Friday, September 22, 2017
i split the track up, in the end. i had to. this is the most interesting part.
i'm exiting the inri period, with this. i call it 'period 1'. it ends about the end of 1999-ish. period 2 runs from 2000-2003.
where period 1 was about different types of industrial music - running the spectrum from total noise to fruity synth pop - period 2 is fundamentally a prog period, moving between ideas like fusion, post-rock and idm.
i need to run through this pretty quick to ship some material dated to the end of 2001, and moving into early 2003. this is really the way into it.
i'm exiting the inri period, with this. i call it 'period 1'. it ends about the end of 1999-ish. period 2 runs from 2000-2003.
where period 1 was about different types of industrial music - running the spectrum from total noise to fruity synth pop - period 2 is fundamentally a prog period, moving between ideas like fusion, post-rock and idm.
i need to run through this pretty quick to ship some material dated to the end of 2001, and moving into early 2003. this is really the way into it.
something
that happened in the late 90s, when fans of bands started getting
together and talking on the internet, was the phenomena of the
unauthorized remix. schemes were hatched all over the internet to create
remix records, tribute discs, fan collaborations and whatnot. in
hindsight, given what the internet turned into, it was actually a
refreshingly productive use of networking.
different artists have reacted in different ways. i got yelled at by the now deceased singer of god lives underwater for one of these. trent reznor, on the other hand, eventually went so far as to set up a competition (which i didn't take part in, as i'd moved beyond the idea by that point).
once i'd put a few remixes/recreations together, and received more positive feedback doing it than with any of my own songs, i began to realize that if i could get somebody's attention then i could construct myself a launching pad. it seems like that's what a lot of people were thinking; it didn't work out, but i did end up with a number of remixes.
unfortunately, i've lost a lot of them. about a third of them ended up on a cd-r i threw together at the end of 1999. a third just sat on my hard drive, and a third disappeared into the internet. i'm putting them all together here under the title of the 1999 release, 'inrimake'. the initial release ended after "the day inri messed the world up"; the last four songs are 'bonus tracks'. i've further split off the first two tracks to a standalone ep (jasonparent.bandcamp.com/album/liquify), partially because they never fit here properly and partially because it pares the augmented version down to under 80 minutes.
now, i should point out that i was very much going for the *abstract* remix sound rather than the club-friendly mix. you can't really dance to these. you're not supposed to. you're supposed to blare them through headphones and trip out into them.
in terms of my own work, this record very much extends a bridge from the inri period into the deny everything period, to the extent that it arguably realizes the goals of both phases better than either phase does.
this record may be released physically, one day, should the proper legal issues be resolved. right now, i'm only making it available as an almost-free download.
recorded sporadically, and without cohesive intent, over '98 and '99. originally compiled in the fall of '99. augmented and minimally altered in january, 2014. lp006. as always, please use headphones - but note that they are especially mandatory for this recording.
this release will also eventually include a comprehensive package of journal entries from all phases of production (1998, 1999, 2013, 2014, 2017).
different artists have reacted in different ways. i got yelled at by the now deceased singer of god lives underwater for one of these. trent reznor, on the other hand, eventually went so far as to set up a competition (which i didn't take part in, as i'd moved beyond the idea by that point).
once i'd put a few remixes/recreations together, and received more positive feedback doing it than with any of my own songs, i began to realize that if i could get somebody's attention then i could construct myself a launching pad. it seems like that's what a lot of people were thinking; it didn't work out, but i did end up with a number of remixes.
unfortunately, i've lost a lot of them. about a third of them ended up on a cd-r i threw together at the end of 1999. a third just sat on my hard drive, and a third disappeared into the internet. i'm putting them all together here under the title of the 1999 release, 'inrimake'. the initial release ended after "the day inri messed the world up"; the last four songs are 'bonus tracks'. i've further split off the first two tracks to a standalone ep (jasonparent.bandcamp.com/album/liquify), partially because they never fit here properly and partially because it pares the augmented version down to under 80 minutes.
now, i should point out that i was very much going for the *abstract* remix sound rather than the club-friendly mix. you can't really dance to these. you're not supposed to. you're supposed to blare them through headphones and trip out into them.
in terms of my own work, this record very much extends a bridge from the inri period into the deny everything period, to the extent that it arguably realizes the goals of both phases better than either phase does.
this record may be released physically, one day, should the proper legal issues be resolved. right now, i'm only making it available as an almost-free download.
recorded sporadically, and without cohesive intent, over '98 and '99. originally compiled in the fall of '99. augmented and minimally altered in january, 2014. lp006. as always, please use headphones - but note that they are especially mandatory for this recording.
this release will also eventually include a comprehensive package of journal entries from all phases of production (1998, 1999, 2013, 2014, 2017).
credits
released October 15, 1999
j - guitars, effects, bass, synths, drum programming, digital wave editing, cool edit synthesis, sampling, sequencers, loops, text-to-speech synthesis, remixes, reconstructions, reinterpretations
j - guitars, effects, bass, synths, drum programming, digital wave editing, cool edit synthesis, sampling, sequencers, loops, text-to-speech synthesis, remixes, reconstructions, reinterpretations
Thursday, September 21, 2017
there's no affidavit on file. what that means is that there is no legal
evidence that they require me to move out of this unit - the form is
incomplete, and the case will be dismissed.
they could still provide an affidavit. they have until the trial date.
there's two explanations for this, that i can see:
1) incompetence. and, they've demonstrated more than enough of this to consider it plausible...except that they now have counsel, and this would be pretty pathetic if it's incompetence by the counsel. regardless, it could still be coming, and i'll need to call back every day and check to see about it.
2) they never intended this to go to trial - it was a tactic to try and scare me out. in other words, there's no affidavit because there's no family member to move in - it was a bluff, and i've called it.
i need to call every single day. i need to prepare a defence. but, as it stands, they don't have an actual case to present and i'm consequently not under a serious threat of eviction.
so, should i re-open the harassment case? this is my smoking gun, clear as day: an eviction notice without an affidavit is clear and obvious harassment.
1) except for the eviction notice, they've been leaving me alone for the last few weeks.
