just an update: i just posted the time machine, published to july 21, 2014.
i'm very, very far behind schedule.
i've been very tired, but i'm feeling beter.
i've decided i have to have a zero (new) ranting policy until i get this worked out. so, i should hopefully be more productive, now.
that was sort of a hump, but it's pushing into something else that's going to be post-heavy, too. just have to keep plugging...
Friday, January 13, 2017
i've republished two more music videos.
1) inertia. this is dated to dec 28, 2013.
https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=fdjPvgGh2qw
2) the time machine (vst mix). this is dated to july 5, 2014.
https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=FtpW0Ve6t8A
1) inertia. this is dated to dec 28, 2013.
https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=fdjPvgGh2qw
2) the time machine (vst mix). this is dated to july 5, 2014.
https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=FtpW0Ve6t8A
Thursday, January 12, 2017
Wednesday, January 11, 2017
i quit smoking one year ago. sort of, anyways. i've bought a handful
of packs over the last year, either when i had set aside all nighters
for drinking or i was going through my biyearly headclear. that's
certainly a lot less than 350+ packs.
350*8 = $2800. $2800/12 = $233.33/month. so, $200+/month. where did it go? the answer is that i went to more concerts, and went to more expensive concerts. i also bought some new hardware. and, i bought a lot of cigarettes for $0.50 or $1.00 a piece.
but, after a year of social smoking, i'm taking the plunge. i made this choice at the detroit bus station in october, on the way to lansing to see touche amore: i'm going zero nicotine on jan 13th, 2017.
well, i've been smoke-free since the end of the headclear, which was on dec 26th this year. so, i'm already cold turkey over the last two weeks. this has been the norm for me for the last year: zero cigarettes for several weeks, then a binge for a night or maybe two, then zero for another several weeks, etc. so, nothing changes today or this week or probably even this month.
it will be in the spring that i'll have to face going to my first concert smoke-free.
but, this is it. it was a good year for me; i made a lot of progress in breaking habits. now, i need to spend the year finishing the job.
350*8 = $2800. $2800/12 = $233.33/month. so, $200+/month. where did it go? the answer is that i went to more concerts, and went to more expensive concerts. i also bought some new hardware. and, i bought a lot of cigarettes for $0.50 or $1.00 a piece.
but, after a year of social smoking, i'm taking the plunge. i made this choice at the detroit bus station in october, on the way to lansing to see touche amore: i'm going zero nicotine on jan 13th, 2017.
well, i've been smoke-free since the end of the headclear, which was on dec 26th this year. so, i'm already cold turkey over the last two weeks. this has been the norm for me for the last year: zero cigarettes for several weeks, then a binge for a night or maybe two, then zero for another several weeks, etc. so, nothing changes today or this week or probably even this month.
it will be in the spring that i'll have to face going to my first concert smoke-free.
but, this is it. it was a good year for me; i made a lot of progress in breaking habits. now, i need to spend the year finishing the job.
this is the second part of pulling the soundcloud site down. it's gone, now. these tracks may or may not end up here, but will moved to singles if they aren't.
most of my songs begin as conventional guitar songs before they get ripped apart and demented into various abstract concoctions. that means that a lot of my pieces have two different versions. i've always deferred the raw guitar versions to eventual live performances, but i'm at a space in life where i realize that these live performances are not likely to ever materialize. so, i'm going to compile the live/guitar versions of my larger pieces here.
it's unclear to me at this point where i will space this in my discography, but it will probably be around 2008.
most of my songs begin as conventional guitar songs before they get ripped apart and demented into various abstract concoctions. that means that a lot of my pieces have two different versions. i've always deferred the raw guitar versions to eventual live performances, but i'm at a space in life where i realize that these live performances are not likely to ever materialize. so, i'm going to compile the live/guitar versions of my larger pieces here.
it's unclear to me at this point where i will space this in my discography, but it will probably be around 2008.
Tuesday, January 10, 2017
grargh.
this isn't the first time i've kind of had one of these reality checks: i moved here 3.5 years ago. the first six months were a wash, and then i was super productive for a year and really happy about it. and, now i've lost the last year and a half sorting through 20 year-old material, and now the last two weeks trying to reconstruct a journal of those 3.5 years.
i'm wasting a lot of time. or, at least it feels that way.
but, i need to reiterate: i'm done. the old material, anyways. it won't be much longer before i can be a little more forward thinking in at least approaching material that needs some live playing.
i know. i know. i'm feeling it, too. why do you think i'm having so much difficulty focusing? but, it will be soon enough.
what i'm upset about is not the amount of time i'm spending on the past but how little time i'm creating in the present. i have almost nothing done.
i'm going to finish the transfer of the soundcloud tracks to bandcamp tonight. it's just a handful of tracks, the most recent in late 2014. and it really demonstrates the sad point: i haven't done any live recording since april, 2015. i haven't even picked up a guitar. it's horrible.
but, soon.
here's those rough tracks. the tracklist will be updating over the next hour...
since i've moved to windsor, i've spent most of my time completing existing recordings. but, i have put aside a few demos for later, too. i'm just interested in sharing these, right now, so they'll be here for streaming, only. i initially had a soundcloud site for this, but i want to shut that down.
these tracks will eventually be moved out of this space, completed and placed on to singles, eps and lps for download.
this isn't the first time i've kind of had one of these reality checks: i moved here 3.5 years ago. the first six months were a wash, and then i was super productive for a year and really happy about it. and, now i've lost the last year and a half sorting through 20 year-old material, and now the last two weeks trying to reconstruct a journal of those 3.5 years.
i'm wasting a lot of time. or, at least it feels that way.
but, i need to reiterate: i'm done. the old material, anyways. it won't be much longer before i can be a little more forward thinking in at least approaching material that needs some live playing.
i know. i know. i'm feeling it, too. why do you think i'm having so much difficulty focusing? but, it will be soon enough.
what i'm upset about is not the amount of time i'm spending on the past but how little time i'm creating in the present. i have almost nothing done.
i'm going to finish the transfer of the soundcloud tracks to bandcamp tonight. it's just a handful of tracks, the most recent in late 2014. and it really demonstrates the sad point: i haven't done any live recording since april, 2015. i haven't even picked up a guitar. it's horrible.
but, soon.
here's those rough tracks. the tracklist will be updating over the next hour...
since i've moved to windsor, i've spent most of my time completing existing recordings. but, i have put aside a few demos for later, too. i'm just interested in sharing these, right now, so they'll be here for streaming, only. i initially had a soundcloud site for this, but i want to shut that down.
these tracks will eventually be moved out of this space, completed and placed on to singles, eps and lps for download.
Monday, January 9, 2017
the cold snap finally breaks today.
the long term looks reasonable. short winter? let's hope for it.
and i need to be far more productive today than i was most of last week.
it took me several days to get through may, 2014 and to the first new release in early june (dated to jan 10, 2001). but i don't have any serious hardware problems for a good year, now. so moving through the rest of 2014 should be relatively fast, so long as i actually do it.
can i get to the end of the year? i got stuck on the electronic symphony near the end of 2014. hopefully, i can get caught up to there if i'm really focused...
http://musicofjessicamurray.blogspot.ca/search?updated-min=2014-04-01T00:00:00-04:00&updated-max=2014-07-01T00:00:00-04:00&max-results=500
the long term looks reasonable. short winter? let's hope for it.
and i need to be far more productive today than i was most of last week.
it took me several days to get through may, 2014 and to the first new release in early june (dated to jan 10, 2001). but i don't have any serious hardware problems for a good year, now. so moving through the rest of 2014 should be relatively fast, so long as i actually do it.
can i get to the end of the year? i got stuck on the electronic symphony near the end of 2014. hopefully, i can get caught up to there if i'm really focused...
http://musicofjessicamurray.blogspot.ca/search?updated-min=2014-04-01T00:00:00-04:00&updated-max=2014-07-01T00:00:00-04:00&max-results=500
Friday, January 6, 2017
Wednesday, January 4, 2017
so, i got roughly a month of opaque posts down today.
i want to say that i'll need to pick it up tomorrow. but, i know that the next batch of posts will be a little lighter, too.
i'm doing this until it's done. but, at the rate of a month/day? i'll be doing this until february. let's hope not...
http://musicofjessicamurray.blogspot.ca/search?updated-min=2014-01-01T00:00:00-05:00&updated-max=2015-01-01T00:00:00-05:00&max-results=500
i want to say that i'll need to pick it up tomorrow. but, i know that the next batch of posts will be a little lighter, too.
i'm doing this until it's done. but, at the rate of a month/day? i'll be doing this until february. let's hope not...
http://musicofjessicamurray.blogspot.ca/search?updated-min=2014-01-01T00:00:00-05:00&updated-max=2015-01-01T00:00:00-05:00&max-results=500
i know i'm posting a lot of computer stuff to 2014 right now, but i had a lot of computer problems...
the bottom line is that i'm an electronic musician, that i've always been an electronic musician (since 1997, anyways) and that fighting with electronics is a big part of what being an electronic musician is all about. it's a nerds only kind of a job.
it's easy enough to be like "just because you're a nerd....", but you don't have to take my word for it. look around. if you avoid a few years of awful 70s and 80s hair metal, which you should avoid anyways, you'll quickly see that the historical record is actually quite uniform.
the person that i know of that has spoken about this most articulately is david bowie, who has admitted over and over again that the stories about drug use and partying (especially in berlin) were in actuality a way to hide the reality around how sterile and boring the recording process actually is. i know that he's on the record for this, over and over. in later years, he dropped the facade and just refused to talk about it, using the argument that he didn't want people to know how boring he is. he apparently use to install a punch card in the studio as a kind of sardonic joke, and make everybody clock in.
but, this reality is across the spectrum. i've heard everybody from roger waters to billy corgan to kevin shields to trent reznor talk about how dry and awful music production and touring is. which, in actuality, might be why all of that awful 70s/80s rock music took it upon themselves to go spinal tap in their promotional material.
i think the key point to keep in mind is that this is meant to be documentation, primarily. i'm publishing it as promo, because why not?, but it's meant for the historical record. if it's going to be interesting or appealing to people, it's going to be interesting or appealing to the same kind of people that enjoy studying journals of composers. which should not be confusing, at all.
the bottom line is that i'm an electronic musician, that i've always been an electronic musician (since 1997, anyways) and that fighting with electronics is a big part of what being an electronic musician is all about. it's a nerds only kind of a job.
it's easy enough to be like "just because you're a nerd....", but you don't have to take my word for it. look around. if you avoid a few years of awful 70s and 80s hair metal, which you should avoid anyways, you'll quickly see that the historical record is actually quite uniform.
the person that i know of that has spoken about this most articulately is david bowie, who has admitted over and over again that the stories about drug use and partying (especially in berlin) were in actuality a way to hide the reality around how sterile and boring the recording process actually is. i know that he's on the record for this, over and over. in later years, he dropped the facade and just refused to talk about it, using the argument that he didn't want people to know how boring he is. he apparently use to install a punch card in the studio as a kind of sardonic joke, and make everybody clock in.
but, this reality is across the spectrum. i've heard everybody from roger waters to billy corgan to kevin shields to trent reznor talk about how dry and awful music production and touring is. which, in actuality, might be why all of that awful 70s/80s rock music took it upon themselves to go spinal tap in their promotional material.
i think the key point to keep in mind is that this is meant to be documentation, primarily. i'm publishing it as promo, because why not?, but it's meant for the historical record. if it's going to be interesting or appealing to people, it's going to be interesting or appealing to the same kind of people that enjoy studying journals of composers. which should not be confusing, at all.
