no. see...
if you just died in somebody's arms
tonight, you can't be singing a song. you're dead. fucking hair metal.
utterly incoherent nonsense....
it took me a few days
to realize it and get used to the "new" furniture (new for me, anyways),
but i've actually had recurring nightmares about the place i just moved
into. how's that for creepy? strangely enough, the layout of the place
leaves little room for doubt that there's some kind of connection. it's
an old building, and marketed today as a two bedroom apartment, but the
fact that the second bedroom has a separate entrance almost parallel to
the front entrance (i'm using it as a laundry out) and no closet sort of
highly suggests it was once a slave (or at least a paid servant)
residence. point being: it's not an apartment layout you'd ever see in
ottawa, which doesn't really have a history of slavery or indentured
servitude or anything of the type (it is a city that was built too
recently), excluding the obvious colonial thievery...
recurring
dreams are supposed to be based on things you've seen or experienced. i
suppose i could have seen an apartment layout like this in a movie. i
can't remember which one it might have been, though, and, considering i
don't really engage in the medium, that itself seems a little
far-fetched.
so, based on those recurring nightmares,
it seems like i'm probably going to get hunted down in this apartment at
some point. fine. i just hope i have time to get some work done
first....
i have a lot of recurring dreams, i think
most of us do, but it's usually stuff from the past that i can identify
as trying to work something out that was never worked out properly. i
think that's pretty normal stuff. yes: i'm absolutely skeptical about
whether any of us can analyze dreams properly (i'll freely write off the
*content* of the analysis of dreams as pseudo-science), but i think the
*idea* is roughly correct. i do agree that there's some kind of
processing that happens in dreams, and i'll absolutely sit down and give
trying to understand the dream a shot, even if i remain skeptical about
the actual analysis.
this is one of a handful that
i've never been able to put into any kind of context, though. again, it
might seem a little uncharacteristic for me to talk about dreams
producing prophecies. not science, j. right. well...
i
don't really accept the concept of free will. i see the universe sort of
like one of those domino games, where a series of explosions set a
bunch of things off and we're just mindlessly following through with
them. so, i think the future of the universe is already determined. that
doesn't necessarily require a creator; it's an analogy, there aren't
literally dominoes. i'd consider a couple of slabs of energy smashing
into each other and creating a reaction to be sufficient to set off a
set of chain reactions. further levels of abstraction may still defy my
mind, but i don't think we need to bring in any heavy machinery to
explain our singular universe and what happens in it, anyways....
that
may seem like a classical view, but it isn't entirely. the statistical
approach has to do with predicting what is going to happen, rather than
what actually does happen. just because we can't predict how an atom is
going to bounce around doesn't mean there's any actual randomness in it.
i think a lot of people get confused by this point. there is an obscure
interpretation that takes this position, but it's generally discarded
because it's not local.
so, if i think we live in a
pre-determined and fatalistic universe, why couldn't dreams tap into the
pre-determined future somehow? i don't claim to understand the how, but
this is a pretty heavy coincidence...
as it is, i'm
living out this experiment. if i'm killed in this basement by a knife
attack by somebody that breaks in the back door and catches me as i'm
turning the corner out of the studio...
see, here's the thing: move out, right? no. just setting off the inevitable.