2) i don't want to present the appearance of lingering conflict - and i can be genuine in avoiding it. the bigger threat is the judge declaring the relationship dysfunctional.
3) i'll be in an even stronger position if i wait it out, as i'll be officially victimized twice and taken advantage of after acting in good faith, the third time. the fourth time will need to be bringing them to justice.
this is counter-intuitive. it's true that they didn't sign the mediation in good faith, but i did. and, so long as they aren't presenting a serious case, i'm better off letting this play out, as it just strengthens my hand.
if this blows over, great - although i'd suspect the judge will award me something as she dismisses the case. i still think they're listing the building soon, in which case i should lay low and wait. and, if they do something stupid, i'll have an easy case, given that i've been so accommodating.
this could change. i'll need to call daily. but, right now, i should wait.
bluff called. i think i'm ok...
they could still provide an affidavit. they have until the trial date.
there's two explanations for this, that i can see:
1) incompetence. and, they've demonstrated more than enough of this to consider it plausible...except that they now have counsel, and this would be pretty pathetic if it's incompetence by the counsel. regardless, it could still be coming, and i'll need to call back every day and check to see about it.
2) they never intended this to go to trial - it was a tactic to try and scare me out. in other words, there's no affidavit because there's no family member to move in - it was a bluff, and i've called it.
i need to call every single day. i need to prepare a defence. but, as it stands, they don't have an actual case to present and i'm consequently not under a serious threat of eviction.
so, should i re-open the harassment case? this is my smoking gun, clear as day: an eviction notice without an affidavit is clear and obvious harassment.
1) except for the eviction notice, they've been leaving me alone for the last few weeks.
2) i don't want to present the appearance of lingering conflict - and i can be genuine in avoiding it. the bigger threat is the judge declaring the relationship dysfunctional.
3) i'll be in an even stronger position if i wait it out, as i'll be officially victimized twice and taken advantage of after acting in good faith, the third time. the fourth time will need to be bringing them to justice.
this is counter-intuitive. it's true that they didn't sign the mediation in good faith, but i did. and, so long as they aren't presenting a serious case, i'm better off letting this play out, as it just strengthens my hand.
if this blows over, great - although i'd suspect the judge will award me something as she dismisses the case. i still think they're listing the building soon, in which case i should lay low and wait. and, if they do something stupid, i'll have an easy case, given that i've been so accommodating.
this could change. i'll need to call daily. but, right now, i should wait.
bluff called. i think i'm ok...
except to split out the last track as a single, i've decided not to alter this in any way.
i was moving, conceptually, to more serious styles of music. i wanted to write these epic 20-minute trips that reached into every genre imaginable. you can hear that shift over the last few things i posted, and it really accelerates moving into the year 2000. there wasn't much left of 'inri' by the time i got there.
what i had left was a bunch of noise tracks that i'd been putting aside for a third demo, trinri, that was meant to carry on with the same concept as the first two: "songs" and "collages" would alternate over 19 tracks. the problem i ran up against with trinri was that i was no longer interested in writing songs. what was coming out, instead, were these fifteen minute journeys. that's ultimately the driving reason that i switched things up: the format had worn itself thin.
in an attempt to establish conceptual unity, i pulled the noise collages together (along with some older collages that i had pulled from various sources as far back as my first demo tape) into this thing. i became aware at some point, very suddenly, that the whole idea and product was sort of ridiculous. hence the title.
this recording is consequently void of actual songs. it isn't easy to listen to, and offers few reprieves, but if you're a fan of a specific kind of electronic psychedelia then you may find something of enjoyment here.
written and demoed in multiple stages from 1996-1999. initially constructed in this form in dec, 1999. slightly resequenced in jan, 2014. finalized on sept 19, 2017. this is my third official record; as always, please use headphones.
the last track just got tagged on as an afterthought. it never really fit the theme. so, i've removed it (as of january, 2014) and placed it here: jasonparent.bandcamp.com/album/book-it.
this release also includes a printable jewel case insert and will also eventually include a comprehensive package of journal entries from all phases of production (1999, 2013, 2014, 2017).
i was moving, conceptually, to more serious styles of music. i wanted to write these epic 20-minute trips that reached into every genre imaginable. you can hear that shift over the last few things i posted, and it really accelerates moving into the year 2000. there wasn't much left of 'inri' by the time i got there.
what i had left was a bunch of noise tracks that i'd been putting aside for a third demo, trinri, that was meant to carry on with the same concept as the first two: "songs" and "collages" would alternate over 19 tracks. the problem i ran up against with trinri was that i was no longer interested in writing songs. what was coming out, instead, were these fifteen minute journeys. that's ultimately the driving reason that i switched things up: the format had worn itself thin.
in an attempt to establish conceptual unity, i pulled the noise collages together (along with some older collages that i had pulled from various sources as far back as my first demo tape) into this thing. i became aware at some point, very suddenly, that the whole idea and product was sort of ridiculous. hence the title.
this recording is consequently void of actual songs. it isn't easy to listen to, and offers few reprieves, but if you're a fan of a specific kind of electronic psychedelia then you may find something of enjoyment here.
written and demoed in multiple stages from 1996-1999. initially constructed in this form in dec, 1999. slightly resequenced in jan, 2014. finalized on sept 19, 2017. this is my third official record; as always, please use headphones.
the last track just got tagged on as an afterthought. it never really fit the theme. so, i've removed it (as of january, 2014) and placed it here: jasonparent.bandcamp.com/album/book-it.
this release also includes a printable jewel case insert and will also eventually include a comprehensive package of journal entries from all phases of production (1999, 2013, 2014, 2017).
credits
released December 10, 1999
j - guitar, effects, bass, keyboards, tapes, synthesizers, live drums, drum programming, hammerhead (909 emulator), sound raider, sampling, cool edit synthesis/sequencing, loops, digital effects processing, digital wave editing, flute
j - guitar, effects, bass, keyboards, tapes, synthesizers, live drums, drum programming, hammerhead (909 emulator), sound raider, sampling, cool edit synthesis/sequencing, loops, digital effects processing, digital wave editing, flute
i meant to get inri033 printed off on tuesday night, and my first
package mailed wednesday morning, but my printer wasn't reading on
tuesday night (it turned out my services got turned off, somehow), so i
put it down to have a few beers at a local noise show - only to not get
home until 7:30. shit happens.