Tuesday, January 3, 2017
the slow down of the last few days is coming to a close. i needed a lot of sleep over the last few days, partly from the 6 hour walk on the 31st and partly from the virus that i'm now largely over. it was about noon yesterday when i finished write-ups for the vlogs all the way until january 25th, so i won't need to worry about that for quite some time. as of this morning, groceries are done until at least the 18th (when i have to go out for an appointment). i have the first of two loads of laundry in; when that's done, i'll take a shower and probably go to sleep. but, i have nothing else to do until the 18th and have every intention to get a good chunk into the period disc by then.
i've got the new drive installed, and have moved a good deal of the data on to it, but i want to let it sit for a bit before i move forwards with it. i mean, what if it dies next week? if it makes it a week, my confidence in it will grow very quickly. this works out because i have all of those posts from 2014-2016 to post, still...
but, it spins. it's a good start, anyways.
i've got the new drive installed, and have moved a good deal of the data on to it, but i want to let it sit for a bit before i move forwards with it. i mean, what if it dies next week? if it makes it a week, my confidence in it will grow very quickly. this works out because i have all of those posts from 2014-2016 to post, still...
but, it spins. it's a good start, anyways.
Monday, January 2, 2017
this is consolidated: youtube, bandcamp, blogspot. i've shut down the delicious link dump, as it's superfluous after the move to blogspot and it was pushing ads in the feed (gross). i'm on the brink of closing down soundcloud, i just need to clear it out first. it's full of spam, because you have to pay to turn the comments off. facebook uses a proprietary feed algorithm, so they've been excluded by choice (that's just another reason to not use facebook). i would also like to add disqus, but they don't support this, either. i'm going to keep an eye out for a comment system that allows for rss and i'll no doubt use it exclusively if it presents itself. in the mean time, this is as much as i can put together in one place.
http://www.rssmix.com/u/8219212/rss.xml
http://www.rssmix.com/u/8219212/rss.xml
even realizing what's going to push me...
i have to think i'll *start* by dual-booting 32/64 bit xp, and only move to 64 bit very slowly.
there's no use in getting too far ahead. what can i say about this very moment?
i did a huge amount of walking on saturday on no sleep while battling what seems like the flu. there was a delay before it knocked me out, but i spent the whole day sleeping.
i'm going to spend the night filing, which includes installing the new drive. i've got vlogs for the next month uploaded and have to do write-ups for them, as well. then i'll finish cleaning when the sun comes up, get in the shower at the end of it and then get back to what i was doing either tonight or tomorrow.
how much longer to finish posting 2014-2016? i don't know.
i have to think i'll *start* by dual-booting 32/64 bit xp, and only move to 64 bit very slowly.
there's no use in getting too far ahead. what can i say about this very moment?
i did a huge amount of walking on saturday on no sleep while battling what seems like the flu. there was a delay before it knocked me out, but i spent the whole day sleeping.
i'm going to spend the night filing, which includes installing the new drive. i've got vlogs for the next month uploaded and have to do write-ups for them, as well. then i'll finish cleaning when the sun comes up, get in the shower at the end of it and then get back to what i was doing either tonight or tomorrow.
how much longer to finish posting 2014-2016? i don't know.
as mentioned elsewhere, the only wall i've had to scale or think i will
ever need to scale is in ram. the newer vst sample plugin libraries want
16+ gb of ram, and i'd need to get to 64-bit to do it. that's a
potential driver nightmare. it's likely workable, i just don't want to
do it until i have to.
i'd have to reimage, to start with. it took a long time to build that image, and i don't want to even think about it. but, i'd certainly use 64-bit xp, fwiw. there's no benefit in upgrading; i just keep the machine offline.
what i'm wondering in the short-run is if i can convert one of these 250 gb drives into a pagefile. it would not be as fast, of course. but, it might potentially let me run a sampler.
this is entirely theoretical, right now: i haven't *actually* had an issue with a sampler that i can't resolve with the existing set-up. it's just that i see where the push factor is, and what's going to eventually force me to upgrade, one day. i'm going to eventually need more ram and have no choice...
i'd have to reimage, to start with. it took a long time to build that image, and i don't want to even think about it. but, i'd certainly use 64-bit xp, fwiw. there's no benefit in upgrading; i just keep the machine offline.
what i'm wondering in the short-run is if i can convert one of these 250 gb drives into a pagefile. it would not be as fast, of course. but, it might potentially let me run a sampler.
this is entirely theoretical, right now: i haven't *actually* had an issue with a sampler that i can't resolve with the existing set-up. it's just that i see where the push factor is, and what's going to eventually force me to upgrade, one day. i'm going to eventually need more ram and have no choice...
actually, you know what? this is a moot point.
i'm not replacing my system partition; that is, my C: drive will remain on an older drive.
the new drive will neither launch the os, nor launch programs, nor do anything else that would be faster over ssd. it will simply store data.
i really just needed a lot more space.
there are currently 3 250 gb hdds in there. i bought it with four. it's split into a lot of partitions, including a 50 gb C: drive. one of the drives is solely for music, and that won't change. what i'm going to do is combine a lot of the smaller partitions together into a larger "discography" partition that will utilize the entire 2 TB drive. this will include things like wavs for burning cds and isos for burning dvds and blu-rays, as well as all of my source material, organized in iso files. so, it's all data storage.
as i move things to the new drive, it will open up space on the old drives. so, the remaining partitions (the virtual machine partition, the temp partition, the install script partition) will be able to grow. extra temp space will be useful, but it's otherwise not going to be much of a change.
again: i didn't buy this to increase speed. the machine is already blazing fast, because it's very well maintained (software. not hardware.). i bought it because i needed more storage space. and, that's the only change i'm expecting - more storage space.
i'm not replacing my system partition; that is, my C: drive will remain on an older drive.
the new drive will neither launch the os, nor launch programs, nor do anything else that would be faster over ssd. it will simply store data.
i really just needed a lot more space.
there are currently 3 250 gb hdds in there. i bought it with four. it's split into a lot of partitions, including a 50 gb C: drive. one of the drives is solely for music, and that won't change. what i'm going to do is combine a lot of the smaller partitions together into a larger "discography" partition that will utilize the entire 2 TB drive. this will include things like wavs for burning cds and isos for burning dvds and blu-rays, as well as all of my source material, organized in iso files. so, it's all data storage.
as i move things to the new drive, it will open up space on the old drives. so, the remaining partitions (the virtual machine partition, the temp partition, the install script partition) will be able to grow. extra temp space will be useful, but it's otherwise not going to be much of a change.
again: i didn't buy this to increase speed. the machine is already blazing fast, because it's very well maintained (software. not hardware.). i bought it because i needed more storage space. and, that's the only change i'm expecting - more storage space.
so, why is my machine such a fast boot and yours so slow?
well, it's 32-bit. my hardware specs are pretty much maxed for 32-bit. but if you're running 64-bit then yours might be better. if you have an old machine, you know it. it's probably not why.
the reason is probably that i keep my software footprint to a bare minimum. i run regular scripts to clear out caches. nothing loads on start-up - not even backup services. and, the machine has xp on it.
so, i'm not disputing the premise. but, if i got a 25% increase in speed from an ssd, that would take my start-up time from ten seconds to 7.5 seconds. it would take my cubase launch time from 20 seconds to 15 seconds.
it hardly seems like it's worth the price, and the associated risk of using volatile storage on a system with very, very high data transfer rates.
what i needed was a lot of safe, permanent storage space. integrity. longevity. size. speed was not in the list of things that are of concern to me.
well, it's 32-bit. my hardware specs are pretty much maxed for 32-bit. but if you're running 64-bit then yours might be better. if you have an old machine, you know it. it's probably not why.
the reason is probably that i keep my software footprint to a bare minimum. i run regular scripts to clear out caches. nothing loads on start-up - not even backup services. and, the machine has xp on it.
so, i'm not disputing the premise. but, if i got a 25% increase in speed from an ssd, that would take my start-up time from ten seconds to 7.5 seconds. it would take my cubase launch time from 20 seconds to 15 seconds.
it hardly seems like it's worth the price, and the associated risk of using volatile storage on a system with very, very high data transfer rates.
what i needed was a lot of safe, permanent storage space. integrity. longevity. size. speed was not in the list of things that are of concern to me.
fwiw, my machine boots in seconds, anyways. it's about a ten second
boot-up. you read through reviews of ssds and it's things like:
outlook launches in less than 30 seconds
i don't run outlook, but it would be launching in less than 30 seconds on my machine, trust me. cubase takes about 20 seconds to launch.
if your machine takes more than 30 seconds to launch fucking outlook, you need more than a solid state drive. you need ram. you need a faster cpu. and you probably need a fucking reinstall of your os, too.
thirty seconds to launch outlook. fuck. what is it, 1998?
outlook launches in less than 30 seconds
i don't run outlook, but it would be launching in less than 30 seconds on my machine, trust me. cubase takes about 20 seconds to launch.
if your machine takes more than 30 seconds to launch fucking outlook, you need more than a solid state drive. you need ram. you need a faster cpu. and you probably need a fucking reinstall of your os, too.
thirty seconds to launch outlook. fuck. what is it, 1998?
Sunday, January 1, 2017
this is completely backwards. the most important issues when you're buying a drive are:
1) data integrity.
2) longevity.
3) size.
4) price.
while ssds might be faster on paper, you will never experience the difference.
i've thought about this, and i'll simply never warm to volatile data storage. it's a contradiction in terms. and i consequently don't expect ssds to win, in the end.
https://www.yahoo.com/tech/battle-between-ssd-hdd-over-141508916.html
(edit: that article isn't opening for me. this one goes through the issues better - although the exaggeration around speed is comical. and, they talk about fragmentation as though it's the 1990s and they've never heard of a defrag.
http://www.pcmag.com/article2/0,2817,2404258,00.asp)
1) data integrity.
2) longevity.
3) size.
4) price.
while ssds might be faster on paper, you will never experience the difference.
i've thought about this, and i'll simply never warm to volatile data storage. it's a contradiction in terms. and i consequently don't expect ssds to win, in the end.
https://www.yahoo.com/tech/battle-between-ssd-hdd-over-141508916.html
(edit: that article isn't opening for me. this one goes through the issues better - although the exaggeration around speed is comical. and, they talk about fragmentation as though it's the 1990s and they've never heard of a defrag.
http://www.pcmag.com/article2/0,2817,2404258,00.asp)
i finally got some winter boots today for the first time in years. it
doesn't seem to snow half as much here as it does in ottawa, so i
haven't needed them, really. but we got a good dump a few weeks ago,
which reminded me i should have something in case i *do* need them. i've
had to trudge through snow drifts in running shoes in the past, and
it....it destroys your shoes. you get boots to save your shoes.
but, the reason i'm posting is to update on a running gag i've had in place for years. i got a good deal, yet again, by buying kid's boots on sale. how small are my feet?
a children's size 6 - made for roughly 6 year olds - was actually just a little bit too big. i got them instead of the 5.5's, which were a closer fit, in case i wanted to double or triple up on socks....
if they were shoes, i would have got 5.5's. so, i can for real buy shoes made for 5 or 6 year olds. i just did. and i'm about 5' 9" - relatively tall, actually.
i've continually pointed to a few biological gender markers like this. i don't think gender is genetic, i think it's a social construct. so, i reject the idea that being trans is a genetic condition (which is the actual scientific consensus, outside of religious circles on the left and right). but, if you pay close attention to trans people, you *will* notice these kinds of things that make you wonder if the rejection of a monolithic social construct around gender does *sometimes*, or *often*, have coincidental biological causes. for me, the things i've noticed most prominently are a lack of body hair in certain regions (i've never grown a hair on my chest, ever) and hand and feet sizes that are pretty unambiguously not-male.
