Thursday, July 1, 2021

and, i went and bought all of that ram i was talking about.

- the 90s laptop only has 256 mb of ram in it, and that's not enough to run an html5 aware browser (which is required for youtube, nowadays). it can take 1 gb. so, i got 4x512 gb (to max it + a backup) for $10 a piece. and, then i'll have my tv back, along with a phone.

- i got 4x128 gb of sd ram as backup for the windows 98 pc. $10 each.

- 1 got 4x1gb of ddr2-800 as backup for the windows xp pc. $10 each.

so, that ended up being $120 + $20 for shipping. i had to pay the $20 shipping regardless, so it made sense to get it all at the same time.

and, hopefully, that's enough old ram to last me for the next 20 years...

it's a one-off thing and i've got the cash now so let's do it.
so, i'm finally done the meta-cleaning in here...

the big bookshelf will come in on friday (hopefully) and i need to do some running around before i settle in for july and do normal monthly cleaning. but, the headache of spring cleaning is finally done with and i can focus strictly on working, now.

so, the next thing is getting back to filing my drive. i think. let me double check that. i think i put it aside about a week ago to do the sealing.

see, i wanted to finish filing first and then do the sealing after, but i was running out of time to do it, so i had to do the sealing first, and now it's taken about a week to finish cleaning. the last music post was june 23rd.

so, yeah, that's right - now i need to get back to filing. but, i actually want to take a good run through the facebook page first and see if i can build the alternate releases blog up. so, i'm going to fast forward the alter-reality to today and then we'll do the running around on friday and saturday.

Wednesday, June 30, 2021

so, i should just focus on finishing the clean for right now and get to doing things on friday.

i mentioned before that it's just a handful of papers left. really. then i can get back to a normal once a month cleaning routine...

Sunday, June 27, 2021

so, i spent friday sitting down and posting to the releases timeline blog (https://jessicamurrayreleasestimeline.blogspot.com/), and in the process rewound back to late 2017. i'm going to do a little more of this before i put it aside for next week.

what i spent saturday doing was finishing the cleaning i started on wednesday night. i've now got most of my books out of boxes and on to shelves for the first time since 2011, and the same is true of most of the cds. the last step is to cut some wood for the shelves, and i should be able to do that as soon as this annoying month-long rain storm passes. i have enough wood in the space for two shelves, and i'm going to need 6. that should be cheap.

getting the books and cds out is a step towards resuming the alter-reality (i know.), and a step towards the place being clean and normalized again. so, it's huge progress, even if it seems silly.

the rearranging and reordering in this place should be more or less done by the afternoon, which will let me sit back down and refocus.

Wednesday, June 23, 2021

so, i've got two fixed mixes from the art show demo ep up on the isomorphism ep. these mixes were normalized when burned in 2004, and i'm going to leave them that way. but, these are the original mixes:

1) file actually from 2003 (nulls with art show demo rips, after volume adjustment):

2) this was built yesterday morning from 2003/04 source to null with volume-adjusted cd rips, except for clipping in the initial track (from the normalization):

that will probably be inri084, but i'll be sorting through that over the next few days.

Tuesday, June 22, 2021

so, what having a rebuilt version of the isomorphism from late 2003 means is that i can salvage a demo version for the single when it comes up. it's the same version as on the art show demo, but it's not normalized (which makes combining the three tracks i cut it into back into a single track very difficult).

mid 2004 was my first re-release phase, so i've now come to the first point in the discography where i started to look backwards and consolidate. while i didn't realize it then, i had made it through the second period of my discography and was starting the third period in earnest. to an extent, i was processing the process that sent me across the country on an absurd trip with no purpose; in that sense, period 3 doesn't really start until june of 2004, but it leaves that year (may of 2003 to may of 2004) as a lost space, where i was both finishing period 2 and starting period 3. the ftaa material that closes in june, 2004 is really period 2; the trivial group material started in late 2002 is really period 3. so, this was a transition period...

the re-releases will appear in the grid as stubs, and i'll try to be as comprehensive as i can be. i'm also going to want to put together some kind of compilation that collects the edits i created in that first moment of looking back, as there are enough for an ep, at least.

further, there were a number of mix cds created at this time that i tried to pass around in novel ways, such as exchanging for cigarettes (i got you to take my cd, didn't i?). i'm shooting darts in the dark with this stuff, and i've known it for years. they could have releases, as well.

but, the next serious release will be the isomorpshism single as inri084ish, so lining this up (which is what i did tonight) will set me up for any potential remixes that are coming.
so, i'm finally lining up the core part of the isomorphism in cubase tonight, from source files initially pasted together in cool edit.

this will release in mid 2004 and is essentially done, i just need to file it first.
so, here's my shortlist on period 3.1, which i'm currently filing for the night:

inri075: re-record list of acoustic demos that is tbd

inri076: audiomulch noise collage

inri077: finish demo version of lost symphony left stranded on tape (not final version)

inri078: all versions of lost symphony, including a new 2021 version to be started imminently

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inti079: no further edits. done.

inri080: no further edits. done.

inri081: no further edits. done.