the thing is printed and ready to go. so, that's inr011 & inri033 shipping in the first package, within hours. the next will have what will be something like inri049 and inri057 in it - so i have a lot of liner notes to get through.
i skipped over 31 and 32 just to get the first package out. 32 is download only and will be a quick fix; 31 is going to apparently require a few days to approach. after that, it will just be liner notes for the next 20 or so releases; i'm over the hump, and into material i spent 2014 & 2015 on. it's daylight...
i'm going to have to mail that form this morning, too, as well as figure out how i track down the affidavit in the file.
i should get 32 done, but likely won't be back at 31 until i wake up next.
the thing is printed and ready to go. so, that's inr011 & inri033 shipping in the first package, within hours. the next will have what will be something like inri049 and inri057 in it - so i have a lot of liner notes to get through.
i skipped over 31 and 32 just to get the first package out. 32 is download only and will be a quick fix; 31 is going to apparently require a few days to approach. after that, it will just be liner notes for the next 20 or so releases; i'm over the hump, and into material i spent 2014 & 2015 on. it's daylight...
i'm going to have to mail that form this morning, too, as well as figure out how i track down the affidavit in the file.
i should get 32 done, but likely won't be back at 31 until i wake up next.
Wednesday, September 20, 2017
sept 19, 2017 vlog, where i intend to take advantage of the unseasonable weather by putting closing inri031-inri034 on hold and going to a dj set for a few hours, but instead follow a local sound art label owner to somebody's house in an attempt to network, and then don't get home until the morning.
Tuesday, September 19, 2017
so, i slept the day yesterday and didn't want to, but so be it. i
think i'm up, now. i need to take a shower and get back to inri031.
there was no response on the email to the paralegal, so i guess i need to prepare to take this to court. i intend to win both of these battles - and because we now have concrete evidence of the landlord's intent of trying to evict me, there isn't a potential solution - this is a final battle, that will either end with me homeless or with them bankrupt. any belief i had that these people may act rationally is now gone - they are clearly out to harm me, and have been from the start. this is well documented, and should be easy to show.
they have the burden of proof to demonstrate they need this apartment, and they're not going to meet it because it isn't true. it's also going to get messy, as i'm going to need to do research into who this person is, and potentially either catch an old woman in a lie in a court of law or force them to turn on their own daughter. they can't expect to win the case without a cross-examination, as that is an admission of bullshit - and i'll push for an extension and a subpoena, if necessary.
when i reopen the harassment case, the new claim will be for $4680 and i will not allow them the opportunity to apply for good faith, in the future. they have squandered that privilege. all future actions will be met with immediate legal retaliation. it has to be this way, for my own protection. and, the end point has to be for them to sell the property - which i believe they are doing, anyways.
i gave them plenty of opportunities to avoid this, and all i've received in return is furthering levels of harassment. i'm patient, but things have to change; they've thrown away their last chances, and will now need to be brought to justice - which means having their privilege to hold property taken away from them, and a restitution to the victim of their behaviours.
welcome to canada.
now, as for the vlogs, i'm going to have to put them on pause for the remainder of the legal proceedings. they're still coming, but they won't be being published. we'll have to see what happens, but i'll probably increase the lag by whatever is necessary. that will kick in on oct 1 / july 1st.
the plan for this week is to finish inri031-inri033, then get to the post office and then get on the phone with the tenant board about the affidavit, and then get back to the music for a few more weeks. this doesn't happen until next month, so i have plenty of time to prepare the case and win.
there was no response on the email to the paralegal, so i guess i need to prepare to take this to court. i intend to win both of these battles - and because we now have concrete evidence of the landlord's intent of trying to evict me, there isn't a potential solution - this is a final battle, that will either end with me homeless or with them bankrupt. any belief i had that these people may act rationally is now gone - they are clearly out to harm me, and have been from the start. this is well documented, and should be easy to show.
they have the burden of proof to demonstrate they need this apartment, and they're not going to meet it because it isn't true. it's also going to get messy, as i'm going to need to do research into who this person is, and potentially either catch an old woman in a lie in a court of law or force them to turn on their own daughter. they can't expect to win the case without a cross-examination, as that is an admission of bullshit - and i'll push for an extension and a subpoena, if necessary.
when i reopen the harassment case, the new claim will be for $4680 and i will not allow them the opportunity to apply for good faith, in the future. they have squandered that privilege. all future actions will be met with immediate legal retaliation. it has to be this way, for my own protection. and, the end point has to be for them to sell the property - which i believe they are doing, anyways.
i gave them plenty of opportunities to avoid this, and all i've received in return is furthering levels of harassment. i'm patient, but things have to change; they've thrown away their last chances, and will now need to be brought to justice - which means having their privilege to hold property taken away from them, and a restitution to the victim of their behaviours.
welcome to canada.
now, as for the vlogs, i'm going to have to put them on pause for the remainder of the legal proceedings. they're still coming, but they won't be being published. we'll have to see what happens, but i'll probably increase the lag by whatever is necessary. that will kick in on oct 1 / july 1st.
the plan for this week is to finish inri031-inri033, then get to the post office and then get on the phone with the tenant board about the affidavit, and then get back to the music for a few more weeks. this doesn't happen until next month, so i have plenty of time to prepare the case and win.