hormones don't change your shoe size, of course. but 36 year-old grown ass men don't fit into shoes made for 6 year-olds very often, either. that's an entirely biological observation, and one that almost never applies to men.
i'm not suggesting we should go around measuring kids' feet and assigning them gender roles based on it. i'm just a little hesitant to declare my absurdly small feet to be coincidental to my gender identity and would point geneticists to markers like this if they want to find something. that's more evidence, to me, of a biological cross-wiring than any desire to wear a specific kind of clothing.
i actually hope i never have to wear them. but i'm glad i have the option.
the boots were something that i needed anyways; i also picked myself up a new 2 TB hard drive for the recording machine this afternoon as my christmas/b-day gift to myself, with a combination of money sent to me and money saved from a quiet december.
i bought the recording pc in 2006 with four 250 gb hard drives. three of them are still spinning. the fourth melted into itself in march, 2014 (i couldn't have saved it...rather, i should be happy that it didn't take the whole machine down, or start an apartment fire).
the immediate purpose of the new drive is going to be to store the entire discography, including period discs with vlogs. i'm going to be working on this in the new year, so i did need this, now - i've waited long enough. but, as i work this through, i'm also going to be converting the drives into permanent storage. there's still not any way to get 100 or 200 gb on a disc; these 250 gb drives will ultimately be ideal storage solutions.
so, what that means is that i've now begun what will likely be a lengthy process of swapping out drives. in the end, all four of those 250 gb drives should be replaced by 2 TB drives.
it's a dual core 3.6. yes, it's ten years old. and, i actually *have* had a few reasons to think about upgrading to 64-bit, specifically issues around RAM. but, i still see no reason at all why i'd want a faster processor than that, and don't see why i ever will. i was aware that the technology was hitting a plateau around ten years ago, and that it was going to take fundamental shift to break through it; that machine could very well last another 20 or 30 years, so i'm comfortable in committing to a long term plan around upgrading it.
but, the reason i'm posting is to update on a running gag i've had in place for years. i got a good deal, yet again, by buying kid's boots on sale. how small are my feet?
a children's size 6 - made for roughly 6 year olds - was actually just a little bit too big. i got them instead of the 5.5's, which were a closer fit, in case i wanted to double or triple up on socks....
if they were shoes, i would have got 5.5's. so, i can for real buy shoes made for 5 or 6 year olds. i just did. and i'm about 5' 9" - relatively tall, actually.
i've continually pointed to a few biological gender markers like this. i don't think gender is genetic, i think it's a social construct. so, i reject the idea that being trans is a genetic condition (which is the actual scientific consensus, outside of religious circles on the left and right). but, if you pay close attention to trans people, you *will* notice these kinds of things that make you wonder if the rejection of a monolithic social construct around gender does *sometimes*, or *often*, have coincidental biological causes. for me, the things i've noticed most prominently are a lack of body hair in certain regions (i've never grown a hair on my chest, ever) and hand and feet sizes that are pretty unambiguously not-male.
hormones don't change your shoe size, of course. but 36 year-old grown ass men don't fit into shoes made for 6 year-olds very often, either. that's an entirely biological observation, and one that almost never applies to men.
i'm not suggesting we should go around measuring kids' feet and assigning them gender roles based on it. i'm just a little hesitant to declare my absurdly small feet to be coincidental to my gender identity and would point geneticists to markers like this if they want to find something. that's more evidence, to me, of a biological cross-wiring than any desire to wear a specific kind of clothing.
i actually hope i never have to wear them. but i'm glad i have the option.
the boots were something that i needed anyways; i also picked myself up a new 2 TB hard drive for the recording machine this afternoon as my christmas/b-day gift to myself, with a combination of money sent to me and money saved from a quiet december.
i bought the recording pc in 2006 with four 250 gb hard drives. three of them are still spinning. the fourth melted into itself in march, 2014 (i couldn't have saved it...rather, i should be happy that it didn't take the whole machine down, or start an apartment fire).
the immediate purpose of the new drive is going to be to store the entire discography, including period discs with vlogs. i'm going to be working on this in the new year, so i did need this, now - i've waited long enough. but, as i work this through, i'm also going to be converting the drives into permanent storage. there's still not any way to get 100 or 200 gb on a disc; these 250 gb drives will ultimately be ideal storage solutions.
so, what that means is that i've now begun what will likely be a lengthy process of swapping out drives. in the end, all four of those 250 gb drives should be replaced by 2 TB drives.
it's a dual core 3.6. yes, it's ten years old. and, i actually *have* had a few reasons to think about upgrading to 64-bit, specifically issues around RAM. but, i still see no reason at all why i'd want a faster processor than that, and don't see why i ever will. i was aware that the technology was hitting a plateau around ten years ago, and that it was going to take fundamental shift to break through it; that machine could very well last another 20 or 30 years, so i'm comfortable in committing to a long term plan around upgrading it.
Thursday, December 29, 2016
i don't want to say this is taking longer than i expected, because i expected it to take a long time. but, i'm behind.
march, 2014 is when the drive crashed. i then bricked my board. i will eventually fix this with the help of a magical device that i have to mail order from asia; in the mean time, i am stopping here to do some editing and cleaning. my throat is really raw, and i think it's partially the dust (although it would help if i went out sometimes).
i know i have dedicated alter-reality fans, and i apologize for the delays, but realize that this will work out to more stability in the long run. when i get all of this data arranged properly, i will be able to quickly generate liner notes for each successive release. remember that this is happening now because i'm finishing the final liner notes for inri000.
i'm actually going to crash, it seems. and i'll be stepping away from the machine for the day when i wake up.
march, 2014 is when the drive crashed. i then bricked my board. i will eventually fix this with the help of a magical device that i have to mail order from asia; in the mean time, i am stopping here to do some editing and cleaning. my throat is really raw, and i think it's partially the dust (although it would help if i went out sometimes).
i know i have dedicated alter-reality fans, and i apologize for the delays, but realize that this will work out to more stability in the long run. when i get all of this data arranged properly, i will be able to quickly generate liner notes for each successive release. remember that this is happening now because i'm finishing the final liner notes for inri000.
i'm actually going to crash, it seems. and i'll be stepping away from the machine for the day when i wake up.
Tuesday, December 27, 2016
i now have all of the notes from 2013 up:
http://musicofjessicamurray.blogspot.ca/search?updated-min=2013-01-01T00:00:00-05:00&updated-max=2014-01-01T00:00:00-05:00&max-results=50
scroll down and read up if you want the narration, i guess. or use the navigation in the side paine.
note: this will eventually be converted into a journal that is properly ordered, chronologically, and is therefore readable. but, this remains a necessary step to consolidate the data, for now.
i'm going to stop to clean up a little and get something to eat before i get back to it. but, i need to start the monthly cleaning when the sun comes up, and i'm going to do some editing while i'm cleaning, so i need to find a cut-off point.
how about this:
(1) 1/2014-5/2014 (when my motherboard was fixed)
(2) 6/2014-5/2015 (finishing period 2)
(3) 6/2015-6/2016 (predictable breakdown, this time due to interference)
i want to get (1) done before i get to cleaning in the morning. but, first i want to eat.
http://musicofjessicamurray.blogspot.ca/search?updated-min=2013-01-01T00:00:00-05:00&updated-max=2014-01-01T00:00:00-05:00&max-results=50
scroll down and read up if you want the narration, i guess. or use the navigation in the side paine.
note: this will eventually be converted into a journal that is properly ordered, chronologically, and is therefore readable. but, this remains a necessary step to consolidate the data, for now.
i'm going to stop to clean up a little and get something to eat before i get back to it. but, i need to start the monthly cleaning when the sun comes up, and i'm going to do some editing while i'm cleaning, so i need to find a cut-off point.
how about this:
(1) 1/2014-5/2014 (when my motherboard was fixed)
(2) 6/2014-5/2015 (finishing period 2)
(3) 6/2015-6/2016 (predictable breakdown, this time due to interference)
i want to get (1) done before i get to cleaning in the morning. but, first i want to eat.
Sunday, December 25, 2016
since i've moved to windsor, i've spent most of my time completing
existing recordings. but, i have put aside a few demos for later, too.
i'm just interested in sharing these, right now, so they'll be here for
streaming, only. i initially had a soundcloud site for this, but i want
to shut that down.
these tracks will eventually be moved out of this space, completed and placed on to singles, eps and lps for download.
these tracks will eventually be moved out of this space, completed and placed on to singles, eps and lps for download.
i'm trapped in an algorithm.
in order to close the liner notes for inri000, i had to have the sections since 2013 included, which meant i had to distribute the vlogs into this blog. in order to do this, i'd have to import my facebook page going back to last year. but, then i'd might as well import the entire facebook page since 2013, and then cut that up for the liner notes.
it doesn't make sense to do today's alter-reality until i've finished importing that page, and it could take a few days. this is necessary to complete the period disc, and i knew it was coming. it makes sense to do it now.
it means i'm going to be bogged down with data for a bit, and just listening to what i've finished over the last few months.
in order to close the liner notes for inri000, i had to have the sections since 2013 included, which meant i had to distribute the vlogs into this blog. in order to do this, i'd have to import my facebook page going back to last year. but, then i'd might as well import the entire facebook page since 2013, and then cut that up for the liner notes.
it doesn't make sense to do today's alter-reality until i've finished importing that page, and it could take a few days. this is necessary to complete the period disc, and i knew it was coming. it makes sense to do it now.
it means i'm going to be bogged down with data for a bit, and just listening to what i've finished over the last few months.
Saturday, December 24, 2016
here is the remaining alter-reality update to catch-up, although expect further alter-reality updates tomorrow and over the next few days.
dec 15th track:
http://therealinri.blogspot.ca/1996/12/demo-16-viewless.html
note at the end of exams:
http://therealinri.blogspot.ca/1996/12/a-little-worried-about-math-exam.html
starting christmas holidays:
http://therealinri.blogspot.ca/1996/12/supermans-dead.html
dec 22nd track:
http://therealinri.blogspot.ca/1996/12/in-completing-this-track-i-have-now.html
i'll close the record tomorrow. i'm going to be filing tonight, i guess.
dec 15th track:
http://therealinri.blogspot.ca/1996/12/demo-16-viewless.html
note at the end of exams:
http://therealinri.blogspot.ca/1996/12/a-little-worried-about-math-exam.html
starting christmas holidays:
http://therealinri.blogspot.ca/1996/12/supermans-dead.html
dec 22nd track:
http://therealinri.blogspot.ca/1996/12/in-completing-this-track-i-have-now.html
i'll close the record tomorrow. i'm going to be filing tonight, i guess.
these are the last two posts on the grapes of wrath:
http://therealinri.blogspot.ca/1996/12/finishing-grapes-of-wrath.html
http://therealinri.blogspot.ca/1996/12/final-thoughts-on-grapes-of-wrath.html
i still have two weeks to catch up on the alter-reality, which is going to include talking about exams and probably not much about christmas, but maybe a bit about christmas break. i'm going to release the first demo in the alter-reality on christmas day (which i think is actually true, as i remember running out of space on the 100 minute tape on christmas day and then writing liner notes while waiting for supper), which means i'm going to finally have the liner notes to close the first demo completely. so, even when i'm caught up, i'll still have a lot of writing to do. another consequence of finishing the first demo in the alter-reality is that the updates will be less regular, as i then get grounded for several months and don't get back to recording until the spring.
so, i have a lot of alter-reality work to do before i can get back to the real reality and get to finalizing the rest of period 1. but, when i do, the workload in the alter-reality should also decrease for a little while.
http://therealinri.blogspot.ca/1996/12/finishing-grapes-of-wrath.html
http://therealinri.blogspot.ca/1996/12/final-thoughts-on-grapes-of-wrath.html
i still have two weeks to catch up on the alter-reality, which is going to include talking about exams and probably not much about christmas, but maybe a bit about christmas break. i'm going to release the first demo in the alter-reality on christmas day (which i think is actually true, as i remember running out of space on the 100 minute tape on christmas day and then writing liner notes while waiting for supper), which means i'm going to finally have the liner notes to close the first demo completely. so, even when i'm caught up, i'll still have a lot of writing to do. another consequence of finishing the first demo in the alter-reality is that the updates will be less regular, as i then get grounded for several months and don't get back to recording until the spring.
so, i have a lot of alter-reality work to do before i can get back to the real reality and get to finalizing the rest of period 1. but, when i do, the workload in the alter-reality should also decrease for a little while.
i finished reading the book yesterday, and then crashed hard before finishing the posts.
i got the post up for the song, yesterday:
http://therealinri.blogspot.ca/1996/12/this-is-new-song-that-i-wrote-this-week.html
i guess i'll post the rest of the posts together, when they're done.
i got the post up for the song, yesterday:
http://therealinri.blogspot.ca/1996/12/this-is-new-song-that-i-wrote-this-week.html
i guess i'll post the rest of the posts together, when they're done.
