do i remember this? i'm not sure, actually.
i do
actually have strange memories of eating cake in a high chair - i guess
it would have had to have been the second birthday, then. i can't
imagine remembering my own first birthday.
that's dad's
head, and nana in the top right. i'm only about 60% certain that the
person behind me is my father's brother, and sole remaining uncle (if
that is still true; i have not checked in in years, at this point).
i've
been told i was kind of an existentialist child; i rarely spoke, never
cried, and almost never smiled. they actually sent me to a specialist,
who came to the conclusion that i was just staunchly misanthropic, by
the age of four - i might be mildly depressed, but there wasn't anything
actually wrong with me. i just didn't want to speak, and didn't want to
smile.
i have a vague recollection that what is happening
here is that i'm being coerced to smile, and offering some resistance
to it - to the concern of the adults in the room.