obligatory "influential on lead track post"...

when i started playing with samples in late 97, i was told by some older music fans that negativland is worth checking out. i spent quite a bit of time sorting through mp3s downloaded via ftp and didn't really find anything i could seriously relate to. it was very influential on me in an aesthetic sense though - it legitimized the idea i had of splicing samples together in weird ways.

(relevant tracks: inrisampled, eat my fuck, most of the connecting sections in the 1997/1998 material)

http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=Z6gPSSYxex0

obligatory "influential on lead track post"...

i'm trying to remember what i was driven by at the time, and the truth is that i was just mostly playing with the gear. all i'm really coming up with is some early 90s industrial music. it's about the time i was starting to get big into coil and skinny puppy. but, in the sense that it was an influence it was more in the horizons-expanding sense. listening to records like this one legitimized the idea of splicing samples together in weird ways.

(relevant tracks: inrisampled, eat my fuck, most of the connecting sections in the 1997/1998 material)

http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=zzqsVbFs5fc

odsp drug coverage / transgender medication not covered

hi...

i'm contacting you about the issue of hormones being covered under the odsp drug benefits. whether i agree with the reasons or not (cosmetic, not medical), i understand why that this has not traditionally been covered. and i understand that it's something that is probably still a little touchy in certain circles. however, i think the current liberal majority is the type of government that is likely to throw off certain stigmas attached to the issue, that it will probably even generate broad public support, and it's something progressive forces should consequently be taking the opportunity to move a little on. you are my mp, so i'm approaching you as a first point of contact.

i've been taking hormones for years, and have been able to cover the cost for one of three drugs while the province covers the cost of the other two. i've interpreted this as "it could be worse", but the price just went up a lot and it's provided me with an incentive to try and get it covered. i understand that there's a procedure to go through to ask for an exception, but i think it really just ought to be changed altogether.

the three drugs are a progesterone, an estrogen and a testosterone blocker. the province covers the testosterone blocker because it's used to treat men that have difficulties with sexual impulses - rapists and child molesters. it covers the progesterone because it can be used as a menopause treatment. further, it will cover some types of estrogen that are used in birth control, but the doses are far too low to be useful to me.

should i really have to rely on a legal loophole for sex offenders when i have a diagnosed medical condition, and the prescription i need is approved for other uses? this condition is deeply intertwined with mental health issues. it's generally consistent in the canadian legal framework to ensure access to this kind of thing, when it intersects with issues of well being. i know i'm on the right side with this.

again: i understand why this would have been difficult twenty years ago. but, i think the society has matured enough around this issue that this medication should be interpreted by odsp as medically necessary, and consequently covered under the circumstances of my diagnosis - rather than the loophole i'm currently forced to accept. and, i think the current government provides an opportunity to move on this.

jessica

record #6

hello...

as i mentioned before, if you've given me your address, which i never asked for, you must be pleading with me to send you updates. i must respectfully oblige.

my sixth lp released the other day. this is a major release of 2002 material, and the portal out of my second period.
https://jasonparent.bandcamp.com/album/jjjjjjjjjjjjjjjjjjjjjjjjjjjjjjjjjjjjjjjjjjjjj-2

i also completed a double ep single last week which is of special interest in terms of it's complexity. you don't hear the phrase "guitar concerto remix" very often.
https://jasonparent.bandcamp.com/album/untitled

two large compilation records will also release in the next 10-14 days.
https://jasonparent.bandcamp.com/album/thru
https://jasonparent.bandcamp.com/album/ambient-works

the next major release will be the seventh record, which is already completed and should be sequenced and released by june.

j

record #6

i was hoping to have this done by the beginning of the year, but i got very caught up in one of the tracks, which took me nearly five months to work through.

this is the 6th record:
https://jasonparent.bandcamp.com/album/jjjjjjjjjjjjjjjjjjjjjjjjjjjjjjjjjjjjjjjjjjjjj-2

this disc takes me up to the end of 2002. it requires headphones, preferably not cheap ones. these are thick mixes. it's number 44. it's built on a succession of singles: 29, 35, 36, 37, 42 and 43.

the 42 single is the one that took me five months, and takes that particular track in every direction possible, including the form of a guitar concerto.
https://jasonparent.bandcamp.com/album/untitled

also in this space exists the grand total of rabit is wolf material, which left two lps (34, 38), an acoustic demo (40) and five singles (30, 35, 36, 37, 43). the sixth lp is largely a reclamation of rabit material as instrumental music.

the other thing that exists in this space is the first few noise lps, which will form the basis of my seventh record, which should be done by the beginning of the summer at the absolute latest. two of these are short eps of harsh noise (32, 41) while the other is a systemic workthrough of what i call my fourth symphony (39).