Friday, December 23, 2016
i lost most of the day grocery shopping, but i've also managed to finish week two.
demo 14:
http://therealinri.blogspot.ca/1996/12/demo-14-mosh-pit-song.html
grapes of wrath second reaction:
http://therealinri.blogspot.ca/1996/12/the-middle-section-of-grapes-of-wrath.html
demo 14:
http://therealinri.blogspot.ca/1996/12/demo-14-mosh-pit-song.html
grapes of wrath second reaction:
http://therealinri.blogspot.ca/1996/12/the-middle-section-of-grapes-of-wrath.html
Wednesday, December 21, 2016
i have the first week of posts up. i'm approaching this at a leisurely rate, due to my ongoing solstice celebrations, so i don't want to criticize myself for taking my time. i'd like to operate roughly in real-time, but the final purpose of this is historical and the slow down is by design, at the moment.
this is for the nov 24th track:
http://therealinri.blogspot.ca/1996/11/its-late-on-saturday-night-and-im.html
this is for the review of the second bush record:
http://therealinri.blogspot.ca/1996/11/its-rusty-razorblade-on-that-suitcase.html
this is my initial reaction to the first third of the grapes of wrath:
http://therealinri.blogspot.ca/1996/11/beginning-grapes-of-wrath.html
this is for the nov 24th track:
http://therealinri.blogspot.ca/1996/11/its-late-on-saturday-night-and-im.html
this is for the review of the second bush record:
http://therealinri.blogspot.ca/1996/11/its-rusty-razorblade-on-that-suitcase.html
this is my initial reaction to the first third of the grapes of wrath:
http://therealinri.blogspot.ca/1996/11/beginning-grapes-of-wrath.html
Tuesday, December 20, 2016
i seem to have lost yesterday filing, and most of today editing. but, i am in bed and have the pdf file open.
it's 30 chapters and 300 pages. i'm going to read it in three 10 chapter chunks and then analyze it in three sections.
of course, there's also the main content of the vlog that's coming up, and i've decided to post it early sunday mornings, then do the readings on sunday afternoons.
for right now, i'm focusing on finishing the readings so i can enjoy the solstice at midnight, and then do some writing afterwards. so, expect the first collection of updates late tonight or early in the morning.
it's 30 chapters and 300 pages. i'm going to read it in three 10 chapter chunks and then analyze it in three sections.
of course, there's also the main content of the vlog that's coming up, and i've decided to post it early sunday mornings, then do the readings on sunday afternoons.
for right now, i'm focusing on finishing the readings so i can enjoy the solstice at midnight, and then do some writing afterwards. so, expect the first collection of updates late tonight or early in the morning.
Monday, December 19, 2016
period 1.2 will not fit onto a dual layer dvd. the idea was always experimental and is being withdrawn.
i'm going to finish watching vlogs this morning, get something to eat and spend the next few days reading.
these are the shortest days of the year. i'm looking forward to the days getting longer again.
i'm going to finish watching vlogs this morning, get something to eat and spend the next few days reading.
these are the shortest days of the year. i'm looking forward to the days getting longer again.
Sunday, December 18, 2016
the next alter-reality update is a little bit different, as i'm thinking about how to close the first demo.
having the alter-reality online is a fun project and everything, and when it's done it will be neat to have a readable blog from the 90s (even if it's reconstructed...), but the actual purpose of the alter-reality is to write the liner notes for the early material in real-time. the entire blog will eventually be converted into the html front-end for the period disc. in the short run, it will be cut into sections and added to each bandcamp record in sequence.
the release date for inri000 is dec 25, 1996. so, i will need to have the first set of liner notes done before the new year. finding an algorithm that works and can be replicated for each successive release is going to be a process.
i need to finish generating the material, first. i've spent the afternoon planning these releases out around the steinbeck novel, which i'm going to start reading when i wake up tomorrow. i've also updated the interface on the blog to include quick links to songs and reviews.
http://therealinri.blogspot.ca/
for the rest of the night, i'm going to continue putting things in motion for tomorrow. i need to do some cleaning, and i need to take a shower. i'll be fresh in the morning.
i don't remember how long the book is, exactly, but i think it's a two or three day read. 400 pages? is that about right? i'm going to seek an online copy, so page numbers might not mean much. but, i'm going to want the first third done for the nov 24th update, the next third done for dec 1st and the final analysis for the 8th. i would have handed in an essay around the 10th or so.
fwiw, i'm sure i'm going to skip texts. but, i really can't think of anything else from grade 10.
there's also going to be a few record reviews, but the second half of 1996 was actually kind of a down point, for me. i think i spent christmas money exploring older records. that's not until next week...
having the alter-reality online is a fun project and everything, and when it's done it will be neat to have a readable blog from the 90s (even if it's reconstructed...), but the actual purpose of the alter-reality is to write the liner notes for the early material in real-time. the entire blog will eventually be converted into the html front-end for the period disc. in the short run, it will be cut into sections and added to each bandcamp record in sequence.
the release date for inri000 is dec 25, 1996. so, i will need to have the first set of liner notes done before the new year. finding an algorithm that works and can be replicated for each successive release is going to be a process.
i need to finish generating the material, first. i've spent the afternoon planning these releases out around the steinbeck novel, which i'm going to start reading when i wake up tomorrow. i've also updated the interface on the blog to include quick links to songs and reviews.
http://therealinri.blogspot.ca/
for the rest of the night, i'm going to continue putting things in motion for tomorrow. i need to do some cleaning, and i need to take a shower. i'll be fresh in the morning.
i don't remember how long the book is, exactly, but i think it's a two or three day read. 400 pages? is that about right? i'm going to seek an online copy, so page numbers might not mean much. but, i'm going to want the first third done for the nov 24th update, the next third done for dec 1st and the final analysis for the 8th. i would have handed in an essay around the 10th or so.
fwiw, i'm sure i'm going to skip texts. but, i really can't think of anything else from grade 10.
there's also going to be a few record reviews, but the second half of 1996 was actually kind of a down point, for me. i think i spent christmas money exploring older records. that's not until next week...
Saturday, December 17, 2016
i am also now finished the aleph-disc for inriched:
https://jasonparent.bandcamp.com/album/inriched-box-set
nothing streams from the aleph-discs. nothing.
it is not necessary to include inri026 because the idea is in the archived versions of the record. so, there's no need to reach into 1.3 with it.
facebook is not co-operating, so i'm a little slow on the timeline update. but, i'm otherwise done up to the next aleph-disc, which is where i wanted to stop and catch-up on the other things. the next few days will be spent on vlogs & alter-reality. i'm actually looking forward to the steinbeck.
https://jasonparent.bandcamp.com/album/inriched-box-set
nothing streams from the aleph-discs. nothing.
it is not necessary to include inri026 because the idea is in the archived versions of the record. so, there's no need to reach into 1.3 with it.
facebook is not co-operating, so i'm a little slow on the timeline update. but, i'm otherwise done up to the next aleph-disc, which is where i wanted to stop and catch-up on the other things. the next few days will be spent on vlogs & alter-reality. i'm actually looking forward to the steinbeck.
publishing inri025
while the
main purpose of the inriclaimed project was to remove the vocals from
the records, i always intended to put a few tracks away and mix the
vocals back in for an ep. this was actually factored into the logic that
had me build a sequence of singles, in the first place. while there
were tracks that i ruled out, i ended up mixing vocals back into most of
those that i considered, constructing enough for a standalone lp.
there is no other way to get all of the vocal remixes at once. this release consequently fills an important functional gap in the discography.
this idea was developed in parallel to the inriclaimed project over the summer of 2015 and first compiled on nov 27, 2016. finalized on dec 17, 2016. lp005. as always, please use headphones.
this release also includes a printable jewel case insert and will also eventually include a comprehensive package of journal entries from all phases of production (2015, 2016).
there is no other way to get all of the vocal remixes at once. this release consequently fills an important functional gap in the discography.
this idea was developed in parallel to the inriclaimed project over the summer of 2015 and first compiled on nov 27, 2016. finalized on dec 17, 2016. lp005. as always, please use headphones.
this release also includes a printable jewel case insert and will also eventually include a comprehensive package of journal entries from all phases of production (2015, 2016).
credits
released January 30, 1999
j - guitars, effects, bass, synth bass, synthesizers, sequencing, drum programming, sampling, cool edit synthesis, light-wave synthesis, found sounds, noise generators, sound design, digital wave editing, loops, vocals, vocal relics, production
j - guitars, effects, bass, synth bass, synthesizers, sequencing, drum programming, sampling, cool edit synthesis, light-wave synthesis, found sounds, noise generators, sound design, digital wave editing, loops, vocals, vocal relics, production
finalizing inri024
when i sat
down to complete my discography in the fall of 2013, one of the first
problems i came up against was what to do with my first two proper
records, inri (jasonparent.bandcamp.com/album/inri-3) and inriched (jasonparent.bandcamp.com/album/inriched).
in some sense, these records were complete: they were early works, but
they were complete recordings and the records were sequenced with quite
a bit of detail. it would not be right to modify them in a structural
sense, as they were completed as they were when they were. however, the
mixes had been degraded rather substantially through compression and the
vocals had a lot of problems. further, i knew the source material was
incomplete, but did not actually check the master tapes to see how
incomplete they were.
i decided that the best thing to do was to try and remaster them using izotope. the result was noticeably "better", and they were released in that form. i also released a compilation of shorts that focused on instrumental sections as inricycled b. however, i had to make a lot of compromises to get to that point. further, the fact that i couldn't remove the vocals continued to bother me.
i finally got around to digitizing the tapes in december of 2014, as an archival step. i did not expect to be able to do anything with this material, but i wanted it digitized to prevent the tapes from deteriorating further. what i learned through this process was that the masters were far more complete than i thought. samples and continuity were missing, but i seem to have dumped most of the sequencing and a lot of the digital noise generation. this forced me to rethink what i was able to present. i decided that if i was going to go through these tracks and recreate them then i was going to do it comprehensively, which would mean completely recreating a number of the tracks. i decided that this would be a project better left for a later date.
by june of 2015, i had made it through the discography to the end of the second period and began finalizing the aleph sequence of dvd and bd flac/mp3 compilations. i decided that the only cohesive way to present period one is as a single disc, which meant i needed to address reconstructing the tracks immediately in order to close it.
the material was digitized via the exact same tascam four-track it was recorded on to, sent out track by track. however, the material was bounced heavily when it was recorded, which means the digitized tracks generally have multiple parts. the four tracks generally exist as follows:
1) an electronics track. drum machines, synths, sequencers, loops, noises.
