Wednesday, June 3, 2015

thoughts on the new speedy ortiz record

i'm leaning towards catching them in detroit tomorrow, anyways, but it's relatively clear at this point that speedy ortiz is going to be a highly engineered kind of mask and basically a vessel for the singer's ambition - until further notice. it floats at you through what is less a level of abstraction and more a layer of obfuscation. there's lots of music like that. it's ubiquitous in folk, and i can never understand why people find it so hard to figure that out. but the type of indie rock this leans towards (it has plenty of poppier aspects...) is generally about "keeping it real", so the calculated nature of it kind of flags itself.

there's more than a few moments on the record worth checking out, and i expect i'll enjoy the show (if i go). but, the way it''s presented here, that disconnect between actually being an interesting mathy-indie-whatever band and pretending to be a silly pop band is more likely to alienate both potential listeners than it is to build a crossover audience.


i suspect they're going to need another record or two to really coalesce.

the bossy thing is a strange kind of feminism. the way i understand feminism is that it's the analysis of male hierarchy, with the intent of constructing strategies for it's abolition. opening up spaces in the hierarchy for women is a way to co-opt feminism - and the struggle against hierarchy in general - rather than a type of feminism, itself. it's reactionary. in the end, the hetero-patriarchal capitalist system remains in place, and it's effects remain in place, it just has a few women in it to give it an identity politics gloss. it merely takes away an effective argument for reform, and replaces it with this neo-liberal concept of "equality of opportunity". this tactic has actually been successfully implemented in quite a few ways since the 80s. the prime example is south africa. today, the government is primarily black, but the apartheid regime has not been meaningfully altered. the upper class has merely opened a few spaces for black faces, while the mass of the population carries on in exactly the same condition that it has for centuries.

how about "let's get together and replace the boss (whatever the boss' gender) with democratic decision making bodies"?

it kind of gets to what i'm saying about ambition. i'm used to hearing indie rock and punk musicians argue against bossiness and domination altogether. this kind of music is generally paired with concepts of anti-establishmentarianism, egalitarianism and anarchism. it's a part of the appeal. the logic of "if men are dominating then women should be allowed to be dominating, too" exists in some kind of other alien spectrum, where domination is not an inherent injustice - the injustice is an unequal opportunity to be dominating.

a part of it might be the cultural changes that accompanied the reagan revolution; i encountered this kind of chicago school logic when i was organizing with occupy by self-identifying leftists, and basically none of them seemed to understand how internalized this kind of capitalist ideology really was in their thinking. you grow up with certain assumptions, and if nobody challenges them then they just don't get challenged. reality tv shows and dramas like game of thrones are more than entertainment - they're cultural propaganda. and they work at levels that we often don't realize.

but it does expose somebody trying to take over the world...

ambition is not an inherently negative trait in a musician, it's just something that needs self-discipline and a network of friends and acquaintances to put bounds around, to ensure that plans of global domination do not interfere with the quality of the output. the talent here is obvious, and global domination may be inevitable. but i'm guessing, from the results, that those checks and balances are not currently in place.

Tuesday, June 2, 2015

you're supposed to be able to stream flac by putting it in an ogg vorbis container. which is something that should be done on the software side; there's no good reason to waste that much memory when it's a minor conversion process. it would make no sense for me to convert these to a lossy format to conform to the server side logic that i'm trying to abolish...

i basically have no idea why i can't get this to work and it's actually really pissing me off. it seems like the most simple thing you could imagine, and yet nothing. and i basically can't do anything until i figure it out...

grargh.

i've more or less concluded that this is a bug in firefox - i'm just not sure if it's a bug they're going to acknowledge as a bug, or a bug they're going to wave their hands on. i've filed a bugzilla report and am going to keep building the discs.

i'm not interested in chrome. it's basically toolbar spyware. and i don't even care if it works in ie or not - it's, like, stop using ie....

they won't admit it's a bug, but i've verified this can't work. oddly, there doesn't appear to be an alternative.

this is willful marginalization, from what i can tell. it should be very easy to allow streaming of flac through the ogg container, and just as easy to allow it to work through installed codecs (which is what it does for mp3s). rather, there seems to be a push from somewhere to discourage native lossless streaming. it's easy to blame adobe, but it's probably more a conspiracy of network admins that want to keep down bandwidth.

i actually don't disagree. but there are valid, local uses for flac embedding. and, whomever breaks first is going to see a boost in usage.