Monday, June 21, 2021

to recall.

publishing inri081

this is a big deal - the 7th record is now released.

and, i'm up to mid 2004 in terms of the rebuild structure.

i need to spend the night filing.

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when it was released in the summer of 2004, this would have been my fifth official recording, after inri, inriched, inridiculous and deny everything. sarah and i moved into a place for the beginning of may; she was working overnight (22:00-6:00) in a diner, so it gave me time to read and record. things seemed like they were starting anew, so i took the time to sort through the discography and reassemble what i actually had. 

a decision was quickly made to unpublish the first three records in favour of a zappa/keneally-style disc of cut-up guitar shorts that i called inricycled, and start seriously at deny everything. the written music that now exists in this space only existed in the form of completed scores, during this period. so, the only other things i had were the rabit is wolf demo, the recently completed reflections ep, some classical guitar stuff and a bunch of these noise demos. this was consequently the extent of the truncated discography, in mid-2004: inricycled (as it was then), deny everything (as it existed then), the rabit is wolf demo, reflections and a 5-track version of this ftaa disc. 

now that i have republished the three inri demos as instrumental recordings, stripped the deny everything lp of samples and converted the rabit is wolf material into two instrumental discs, taking this project to it's final conclusion becomes the process of removing samples from the 2004 demo, and converting it into my 7th completed original lp. 

the ftaa project was supposed to be a combination of political poetry and sample art projects that presented a vaguely "anarchist" political messaging. my concept of anarchism in 2004 was mostly economic, and mostly about presenting an alter-globalization alternative to the rising tide of "free trade" blocs that focused more on local worker control than on the outsourcing of cheap labour to countries with poor labour standards, which is what this term "globalization" actually means, in an economic sense. so, it was supposed to be about syndicalism, and it was supposed to be a *very* noisy and very abstract project. 

but, then 9/11 happened at about the same time as i was starting with this and the entire anti-nafta left just evaporated, as the war took over the popular movements and the more socially conservative aspects of the union movement dissented against the backlash and started looking elsewhere. we seem to forget that the real origins of the shift to the right amongst unionized workers is really cultural, and comes from a disconnect that developed in the anti-war left after 2001; a very large number of workers felt the country had been attacked, and wanted to respond with force. 

i kind of came in somewhere between. i was certainly opposed to the war, and for the right reasons, but i also felt that globalization was a bigger problem and deserved more attention. i think a lot of organizers on the left kind of got tricked by the size of the anti-war protests, into thinking there was more of a path in opposing the war. and people just kind of forgot about the trade issues. and, i also felt that the civil rights breaches that the government was ramming through were bigger issues than either the war or the trade protests. 

so, the record kind of shifted along with the realities around it's construction into something that retained a broadly anarchist ideology but was really more about reacting to the onset of fascism in the united states. so, the initial 5-track release included a track with a poem about the war in afghanistan, a sample collage about the incoherence of using more trade to undo the problems created by trade, a sample collage decrying rights lost in the 9/11 attacks, an instrumental noise collage raided from the then unreleased (and expected to remain unreleased) curious george suite and this sprawling 25-minute exploration of the collapse of liberal democracy into statist authoritarianism and cultural fascism. 

but, as with the other recordings, the samples have been removed to leave an almost entirely instrumental recording. i have retained the poem in the first track because the track is much stronger with it, which is an unusual decision for me. 

however, the initial intent of the record is salvaged on inri067, spoke: 
jasonparent.bandcamp.com/album/spoke 

now, if you want to hear the record exactly as it was initially released in 2004, you'll need to take a look at the aleph disc, as you would need to do in order to hear the initial pressings of my other early recordings, as well. this is intentional as i believe the record is stronger in it's current incarnation and want to present it that way as final. 

i have added instrumental versions of atom's and taught to twist the affected so low as bonus tracks to the lp in order to make it comprehensive. that is, the lp now has the strongest versions of all of the ftaa material. 

these tracks were written and recorded from 2000-2004, mostly as throwaway experiments over the course of an afternoon. the counter-example is the seventh symphony, trepanation nation, which was reconstructed repeatedly over the years 2001-2014. this record was initially constructed in this form (minus the last two tracks) in june, 2004. reconstructed and resequenced in theory (but not in fact) at the end of sept, 2019 from parts that were rebuilt over 2014, but not actually reconstructed, resequenced and uploaded until june of 2021. finally re-released on june 20, 2021. audio permanently closed on . finalized as lp025 on . this is my seventh official record; as always, please use headphones. 

released june 1, 2004 

j - electric & acoustic & classical guitars, effects, bass, synthesizers, vocals, electric mandolin, live drums, drum sample manipulation, drum programming, piano programming, noise generators, granular synthesis, ring modulators, sequencers, sampling, sound design, digital wave editing, composition, production 

greg - drum performance sample source on track 5 
sean - ring modulator on track 5

yeah, i must have saved the source file for this as an mp3 and decompressed it.

for this particular track, it's so noisy that the artefacts are almost a positive addition.