2) a guitars track. there are usually several guitar parts in this one track.
3) a bass track, or a synth bass track.
4) a vocal track.
unfortunately, digitizing the tracks one by one left them out of sync at a rate of around a half a second per minute, but there is no clear pattern in how they are out of sync. shifting them back in sync was a time consuming process done in cubase by importing the remastered tracks and trying to find markers in the wave files, then using a sort of "newton's method" to compress or decompress the files until they lined up with the master. this issue was compounded by the fact that the initial masters were sometimes subtly out of time. once they were shifted back in sync, the tracks had to be equalized very carefully to try and isolate the constituent parts. for example, a track with a drum machine and a synth may have been split across a high and low shelf to isolate them in the mix. with the exception of this heavy equalization work (and amp simulation for the bass parts), these songs have not been modified from their original form - except to remove the vocals.
this release has rendered the previous inri009, inricycled b, as superfluous and consequently replaces it in the sequence. it has now been moved to inri022.
i am very happy to finally be able to present this material in a form that i would find listenable, today, as an adult. this has been a very long process. i hope you feel that the results were worth the effort put into it, periodically, over many years.
initially written and recorded between 1996-1999 and remixed over the summer of 2015, with a lengthy pause due to malfunctioning electronics. final compilation date is jan 3, 2016. finalized dec 17, 2016. lp004. as always, please use headphones.
* download only
i decided that the best thing to do was to try and remaster them using izotope. the result was noticeably "better", and they were released in that form. i also released a compilation of shorts that focused on instrumental sections as inricycled b. however, i had to make a lot of compromises to get to that point. further, the fact that i couldn't remove the vocals continued to bother me.
i finally got around to digitizing the tapes in december of 2014, as an archival step. i did not expect to be able to do anything with this material, but i wanted it digitized to prevent the tapes from deteriorating further. what i learned through this process was that the masters were far more complete than i thought. samples and continuity were missing, but i seem to have dumped most of the sequencing and a lot of the digital noise generation. this forced me to rethink what i was able to present. i decided that if i was going to go through these tracks and recreate them then i was going to do it comprehensively, which would mean completely recreating a number of the tracks. i decided that this would be a project better left for a later date.
by june of 2015, i had made it through the discography to the end of the second period and began finalizing the aleph sequence of dvd and bd flac/mp3 compilations. i decided that the only cohesive way to present period one is as a single disc, which meant i needed to address reconstructing the tracks immediately in order to close it.
the material was digitized via the exact same tascam four-track it was recorded on to, sent out track by track. however, the material was bounced heavily when it was recorded, which means the digitized tracks generally have multiple parts. the four tracks generally exist as follows:
1) an electronics track. drum machines, synths, sequencers, loops, noises.
2) a guitars track. there are usually several guitar parts in this one track.
3) a bass track, or a synth bass track.
4) a vocal track.
unfortunately, digitizing the tracks one by one left them out of sync at a rate of around a half a second per minute, but there is no clear pattern in how they are out of sync. shifting them back in sync was a time consuming process done in cubase by importing the remastered tracks and trying to find markers in the wave files, then using a sort of "newton's method" to compress or decompress the files until they lined up with the master. this issue was compounded by the fact that the initial masters were sometimes subtly out of time. once they were shifted back in sync, the tracks had to be equalized very carefully to try and isolate the constituent parts. for example, a track with a drum machine and a synth may have been split across a high and low shelf to isolate them in the mix. with the exception of this heavy equalization work (and amp simulation for the bass parts), these songs have not been modified from their original form - except to remove the vocals.
this release has rendered the previous inri009, inricycled b, as superfluous and consequently replaces it in the sequence. it has now been moved to inri022.
i am very happy to finally be able to present this material in a form that i would find listenable, today, as an adult. this has been a very long process. i hope you feel that the results were worth the effort put into it, periodically, over many years.
initially written and recorded between 1996-1999 and remixed over the summer of 2015, with a lengthy pause due to malfunctioning electronics. final compilation date is jan 3, 2016. finalized dec 17, 2016. lp004. as always, please use headphones.
* download only
credits
released January 29, 1999
j - guitars, effects, bass, drum programming, synthesizers, sequencers, found sounds, noise generators, vocal relics, digital wave editing, sampling, production.
j - guitars, effects, bass, drum programming, synthesizers, sequencers, found sounds, noise generators, vocal relics, digital wave editing, sampling, production.
republishing inri023
when i sat
down in late 2013, my intent was just to collect all of the tracks that
were leftover. however, it became apparent quickly that i had a pile of
these weird, glitchy remixes that i meant to do something with, but
just never did anything with. they seemed to form an idea of their own,
so i split them off into this inrimixed ep.
i feel that this decision was a good one, and that this collection has now become an important part of the discography - so much so that i am adding some tracks to it that were initially overlooked and then promoting it to 'remix lp'.
i need to be clear that this is a remix lp full of damaged, glitchy mixes. these tracks were left unscathed by the great remastering of 2013-2016. many of them are sourced from 112 kbps mp3 files, or worse. some are sourced from mono. i'm presenting the artifacts in the compression as a part of the glitch aesthetic. but, these are truly sad excuses for waveforms.
example: the cover art is actually the waveform for track 2; similarities to the mirror reflection of the cover of any seminal eponymous records from the late 60s are purely coincidental. waveforms like that do not bear any resemblance to any physical reality whatsoever. they fail, as waveforms. yet, these are the waveforms we have before us, and these are the sounds that such absurd waveforms make.
i suppose that the reason i have all of these glitchy mixes from the period is that i was planning on making a glitch lp. it's not that i specifically recall that as being wrong, so much as it is that my memories of it being right are not of clear strength. i sort of remember wanting to make a glitch record. the evidence exists that i wanted to make a glitch record. now i have the glitch record that it seems like i always wanted to make. at the least, my current self very much likes the idea that i released a glitch record in 1999.
constructed over 1998. compiled and remastered in late 2013. the first two tracks were corrected to stereo in sept, 2014. the last two tracks were added for re-release as a remix lp in dec, 2016. as always, please use headphones.
i feel that this decision was a good one, and that this collection has now become an important part of the discography - so much so that i am adding some tracks to it that were initially overlooked and then promoting it to 'remix lp'.
i need to be clear that this is a remix lp full of damaged, glitchy mixes. these tracks were left unscathed by the great remastering of 2013-2016. many of them are sourced from 112 kbps mp3 files, or worse. some are sourced from mono. i'm presenting the artifacts in the compression as a part of the glitch aesthetic. but, these are truly sad excuses for waveforms.
example: the cover art is actually the waveform for track 2; similarities to the mirror reflection of the cover of any seminal eponymous records from the late 60s are purely coincidental. waveforms like that do not bear any resemblance to any physical reality whatsoever. they fail, as waveforms. yet, these are the waveforms we have before us, and these are the sounds that such absurd waveforms make.
i suppose that the reason i have all of these glitchy mixes from the period is that i was planning on making a glitch lp. it's not that i specifically recall that as being wrong, so much as it is that my memories of it being right are not of clear strength. i sort of remember wanting to make a glitch record. the evidence exists that i wanted to make a glitch record. now i have the glitch record that it seems like i always wanted to make. at the least, my current self very much likes the idea that i released a glitch record in 1999.
constructed over 1998. compiled and remastered in late 2013. the first two tracks were corrected to stereo in sept, 2014. the last two tracks were added for re-release as a remix lp in dec, 2016. as always, please use headphones.
credits
released January 28, 1999
j - guitars, effects, bass, synthesizers, piano, drum programming, sequencing, vocals, cool edit synthesis, noise generators, found sounds, sampling, loops, sound design, digital wave editing, digital effects processing, noise reduction, a broken tape deck, production.
j - guitars, effects, bass, synthesizers, piano, drum programming, sequencing, vocals, cool edit synthesis, noise generators, found sounds, sampling, loops, sound design, digital wave editing, digital effects processing, noise reduction, a broken tape deck, production.
merging inri022 with inricycled b and closing inri022
this is a collection of rejected tracks from the inri/inriched period. it's just chronologically sequenced. download only.
recorded over 1998. compiled and remastered in late 2013. corrected to normalize for stereo in september, 2014. expanded incrementally between dec, 2014 and dec, 2016. merged with inricycled b and then finalized on december 16, 2016. as always, please use headphones.
this release will also eventually include a comprehensive package of journal entries from all phases of production (1996, 1997, 1998, 2013, 2014, 2015, 2016).
recorded over 1998. compiled and remastered in late 2013. corrected to normalize for stereo in september, 2014. expanded incrementally between dec, 2014 and dec, 2016. merged with inricycled b and then finalized on december 16, 2016. as always, please use headphones.
this release will also eventually include a comprehensive package of journal entries from all phases of production (1996, 1997, 1998, 2013, 2014, 2015, 2016).
credits
released January 27, 1999
j - guitars, effects, bass, bass synth, synthesizers, vocoders, octavers, drum programming, sequencers, noise generators, sound design, vocals, found sounds, cool edit synthesis, digital wave editing, loops, windows 95 sound recorder, sampling, production.
j - guitars, effects, bass, bass synth, synthesizers, vocoders, octavers, drum programming, sequencers, noise generators, sound design, vocals, found sounds, cool edit synthesis, digital wave editing, loops, windows 95 sound recorder, sampling, production.
Friday, December 16, 2016
publishing inri021
the second
record was always a...second record. see, the phenomenon of the
underperforming second record is actually well-established. i just think
it's worth thinking about what a second record actually is, in order to
understand this.
a second record is necessarily the tracks that did not make it on to the first record.
i actually tried to resist this, but i was swayed by the argument (with myself) that the tracks would otherwise be lost because i was shifting in a direction away from the electro-grunge sound, and i would eventually go back and compile them anyways. i had enough raw sound for a full record, so i released a full record.
something that is common of second records is that they are uneven because the tracks are recorded at differing levels of attention. demos that were forgotten tend to get promoted without cause, while the tracks that show evidence of attention tend to seem overproduced, in comparison. in recompleting this record, i've paid attention to the uneven nature that the tracks initially existed in and taken an effort to close the gap where it was needed.
i've also removed two tracks from the initial recording due to a combination of technical and artistic incompatibilities.
while most of these songs have defined concepts underlying them, i have ejected these concepts from the final recording and left them in a series of singles, or behind altogether. i would prefer that this album be understood solely as the instrumental recording of electronic music that i am presenting it as.
written and demoed in multiple stages from 1993-1999. initially constructed in this form in feb, 1999. a failed rescue was attempted in 2013. reconstructed and resequenced over november and december, 2016 from parts that were rebuilt over 2013-2016. finalized on dec 15, 2016. this is my second official record; as always, please use headphones.
the original, unaltered files are also available (along with the original 1999 cd sequence, the failed 2013 remasters and the final reconstructions) as 56-112 kbps mp3s, as i found them, on inriℵ2:
jasonparent.bandcamp.com/album/inriched-box-set
...& inriℵ4:
jasonparent.bandcamp.com/merch/inri-box-set
this release also includes a printable jewel case insert and will also eventually include a comprehensive package of journal entries from all phases of production (1996, 1997, 1998, 2013, 2014, 2015, 2016).
a second record is necessarily the tracks that did not make it on to the first record.
i actually tried to resist this, but i was swayed by the argument (with myself) that the tracks would otherwise be lost because i was shifting in a direction away from the electro-grunge sound, and i would eventually go back and compile them anyways. i had enough raw sound for a full record, so i released a full record.
something that is common of second records is that they are uneven because the tracks are recorded at differing levels of attention. demos that were forgotten tend to get promoted without cause, while the tracks that show evidence of attention tend to seem overproduced, in comparison. in recompleting this record, i've paid attention to the uneven nature that the tracks initially existed in and taken an effort to close the gap where it was needed.
