i have a new years resolution.

instead of trying to fix everything so it's perfect and i can finish everything effortlessly, i am going to need to adjust to the chaotic nature of the reality around me and focus on being pragmatic.

i need to start over in 1996 and i need to do that in order to focus. i will need to be project-oriented rather than process-oriented, moving forward. i'm going to need to work on one release at a time, starting with inri000. as i do so, i will need to pull together data from as any different places as i can find. that may leave my notes chaotic and unorderly, but i'll need to address it as i go.

i'm never going to move on, otherwise.

as mentioned previously, the journal is being moved offline, but i need to eliminate that as a process and do it project-by-project, instead.

that may mean finishing inri000 may be lengthy. that's ok.

in fact, i need to unpublish everything and start from total scratch.

everything.

at the start of 2018, i made a gigantic mistake.

at the time, i thought i could relatively quickly work my way through all of my online writing and split it up into a series of liner notes releases, then distribute it to my 75 official releases before moving on to period 3. at the time, i had completed the audio portions of period 1 (1996-1999) and period 2 (2000-2003) and was intending to put the audio & the writing together for 20 year anniversary period disc aleph releases in 2020 and 2023. near the end of 2019, i realized i would not able to finish that project and instead added an extra 10 years to the timeline. instead, i would start a journal dated to 1989 in 2019 and carefully work my way forwards, up to the release of my first demo in 1996/2026, when i would find that childhood journal. i would also continue working on period 3 while i was writing the journal. this was simply an impossible workload amd, since then, i've been trying to do too many things at once and unable to finish anything at all; i did not start the journal until 2021 and instead of quickly catching up i had to put it down out of concerns about data integrity. at this point, the writing i did for the journal is lost in a sea of blog posts from several years ago and there is little possibility that i'll catch up at all. i have little option but to abandon what's been done altogether, and start over again in 2029.

i've been spending too much time organizing data. i started doing this because it was supposed to make things easier but has instead crippled my productivity. i've spent hours, days, weeks at a time copying blocks of text around for future reference, and it's just build itself up in a mountain of writing that i'll never get undone.

i've also spent too much time preparing the studio for use, instead of using it. i've spend hours, days, weeks setting up and fixing computers, building images, constructing walkthroughs, etc. there are currently three separate workstations in a very small apartment, and i've been neuroticizing about making each station perfectly designed rather than actually using them.

it's now been almost six years and the amount of music i've recorded in this time frame has been minimal because i've been lost in the liner notes. it is true that i've had real life issues to deal with, but it is also true that what i'm doing isn't working. i need to re-evaluate.

the sale of bandcamp to songtradr is forcing me to mirror my bandcamp site to the inri records blog and i'm taking this as an opportunity to refocus. i will need to rebuild pages for every single song and every single release from 1996-2003, comprising 75 official releases and hundreds of songs, plus a few releases from later in 2003 and 2004. i can take that as an opportunity to deconstruct this site in the forward direction and rebuild it in the liner notes. when that is finished, i want to get directly to inri075 and finish doing some actual recording.

these liner notes will not have notes from the alter-reality in them, but i will need to deprioritize that for the time being as it has become a black hole that is eating me alive. i will instead need to revisit this for a 40 year updates, starting in 2029. that sounds crazy, but i now have no choice as i've run out of time for the thirty years. right now, i need to be able to finish the music from 1996-2013 and put it away i need to be able to finish the writing from 2013-2023 and put it away i'll worry about the writing from 1989-2012 some later day.

well, unless i'm more productive than i intend to be, i guess; there is some possibility i could finish my discography before 2025 and reboot back to 1996 for a thirty year 2026 release, then multitask starting in 2029. however, that is not my concern for now; for now, i am focusing solely on rebuilding from 2013 and leaving the alter-reality aside. that said, the alter-reality will also come up in the rebuild!

i've learned some things about what the internet is today and how it's evolving and have decided that i won't be posting journal updates to this space, moving forwards. rather, my notes from now on will be written on my production machine and stored offline. this will make it easier to generate liner notes for new releases as i move forwards.

this is consequently the last post to this blog. once this blog is disassembled and converted into pdf notes, it will be deleted.