i was up late today. it was close to 6:00 pm. i forced myself to sleep; i felt i needed it. i think that was a smart choice....

i got a smoothie. got some fresh batteries. pushed through the next batch of recitations. made some eggs. checked the news. it's 3:00 am.

looked up some stuff on hep b. there's an incubation period; if i'm showing symptoms, that actually means i must have gotten it at least six weeks ago.

i'm facing the facts: i picked up hep b in the blackout, and i'm going to be sick for a few months until it clears out. i'm going to want to avoid alcohol for a bit. i'm healthy; i should be able to fight it off.

still. ugh.

i don't want to blow another day, but i don't want to get out of bed, either. i'm going to do some filing for the boogeyman single. the timeline will update. and, maybe i'll get back to it in the morning, if i'm still up.

i spent the morning updating the interface on my blogger sites. there's links on the sides, now. this is something closer to what i what i wanted to exist at appspot, and will eventually make it's way there. it's just that blogspot is so much more convenient...

so, this is where i'm posting until they start deleting shit, again. hope it lasts.

yesterday was somewhat of a split day. i got a little bit of work done, but i stopped to sleep. ultimately, the appointment yesterday was stressful. i have no idea how i could have gotten hep b. it's not confirmed yet that i actually do, but i can't even figure out how i'd have antibodies.

i haven't had sex in roughly ten years.

the most rational thing, at this point, is actually that there was an error at the lab. it's just about the only thing that makes any sense.

i was up today around 1:30 and spent the first half of it trying to figure out how to respond. i've decided to focus on the record first, then get a full print out of the results and then research what they say a little more closely. i'll make a decision as to whether i want to take a second test afterwards.

if i am infected, i think the most likely place i could have gotten infected would be at the lab. unless roaches spread hepatitis? i think that would be news if it were true...

i haven't had sex in roughly ten years.

i got something to eat a little after four. i needed to wait a bit to get back to work, for good reasons that i will not share. i posted something to google and went to edit it. error.

what? refresh...

gone.

well, the error gave me the heads up. i copied it to clipboard. try a paste. post. refresh.

gone.

i tried this repeatedly, and it disappeared every time. what's going on?

i don't know. i know that i'm not going to post there any more. i just set up a new blogspot site, instead:

https://dsdfghghfsdflgkfgkja.blogspot.ca/

but, i was also worried that other posts were going to start disappearing, so i had to clear the page off. and, now i'm going to have to spend the night reciting the posts that i cleared off...

i'll be back to work tomorrow.

another short night, tonight. why am i so tired? i don't know. but, my throat has been pretty raw the last few days. and i pooped like eight times today. it wasn't liquid, it was just really frequent. so, maybe my body is fighting with something.

that said, i could probably push myself for a few more hours. but, i want to get a few hours of sleep in now so i don't miss my appointment in the morning.

i actually tried to get the vocal mix done, but what i found was that i was singing too quietly and picking up a lot of static. it's 3:00 am. could i hit that middle point? i dunno. i'd guess i probably could, actually. but, when i say that the guy upstairs is retarded, i'm not insulting him - he is actually mentally retarded. i've picked up a few of his problems over the last few years. probably the dominant one, insofar as it affects me, is that he imagines his own torture and gets stuck in these like masochistic loops. so, if he thinks he sees a bed bug once, he'll see bed bugs everywhere for months afterwards. i'm pretty sure that the reason he has the a/c on in december is that he walked down here once in july and thought it was warm. and if he hears me once in the middle of the night, he will think he hears me every night for the rest of his life.

i can't pretend that this premise upsets me. i just don't want to deal with it.

i'll get the vocals done tomorrow afternoon when i get back. baby steps...

i initially unpublished everything because i wanted to rebuild sequentially without skipping anything or finishing anything out of order. with the imminent completion of my second record, i've now caught up to the point where i'm mostly going to be writing liner notes for the next 40 or so releases.

that is not to say that i have now comprehensively completed my discography up to 2003. that would be untrue. but, the general shape of it is clear, and further modifications will be minor. i have every reason to think that i will push through the next phase very quickly and be back to working on "new" material within a few months.

as the liner notes are incomplete, take them with a grain of salt. some of the numbers are wrong. and, in fact, some of the following numbers will change, too.

what has been republished this evening is as follows (numbers best guess until i get there):