i've also removed two tracks from the initial recording due to a combination of technical and artistic incompatibilities.
while most of these songs have defined concepts underlying them, i have ejected these concepts from the final recording and left them in a series of singles, or behind altogether. i would prefer that this album be understood solely as the instrumental recording of electronic music that i am presenting it as.
written and demoed in multiple stages from 1993-1999. initially constructed in this form in feb, 1999. a failed rescue was attempted in 2013. reconstructed and resequenced over november and december, 2016 from parts that were rebuilt over 2013-2016. finalized on dec 15, 2016. this is my second official record; as always, please use headphones.
the original, unaltered files are also available (along with the original 1999 cd sequence, the failed 2013 remasters and the final reconstructions) as 56-112 kbps mp3s, as i found them, on inriℵ2:
jasonparent.bandcamp.com/album/inriched-box-set
...& inriℵ4:
jasonparent.bandcamp.com/merch/inri-box-set
this release also includes a printable jewel case insert and will also eventually include a comprehensive package of journal entries from all phases of production (1996, 1997, 1998, 2013, 2014, 2015, 2016).
credits
released January 25, 1999
j - guitar, effects, bass, bass synth, synthesizers, piano, octavers, drum programming, sequencing, found sound (paper crumpling), noise generators, sound design, cool edit synthesis, light-wave synthesis, windows 95 sound recorder, sampling, mic noises, digital wave editing, loops, a broken tape deck, chance, production.
j - guitar, effects, bass, bass synth, synthesizers, piano, octavers, drum programming, sequencing, found sound (paper crumpling), noise generators, sound design, cool edit synthesis, light-wave synthesis, windows 95 sound recorder, sampling, mic noises, digital wave editing, loops, a broken tape deck, chance, production.
Thursday, December 15, 2016
Wednesday, December 14, 2016
publishing inri020
i intended
this release to be a short single to house a vocal mix of this track,
the reconstructed album mix and all of the historical versions. but, it
really came back to life on me when i started mixing it. as i was mixing
the track, i was cognizant of the fact that it is both the last release
in this string of reconstructed singles and the oldest song that i have
a recording of. i felt myself coming full circle.
something that i think is actually unique to this track is that i wrote it while i was still living with my mom. that dates the track to when i was in grade 7, that is to 1993 or 1994. i was twelve or thirteen years old at the time and the lyrics very much reflect it. above all else, i felt it imperative that i maintain the innocence of the track.
the track documents a routine that was actually very formative on how i perceive the world around me. when i was even younger, around ten or so, there was a nightly routine around sunset where my mom would yell at me to go lock the door before the boogeyman came in to get us. but, she'd be a little dramatic about it. kind of a...
mom: shhh. do you hear that?
me: it's getting dark, maybe it's...
mom: it's the boogeyman! go run and lock the door before he comes in and gets us!
so, i'd get up and run to the front door and lock it, peering out to make sure there was nobody there.
i don't think i ever thought a boogeyman existed, but i didn't grow up in an affluent neighbourhood and i was well aware of the dangers of straying too far from home after night. i didn't understand much about drugs or gangs at the time, i just knew that sometimes people died of gunshot wounds outside and didn't want to be stuck in the wrong place at the wrong time. it was legitimately important to block off entrance points.
the run had a bit of a rush of adrenaline-based fear to it, because the hallway was dark. getting to the door and back could at times be a little scary.
the fear was very real; i can still feel it, if i remember back to it. it would not begin to rise until i exited the living room, but would then escalate slowly until i got to the door - at which point it would suddenly spike. this would give me an extra boost of adrenaline to get back into the living room with. it was *always* the run back into the living room that was the scariest, because you never knew if they beat you to the door, and were just waiting for you to lock yourself in and then jump on you when you're cornered.
i think that this daily experience probably underlies my heightened level of caution towards risk. i don't reject risk; i've taken a lot of risks over my life. but, i assess it pretty brutally. i seek out worst case scenarios; i plan around assumptions of failure, to ensure necessities are never interrupted for. what it taught me is that risk must be a consequence of security, and not in antagonism with it.
the original demo version, recorded in 1996, is really the only track from the first cassette that can be salvaged without alteration, however accidentally. i was trying to create an eerie lullabye, a kind of banshee song. through the cumulative process of endless modifications over many months, it ended up sounding like an unfinished progressive rock song - or perhaps a campfire song for existential nihilists. but, what i captured without realizing it at the time was that i sound like the child that i was. for that reason, i consider this version of the track to capture it's essence more accurately than the 1998 or 1999 versions did. i wanted to recapture that essence and re-apply it to the final version.
perhaps what happened with the initial recreation is understandable, in the context of what i've discovered about the track, in hindsight. at the end of 1997, i got a new four-track recorder for christmas. i had spent the entire fall programming on an ry30 that i was given to compensate for the loss of the drum kit. when you get new gear, it's first use is always experimental; i used this track as my training wheels in breaking in the new setup, and largely discarded the outcome.
the track got dropped because i'd come to hate it because i thought of it as cutesy and childish. isn't that what happens when we enter our late teens? if i look back on the initial recording and claim it's essence is intrinsically connected with my age at the time of it's recording, does it not follow that i must have despised it as i sought to define myself in opposition to my child-self?
indeed, it specifically was the vocals that i hated. so, i resolved to ruin them through deadpan and atonality and guitar effects. but, once i had done so, i did not like the outcome and rejected the track for the first record. when i recorded the vocals a second time in early 1999 to complete it for my second record, i merely toned down the concept of annihilating the cutesiness in the vocal delivery, leaving a result that is no more engaged and only arguably preferable.
i may have been experimenting with the gear when i recorded the parts, but the tapes digitized very well for the reconstruction project in 2015. there's enough space in the track to allow the modern guitar & bass & synth plugins to function almost on a clean recording. the remix process allowed me to rediscover the eerie, psychedelic nature of the track and take it closer to it's intended conclusion of constructing a feeling of empty dread and uncertainty.
on sequencing the instrumental remaster of the second record in late 2016, i decided that there was an excess of silence at the beginning of the track that needed to be cut off in order to place it into the proper flow of the record. so, i opened it up in cubase and cut the appropriate section of silence out. i was then distracted by something, and returned to the project unable to remember if i had actually cut the silence or not. in order to check, i re-imported the file. the logic is that if they are out of phase then the cut was made. this was the case, but i immediately made the connection, on playback, to the echo being representative of coming footsteps and sought to expand the idea further.
this resulted in a series of remixes that take the track increasingly out of phase, along with increasing adornments, and then climax in manipulating the speed of the tape as a supplementary effect to increase the disorientation. these were arranged into a sequence of increasing, and then decreasing, complexity.
before i went off on this tangent, i was planning on reconstructing a vocal mix with the reconstruction from tape as the base soundscape. but, all of a sudden, i now had a dozen versions to pick from. i decided that the best thing to do was to experiment. this led to me mixing several of the remixes together, which is the final instrumental out for the record.
the vocal recordings i had from 1997 were unusable, so i had to redo them. but, this was an opportunity to regain the essence of the track by reintroducing a sense of innocence to the oppressive electronics and elusive guitars. my initial plan was to use a solitary voice, but i found that it did not mix well into the same frequency range as the interlock of stereo-spectrum guitars, so i instead recorded the track multiple times and set each recording to a different space in the spectrum. this creates a natural "chorus" effect on playback that blurs the frequency and better allows the vocals to compete with the guitars. i then thickened the chorus further by pitch-shifting it up an octave, which brought in the child-like innocence that i sought for the vocals.
as i was redoing the vocal part, i rejected the track a final time. at 35, why was i singing vocals i wrote when i was 12? is this clinical? but, i followed through with it to close the circle. inri is forever done.
initially written in 1993. first full recording in 1996. recreated in dec, 1997 and again in jan, 1999. a failed rescue was attempted in 2013. reclaimed on july 2, 2015. remixed on july 15, 2015. reconceptualized & remixed repeatedly over november & december, 2016. finalized on dec 13, 2016. as always, please use headphones.
the album version of this track appears on my second record:
jasonparent.bandcamp.com/album/inriched
this release is compiled in the following places:
jasonparent.bandcamp.com/album/inriched-box-set
jasonparent.bandcamp.com/merch/inri-box-set
this release also includes a printable jewel case insert and will also eventually include a comprehensive package of journal entries from all phases of production (1996, 1998, 1999, 2013, 2015, 2016).
*download only
something that i think is actually unique to this track is that i wrote it while i was still living with my mom. that dates the track to when i was in grade 7, that is to 1993 or 1994. i was twelve or thirteen years old at the time and the lyrics very much reflect it. above all else, i felt it imperative that i maintain the innocence of the track.
the track documents a routine that was actually very formative on how i perceive the world around me. when i was even younger, around ten or so, there was a nightly routine around sunset where my mom would yell at me to go lock the door before the boogeyman came in to get us. but, she'd be a little dramatic about it. kind of a...
mom: shhh. do you hear that?
me: it's getting dark, maybe it's...
mom: it's the boogeyman! go run and lock the door before he comes in and gets us!
so, i'd get up and run to the front door and lock it, peering out to make sure there was nobody there.
i don't think i ever thought a boogeyman existed, but i didn't grow up in an affluent neighbourhood and i was well aware of the dangers of straying too far from home after night. i didn't understand much about drugs or gangs at the time, i just knew that sometimes people died of gunshot wounds outside and didn't want to be stuck in the wrong place at the wrong time. it was legitimately important to block off entrance points.
the run had a bit of a rush of adrenaline-based fear to it, because the hallway was dark. getting to the door and back could at times be a little scary.
the fear was very real; i can still feel it, if i remember back to it. it would not begin to rise until i exited the living room, but would then escalate slowly until i got to the door - at which point it would suddenly spike. this would give me an extra boost of adrenaline to get back into the living room with. it was *always* the run back into the living room that was the scariest, because you never knew if they beat you to the door, and were just waiting for you to lock yourself in and then jump on you when you're cornered.
i think that this daily experience probably underlies my heightened level of caution towards risk. i don't reject risk; i've taken a lot of risks over my life. but, i assess it pretty brutally. i seek out worst case scenarios; i plan around assumptions of failure, to ensure necessities are never interrupted for. what it taught me is that risk must be a consequence of security, and not in antagonism with it.
the original demo version, recorded in 1996, is really the only track from the first cassette that can be salvaged without alteration, however accidentally. i was trying to create an eerie lullabye, a kind of banshee song. through the cumulative process of endless modifications over many months, it ended up sounding like an unfinished progressive rock song - or perhaps a campfire song for existential nihilists. but, what i captured without realizing it at the time was that i sound like the child that i was. for that reason, i consider this version of the track to capture it's essence more accurately than the 1998 or 1999 versions did. i wanted to recapture that essence and re-apply it to the final version.
perhaps what happened with the initial recreation is understandable, in the context of what i've discovered about the track, in hindsight. at the end of 1997, i got a new four-track recorder for christmas. i had spent the entire fall programming on an ry30 that i was given to compensate for the loss of the drum kit. when you get new gear, it's first use is always experimental; i used this track as my training wheels in breaking in the new setup, and largely discarded the outcome.
the track got dropped because i'd come to hate it because i thought of it as cutesy and childish. isn't that what happens when we enter our late teens? if i look back on the initial recording and claim it's essence is intrinsically connected with my age at the time of it's recording, does it not follow that i must have despised it as i sought to define myself in opposition to my child-self?