Friday, September 15, 2017
so, i did get my court order in today, and i'm kind of flabbergasted
that they would do this, as it's the smoking gun i needed for my
harassment suit.
it's really the absolutely dumbest thing they could do, in context.
see, i sued them a few weeks ago for harassing me with the intent to remove me from the apartment. i gave them another chance (to fuck up). the day i gave them another chance, they put through an obviously false eviction notice to remove me from the apartment - thereby giving me the clear evidence i need to reopen the harassment suit. any lingering doubts about the veracity of my claims are now ameliorated - they actually filed the notice, proving my point.
worse is that they have to actually take it trial, because if they don't then they're clearly admitting the harassment. if i show up and walk into a grovelling paralegal, pleading with me to avoid a trial, he's going to have himself on the legal record demonstrating the initial claim. this all seems to have gone entirely over their head, right. in order to get out of this, they have to actually succeed in evicting me - otherwise it's obvious harassment. but, that was the point of the whole thing - this isn't supposed to go to trial, it's just supposed to scare me out of the place. so, they've walked right into a self-imposed trap: if they don't go to trial, it's harassment; if they do go to trial, and they lose, it's harassment.
so, can they win?
in order to win their case, they're going to have to demonstrate the following:
1) they need the unit. "i can save money" is not a need. "i want to" is not a need. this is a difficult burden. one usually puts their kids in there. they're claiming it's a parent, but that would probably mean it's the upstairs tenant's ex-wife (i can look into this), which is laughable.
2) this process is in good faith. but, they just signed a mediation order in bad faith moments before they signed the eviction notice. these people are pathological liars, and i can demonstrate it.
on top of that, they're going to have to get around the following realities, which are definitely not in their favour:
1) they have been repeatedly threatening to evict me for months.
2) there is a negative history at hand.
3) they appear to be selling the building.
4) this unit has problems with insects and with air quality. who wants to move mom into a cockroach infested basement full of sewer gas and cigarette smoke?
it would be hard to imagine a more obviously bullshit case. if i can't win this case, there isn't a case on the topic to be won. so, i expect the paralegal to do everything he can to avoid it. this is a dumb gamble, but it's his clients that no doubt put him up to it.
the hearing is on the 19th. i wouldn't expect an answer until the beginning of november. so, i should be here until december 1st at the earliest....
....but i do expect to win. and, i expect to win the dove-tailed harassment case as well, which i'm hoping gets scheduled after the ruling on the first, so i can use it to demonstrate the point. if not, i may have to refile :\. that's going to cost them a fortune...we're at eight months rent, now, and counting.
what should they have done?
given that they're obviously selling, they should have just waited it out. i gave them a chance to let it blow over, and they blew it.
but, i'll point something out: they have not been harassing me since. or, at least, not since the first day. my hope that legal counsel would straighten them out is working a little bit, at least. we'll see how long it lasts.
i'll also give them another way out: if i show up on the 19th, and they admit that the whole thing is bullshit, i'll drop everything. in fact, i'm going to send them the offer.
that's going to be their last chance. and, it's not by my choosing - they've run out of options.
it's really the absolutely dumbest thing they could do, in context.
see, i sued them a few weeks ago for harassing me with the intent to remove me from the apartment. i gave them another chance (to fuck up). the day i gave them another chance, they put through an obviously false eviction notice to remove me from the apartment - thereby giving me the clear evidence i need to reopen the harassment suit. any lingering doubts about the veracity of my claims are now ameliorated - they actually filed the notice, proving my point.
worse is that they have to actually take it trial, because if they don't then they're clearly admitting the harassment. if i show up and walk into a grovelling paralegal, pleading with me to avoid a trial, he's going to have himself on the legal record demonstrating the initial claim. this all seems to have gone entirely over their head, right. in order to get out of this, they have to actually succeed in evicting me - otherwise it's obvious harassment. but, that was the point of the whole thing - this isn't supposed to go to trial, it's just supposed to scare me out of the place. so, they've walked right into a self-imposed trap: if they don't go to trial, it's harassment; if they do go to trial, and they lose, it's harassment.
so, can they win?
in order to win their case, they're going to have to demonstrate the following:
1) they need the unit. "i can save money" is not a need. "i want to" is not a need. this is a difficult burden. one usually puts their kids in there. they're claiming it's a parent, but that would probably mean it's the upstairs tenant's ex-wife (i can look into this), which is laughable.
2) this process is in good faith. but, they just signed a mediation order in bad faith moments before they signed the eviction notice. these people are pathological liars, and i can demonstrate it.
on top of that, they're going to have to get around the following realities, which are definitely not in their favour:
1) they have been repeatedly threatening to evict me for months.
2) there is a negative history at hand.
3) they appear to be selling the building.
4) this unit has problems with insects and with air quality. who wants to move mom into a cockroach infested basement full of sewer gas and cigarette smoke?
it would be hard to imagine a more obviously bullshit case. if i can't win this case, there isn't a case on the topic to be won. so, i expect the paralegal to do everything he can to avoid it. this is a dumb gamble, but it's his clients that no doubt put him up to it.
the hearing is on the 19th. i wouldn't expect an answer until the beginning of november. so, i should be here until december 1st at the earliest....
....but i do expect to win. and, i expect to win the dove-tailed harassment case as well, which i'm hoping gets scheduled after the ruling on the first, so i can use it to demonstrate the point. if not, i may have to refile :\. that's going to cost them a fortune...we're at eight months rent, now, and counting.
what should they have done?
given that they're obviously selling, they should have just waited it out. i gave them a chance to let it blow over, and they blew it.
but, i'll point something out: they have not been harassing me since. or, at least, not since the first day. my hope that legal counsel would straighten them out is working a little bit, at least. we'll see how long it lasts.
i'll also give them another way out: if i show up on the 19th, and they admit that the whole thing is bullshit, i'll drop everything. in fact, i'm going to send them the offer.
that's going to be their last chance. and, it's not by my choosing - they've run out of options.
i want to provide a little idea of what it was like.
i knew i had to stop, so i opened up notepad and tried to type up some notes. i had determined that the mp3 version and the 2014 mix were somehow phase reversed, and i'm trying to type it out.
1999/1914
no.
1989/18
what.
18990/1999...19....wait...oh...2001...wait...2014. ok.
first sicteon was
(backspace)
gowt swivtion
what?
like, the letters weren't even close.
when i realized what was happening, i slowed down and tried to enunciate, but, even so, i couldn't remember where the letters were on the keyboard. i sat and stared, looking for the 'f'. the 's'. it just wasn't coming...
they weren't obvious typos. it was really all over the place.
the first time this happened, back in 2016, it manifested itself in a difficulty speaking. i wasn't nearly as fucked up this time, although the headache was a lot worse. but the typing was....