1) deny everything sequence (2000)

inri036: let freedom ring ep-single
https://jasonparent.bandcamp.com/album/let-freedom-ring

inri037: the curious george suite ep
https://jasonparent.bandcamp.com/album/the-curious-george-suite

inri038: ignorance is bliss ep-single
https://jasonparent.bandcamp.com/album/ignorance-is-bliss

inri039: acidosis ep. symph004.
https://jasonparent.bandcamp.com/album/acidosis

inri040: curious george single
https://jasonparent.bandcamp.com/album/curious-george-2

inri041: deny everything lp. fourth record. lp008.
https://jasonparent.bandcamp.com/album/deny-everything 

2) jjjjjjjjjjjjjjj sequence (2001)

inri042: stuck in the... ep-single.
https://jasonparent.bandcamp.com/album/stuck-in-the-middle-of-an-alley-closing-in-on-all-sides

inri043: the time machine ep-single
https://jasonparent.bandcamp.com/album/the-time-machine 

inri044: j's adventures in guitarland ep
https://jasonparent.bandcamp.com/album/js-adventures-in-guitarland

inri045: psilocybin ep. symph005.
https://jasonparent.bandcamp.com/album/the-symphony-of-psilocybin-induced-madness

inri046: intersection... ep-single.
https://jasonparent.bandcamp.com/album/the-intersection-of-two-identical-particles-moving-in-completely-opposite-directions

inri049: existence ep-single
https://jasonparent.bandcamp.com/album/existence

inri051: jjjjjjjjjjjjjjjjjjjjjjjj lp. fifth record. lp009.
https://jasonparent.bandcamp.com/album/jjjjjjjjjjjjjjjjjjjjjjjjjjjjjjjjjjjjjjjjjjjjjjj

3) cynicide/rabit/jjjjjjjjjjjjj^2 sequence (2001-2002)

inri047: cynicide ep-single
https://jasonparent.bandcamp.com/album/to-spin-inside-dull-aberrations

inri048: me, myself ... single.
https://jasonparent.bandcamp.com/album/me-myself-and-the-time-i-thought-this-was-a-good-idea

inri052: the wave. symph006. lp010.
https://jasonparent.bandcamp.com/album/the-wave

inri053: clarity ep-single:
https://jasonparent.bandcamp.com/album/clarity

inri054: 9:46 ep-single
https://jasonparent.bandcamp.com/album/9-46-outside-the-magenta-box

inri055: time single:
https://jasonparent.bandcamp.com/album/time

inri056: rabit is wolf lp. inri011.
https://jasonparent.bandcamp.com/album/rabit-is-wolf

inri057: trepanation nation. symph007.
https://jasonparent.bandcamp.com/album/trepanation-nation

inri058: the imaginary tour ep.
https://jasonparent.bandcamp.com/album/the-imaginary-tour-demo-ep

inri060: untitled double ep single.
https://jasonparent.bandcamp.com/album/untitled

inri061: la la la la single
https://jasonparent.bandcamp.com/album/la-la-la-la

inri062: jjjjjjjjjjjjjjjjjjjjjjjj^2 lp. sixth record. lp012.
https://jasonparent.bandcamp.com/album/jjjjjjjjjjjjjjjjjjjjjjjjjjjjjjjjjjjjjjjjjjjjj-2



4) most of the ftaa sequence (2001-2004)

inri050: noise ep #1
https://jasonparent.bandcamp.com/album/give-em-hell-harry-strung-out

inri057: trepanation nation. symph007.
https://jasonparent.bandcamp.com/album/trepanation-nation

inri059: noise ep #2
https://jasonparent.bandcamp.com/album/atoms-taught-to-twist-the-affected-so-low


5) start of the trivial group sequence (2002-2006)


inri061: la la la la single
https://jasonparent.bandcamp.com/album/la-la-la-la 

inri063: flying ep
https://jasonparent.bandcamp.com/album/flying

inri064: reflections (track) ep-single:
https://jasonparent.bandcamp.com/album/refractions

inri069: reflections (ep). symph008:
https://jasonparent.bandcamp.com/album/reflections


6) period 2 compilation sequence (2000-2003)

inri065: ry30 compilation. lp013.
https://jasonparent.bandcamp.com/album/electronic-pieces-in-a-primitive-style

inri066: vst compilation. lp014-015.
https://jasonparent.bandcamp.com/album/thru

inri067: ambient works vol 1-2. lp016-017.
https://jasonparent.bandcamp.com/album/ambient-works-vol-1-2

inri068: orchestral works vol 1. lp018.
https://jasonparent.bandcamp.com/album/orchestral-works-vol-1