Monday, June 1, 2015

facebook isn't letting me edit old posts or quietly post them past 2008 (annoying...), so this is going to flood something nasty, from 1996-2003 over the next few days.
inri036 is going to need a few new mixes, but i've been wanting to add an html front-end to the aleph-discs, so i'm going back to the very start to do that. i'm going to have to rethink the aleph-concept to make space for new mixes, so i might as well do it now. it also means i'm going to begin the process of deleting information from this page, from the bottom up.

it's not this page that's going to take forever, it's the politics page. and, bluntly, that's not the biggest priority for me at the moment, so i'm thinking i'll probably just skip it until i get done the discography altogether. that means this page should be cleaned up within a week or two, and i'll be moved off of it.

i'm leaning heavily at the moment towards merely hardcoding the journal up to appspot, but i'll take a look at some of the other options before i make that choice. i need something that's open to the general public and doesn't run on scripts that hide posts - so it can actually be read like a journal. i'm guessing livejournal is the right option...

again: this page isn't going dead, but it's going to be reduced to a "normal" facebook page that just posts updates - it's the journal aspect that i'm removing. it will look sort of like a cv.

finalizing clarity (inri054)

inri035 has been permanently finalized without being updated.

https://jasonparent.bandcamp.com/album/clarity

finalizing the wave (inri053)

inri034 has been permanently finalized without being updated.

https://jasonparent.bandcamp.com/album/the-wave

finalizing jjjjjjjjjjjjjjjjjjjjjjjjjjjjjjjjjjjjjjjjjjjjjjj (inri052)

inri033 has been permanently finalized without being updated.

https://jasonparent.bandcamp.com/album/jjjjjjjjjjjjjjjjjjjjjjjjjjjjjjjjjjjjjjjjjjjjjjj

finalizing strung out / give ‘em hell, harry (inri051)

inri032 has been permanently finalized without being updated.

https://jasonparent.bandcamp.com/album/give-em-hell-harry-strung-out

finalizing existence (inri050)

no, that was silly thinking...

they're really inaudible in four of the five mixes unless you're listening specifically for them, and they're sparse at that, but i've updated the string mix to be click free. it was mostly noticeable over the end section. i'd have to do this for the chamber mix comp, anyways.

inri031 has been updated and permanently finalized.

https://jasonparent.bandcamp.com/album/existence

Sunday, May 31, 2015

prematurely finalizing existence (inri050)

inri031 has been finalized without being updated.

something i noticed a few weeks ago (well, i noticed it before then...) was that some of the vstis i'm using are a little crackly. it's more like that i noticed that i missed a few crackles. so, one of the things i'm doing in relistening to the material made since i moved here and started using vstis is to listen very carefully for these little bumps in the final mixes, which can be removed either via digital wave editing or via the crackle remover in cool edit (and i've used both methods). if you open the files up in a wave editor, they're often sharp spikes that can be smoothed by just zooming in and taking the sample down in amplitude. i think it's related to the instrument switching samples, but i'm not totally clear on what's causing these "relics". they almost sound like downsampling errors. whatever they are, i'm going through and carefully ensuring i didn't miss any in bad places.

the mixes on this single have a few crackles. you have to listen carefully for them, but they're there. i actually feel that it adds to the overall sound, here, which is a little bit degraded by design. the choir mix kind of sounds like a handheld hiding in a secret masonic chant, or something, while the string mix sounds almost like an old vinyl.

i was also considering changing the reverb on the string mix to conform to the other string mixes, but the reverb i used in the first place fits the track better - the other reverb is too bright.