45, 46 and 49 lean forward into the next period. 47 & 48 are electronic music focused compilations of the first 45 records, based on the ideas of midi music and ambient music, respectively. they will appear within the next week.

as before, the bandcamp site is the preferable site for all purposes. however, here is a back door to the mp3 archive. again: please do not share this link.

(link removed)

j

i had a relaxing weekend of listening to some recently completed music in it's intended state, and compiling collections to end my second compositional period. i'm seeing daylight on this, so i don't expect to be going anywhere for a few days - probably not until the melt banana show on the 14th.

i need to give my lungs a few days to rest to get ready for finishing inri043, and completing inri046-48 is going to mostly be a curled-up-in-blanket-in-front-of-the-pc editing process so it's kind of ideal as that resting period.

i'll need to do laundry and clean and other beginning of the month things tomorrow, but i intend this to be a productive week, in filling in the discography up to inri050.

mp3 disc vol 1 (initial release)

i had to cut this off a little earlier than i wanted, but that's how this is going to have to work. it just wasn't going to all fit. not even close. but, who buys volume 1 without volume 2? so, in the long run, it should be viewed as the first half of a double mp3 dvd disc [how's that for pushing media boundaries?], and the lack of any clear end point isn't that tumultuous.

it's going to be a while before i get to inri084, though.

https://jasonparent.bandcamp.com/merch/mp3-dvd-disc-vol-1

publishing reflections (inri074)

i've also uploaded an ep from 2003, untouched, as inri049. tracks 1-5 are what i consider to be my fifth symphony.

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around october, 2002 i met a friend. i was sort of in need of a friend, and i mean that in the friend sense. but, the mental condition i was in was the explanation of why i needed a friend, if you see what i mean; i was completely unstable in this period and did all kinds of absurd things, which isolated me - and i wasn't getting any better.

i dropped out of school under the realization that i was walking down a path that wasn't getting me anywhere close to what i wanted out of life. i ended up working three jobs to raise money for gender reassignment, and it crossed me paths with somebody that was also trying to think of ways to get out of the box in terms of ways to exist.

she was trying to save up money to go to british columbia. it was some kind of warped take on the grapes of wrath, where everything works out perfectly. but, the rent was eating into her savings, which was making the goal seem impossible. well, unless we stopped having fun.

so, i suggested she should just stay at my parents place. part of it was a hope that she would move her drum kit in, although that didn't happen. and, i might add that this was done with all of the reckless abandon that could be contemplated - we were moving stuff in without even asking, it was really remarkable.

and, it seemed to me that we were getting pretty close over that period.

so, when the time came that she had all that money put aside to go to bc, it was kind of a downer to let her go. and, she initially wanted to go with a friend who dropped out. so, i ended up going across the country with her.

now, i need to be clear: we weren't planning on coming back. we were going to pick fruit or something - we didn't know, exactly, we'd figure it out when we got there.

so, this was meant as a sort of farewell to certain people i hadn't talked to in months and didn't care if i was leaving, anyways. i think it let me work some things out on weird subconscious levels, but the truth is that these songs really aren't about anybody except me, and there's no use in pretending they are - i just liked the idea of a farewell disc.

this disc was initially passed around with a cut up version of the pretentious untitled mix at the end, but this was almost immediately ejected from future burns and is not present on this ep due to the poor quality of the mix. the remaining five tracks became combined into what i now call my fifth symphony. a slightly remixed version will appear on the trivial group double lp.

written and recorded in late 2002 and early 2003. this was uploaded unmodified from a cd-r rip in may, 2015. symphony 5. as always, please use headphones.