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yes. that's 70 releases, now. and there's still plenty to come...

slow start of the day...

after i ate last night, i sat down to figure out which version i wanted to use for the vocal mix and i ended up falling asleep. i slept a long time, too. i dunno.

but, i'm up now and i've decided that i need to mix it to the album mix for timing reasons and then experiment by listening. only way to find out.

but, i've also republished my discography in full. and i'll need a new post for that...

https://jasonparent.bandcamp.com/music

this is now totally updated.

the vocal mix is coming, still. and there's a final alternate mix that i'm playing with. then it's done. 

frustrating day. same list of things. ugh.

this may be all i get done today. we'll see.

and, we need another update, i think.

near the end of the day on wednesday, i decided that something had to break in the temperature down here, so i turned the heat down while the window was open. i spent the entire day thursday trying to get the thermostat in here to 15 degrees.

i just felt i needed to reset it. these electronic heaters seem to rely more on a relative concept of temperature than an absolute one, and i've come to not trust them as a result of it. you need to recalibrate scales every once in a while. i think that's the right way to think about it. and, i think it was the right choice. but the day was lost...

i had an appointment on friday and spent the rest of the day grocery shopping. so, when i woke up today, i was picking up where i left off on tuesday.

i noticed that the files were too quiet, so i increased their volumes. and, i finished a mastering decision for the seventh track. it sounds like a small amount of work, but it's actually quite large in the scheme of things.

i have re-uploaded 5, 6,7 and 11 with final mixes. i will need to re-upload 8,9,10 tomorrow or the next day. and, what remains is the vocal lead and a couple of undefined extras.

baby steps. slowly but surely. i'll get there, eventually. promise.

i think we need an update, here.

i've been refraining from uploading until i'm completely done. it wasn't supposed to take a long time. but, i've had to cycle back.

i slept on sunday night right after i posted. so, i tried to spend monday doing some real listening. this led me to the conclusion that the mix sounded flat, and i found a mastering error in the source file. but, it was a short day and i crashed quickly.

so, i tried to start the listening process again on tuesday morning with the corrected files and realized it still did not sound good. i spent the day remastering, and only got about halfway done.

i woke up today to more air quality issues and had to keep the windows open. it was also the end of the month, so i had bills to pay and the month to plan, broadly. i decided to keep the windows open all day to get air turned over, and focus on the concert schedule instead.

i've closed the windows, but the air quality remains poor, and i'm about to open them again. it seems like the day is likely lost. this is probably a net benefit, as it will give my ears time to rest.

this is (tentatively) mostly done. one more mix. but, i need to listen, too.

publishing inri019

this is the final section of the last proper inri demo, which was written as somewhat of a suite, but only in a fleeting moment, and then forgotten. it's a sort of sardonic take on the jesus story, in that it follows a persecuted person through a suicide and a resurrection, with tongue in cheek commentary.

initially, it was a song suite about being young and not listened to, culminating in a rather dramatic overreaction - that i ridiculed as counter-productive, partly by reference to kurt cobain, whose suicide is an event that hangs over the childhood of my generation. people that were adults at the time might want to think of it in the same way that they interpreted watching kennedy get his brains blown out on live tv. as i grew up (stated loosely - i was still 17/18, here), i realized this is a general condition of society that is not limited to young people. so, i generalized it to reflect the illusion of what we call "democracy", and gave it an exaggerated persecution complex. the cynicism was targeted at the clinton administration, but in a broader sense i'm sort of ridiculing the rather cartoonish perception of generation x as this kind of raelian mass of fatalist children....

my final vocal edit for viewless focused on a small part of the verse and cut the chorus out altogether. i then distributed that small part into the rest of the song by cutting into parts and pasting it in where i wanted. this drops the more general commentary, which seems like an anachronism, in favour of refocusing the listener on the direct storyline of individual persecution. for suicide, i left the vocal track largely in tact, except to remove the suicide note, which in hindsight also seems like a giant distraction from the satirical storyline. what's left is more direct.

i also want to note that there was a conscious decision to move to a more recited vocal style on the 1999 rerecording (and subsequent 2016 reconstruction), rather than the screamy style that dominates the initial 1996 demo. at the time, i considered screaming to be sort of contrived and passe. the recitation is actually a very considered reaction to something i interpreted as largely cartoonish. i was certainly still heavily influenced by the screamy stuff i grew up with, but it wasn't a characteristic of much of anything i was attracted to after about '97 or so and actually something that i really wanted to distance myself from.