....well, you know i'm a sucker for the surreal. if my head wasn't so brutal, i might have even had some fun with it.
i'm realizing that this was a classic hemiplegic. i didn't get an aura this time; i did in 2016. what i got this time was the arm tingling. it was very much mimicking a stroke...
the temperature is coming up this weekend, so i should get the windows open, and i know that will help a lot. but, it means i need to venture out to clean up the cat shit, first. i'm hoping it's not too bad.
i knew i had to stop, so i opened up notepad and tried to type up some notes. i had determined that the mp3 version and the 2014 mix were somehow phase reversed, and i'm trying to type it out.
1999/1914
no.
1989/18
what.
18990/1999...19....wait...oh...2001...wait...2014. ok.
first sicteon was
(backspace)
gowt swivtion
what?
like, the letters weren't even close.
when i realized what was happening, i slowed down and tried to enunciate, but, even so, i couldn't remember where the letters were on the keyboard. i sat and stared, looking for the 'f'. the 's'. it just wasn't coming...
they weren't obvious typos. it was really all over the place.
the first time this happened, back in 2016, it manifested itself in a difficulty speaking. i wasn't nearly as fucked up this time, although the headache was a lot worse. but the typing was....
....well, you know i'm a sucker for the surreal. if my head wasn't so brutal, i might have even had some fun with it.
i'm realizing that this was a classic hemiplegic. i didn't get an aura this time; i did in 2016. what i got this time was the arm tingling. it was very much mimicking a stroke...
the temperature is coming up this weekend, so i should get the windows open, and i know that will help a lot. but, it means i need to venture out to clean up the cat shit, first. i'm hoping it's not too bad.
i stopped around 1:00 to take a nap.
i was back up around 3:00. but, it triggered a nasty migraine, including arm tingling and aphasia. i couldn't find words. and, i couldn't operate the keyboard. i had to go back to sleep...
that itself was bizarre. i think we're all so used to just typing nowadays without thinking about it; i was stuck in a scenario where i had to stare at the keyboard and look for individual letters. even so, i couldn't find them - or i picked the wrong ones. scary shit.
was it a stroke? well, it hit my right arm, sure. but, i've been through this before, and i know i'm prone to migraines. further, my mom has told me that she get migraines like this, too.
what are the triggers?
- when i don't sleep
- when i don't eat
- when i don't get enough water
- when i don't get fresh air
there is somebody dealing with a "fire system" in the back. he's been there for two days. it's quite odd. the air quality in the back might be a factor.
i got enough sleep. i'm going to eat and drink and go from there.
my head is still throbbing, as of right now.
it's not looking like i'm going to ship today, and if my head doesn't resolve itself, i'm not going out tonight, either.
i was back up around 3:00. but, it triggered a nasty migraine, including arm tingling and aphasia. i couldn't find words. and, i couldn't operate the keyboard. i had to go back to sleep...
that itself was bizarre. i think we're all so used to just typing nowadays without thinking about it; i was stuck in a scenario where i had to stare at the keyboard and look for individual letters. even so, i couldn't find them - or i picked the wrong ones. scary shit.
was it a stroke? well, it hit my right arm, sure. but, i've been through this before, and i know i'm prone to migraines. further, my mom has told me that she get migraines like this, too.
what are the triggers?
- when i don't sleep
- when i don't eat
- when i don't get enough water
- when i don't get fresh air
there is somebody dealing with a "fire system" in the back. he's been there for two days. it's quite odd. the air quality in the back might be a factor.
i got enough sleep. i'm going to eat and drink and go from there.
my head is still throbbing, as of right now.
it's not looking like i'm going to ship today, and if my head doesn't resolve itself, i'm not going out tonight, either.
Thursday, September 14, 2017
no. i'm going to have to a/b it.
i can get through inri031 first, though.
i badly wanted to remix this track in 2014, but i couldn't figure out how to do it in cool edit. i may have better luck in cubase.
it's going to come up with a few alternate mixes, as well - which could push the aleph discs forward.
i think i can still ship tomorrow. this is my fault, and i immediately owned it - but i hope he's patient. well, i'm doing what i can.
i need to eat, and get back to this fresh. i have a plan, anyways.
i can get through inri031 first, though.
i badly wanted to remix this track in 2014, but i couldn't figure out how to do it in cool edit. i may have better luck in cubase.
it's going to come up with a few alternate mixes, as well - which could push the aleph discs forward.
i think i can still ship tomorrow. this is my fault, and i immediately owned it - but i hope he's patient. well, i'm doing what i can.
i need to eat, and get back to this fresh. i have a plan, anyways.
this is the botched version.
and, it was the version of hummer - reburned it because it was left unfinished.
and, in fact, i'm starting to think i tossed the disc away because it was scratched. memories are strange things.
in fact, i did work this in 2014, but i've forgotten exactly what i did. i know it led to me cutting out the synth intro as 'missed connection'. i'm going to check my journal, that's what it's there for....
and, it was the version of hummer - reburned it because it was left unfinished.
and, in fact, i'm starting to think i tossed the disc away because it was scratched. memories are strange things.
in fact, i did work this in 2014, but i've forgotten exactly what i did. i know it led to me cutting out the synth intro as 'missed connection'. i'm going to check my journal, that's what it's there for....
so, i'm remembering something, and it's going to need some careful reconstruction.
when i went over the tracks from inri032 - including inri031 - in 2014 (we've pushed ahead to the next year, now), i hadn't set my system up for cubase yet, so i wasn't able to line anything up for a proper a/b. now that i've done so, i'm noticing that the mp3 has a significant difference in sound texture.
this isn't a degradation issue. it's a different mix.
and, this triggered a thought in my mind: i did, in fact, burn this disc twice - and it was, in truth, partly due to quality. i vaguely recall the issue having something to do with dithering. that is, i accidentally dithered and it sounded awful and i had to reburn. and, i carried these two discs around with me for a long time.
i can't find the other disc. i've looked through everything.
to complicate the issue, i remember that the second burn completed one of the tracks - i think it was the nin mix.
i vaguely recall giving away the other disc. now, i'm concerned i gave away the wrong one.