i'd also be in a weird spot with this, because the final is a combination of the choir, string and arranged mixes. that means i'd have to change everything, and i'm already happy with the final mix.

so, it's not changing....

https://jasonparent.bandcamp.com/album/existence
i'm actually feeling very anxious and distracted right now and not sure why. head is racing. it's probably a culmination of things. the walk in the morning will probably be good for me.

i've been aware for a while that i'm letting something go in finally finishing period 2. these are songs/tracks/whatever that i've been turning over in my head since 2001-2003 - almost fifteen years. if you'd asked me a few years ago, i might have suggested that i'd never actually finish this. on one hand, it feels good to get past it, but on another there's a sort of sense of loss, as it's coming up against a shift in identity. within a few months, i won't be able to say i have all this work i need to get done - because it will be done. it will finally provide me with some closure about a few things. but, it's going to force me to look at the life i have left entirely differently. existential dread, i guess. but, i mean, it's not like i put myself in this situation on purpose, either, it just happened. time moves forward whether anybody likes it or not. i'll adjust, but i'm losing something here and am going to have to go through a process of flux to get to the other side of it and be able to look back on it wih a sense of accomplishment and enjoyment, and be able to really look forward to do something new.

my completed discography is nearing two full days and will pass that hump by the end of the month. that's a lot to permanently let go of, to move out of the "finish one day" and into the "finished" pile. mentally.

there's people involved. bad relationships. relationships gone bad. relationships that evaporated. i think we all think about the past from time to time, but an artist is inherently tied to it, by the nature of the creative process - and the results of it. leaving ideas open leaves wounds open. closing them closes wounds. closure. literally. it's positive, overall - i'm not arguing otherwise. it's just daunting.

and, i think the next batch of material is particularly daunting in that respect. a little drama to foreshadow it. expect a lot in the music. it's necessary...
inri031 is going to require some careful thought, specifically with the string orchestra version. if i update it, it will probably be to replace it.

the weather here was really nice all week, but went to shit last night. the drop in temperature gives me an opportunity to get some compost out tomorrow morning. but i've otherwise committed to zero packs of cigarettes over june - and am absolutely serious about enforcing it. i was almost cold turkey in february, but the weather helped. june is going to be a bit tougher, but i'm not cracking. this should hopefully overlap with the web site push, once i get through this clean-up and push through to completed material up to mid 2004, putting aside incomplete material over late 2003 and 2004 for a few weeks.

i have a final appointment on the 16th and will be mailing my odsp on the 16th or 17th, for analysis some time around the beginning of july. i will either be granted a few more years or have three months to get a reaction. i've already decided to appeal, which will probably give me a few more months. but if i have to do that, i will have to drop the website idea and get back to production, because i will be in a race against time at that point. i've already decided that i don't have a future post-odsp. i haven't decided on an exact path, which will probably depend on the nature of the denial, if it happens.

i'm thinking about hitting three shows this month for sure and a few more are maybes, but a lot of it is going to depend on how focused i am on what i'm doing. i could very well not want to go to any at all, depending on factors like the weather, my disposition and whether i think i can get through it without buying smokes. i've previously prioritized the show and said "i'll quit the next day". i'm reversing that priority. if i'm convinced i'm going to crack, i'm going to stay in.

so, this is an important few months for me coming up. by the end of june, i should get through a lot of loose ends and have an entire period of my music career behind me, and i should have a better understanding of how likely it is that i'm going to be able to plan around disability.

finalizing to me, myself and the time i thought this was a good idea (inri049)

inri030 has been permanently finalized without being updated.

https://jasonparent.bandcamp.com/album/me-myself-and-the-time-i-thought-this-was-a-good-idea

thoughts on the new son lux single

this isn't the first son lux track where it's like "check the latency, dude". i've been wondering for a while if that's how he's actually getting that glitch effect. i'll wait for the record, i suspect the most compelling material will be buried in there...

finalizing to spin inside dull aberrations (inri048)

inri029 has been permanently finalized without being updated.

https://jasonparent.bandcamp.com/album/to-spin-inside-dull-aberrations

Saturday, May 30, 2015

republishing the intersection of two identical particles moving in completely opposite directions (inri047)

inri028 has been updated and permanently finalized.