indeed, it specifically was the vocals that i hated. so, i resolved to ruin them through deadpan and atonality and guitar effects. but, once i had done so, i did not like the outcome and rejected the track for the first record. when i recorded the vocals a second time in early 1999 to complete it for my second record, i merely toned down the concept of annihilating the cutesiness in the vocal delivery, leaving a result that is no more engaged and only arguably preferable.
i may have been experimenting with the gear when i recorded the parts, but the tapes digitized very well for the reconstruction project in 2015. there's enough space in the track to allow the modern guitar & bass & synth plugins to function almost on a clean recording. the remix process allowed me to rediscover the eerie, psychedelic nature of the track and take it closer to it's intended conclusion of constructing a feeling of empty dread and uncertainty.
on sequencing the instrumental remaster of the second record in late 2016, i decided that there was an excess of silence at the beginning of the track that needed to be cut off in order to place it into the proper flow of the record. so, i opened it up in cubase and cut the appropriate section of silence out. i was then distracted by something, and returned to the project unable to remember if i had actually cut the silence or not. in order to check, i re-imported the file. the logic is that if they are out of phase then the cut was made. this was the case, but i immediately made the connection, on playback, to the echo being representative of coming footsteps and sought to expand the idea further.
this resulted in a series of remixes that take the track increasingly out of phase, along with increasing adornments, and then climax in manipulating the speed of the tape as a supplementary effect to increase the disorientation. these were arranged into a sequence of increasing, and then decreasing, complexity.
before i went off on this tangent, i was planning on reconstructing a vocal mix with the reconstruction from tape as the base soundscape. but, all of a sudden, i now had a dozen versions to pick from. i decided that the best thing to do was to experiment. this led to me mixing several of the remixes together, which is the final instrumental out for the record.
the vocal recordings i had from 1997 were unusable, so i had to redo them. but, this was an opportunity to regain the essence of the track by reintroducing a sense of innocence to the oppressive electronics and elusive guitars. my initial plan was to use a solitary voice, but i found that it did not mix well into the same frequency range as the interlock of stereo-spectrum guitars, so i instead recorded the track multiple times and set each recording to a different space in the spectrum. this creates a natural "chorus" effect on playback that blurs the frequency and better allows the vocals to compete with the guitars. i then thickened the chorus further by pitch-shifting it up an octave, which brought in the child-like innocence that i sought for the vocals.
as i was redoing the vocal part, i rejected the track a final time. at 35, why was i singing vocals i wrote when i was 12? is this clinical? but, i followed through with it to close the circle. inri is forever done.
initially written in 1993. first full recording in 1996. recreated in dec, 1997 and again in jan, 1999. a failed rescue was attempted in 2013. reclaimed on july 2, 2015. remixed on july 15, 2015. reconceptualized & remixed repeatedly over november & december, 2016. finalized on dec 13, 2016. as always, please use headphones.
the album version of this track appears on my second record:
jasonparent.bandcamp.com/album/inriched
this release is compiled in the following places:
jasonparent.bandcamp.com/album/inriched-box-set
jasonparent.bandcamp.com/merch/inri-box-set
this release also includes a printable jewel case insert and will also eventually include a comprehensive package of journal entries from all phases of production (1996, 1998, 1999, 2013, 2015, 2016).
*download only
credits
released January 15, 1999
j - guitars, effects, bass, pick scrapes, drum kit, drum programming, digital wave editing, vocals, vocal relics, production
j - guitars, effects, bass, pick scrapes, drum kit, drum programming, digital wave editing, vocals, vocal relics, production
Tuesday, December 13, 2016
Monday, December 12, 2016
i crashed this morning while listening. but, i've listened to it a few times this evening and i'm still only pretty sure. i'm going to move back to the other room after i eat and hope i can get some clear listening in after midnight.
i'm also facing a question as to whether i want to replace the album mix or not. i'm going to have to take the current album mix off of the single (it's identical to the 2015 mix, except for a short pause at the beginning) to make room for the instrumental version of the vocal mix. but, do i want that to be the new album mix?
there aren't really continuity concerns. the track is an island. it's going to be down to what i think sounds better, and i'll have to do the experiment to find out.
i expect to finally finish this tonight. but everything takes longer than i think it will. soon. soon.
i'm also facing a question as to whether i want to replace the album mix or not. i'm going to have to take the current album mix off of the single (it's identical to the 2015 mix, except for a short pause at the beginning) to make room for the instrumental version of the vocal mix. but, do i want that to be the new album mix?
there aren't really continuity concerns. the track is an island. it's going to be down to what i think sounds better, and i'll have to do the experiment to find out.
i expect to finally finish this tonight. but everything takes longer than i think it will. soon. soon.
this has been another chill <----that word is only used by retards day up to this point. i had a number of things i needed to prepare for the week. i have my own yearly christmas rituals, and i had to put a few things in order. i also watched four hours worth of vlogs. the vlog for november 15 will be published at midnight on december 14th, and i would like to hold to a precise monthly interval from this point on. that gives me plenty of space to juggle things with.
it's not what i wanted my weekend to be, but i got set off by that deleted posted at google+ which just infuriated me. youtube had an awesome ownership scheme at one point, because it assigned ownership based on what struck me as a perfectly anarchist concept of personal property. we should have ownership over our thoughts, right? if a thread is a thought, assigning ownership of the thread to the poster is ideal. i know that it was meant to fight spam, but it stumbled upon the perfect rights balance. now, i can't post at google+ without being censored by who knows who or what?
the posts magically appeared some time after i posted them. i don't know if they made it through the bureau, or they were trying to set me up as an imbecile, or whatever else. but, even the delay is unacceptable. i then got suckered into reciting as a response to clearing off the page, and i decided to see the process through.
i was deleting posts at google+ because i always saw it as temporary. i have a bigger plan to house years of commentary in a more traditional web site, and eventually move to commenting there. it's going to be the first project, post-discography. and i'm already sort of building it in the alter-reality. so, i was just using google+ as a scratch pad, with the intent to transfer it to permanent storage elsewhere.
in the end, my web design may rely on a complex, multi-usage of the blogspot site; it may essentially end up being a maze of interconnected blogs, organized by topic and date. but, in there will be a running journal of my political notes going back as far as i can, which is conceivably to the late 90s, if in fragmented form. it may end up being that journal.
the point is that it was something i wanted to do anyways.
i've been done with the editing for a few hours, now, and i've just been reading lightly. some political comments. it's all theatre.
but, the next thing to do to get the week in order is finish inri020 and inri021. it may or may not get done tonight.
it's not what i wanted my weekend to be, but i got set off by that deleted posted at google+ which just infuriated me. youtube had an awesome ownership scheme at one point, because it assigned ownership based on what struck me as a perfectly anarchist concept of personal property. we should have ownership over our thoughts, right? if a thread is a thought, assigning ownership of the thread to the poster is ideal. i know that it was meant to fight spam, but it stumbled upon the perfect rights balance. now, i can't post at google+ without being censored by who knows who or what?
the posts magically appeared some time after i posted them. i don't know if they made it through the bureau, or they were trying to set me up as an imbecile, or whatever else. but, even the delay is unacceptable. i then got suckered into reciting as a response to clearing off the page, and i decided to see the process through.
i was deleting posts at google+ because i always saw it as temporary. i have a bigger plan to house years of commentary in a more traditional web site, and eventually move to commenting there. it's going to be the first project, post-discography. and i'm already sort of building it in the alter-reality. so, i was just using google+ as a scratch pad, with the intent to transfer it to permanent storage elsewhere.
in the end, my web design may rely on a complex, multi-usage of the blogspot site; it may essentially end up being a maze of interconnected blogs, organized by topic and date. but, in there will be a running journal of my political notes going back as far as i can, which is conceivably to the late 90s, if in fragmented form. it may end up being that journal.
the point is that it was something i wanted to do anyways.
i've been done with the editing for a few hours, now, and i've just been reading lightly. some political comments. it's all theatre.
but, the next thing to do to get the week in order is finish inri020 and inri021. it may or may not get done tonight.
Sunday, December 11, 2016
another lost day? i would avoid that characterization. i did a huge amount of filing...
i actually think i needed to relax a little. i'd been freaking out for a few days and just need to chill. i worked that out through what was essentially data entry in some aspects of the discography. i tended to revert to data entry when i'm stressed...
while i was filing for boogeyman, i started to worry that i had lost consistency in dating with the first half of the sequence, so i went through to verify that things were consistent. there were several layers to this, but it is no complete. and, i really have one more track to finish to close inri20.
right now, it's the end of my day. i was up up at around 5:00 pm. i'm going to watch a few of the vlogs that i rendered, and then wake up fresh tomorrow to close.
i actually think i needed to relax a little. i'd been freaking out for a few days and just need to chill. i worked that out through what was essentially data entry in some aspects of the discography. i tended to revert to data entry when i'm stressed...
while i was filing for boogeyman, i started to worry that i had lost consistency in dating with the first half of the sequence, so i went through to verify that things were consistent. there were several layers to this, but it is no complete. and, i really have one more track to finish to close inri20.
right now, it's the end of my day. i was up up at around 5:00 pm. i'm going to watch a few of the vlogs that i rendered, and then wake up fresh tomorrow to close.
Saturday, December 10, 2016
i was up late today. it was close to 6:00 pm. i forced myself to sleep; i felt i needed it. i think that was a smart choice....
i got a smoothie. got some fresh batteries. pushed through the next batch of recitations. made some eggs. checked the news. it's 3:00 am.
looked up some stuff on hep b. there's an incubation period; if i'm showing symptoms, that actually means i must have gotten it at least six weeks ago.
i'm facing the facts: i picked up hep b in the blackout, and i'm going to be sick for a few months until it clears out. i'm going to want to avoid alcohol for a bit. i'm healthy; i should be able to fight it off.
still. ugh.
i don't want to blow another day, but i don't want to get out of bed, either. i'm going to do some filing for the boogeyman single. the timeline will update. and, maybe i'll get back to it in the morning, if i'm still up.
i got a smoothie. got some fresh batteries. pushed through the next batch of recitations. made some eggs. checked the news. it's 3:00 am.
looked up some stuff on hep b. there's an incubation period; if i'm showing symptoms, that actually means i must have gotten it at least six weeks ago.
i'm facing the facts: i picked up hep b in the blackout, and i'm going to be sick for a few months until it clears out. i'm going to want to avoid alcohol for a bit. i'm healthy; i should be able to fight it off.
still. ugh.
i don't want to blow another day, but i don't want to get out of bed, either. i'm going to do some filing for the boogeyman single. the timeline will update. and, maybe i'll get back to it in the morning, if i'm still up.
Friday, December 9, 2016
i spent the morning updating the interface on my blogger sites. there's links on the sides, now. this is something closer to what i what i wanted to exist at appspot, and will eventually make it's way there. it's just that blogspot is so much more convenient...
so, this is where i'm posting until they start deleting shit, again. hope it lasts.
so, this is where i'm posting until they start deleting shit, again. hope it lasts.
