on top, i'll wait and maybe do a few singles when i get there, just adding the material on as bsides. i'll also want to take that approach if i only pull out two or three songs.
it's almost done; i'll make these decisions over night.
i'm used to driving myself pretty hard to stay awake for long periods to accomplish things. coffee & nicotine are tools for this, and i'm admittedly not smoking right now. regardless, when i pass out early two nights in a row after mere 15 hour days, the truth is i'm subconsciously trying to avoid something...
i can't let that happen a third time. this call will be made tomorrow morning.
for today, i guess i can go back to digitizing files and do some laundry.
subconscious drivers and no nicotine aside, digitizing requires a lot of sitting around and waiting. and, when you sleep seldomly, your body learns to take advantage of down times, as well. if i can get the digitizing done quickly, chances of nodding off while i'm waiting for the channel to finish are minimized...
i can't let that happen a third time. this call will be made tomorrow morning.
for today, i guess i can go back to digitizing files and do some laundry.
subconscious drivers and no nicotine aside, digitizing requires a lot of sitting around and waiting. and, when you sleep seldomly, your body learns to take advantage of down times, as well. if i can get the digitizing done quickly, chances of nodding off while i'm waiting for the channel to finish are minimized...
rap news 30
as for the vid, it's a long debate that goes around in circles. i don't think anybody that can think clearly about it really denies our own role (although maybe a vid like this helps in holding that mirror up), but trying to address it becomes recursive very quickly, breaking down into the obvious statement that we have to change ourselves but without a clear approach on how to actually do it.
there's this whole gramscian view that we uphold the system because we're taught to. from this perspective, it's impossible to do this "the revolution starts inside" bit until we're able to abolish the institutions that put the bit of the oppressor inside of us. but, we'd need to transcend the condition in the first place. and around in circles we go, tracing out an infinite series....
the only way to break this is to acknowledge a vanguard or what could be called an anti-vanguard. i think vanguard politics are discredited, myself. the anti-vanguard takes us into post-leftist thinking. temporary autonomous zones. but this assumes real revolution is impossible. that sounds defeatist, but is it merely realism?
the expanded pyramid you put up is worth dwelling upon. i think that, existing in the middle of the pyramid, we lack the ability to really change anything - largely because we can't adjust to a system that we neither have the right to tear down nor the right to reconstruct. the best we can really do is stand in solidarity with the people at the bottom of the pyramid, in helping them reassert their autonomy, the meaning of which changes from situation to situation. it's only once we can start talking about labour rights in china or land-use rights in brazil that we can understand how we can adjust to a fairer globe.
in the mean time, it probably means that post-leftism is realism rather than defeatism. that's a level of humility that inhabitants of the heart of the empire are going to find difficult to adjust to. perhaps that humility is in truth the real necessary first step.
i mean, i think the expanded pyramid sort of obscures the controlling aspect. you see a pyramid like that and you think that each level is dominant over the next, but is it really so? there's little doubt that "debt slaves" in the advanced industrial world are heavily reliant on production outside of it, but it's worth pointing out that that's a situation that keeps them in place rather than one that empowers them. we're increasingly seeing a situation of structural high unemployment in the developed world that's a reaction to unionization and is directly caused by outsourcing the labour that would alleviate the unemployment; while the unemployed may end up consuming foreign products with what amounts to debt, that doesn't put them in a less dependent position, or in any kind of a position of control. the pyramid presentation is consequently somewhat inaccurate. but, it's inaccurate at the higher levels, as well - this absolutely ordered hierarchy is a gloss any way you look at it. we used to think of this the other way around - we used to think of colonial areas as places to dump goods, in order to enrich the colonizing powers. switching the relationship doesn't construct a power relationship so much as it exposes the underlying economic mechanism. that is, it's more accurate to think in terms of two ends of a market. in order to make money, you need to be able to produce goods cheaply and have a place to sell them. if you take either end point out, the whole thing collapses. it's not entirely fair to suggest that the consuming side of this is as well off as the producing side of it. but it is perhaps instructive to point out that the entire purpose of the new world order (if it's defined as advancing neo-liberalism in the post-soviet era) is to slowly place them on an equal footing. i'm going to agree that if you ask the factory worker in china what the nwo is, they'll tell you it's the consumer base in america. but, if you ask the mass of unemployed workers in spain, they'll tell you it's the absence of economic opportunity created by the globalization of labour. and, maybe they're both right. that takes away a lot of our own agency. and, again, i think that's even more frightening. but i think it's very true.
there's this whole gramscian view that we uphold the system because we're taught to. from this perspective, it's impossible to do this "the revolution starts inside" bit until we're able to abolish the institutions that put the bit of the oppressor inside of us. but, we'd need to transcend the condition in the first place. and around in circles we go, tracing out an infinite series....
the only way to break this is to acknowledge a vanguard or what could be called an anti-vanguard. i think vanguard politics are discredited, myself. the anti-vanguard takes us into post-leftist thinking. temporary autonomous zones. but this assumes real revolution is impossible. that sounds defeatist, but is it merely realism?
the expanded pyramid you put up is worth dwelling upon. i think that, existing in the middle of the pyramid, we lack the ability to really change anything - largely because we can't adjust to a system that we neither have the right to tear down nor the right to reconstruct. the best we can really do is stand in solidarity with the people at the bottom of the pyramid, in helping them reassert their autonomy, the meaning of which changes from situation to situation. it's only once we can start talking about labour rights in china or land-use rights in brazil that we can understand how we can adjust to a fairer globe.
in the mean time, it probably means that post-leftism is realism rather than defeatism. that's a level of humility that inhabitants of the heart of the empire are going to find difficult to adjust to. perhaps that humility is in truth the real necessary first step.
i mean, i think the expanded pyramid sort of obscures the controlling aspect. you see a pyramid like that and you think that each level is dominant over the next, but is it really so? there's little doubt that "debt slaves" in the advanced industrial world are heavily reliant on production outside of it, but it's worth pointing out that that's a situation that keeps them in place rather than one that empowers them. we're increasingly seeing a situation of structural high unemployment in the developed world that's a reaction to unionization and is directly caused by outsourcing the labour that would alleviate the unemployment; while the unemployed may end up consuming foreign products with what amounts to debt, that doesn't put them in a less dependent position, or in any kind of a position of control. the pyramid presentation is consequently somewhat inaccurate. but, it's inaccurate at the higher levels, as well - this absolutely ordered hierarchy is a gloss any way you look at it. we used to think of this the other way around - we used to think of colonial areas as places to dump goods, in order to enrich the colonizing powers. switching the relationship doesn't construct a power relationship so much as it exposes the underlying economic mechanism. that is, it's more accurate to think in terms of two ends of a market. in order to make money, you need to be able to produce goods cheaply and have a place to sell them. if you take either end point out, the whole thing collapses. it's not entirely fair to suggest that the consuming side of this is as well off as the producing side of it. but it is perhaps instructive to point out that the entire purpose of the new world order (if it's defined as advancing neo-liberalism in the post-soviet era) is to slowly place them on an equal footing. i'm going to agree that if you ask the factory worker in china what the nwo is, they'll tell you it's the consumer base in america. but, if you ask the mass of unemployed workers in spain, they'll tell you it's the absence of economic opportunity created by the globalization of labour. and, maybe they're both right. that takes away a lot of our own agency. and, again, i think that's even more frightening. but i think it's very true.
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