i've pulled back from insisting on recited vocals in order to minimize that contrivedness, but the truth is that the vast majority of music released after about '97 that has screamed vocals very much *is* contrived. time has only cemented my rejection of falsely emotionalized vocals in punk-derived genres.

written and demoed from 1996-1999. initially constructed in this form in january, 1999. a failed rescue was attempted in 2013. compiled on nov 13, 2016. sequenced on nov 22-24, 2016 from parts that were rebuilt over 2013-2016. audio permanently closed on nov 24, 2016. release finalized on nov 27, 2016. this is my second symphony; as always, please use headphones.

section one ("epilag"): initially created in early 1999. remastered on nov 23, 2016.

section two ("viewless"): initially written in 1996. recreated over 1998 and finalized in dec, 1998. a failed rescue was attempted in 2013. reclaimed july 19, 2015. corrected to control for malfunctioning electronics on dec 29, 2015. sequenced nov 22, 2016. vocals added on nov 23, 2016. corrected to remove an errand click on nov 24, 2016.

section three ("anticipation"): background noise built in 1996. rebuilt in late 1998. edited in late 2013. remastered on nov 24, 2016.

section four ("suicide"): initially written in 1996. recreated over 1998 and finalized in dec, 1998. a failed rescue was attempted in 2013. reclaimed july 20, 2015. corrected to control for malfunctioning electronics on dec 27, 2015. sequenced nov 22, 2016. vocals added on nov 23, 2016.

section five ("resurrection"): initially written and recorded on january 4, 1999.

the album version of this track appears on my second record:
jasonparent.bandcamp.com/album/inriched

this release is compiled in the following places:

this release also includes a printable jewel case insert and will also eventually include a comprehensive package of journal entries from all phases of production (1996, 1998, 1999, 2013, 2014, 2015, 2016).

*download only

credits

released January 13, 1999

j - guitars, effects, bass, synthesizers, electric piano, vocals, drum kit, drum programming, sequencing, cool edit synthesis, sampling, light-wave synthesis, noise generators, sound design, loops, tapes, digital wave editing, production

i'm mildly detouring.

this idea of a purely vocal compilation was going to come up one way or another. i was toying with putting it at the end of period 1, or even midway into period 2...

...but it needs to be at the end of period 1.2 and i'm dropping it in right now. it's not going to be completely done for a few days, as i need to complete the new vocals for boogeyman and remaster too cold.

yesterday was a waste, and a short day at that. i guess i needed to catch up on sleep.

i need to be more productive, today. so, let me get started.

i crashed on the first listen through, but i got some listening done when i woke up. i then lost pretty much the entire day to pulling shit out of my face and then running around in the afternoon. it was a long day, all in all - and i crashed long and hard. i've been trying to get going since about 6 am. i've done lots of ranting, at least...

i want to finish the write-up for inri019 before i eat and then at least finish inri020 by the end of the night. that would make it likely that i'll start editing on sunday night, with a potential upload date of tuesday or wednesday.

on some reflection, i've decided that if the aim is really to dissuade stalkers then the two week target is more appropriate because i tend to talk about what i'm doing a week or two in advance. i'm actually even considering moving it up to a month. if i make that decision, it will be in the new year.

for now, i'd say to expect the vlog for the 15th to come up at 00:30 on the 30th - and for me to hold to at least that kind of separation, moving forwards.

i'm going to spend a little time listening to inri019 this afternoon, and hopefully get the cover art mostly done. it's probably going to be the extent of labour completed for the day.

i've got running around to do for tomorrow. but, inri20 and the remaining three tracks for inri021 are what is up, next.

it turns out that i had a click in the track "viewless", and that it had been there from the start. when i finish this, i'm going to do a proper completion of the listening phase i aborted, previously. if i find further clicks, i will address them. but, i've been nulling regularly, so i think it's unlikely...

that means, i've had to update everything with the track in it.

1) inriclaimed:



2) the entire end sequence of inriched:



3) all relevant tracks on inri019, which is also now permanently closed. note the addition of the frustrated mix, too.

i have also uploaded the instrumental version of my second symphony, which is the end of my second record.

the noisy plugin is attached to the vocal version of this symphony. there's also an a capella version that i haven't test yet. together, that will close inri019.

the second record is now completely reconstructed, although i am continuing to play with some minor equalization decisions around tracks 9, 10 and 11 that will be completed in the next few days.

sanity check on inri017 done.

no sanity check required for inri018.

currently working on a sanity check for the bulk of inri021.