i should be able to figure this out. and, there's an upside to this - i don't have waves or source material for this, but i at least have decent quality mp3s.
i'm going to have to go through inri032 first and figure out which disc i have. did i even rip this disc, or did i rip the other? you'd think i'd have ripped both if i had both. grargh.
i'm thinking the one i wanted to have should have said MASTER in red. and it doesn't - it says demo.
it's a minor concern, in the end - it will just mean i'll have to replace some files. but, i need to figure it out. and, i'm kind of surprised i had forgotten about this, at the time.
when i went over the tracks from inri032 - including inri031 - in 2014 (we've pushed ahead to the next year, now), i hadn't set my system up for cubase yet, so i wasn't able to line anything up for a proper a/b. now that i've done so, i'm noticing that the mp3 has a significant difference in sound texture.
this isn't a degradation issue. it's a different mix.
and, this triggered a thought in my mind: i did, in fact, burn this disc twice - and it was, in truth, partly due to quality. i vaguely recall the issue having something to do with dithering. that is, i accidentally dithered and it sounded awful and i had to reburn. and, i carried these two discs around with me for a long time.
i can't find the other disc. i've looked through everything.
to complicate the issue, i remember that the second burn completed one of the tracks - i think it was the nin mix.
i vaguely recall giving away the other disc. now, i'm concerned i gave away the wrong one.
i should be able to figure this out. and, there's an upside to this - i don't have waves or source material for this, but i at least have decent quality mp3s.
i'm going to have to go through inri032 first and figure out which disc i have. did i even rip this disc, or did i rip the other? you'd think i'd have ripped both if i had both. grargh.
i'm thinking the one i wanted to have should have said MASTER in red. and it doesn't - it says demo.
it's a minor concern, in the end - it will just mean i'll have to replace some files. but, i need to figure it out. and, i'm kind of surprised i had forgotten about this, at the time.
update:
Shipping and return policies for jessica murray
- Shipping Info
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format:
single: $5
ep: $7
lp: $10
double ep (split digital/physical): $10
double ep (both physical): $14
double lp: $20
compilation discs: $10/hr (official releases) + free out-takes
period discs: $10/hr (all sound on disc)
releases are categorized conceptually, rather than by length.
there are 70 minute eps and 65 minute records.
compilation formats (dvd, bd) will be priced at $10/hour of music.
so, a 7.5 hour dvd flac disc will be priced at $75.
i've been unable to derive a flat pricing that makes sense.
types of compilation discs will be:
- dvd flac "box sets" of all singles around an lp. may include free out-takes.
- dvd/bd mp3/flac compilation discs are a running chronological total with no overlap. no extras on these discs.
note that flac is higher quality than mp3.
therefore, mp3 discs contain more music.
pricing is relative to length, only.
be sure to purchase what you WANT.
period discs will be as comprehensive as i can make them, meaning they will include all sound, all notes and all vlogs relevant to the period in question. the pricing will also be absolute. so, if the disc contains 35 hours of official releases, 20 hours of outtakes and 15 hours of vlogs, it will come up to $700. these discs are meant to be thought of as donations to the artist, not as economical market purchases. they will need to ship 20 years after the period closes, to sync properly with the alter-reality.
shipping:
$5 - can
$10 - us/intl
shipping rates are flat to the max, meaning i may gain slightly but i won't lose on shipping. it's otherwise about $3 to make a package. 20% of the sale price goes to transaction fees. this is as cheap as it can be while still being worthwhile to produce. if you buy a very large package (five cds or more), shipping will come down substantially and i'll contact you to talk about ways to make it more fair.
for right now, all discs will have planned limited edition, numbered handmade runs and will be made on demand up to 5000 copies sold, at which point they will be professionally pressed without numbers.
if you want me to send you something twice, you'd better be able to prove it got lost. there will be very few exceptions. sorry.
it's funny how i can turn myself off and on like that.
i told myself i'd need to sleep before i could address inri031. and, i did - for 11 hours.
that's the other side of it, the crash. but, i've been all crash, lately.
these discs are going to be closed soon, and that's a step forwards. but, it doesn't change the fundamental need to organize all of this writing - and all of these videos. in the end, it just means that i'll have that much more organizing to do.
but, i've at least broken the recursion. and, combined with all of the uncertainty around my living arrangements, it may make sense to focus solely on the discography for the next several months.
i am currently waiting for the court date around what i believe to be a frivolous eviction order. the reality is that i will not have much of any options at all, should it go through. i'm going to end up living in a one-room apartment for a while, or perhaps putting my belongings in storage and living on the street. it could be years before i'm able to rebuild the space.
if i end up homeless, i may choose to stay that way; i may sell my belongings out of storage and end up living on coffee and books in the local library.
the order should be here by now. their legal counsel seemed to deny it ever happened. and, i have strong reason to believe that they're selling the building, in which case i should lay low and wait it out.
everything will change should the notice end up in my box. and, i will need to call on monday to figure out if the office received it.
but, it wouldn't make sense to build custom shelves for the apartment - for example - only to get evicted. nor would it make sense to spend the rest of the money my grandmother gave me, because i may need it for last month's rent and moving costs.
i can't afford to move around all of the time. but, there isn't a long term solution on the market for me, right now. i'd have to find a bachelor apartment - or storage - and just cram everything in and sit and wait until something better comes up.
first of all, i don't think they put the court order through. second of all, i think i'd win the case - which would re-open the previous harassment case. in the end, i'm still here and they owe me a lot of money. third, i really do think that the building is being sold, which was the gamble that everything i've been doing always rooted itself in - all i had to do was wait them out.
for right now, my immediate focus needs to be on finalizing what i was able to complete over the last four years. and, i will no doubt look back on this large order as a kind of necessary and welcome refocus.
i told myself i'd need to sleep before i could address inri031. and, i did - for 11 hours.
that's the other side of it, the crash. but, i've been all crash, lately.
these discs are going to be closed soon, and that's a step forwards. but, it doesn't change the fundamental need to organize all of this writing - and all of these videos. in the end, it just means that i'll have that much more organizing to do.