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ok...

so, to understand this piece, it's necessary to go back to 1998.

i was working out primitive sequencer parts for the first inri demo and it just sort of crossed my mind that there was really nothing stopping me from composing symphonies except for a lot of music theory. well, if i could write electronic music without training, why couldn't i write symphonies without training? i mean, the score writing program exists in front of me. it was just a question of experimenting with it. i could do it myself...

...but i actually already had a pretty hefty disdain for music theory by the age of 17. i'd managed to come across a music history textbook that traced the deconstruction of western theory from beethoven through to schoenberg and this, combined with my experiences as a guitarist, was enough to prevent me from taking it seriously. the perception i had was of modern composers viewing music theory sort of like how biologists viewed creationism. i use that analogy fairly frequently. it just didn't strike me as relevant.

now, i've softened a bit over time to a view that music theory is best understood in terms of the underlying physics. this renders the theory useless, but upholds the basic relationships between tones as physical, mathematical realities. the thing is the next step of abstraction is understanding that these mathematical objects can be arranged and analyzed in any arbitrary way, and the conventional theory really *is* a fallacy akin to creationism. so, i still hold to the general thesis. this is actually the first serious example of me putting that disdain for the idea that music should have a theory into real action. i remain adamantly of the view that art is not a realm where theories should exist or be viewed with anything other than scorn. theories are rigid, formal things; art is informal, chaotic.

so, it's 1998. i have a scorewriter and a very basic soundcard and i want to bullshit a symphony out of it. i did this by composing a single brief melody by randomly mashing notes into a scorewriter. i then took that melody and pasted it over top of itself at differing speeds (64th, 32nd, 16th, 8th, quarter, half, whole notes). i then took that, cut it off near the end of the half notes and pasted it over itself, backwards.

that might sound like it's going to sound awful, but it actually sounds quite lovely. one could analyze it quite easily, but it's creation is beyond the realm of any rules of construction.

which is where art belongs.

...excepting the algorithm i used, of course. i suppose it's more reich than schoenberg, but kind of more xenakis than either.

the initial version ended up subsumed underneath a messy noise collage that i created independently and have lost the source material for. that messy noise collage was eliminated from the track for the 1999 version, which was reconstructed by reproducing the algorithm. these are tracks 19 and 20 on this systematic exploration of the theme.

in 2001, i ran the midi file through my soundblaster live!, which as primitive as it is, has a much nicer wavetable in it than the primitive soundcard i used in 1998 and 1999 (i don't remember what it was). this is track 21. i also slowed it down by about 20 bpm and allowed the full file to "intersect", which let it breathe more. i've previously not done anything with this mix other than append it to some mix cds. the guitars on the soundblaster are notoriously bad, so there wasn't a lot to do with it....

why? well, i was writing a lot with scorewriters at the time and was just experimenting with the old file, really. but i was also finishing up what would be the only year i would spend in the math-physics department, and thought it sounded like i would imagine intersecting particles *should* sound like. i was generally interested in finding ways to combine science with music then - an interest that is present in older tracks as well and that has stuck with me. i may explore these themes further in time. one of the ideas i really wanted to accomplish was a physical modelling of the universe, to actually simulate the music of the spheres, as pythagoras imagined it. i think i underestimated the complexity of such a task....

of course, i never expected the music of the spheres to be tonal. and i wouldn't expect the sound of particles intersecting to be musical, either. but, we can take some artistic license. if intersecting particles are to make a sound, it OUGHT to be something like this!

now, the place to work out the actual intersection is rather arbitrary. i had initially cut off the entire section of pure whole notes, back in '98. what i wanted to do in '01 was create a sequence where it's cut off incrementally, creating shorter and shorter pieces. i didn't actually do that then, but i did do it in july of 2014.

as for the piece, i haven't changed it much. i've doubled the guitar with a pizzicato string section, and put it through a better guitar synthesizer (and amp simulator, and effects). the sound fonts are otherwise identical, just updated mildly to a better synthesizer.