credits:
j - guitar, effects, bass, synth, voice, piano, drum programming, generative programming (sounder), granular synthesis, sound design, soundscaping, loops, bowls, claps, tables, ebow, orchestral sequencing, digital wave editing, sampling, production, composition

the various rendered electronic orchestras include piano, synth pad, choir and string section. 

released may 1, 2003

https://jasonparent.bandcamp.com/album/reflections

i'm likely going to have inri049 up by mid morning. i just have to listen to it. it's another unmodified upload - the ep i passed around in early 2003.

inri048 (ambient works) and inri047 (thru - midi works) will together function as a sort of quadruple compilation of electronic music over period 2. they're both going to be doubles, and they'll both measure something moving through. i don't expect further compilations, but i will want to pause here and make sure i haven't missed any opportunities. inri047 needs one more song to finish, which is the song in inri046.

inri046 will be the birdsong ep, which will be the final midi music single in the way that defines my output over 2001 and 2002. it will have several vst synthesizer mixes, in undefined directions. it may take some time to develop.

inri043 remains in progress, and will need to remain in progress until i get my voice back a little and can psyche myself up for it. the middle of this week, probably.

inri050 fast forwards several months, and attempts to document material written in an uncomfortable period of time right after i returned from british columbia, including parts written in british columbia.

that gets aleph-5 done: all material related to the sixth record.

https://jasonparent.bandcamp.com/merch/jjjjjjjjjjjjjjjjjjjjjjjjjjjjjjjjjjjjjjjjjjjjj-2-box-set

uploading the flying ep to youtube

this is an old outtake that i'm publishing for the first time, along with it's initial pairing.

https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=nRIUnnbtCIQ&feature=autoshare

the youtube alter-reality is about to move forward out of my primitive stages. i feel these primitive stages have earned me a level of notoriety that i would have no doubt craved at that age, so in terms of this game (does this qualify as one of those games?), i suppose it's accomplished it's purpose. but, this only represented a year of my life and i have a much longer musical story to tell, or game to play as you may have it.

1997 was a year spent of a lot of learning how to utilize technology with music. i started playing with tab writers, notation writers, sequencers, drum machines, synthesizers and digital wave editors, which i took a particular liking to.

over the fall, i had everything i needed to record except a recorder. i started experimenting with samples using very primitive tools - the windows 95 sound editor and recorders - and a lot of napkin math. like, you couldn't even loop with these - you had to manually paste each copy in and calculate the entrance points. i deserved a credit in algebra for this, really.

i pasted this together at the end of 2013, but it's the sum total of these sample collages, made out of just any random sounds i could find on my hard drive or the internet - civ2 and doom sound files and simpsons quotes, mostly.

it's going to be the lead-off in the alter-reality now for several months and will bridge to a period where i was interested mostly in synthesizer pop.

https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=HeRFfBTqlEQ&list=PL3JSjmqp0cbsyQ4cQbszNBKo5GW4Ouz38&index=19

On behalf of the Ontario Arts Council (OAC), I regret to inform you that your application has not resulted in a successful Popular Music grant.

i knew it...

group of my peers, my ass. i failed the corporate evaluation test. governments sometimes work as hr departments for certain private sector interests. schools are kind of something sort of maybe a little bit like that.

i felt the need to apply, but i knew the outcome before it happened. i just hope i get something in the mail with their responses, it should be good for a laugh.

i'm best off with the financial situation i'm in.

i'm not sure i'd have even taken it. i'd have to put that logo on merch, which is kind of yuck. it was a fall back plan...

publishing flying (inri064)

this was constructed as a christmas present for my partner, while in a rather absurd state of entirely preposterous euphoria. only a musician can be so absurdly invested in something so thoroughly delusional - or manage to create something so entirely self-reflective out of a theme surrounding somebody else.

the first part of this was shelved before it was ever released. i was over-exaggerating a sense of self-consciousness, but it still strikes me as unworkable. however, i think it's conceptually important in the idea of this as a christmas present and has consequently been uploaded here without modification. the second part was actually presented to sarah as a present, albeit it a little after christmas - hence the jan 1 release date. it eventually found it's way to the center of my fifth symphony, reflections: jasonparent.bandcamp.com/album/reflections

these tracks were written and recorded over november and december of 2002 and uploaded, unmodified, in may of 2015. this will be a download only release. as always, please use headphones.

credits:
j - guitar, effects, bass, synth, piano, drum programming, light-sound synthesis (coagula), generative programming (sounder), granular synthesis, sound design, digital wave editing, production, composition 

released january 1, 2003

https://jasonparent.bandcamp.com/album/flying

publishing jjjjjjjjjjjjjjjjjjjjjjjjjjjjjjjjjjjjjjjj^2 (inri063)

i've just finished my sixth lp.