but, i've at least broken the recursion. and, combined with all of the uncertainty around my living arrangements, it may make sense to focus solely on the discography for the next several months.
i am currently waiting for the court date around what i believe to be a frivolous eviction order. the reality is that i will not have much of any options at all, should it go through. i'm going to end up living in a one-room apartment for a while, or perhaps putting my belongings in storage and living on the street. it could be years before i'm able to rebuild the space.
if i end up homeless, i may choose to stay that way; i may sell my belongings out of storage and end up living on coffee and books in the local library.
the order should be here by now. their legal counsel seemed to deny it ever happened. and, i have strong reason to believe that they're selling the building, in which case i should lay low and wait it out.
everything will change should the notice end up in my box. and, i will need to call on monday to figure out if the office received it.
but, it wouldn't make sense to build custom shelves for the apartment - for example - only to get evicted. nor would it make sense to spend the rest of the money my grandmother gave me, because i may need it for last month's rent and moving costs.
i can't afford to move around all of the time. but, there isn't a long term solution on the market for me, right now. i'd have to find a bachelor apartment - or storage - and just cram everything in and sit and wait until something better comes up.
first of all, i don't think they put the court order through. second of all, i think i'd win the case - which would re-open the previous harassment case. in the end, i'm still here and they owe me a lot of money. third, i really do think that the building is being sold, which was the gamble that everything i've been doing always rooted itself in - all i had to do was wait them out.
for right now, my immediate focus needs to be on finalizing what i was able to complete over the last four years. and, i will no doubt look back on this large order as a kind of necessary and welcome refocus.
Wednesday, September 13, 2017
publishing inri030
this little sample collage went a long way over the years. in the end, it needed a home of it's own.
the initial collage, from september 1997, is actually the earliest computer music experiment that i have. years of enjoying playing 'civilization 2' by myself had me imagining soundscapes during events, and they began to arrange themselves in my mind, in patterns. if you were even alive in 1997, you might want to think back to the realities of technology at the time; i had a dial-up internet connection, minimal access to software and little idea of what i might be able to find on the internet. when i finally did find a shareware copy of cool edit '96, it became clear what i was looking for; before that, all i had access to was the default windows 95 software, which included the windows 95 sound recorder.
it would be harder to find this executable nowadays than you might think, unless you have a windows 95 cd (or perhaps a set of windows 95 floppy disks). it was clearly not designed for sound art, but it did have a crude copy and paste operation. really, it had some potential, it just lacked a tactile gui.
while the program was difficult to operate due to a poor user ui, i was able to take advantage of it to produce some interesting sound experiments that would be difficult to reproduce in any sort of other program. you could tell the program to loop or to slow or speed down samples, but you had to make a good guess as to where to paste it in - often with the aid of some napkin math. what i was able to get out of the program is perhaps wholly idiosyncratic, but i would not recommend it at all, not even in the conscientiously goofy retro sense.
really. don't do this. i plead of you.
once the background collage was completed, i initially intended to turn the track into a goofy electro-swing thing, with punk rock guitars, but i found the out from the computer to be noisy and the in from the 4-track to lack dynamics. so, sending the track to tape created too much noise and trying to record in over cool edit seemed to suck the life out of the guitars. i would later realize that this was gear specific: i was using a stock soundblaster from c. 1995 and a stock floor digital effects processor that needed to be warmed up by the tape. a version with vocals was recorded in january of 1998, but it was discarded in favour of the pure collage, which i decided worked well enough on it's own, in a quirky, yet subversive, kind of way. when i burned my first demo cd in june of 1998, i used the strict sample collage (shaped slightly for continuity).
i was assigned an electronic music project in the winter semester of 1999 and intended to use this track, as it narrates the absurdity of a war situation (and even kind of sounds like the 30s). however, i couldn't hand in the first part of the collage because it was lifted directly out of the sample. in the initial context it didn't matter - it was entirely atmospheric, purely conceptual - but it was imperative that it be removed in the academic context and be replaced with something i could assign myself writing credits to. so, i took an isolated experiment with score writing off of the first demo and fused the tracks together, creating a fully original hybrid written/sample piece. this was done twice due to reasons that i don't fully remember, but partly to remove the glitchy cricket sounds in the background; in the end, the second version did not have the sample overlays that the first did, which are only available in the 'early warning' version.
the track was remastered in 2013, along with the rest of the early material, but it didn't work out for any of it, in the end. at the end of 2014, i was able to recreate the originally intended version (with punk rock guitars) by taking advantage of a much newer soundcard, as well as noise reduction and digital mastering software. it was this version that was used in the reconstruction of my first record in january of 2016, but i again had to modify the lead-in; this time, i created an ambient sample collage to rise from the ashes of what i had to destroy.
meanwhile, the initial sound card experiment had also been dramatically updated by the newer technology. the lead track was created on oct 26, 2016 to simply explore the idea of what merging the two completed components together would sound like. in the end, it seemed necessary to release this, in order to be comprehensive.
the track is really more about mental journeys undertaken during long overnights of civ 2 than it is about anything explicitly anti-war, although the ideas intersect and the latter certainly evolved from the former. this is really actually a little bit of a window into what is going on in my own mind, as i'm conquering alien land masses at 3:30 on a wednesday morning.
this track was initially created in the fall of 1997 as an experiment using the windows 95 sound recorder. it was further expanded upon several times over 1998, resulting in several different mixes. a failed rescue was attempted in 2013, while a more successful rescue was carried out on a reclaimed full band version in late 2014. the track was further reconstructed and remastered for inri015 in january of 2016; the lead track was created on oct 26, 2016 out of material that had been remastered over 2013-2016. the ep was created on oct 26, 2016 but not released (and finalized) until sept 13, 2017, in order to properly fit into sequence. as always, please use headphones.
this release also includes a printable jewel case insert and will also eventually include a comprehensive package of journal entries from all phases of production (1997, 1998, 1999, 2013, 2014, 2016, 2017).