a string orchestra mix was added at the end of may, 2015.

i've included the midi files of the original composition, if you'd like to mess with it on your own.

written june, 1998. reimagined june, 2001. slightly rearranged and re-rendered at the end of july, 2014. the renders here are from june 1998, june 1999, june 2001 and july 2014. intially released on july 25, 2014. re-released with a new string orchestra mix & finalized on may 30, 2015. as always, please headphones.

credits:
j - programming, digital effects & treatments, digital wave editing, composition.

the rendered electronic orchestras variously include piano, electric guitar, orchestra hit, synth pads, pizzicato strings, violin, viola, cello and pc card.

released june 18, 2001

https://jasonparent.bandcamp.com/album/the-intersection-of-two-identical-particles-moving-in-completely-opposite-directions

the intersection of two identical particles moving in completely opposite directions (string orchestra mix)

written one day in june, 1998. re-created on another day in june, 1999. reimagined on yet another day in june, 2001. a failed remaster occurred at the end of 2013. slightly rearranged and re-rendered at the end of july, 2014. rearranged again at the end of may, 2015.

https://jasonparent.bandcamp.com/track/string-orchestra-mix-2
it's starting to look like this chamber works thing is something i'm going to actually do. i'll take hits on pretension for it, but it's starting to shape up as something worthwhile.

i mean, the strings are 100% synthesized. but they sound good enough to compile a record out of them. i've heard plenty of synthesizer-based classical music, but never anything like this; in a sense, it's just taking it to the next level. it may actually be relatively normal in the upcoming years.

for some of it, yeah, i'd rather find an actual string orchestra (there's more than four parts for most of it). if you're aware of one willing to work for a thumbs up, let me know.

i bought a cheap starter electric violin years ago, but never taught myself to play it. it doesn't help for the low parts. and, as i said, it actually sounds pretty good...

i have a tendency to predict upcoming musical trends. it may, in the end, be just another example of my inadvertent tendency towards incredible foresight.

Friday, May 29, 2015

sometimes, i amuse myself by making things sound as terribly as i can possibly imagine. it's always good for a laugh. but, i'm definitely not using that mix. i'm not even saving it...

republishing the symphony of psilocybin induced madness (inri046)

inri027 has been updated and permanently finalized.

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the core of this was written in my parent's basement in the spring of 2001. planning on going to a rave that weekend, i had previously purchased a large amount of drugs; i was, however, forced to stay in due to having a calculus test that sunday (the rave was out of town). well, my parents were gone for the weekend, most of my friends were out of town and i had a massive stash of drugs...

it is quite literally a symphony of psilocybin induced madness and was written directly into an ancient, hacked score-writing program. while it has been labelled as a symphony of drunken confusion in certain contexts to get around certain social stigmas, this is inaccurate.

around 2006 or so, i took a course in electronic music design that had a recorded component and pulled the score off of my hard drive with the intent of finally recording it properly. the dx7 i had available to me greatly improved the synth patches, enough that i'm willing to let the track rest that way.

i've included midi files of the original composition, if you'd like to mess with it on your own.

written in the spring of 2001. lent out for a different project in jan, 2004. reconstructed in the first quarter of 2006, especially over march. released as a one track single on april 1, 2006. expanded with alternate mixes and re-released on july 23, 2014. the vst mix was added on jan 10, 2015 and the two guitar mixes were added on may 29, 2015. re-released & finalized on may 29, 2015. as always, please use headphones.

credits
j - electric guitars, programming, digital effects & treatments, sampling, composition, production.

the rendered electronic orchestras variously include synthesizers, clavinet, kalimba, nylon guitar, acoustic guitar, electric guitar, bass guitar, piano, banjo, electronic drums, pc card, violin, cello, bamboo flute, flute, viola, soprano saxophone, tuba, trumpet, organ and music box.

released may 15, 2001

https://jasonparent.bandcamp.com/album/the-symphony-of-psilocybin-induced-madness