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the idea of a second jjjjjjjjjjjjjjjjjjjjjjjjjjjjjjjjjjjjjjjjjjjjjjj record was not something that remotely crossed my mind until i started seriously analysing my work from 2002. that was a separate idea; rabit is wolf separated it from the trivial group. however, remixed instrumental tracks over the rabit is wolf period slowly collected to the point that there was enough to justify a whole record. that wasn't a conscious choice at the outset, but it seems to be the conceptual framework collected on the record. i toyed with the idea of releasing it as a rabit remix record, but my influence over it is far too lopsided.

the thematic linkage with the first jjjjjjjjjjjjjjjjjjjjjjjjjjjjjjjjjjjjjjjjjjjjjjj record is a tendency to lean towards more "serious" ideas. there are strong influences from a few different types of classical music, including jazz, as well as some more modern electronic and noise influences. however, these songs lean more towards more palatable rock or techno based song structures and are less dependent on existing scores.

the stories for these songs are diverse and explained in more detail on the track pages.

these tracks are all based on existing demos from 2001-2002 that were initially intended to be completed with vocal parts and were remixed from july, 2014 to may, 2015 as purely instrumental recordings. final completion date is may 2, 2015. as always, please use headphones.

credits
j - electric & acoustic guitars, electric bass guitar, effects, synths, electric air reed organ, digital piano, flute, voice, electronic drum kit, drum programming, drum manipulations, drum sampling, orchestral sequencing, sampling, loops, equalization, digital wave editing, sound design, production, composition.

the various rendered electronic orchestras include tuba, french horn, trombone, trumpet, english horn, saxophone, oboe, clarinet, bassoon, flute, orchestra hit, melodic toms, timpani, orchestral drum set, piano, agogo, tubular bells, glockenspiel, koto, violin, viola, cello, contrabass and various full string sections. it also includes choir.

other musicians:
sean - harmonica (2), melody (6)
greg - drum performance sample source (4)

released december 1, 2002

https://jasonparent.bandcamp.com/album/jjjjjjjjjjjjjjjjjjjjjjjjjjjjjjjjjjjjjjjjjjjjj-2

a conceptual rethink is going to have me jump ahead and upload a number of releases rather quickly. inri043 is on hold for a day or two.

i've been compiling my sixth record since october. i initially planned to finish an outtake from late 2002 and place it in the last spot on that disc. but, i've decided against this for a handful of reasons.

first, this was an outtake. it wasn't unfinished, it was just something i put aside as substandard. and, while i think it's good enough to release in some form, i'm not excited about placing it last on this record, which is otherwise my most fully realized completed material to date (2002). it was an outtake, and i'd like to leave it as one.

second, including this outtake would make the record span two distinct periods. this outtake was initially written as a part of sarah's xmas present for 2002, whereas all of the other pieces are from rabit is wolf. that christmas was a definite period change for me in terms of writing. while it initially felt reasonable to include everything up until the reflections period on the disc - it fit chronologically, and it didn't leave anything stranded - i'm now leaning much more heavily towards separating the periods more cleanly. this was always a debate in my mind, i've just switched sides on it.

third, that plan was before i decided to do la la la la as inri043, which leaves that piece stranded. but, that piece is far more conceptually relevant to the idea of the disc, which is rabit is wolf outtakes. further, i think it's a stronger piece, with stronger incentive to include on this disc.

now, i don't want to move the vocal version over. the record is otherwise instrumental. and, it's a rabit is wolf idea.

so, what i'll do is leave the vocal version as the lead single to la la la la, stranded, but with the instrumental version at the end of the sixth lp.

i just need to listen to it a few times to be sure of this decision. if i am, that will complete inri044 - which is a major release.

it will also mean i'm removing the ostrich single (the previous inri044) and rather moving it into the flying single - and then releasing it as inri045. i may include a version of birdsong on this to complete a "bird ep".