the initial collage, from september 1997, is actually the earliest computer music experiment that i have. years of enjoying playing 'civilization 2' by myself had me imagining soundscapes during events, and they began to arrange themselves in my mind, in patterns. if you were even alive in 1997, you might want to think back to the realities of technology at the time; i had a dial-up internet connection, minimal access to software and little idea of what i might be able to find on the internet. when i finally did find a shareware copy of cool edit '96, it became clear what i was looking for; before that, all i had access to was the default windows 95 software, which included the windows 95 sound recorder.
it would be harder to find this executable nowadays than you might think, unless you have a windows 95 cd (or perhaps a set of windows 95 floppy disks). it was clearly not designed for sound art, but it did have a crude copy and paste operation. really, it had some potential, it just lacked a tactile gui.
while the program was difficult to operate due to a poor user ui, i was able to take advantage of it to produce some interesting sound experiments that would be difficult to reproduce in any sort of other program. you could tell the program to loop or to slow or speed down samples, but you had to make a good guess as to where to paste it in - often with the aid of some napkin math. what i was able to get out of the program is perhaps wholly idiosyncratic, but i would not recommend it at all, not even in the conscientiously goofy retro sense.
really. don't do this. i plead of you.
once the background collage was completed, i initially intended to turn the track into a goofy electro-swing thing, with punk rock guitars, but i found the out from the computer to be noisy and the in from the 4-track to lack dynamics. so, sending the track to tape created too much noise and trying to record in over cool edit seemed to suck the life out of the guitars. i would later realize that this was gear specific: i was using a stock soundblaster from c. 1995 and a stock floor digital effects processor that needed to be warmed up by the tape. a version with vocals was recorded in january of 1998, but it was discarded in favour of the pure collage, which i decided worked well enough on it's own, in a quirky, yet subversive, kind of way. when i burned my first demo cd in june of 1998, i used the strict sample collage (shaped slightly for continuity).
i was assigned an electronic music project in the winter semester of 1999 and intended to use this track, as it narrates the absurdity of a war situation (and even kind of sounds like the 30s). however, i couldn't hand in the first part of the collage because it was lifted directly out of the sample. in the initial context it didn't matter - it was entirely atmospheric, purely conceptual - but it was imperative that it be removed in the academic context and be replaced with something i could assign myself writing credits to. so, i took an isolated experiment with score writing off of the first demo and fused the tracks together, creating a fully original hybrid written/sample piece. this was done twice due to reasons that i don't fully remember, but partly to remove the glitchy cricket sounds in the background; in the end, the second version did not have the sample overlays that the first did, which are only available in the 'early warning' version.
the track was remastered in 2013, along with the rest of the early material, but it didn't work out for any of it, in the end. at the end of 2014, i was able to recreate the originally intended version (with punk rock guitars) by taking advantage of a much newer soundcard, as well as noise reduction and digital mastering software. it was this version that was used in the reconstruction of my first record in january of 2016, but i again had to modify the lead-in; this time, i created an ambient sample collage to rise from the ashes of what i had to destroy.
meanwhile, the initial sound card experiment had also been dramatically updated by the newer technology. the lead track was created on oct 26, 2016 to simply explore the idea of what merging the two completed components together would sound like. in the end, it seemed necessary to release this, in order to be comprehensive.
the track is really more about mental journeys undertaken during long overnights of civ 2 than it is about anything explicitly anti-war, although the ideas intersect and the latter certainly evolved from the former. this is really actually a little bit of a window into what is going on in my own mind, as i'm conquering alien land masses at 3:30 on a wednesday morning.
this track was initially created in the fall of 1997 as an experiment using the windows 95 sound recorder. it was further expanded upon several times over 1998, resulting in several different mixes. a failed rescue was attempted in 2013, while a more successful rescue was carried out on a reclaimed full band version in late 2014. the track was further reconstructed and remastered for inri015 in january of 2016; the lead track was created on oct 26, 2016 out of material that had been remastered over 2013-2016. the ep was created on oct 26, 2016 but not released (and finalized) until sept 13, 2017, in order to properly fit into sequence. as always, please use headphones.
this release also includes a printable jewel case insert and will also eventually include a comprehensive package of journal entries from all phases of production (1997, 1998, 1999, 2013, 2014, 2016, 2017).
credits
released July 1, 1999
j - guitars, effects, bass, orchestral sequencing, windows 95 sound recorder, digital wave editing, sampling, production
the rendered electronic orchestra includes piano, electric guitar, orchestra hit, pizzicato strings, violin, viola, cello, contrabass and synth pad.
j - guitars, effects, bass, orchestral sequencing, windows 95 sound recorder, digital wave editing, sampling, production
the rendered electronic orchestra includes piano, electric guitar, orchestra hit, pizzicato strings, violin, viola, cello, contrabass and synth pad.
i'm manic, right now. it's overdue, actually.
i haven't slept more than a few hours at a time in something like four days, and i've barely eaten - to the point where i must stop to eat, or face the consequences.
inri030 is in the write-up phase. i was hoping to get it done before eating, but that's not feasible. inri031 is going to require an inspection after lunch, but probably just needs the write-up. inri032 is download only. and, inri033 is what i need to ship, hopefully tomorrow.
there will be another aleph disc around inri033, which is my third official lp; it's going to be kind of the period 1.3 disc, really. and, i'm expecting my first mp3 disc to close after that, as well - that's the first 35 releases in 320 kbps, for roughly $350.
my first release in the new millenium is inri036, but i won't be shipping another release until 2001, so i'll have a lot more writing in front of me before package #2 goes out.
i haven't slept more than a few hours at a time in something like four days, and i've barely eaten - to the point where i must stop to eat, or face the consequences.
inri030 is in the write-up phase. i was hoping to get it done before eating, but that's not feasible. inri031 is going to require an inspection after lunch, but probably just needs the write-up. inri032 is download only. and, inri033 is what i need to ship, hopefully tomorrow.
there will be another aleph disc around inri033, which is my third official lp; it's going to be kind of the period 1.3 disc, really. and, i'm expecting my first mp3 disc to close after that, as well - that's the first 35 releases in 320 kbps, for roughly $350.
my first release in the new millenium is inri036, but i won't be shipping another release until 2001, so i'll have a lot more writing in front of me before package #2 goes out.
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