Sunday, June 20, 2021

yeah, that creative software acts like spyware. you can't get it off the machine. that wasn't a problem before because the drivers for the older card (which didn't support asio at all) were integrated into xp. so, i'm just reinstalling immediately.

all i need to do is line up the sample in harry to take it out and the 7th lp releases. finally.

and, then i need to finish sorting through the drive.
...and i had two copies of my h2o driver....oops....
i had to take a nap...

i needed to get two phase inversions done this afternoon. one was easy and the second doesn't want to line up, but the creative card wasn't syncing right with cubase. so, let's try again with it removed from the machine.
so, the recording machine has been a bit more stable recently, until i did two things:

1) switched the asio driver
2) searched the big drive

i just proved that the soundblaster appears to not properly work over asio, so it's of minimal use to me anyways. it's coming out right this minute.

and, i suspect that xp may have problem with drives larger than 1 gb, which i'm going to try to deal with by repartitioning the big drive.
i don't like sleeping...

i wanted this build of my 7th record done last night, but it's just a few more bits.
so, if you want the instrumental version of the renaissance piece that starts like divine amoebas, it is on the single. 

but, unlike everything else in my discography except stress, this is a vocally driven conceptual work and not a piece of pure music and i need to leave it that way.
broadly speaking, i've removed vocals from these records because i'm not comfortable with them. i rebuilt most of the inri-era vocal tracks for a series of singles, but they are broadly hard to listen to, so leaving them on the singles is the right way to do it. deny everything only had one vocal track to remove, and that was the right choice, partly because i had the electric folk version, which appears on the 5th record as the only salvaged vocal piece for the official lps. the 5th and 6th records were both built in 2014 for the first time, without vocals. and, the trivial group 2xlp will have vocals removed because they're mostly cringey, too - but left on the singles. 

unlike the others, i can't argue that that the vocals for like divine amoebas are cringey or hard to listen to. they don't interfere with the music, which was built around it. rather, i'd be separating the sound from it's content in a way that ultimately doesn't make sense.

so, i'll uploaded the 2021 rebuild for it. that's the right answer.

and, i'm going to replace some files on the amoebas single so they flow a little better, then, too.
a part of me is resisting the idea of removing the vocal mix from the ftaa disc.

let me chew on it  a bit, first.

publishing inri080

so, inri080 is done up to finalizing...

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as mentioned below this, inri080 is now released - and this one's done to start. 

i needed a way to release an updated, corrected version of this tune, as i'll be removing the vocals from the 7th lp, which is set to release imminently. the version on the art show demo is normalized, but i'm leaving it like that. so, this fills a gap that opened up. 

the first part of the track (quantum psychosis) was written on heather's acoustic guitar in sarah's bedroom one night when i was there by myself and recorded directly to four-track tascam at the same time. several electric guitar overdubs were added either right away or very shortly. i digitized this in 2004 and do not know where the tape went; it is presumed lost, in 2021. 

the second part of the track was constructed more or less all at once in january, 2004 for the purposes of creating an art show demo. i had just finished reading a couple of books on afghan history, and had imagined this idea already, so i just implemented it all in one go. i haven't altered the recording substantively, since. 

the demo doesn't appear to have found an audience in it's initial presentation. 

the track itself is pretty esoteric. if you're not following the lyrics, it's a summary of the history of afghanistan, starting from the period of persian hegemony. afghanistan used to be a wealthy and buddhist place, but it was utterly demolished by the mongols in the 13th century and has yet to recover. it climaxes in the bombing of what is left of an afghan family, and then sputters out into a 14 minute transmigration of their souls, as they split apart and rejoin the ancestral soul pool. well, it's about a historically buddhist region; the victims might be muslims, but their ancestors would no doubt forgive them for it. 

this is a comprehensive collection of the different versions, as of mid-2021 and i don't expect to expand it further. 

written and recorded from 2001-2004. all versions here constructed over early 2004 from sound written in 2001 (the piano part) and/or recorded in late 2003 (the vocal quantum psychosis folk section) or early 2004 (the transmigration section). compiled and uploaded on june 19, 2021. as always, please use headphones. 

released february 1, 2004 

j - electric & acoustic guitars, effects, drum programming, vocals, noise generators, piano programming, noise generators, digital wave editing, composition, production 

special thanks to heather's guitar, which was just sitting in the corner minding it's own business before i picked it up to jam a bit.