it will also mean that ostrich will not have entries on the thru disc, as it's not developed enough for me to call it a midi composition.

bird song will need it's own single with a handful of remixes, which will be inri046. reflections and thru will follow immediately.

i'll be planning this out tonight. conceivably expect heavy uploading.

it's going to be nice this weekend, which you'd think might get me out. but, rather, i need to stay home and make sure the windows stay open. the fellow above me carries roughly thrice the weight of the average individual and will turn the basement into a meat locker should he be allowed to, in order that the temperature upstairs stay below 20. that's what happens when you're grossly obese.

it's summer. you want the temperature above 20. so, fuck that guy. maybe he should move to baffin island. or hit a treadmill. i learned last year that i need to get out in front of this if i don't want to be shivering in june - i've had the heat cranked the last two days, and will have the windows wide open so long as it's over 20 (and cranked over night, when it's below 20). that may actually take the temperature in here down a degree or two until the humidity picks up, but the key is to break the seal on the air conditioner upstairs. he's either going to freeze me out or i'm going to fry him out. i need the space in the short term, but i might not in the long term. i can handle everything else about this place in exchange for cheap rent, but i hate the idea of being cold all summer.

i mean, he can't win. not unless we skip summer this year. 35 degree humidity pouring in from the basement 12 hours a day will break his air. too bad. so sad....

what i'm missing is the "blowout" in detroit, but i'd argue i'm not missing much. this magazine is focusing on an aspect of detroit that is too mainstream for my tastes. as for touring bands, i'll check out perfect pussy at some point - although i'm more excited about white lung next month. tonight, they're playing in a mall. it's going to feel awkward and sound terrible. i'll hold out for a small bar with a lower ceiling. if it were a different band, i might feel different about the venue, but this is a bad combo. tomorrow is fucked up, but i've seen them enough to know they do short sets, which is going to end the show at 11:40 and get me stuck in ferndale until 7:00 again. not excited about that for a $20 entry fee. i'll wait until they play somewhere i can walk back to the tunnel with...and they will....

the likely next show is may 6th, but i'm iffy about it. it seems like an early show. we'll see where my head is.

the only feasible way for this guy to exist in the temperature he wants is to not live above anybody. nobody is going to want to live in a 15 degree basement over the summer so the obese guy in the upstairs apartment doesn't break a sweat. he could/should have moved into the empty unit on the other side over the winter - there's nobody under him, there. i hinted at it, but he didn't listen. *shrug*.

vocal tracks. i do them so seldom nowadays, and it's largely because i've never really been able to get my head around the voice as an instrument.

when i was a kid, i use to scream into the mic a little - there was no subtlety to it. you've heard this over and over again. it's punk rock. then, i started just reciting lyrics, almost deadpan. the screaming ended up striking me as contrived, but i still wanted a vocal component....so it was about all i could do. it was never really integral, or what the music was ever actually about. it was just convention. eventually, i gained the abstraction of thought to move beyond it...

since then, vocals have been pretty sparse - and essentially never melodic. i might have a poem, or a political statement. if i hum during recitation, it's either for emphasis or even by accident.

what my brain wants me to do is play the notes on a guitar, convert them to midi and then just run it through a sampler/sequencer combo. perfect pitch reconstruction. but, my gut is rejecting that and forcing me to do it live. if i do the sampler, it will be as a remix, and only after i get the live vocals down.

anyone can sing a tune, right? if given infinite takes. well, you'd get hamlet out of a monkey with infinite takes, too. the way this is going to work is that i'm going to struggle with it for two or three days, then it will "click". randomly. wait for it...

in the meantime, the ep is legitimately almost done. i'm just skittering out some la's and running them through a barrage of effects and then playing with it until it's "right". feel free to enjoy what's already uploaded.

to be clear: it's written. i have a clear plan. if this was a guitar part, it would be very quick. it's just not easy for me to produce the sounds i want out of my voice.

this mix was reconstructed from the 2002 source material in april, 2015 and slightly remixed in the process. track dated to april 30. 2015.

http://jasonparent.bandcamp.com/track/la-la-la-la-instrumental-mix

can anybody help me understand why this view number regularly goes up and down by ~57,000 views? that's a fair amount of views...