Jessica Amber Murray
i spent a while this afternoon
thinking about happiness and what i could possibly tell a young lady
that struggles with depression about it's nature. on the less profound
side of the scale, our lady peace released a mostly terrible record in
the late 90s called "happiness is not a fish that you can catch". the
bad corporate emo that the record contains aside, it's sort of a
powerful statement that contains a lot of truth within it. on the more
profound side of the scale, there's a component of marxist theory that
explores the idea of happiness being a sort of illusion. this is one of
the reasons i'm not a marxist, fwiw. but it's sort of accepted that the
lives of workers are always going to be miserable and that the solution
is to deny workers of the vocabulary and conceptual machinery necessary
to understand the difference between happiness and misery so that they
can continue on in a role of necessary monotony without ever
understanding that something better may exist. basically, if the
dichotomy between misery and happiness is simply denied then nobody can
ever be miserable! marx' butchered concept of dialectics in equally
butchered action. scary shit, yes. but, i think it gets closer to the
more correct point, which is that happiness doesn't have an objective
quantity, and that it's as possible to find happiness in slavery as it
is to find misery in freedom. maybe the point of emancipation is merely
recognizing that the whole discussion is more or less trivial and the
entire idea of happiness is just an imaginary bourgeois fantasy. i guess
how the individual reacts from that point of understanding is something
that belongs to it. of course, that's easier stated than accomplished.
ESA
Yes
i agree. I dont want or need to be happy, because i dont think that
exists, i just want a little space from Ottawa so I feel i can think
straight without reoccuring and terrible things happening. Im sick of
feeling panicky because i live in a city full of triggers. I might as
well try to live somewhere else. Its my last option. I am quite content
with my decision to move, and i have been wanting to do so for a while.
At least five years...
I find it very difficult to respond via facebook on my phone.
I got accepted to u of windsor tho. :)
Jessica Amber Murray
congrats on the acceptance :)