Thursday, December 8, 2016
yesterday was somewhat of a split day. i got a little bit of work done, but i stopped to sleep. ultimately, the appointment yesterday was stressful. i have no idea how i could have gotten hep b. it's not confirmed yet that i actually do, but i can't even figure out how i'd have antibodies.
i haven't had sex in roughly ten years.
the most rational thing, at this point, is actually that there was an error at the lab. it's just about the only thing that makes any sense.
i was up today around 1:30 and spent the first half of it trying to figure out how to respond. i've decided to focus on the record first, then get a full print out of the results and then research what they say a little more closely. i'll make a decision as to whether i want to take a second test afterwards.
if i am infected, i think the most likely place i could have gotten infected would be at the lab. unless roaches spread hepatitis? i think that would be news if it were true...
i haven't had sex in roughly ten years.
i got something to eat a little after four. i needed to wait a bit to get back to work, for good reasons that i will not share. i posted something to google and went to edit it. error.
what? refresh...
gone.
well, the error gave me the heads up. i copied it to clipboard. try a paste. post. refresh.
gone.
i tried this repeatedly, and it disappeared every time. what's going on?
i don't know. i know that i'm not going to post there any more. i just set up a new blogspot site, instead:
https://dsdfghghfsdflgkfgkja.blogspot.ca/
but, i was also worried that other posts were going to start disappearing, so i had to clear the page off. and, now i'm going to have to spend the night reciting the posts that i cleared off...
i'll be back to work tomorrow.
i haven't had sex in roughly ten years.
the most rational thing, at this point, is actually that there was an error at the lab. it's just about the only thing that makes any sense.
i was up today around 1:30 and spent the first half of it trying to figure out how to respond. i've decided to focus on the record first, then get a full print out of the results and then research what they say a little more closely. i'll make a decision as to whether i want to take a second test afterwards.
if i am infected, i think the most likely place i could have gotten infected would be at the lab. unless roaches spread hepatitis? i think that would be news if it were true...
i haven't had sex in roughly ten years.
i got something to eat a little after four. i needed to wait a bit to get back to work, for good reasons that i will not share. i posted something to google and went to edit it. error.
what? refresh...
gone.
well, the error gave me the heads up. i copied it to clipboard. try a paste. post. refresh.
gone.
i tried this repeatedly, and it disappeared every time. what's going on?
i don't know. i know that i'm not going to post there any more. i just set up a new blogspot site, instead:
https://dsdfghghfsdflgkfgkja.blogspot.ca/
but, i was also worried that other posts were going to start disappearing, so i had to clear the page off. and, now i'm going to have to spend the night reciting the posts that i cleared off...
i'll be back to work tomorrow.
Wednesday, December 7, 2016
another short night, tonight. why am i so tired? i don't know. but, my throat has been pretty raw the last few days. and i pooped like eight times today. it wasn't liquid, it was just really frequent. so, maybe my body is fighting with something.
that said, i could probably push myself for a few more hours. but, i want to get a few hours of sleep in now so i don't miss my appointment in the morning.
i actually tried to get the vocal mix done, but what i found was that i was singing too quietly and picking up a lot of static. it's 3:00 am. could i hit that middle point? i dunno. i'd guess i probably could, actually. but, when i say that the guy upstairs is retarded, i'm not insulting him - he is actually mentally retarded. i've picked up a few of his problems over the last few years. probably the dominant one, insofar as it affects me, is that he imagines his own torture and gets stuck in these like masochistic loops. so, if he thinks he sees a bed bug once, he'll see bed bugs everywhere for months afterwards. i'm pretty sure that the reason he has the a/c on in december is that he walked down here once in july and thought it was warm. and if he hears me once in the middle of the night, he will think he hears me every night for the rest of his life.
i can't pretend that this premise upsets me. i just don't want to deal with it.
i'll get the vocals done tomorrow afternoon when i get back. baby steps...
that said, i could probably push myself for a few more hours. but, i want to get a few hours of sleep in now so i don't miss my appointment in the morning.
i actually tried to get the vocal mix done, but what i found was that i was singing too quietly and picking up a lot of static. it's 3:00 am. could i hit that middle point? i dunno. i'd guess i probably could, actually. but, when i say that the guy upstairs is retarded, i'm not insulting him - he is actually mentally retarded. i've picked up a few of his problems over the last few years. probably the dominant one, insofar as it affects me, is that he imagines his own torture and gets stuck in these like masochistic loops. so, if he thinks he sees a bed bug once, he'll see bed bugs everywhere for months afterwards. i'm pretty sure that the reason he has the a/c on in december is that he walked down here once in july and thought it was warm. and if he hears me once in the middle of the night, he will think he hears me every night for the rest of his life.
i can't pretend that this premise upsets me. i just don't want to deal with it.
i'll get the vocals done tomorrow afternoon when i get back. baby steps...
Tuesday, December 6, 2016
i initially unpublished everything because i wanted to rebuild sequentially without skipping anything or finishing anything out of order. with the imminent completion of my second record, i've now caught up to the point where i'm mostly going to be writing liner notes for the next 40 or so releases.
that is not to say that i have now comprehensively completed my discography up to 2003. that would be untrue. but, the general shape of it is clear, and further modifications will be minor. i have every reason to think that i will push through the next phase very quickly and be back to working on "new" material within a few months.
as the liner notes are incomplete, take them with a grain of salt. some of the numbers are wrong. and, in fact, some of the following numbers will change, too.
what has been republished this evening is as follows (numbers best guess until i get there):
1) deny everything sequence (2000)
inri036: let freedom ring ep-single
https://jasonparent.bandcamp.com/album/let-freedom-ring
inri037: the curious george suite ep
https://jasonparent.bandcamp.com/album/the-curious-george-suite
inri038: ignorance is bliss ep-single
https://jasonparent.bandcamp.com/album/ignorance-is-bliss
inri039: acidosis ep. symph004.
https://jasonparent.bandcamp.com/album/acidosis
inri040: curious george single
https://jasonparent.bandcamp.com/album/curious-george-2
inri041: deny everything lp. fourth record. lp008.
https://jasonparent.bandcamp.com/album/deny-everything
2) jjjjjjjjjjjjjjj sequence (2001)
inri042: stuck in the... ep-single.
https://jasonparent.bandcamp.com/album/stuck-in-the-middle-of-an-alley-closing-in-on-all-sides
inri043: the time machine ep-single
https://jasonparent.bandcamp.com/album/the-time-machine
inri044: j's adventures in guitarland ep
https://jasonparent.bandcamp.com/album/js-adventures-in-guitarland
inri045: psilocybin ep. symph005.
https://jasonparent.bandcamp.com/album/the-symphony-of-psilocybin-induced-madness
inri046: intersection... ep-single.
https://jasonparent.bandcamp.com/album/the-intersection-of-two-identical-particles-moving-in-completely-opposite-directions
inri049: existence ep-single
https://jasonparent.bandcamp.com/album/existence
inri051: jjjjjjjjjjjjjjjjjjjjjjjj lp. fifth record. lp009.
https://jasonparent.bandcamp.com/album/jjjjjjjjjjjjjjjjjjjjjjjjjjjjjjjjjjjjjjjjjjjjjjj
3) cynicide/rabit/jjjjjjjjjjjjj^2 sequence (2001-2002)
inri047: cynicide ep-single
https://jasonparent.bandcamp.com/album/to-spin-inside-dull-aberrations
inri048: me, myself ... single.
https://jasonparent.bandcamp.com/album/me-myself-and-the-time-i-thought-this-was-a-good-idea
inri052: the wave. symph006. lp010.
https://jasonparent.bandcamp.com/album/the-wave
inri053: clarity ep-single:
https://jasonparent.bandcamp.com/album/clarity
inri054: 9:46 ep-single
https://jasonparent.bandcamp.com/album/9-46-outside-the-magenta-box
inri055: time single:
https://jasonparent.bandcamp.com/album/time
inri056: rabit is wolf lp. inri011.
https://jasonparent.bandcamp.com/album/rabit-is-wolf
inri057: trepanation nation. symph007.
https://jasonparent.bandcamp.com/album/trepanation-nation
inri058: the imaginary tour ep.
https://jasonparent.bandcamp.com/album/the-imaginary-tour-demo-ep
inri060: untitled double ep single.
https://jasonparent.bandcamp.com/album/untitled
inri061: la la la la single
https://jasonparent.bandcamp.com/album/la-la-la-la
inri062: jjjjjjjjjjjjjjjjjjjjjjjj^2 lp. sixth record. lp012.
https://jasonparent.bandcamp.com/album/jjjjjjjjjjjjjjjjjjjjjjjjjjjjjjjjjjjjjjjjjjjjj-2
4) most of the ftaa sequence (2001-2004)
inri050: noise ep #1
https://jasonparent.bandcamp.com/album/give-em-hell-harry-strung-out
inri057: trepanation nation. symph007.
https://jasonparent.bandcamp.com/album/trepanation-nation
inri059: noise ep #2
https://jasonparent.bandcamp.com/album/atoms-taught-to-twist-the-affected-so-low
5) start of the trivial group sequence (2002-2006)
inri061: la la la la single
https://jasonparent.bandcamp.com/album/la-la-la-la
inri063: flying ep
https://jasonparent.bandcamp.com/album/flying
inri064: reflections (track) ep-single:
https://jasonparent.bandcamp.com/album/refractions
inri069: reflections (ep). symph008:
https://jasonparent.bandcamp.com/album/reflections
6) period 2 compilation sequence (2000-2003)
inri065: ry30 compilation. lp013.
https://jasonparent.bandcamp.com/album/electronic-pieces-in-a-primitive-style
inri066: vst compilation. lp014-015.
https://jasonparent.bandcamp.com/album/thru
inri067: ambient works vol 1-2. lp016-017.
https://jasonparent.bandcamp.com/album/ambient-works-vol-1-2
inri068: orchestral works vol 1. lp018.
https://jasonparent.bandcamp.com/album/orchestral-works-vol-1
======
yes. that's 70 releases, now. and there's still plenty to come...
that is not to say that i have now comprehensively completed my discography up to 2003. that would be untrue. but, the general shape of it is clear, and further modifications will be minor. i have every reason to think that i will push through the next phase very quickly and be back to working on "new" material within a few months.
as the liner notes are incomplete, take them with a grain of salt. some of the numbers are wrong. and, in fact, some of the following numbers will change, too.
what has been republished this evening is as follows (numbers best guess until i get there):
1) deny everything sequence (2000)
inri036: let freedom ring ep-single
https://jasonparent.bandcamp.com/album/let-freedom-ring
inri037: the curious george suite ep
https://jasonparent.bandcamp.com/album/the-curious-george-suite
inri038: ignorance is bliss ep-single
https://jasonparent.bandcamp.com/album/ignorance-is-bliss
inri039: acidosis ep. symph004.
https://jasonparent.bandcamp.com/album/acidosis
inri040: curious george single
https://jasonparent.bandcamp.com/album/curious-george-2
inri041: deny everything lp. fourth record. lp008.
https://jasonparent.bandcamp.com/album/deny-everything
2) jjjjjjjjjjjjjjj sequence (2001)
inri042: stuck in the... ep-single.
https://jasonparent.bandcamp.com/album/stuck-in-the-middle-of-an-alley-closing-in-on-all-sides
inri043: the time machine ep-single
https://jasonparent.bandcamp.com/album/the-time-machine
inri044: j's adventures in guitarland ep
https://jasonparent.bandcamp.com/album/js-adventures-in-guitarland
inri045: psilocybin ep. symph005.
https://jasonparent.bandcamp.com/album/the-symphony-of-psilocybin-induced-madness
inri046: intersection... ep-single.
https://jasonparent.bandcamp.com/album/the-intersection-of-two-identical-particles-moving-in-completely-opposite-directions
inri049: existence ep-single
https://jasonparent.bandcamp.com/album/existence
inri051: jjjjjjjjjjjjjjjjjjjjjjjj lp. fifth record. lp009.
https://jasonparent.bandcamp.com/album/jjjjjjjjjjjjjjjjjjjjjjjjjjjjjjjjjjjjjjjjjjjjjjj
3) cynicide/rabit/jjjjjjjjjjjjj^2 sequence (2001-2002)
inri047: cynicide ep-single
https://jasonparent.bandcamp.com/album/to-spin-inside-dull-aberrations
inri048: me, myself ... single.
https://jasonparent.bandcamp.com/album/me-myself-and-the-time-i-thought-this-was-a-good-idea
inri052: the wave. symph006. lp010.
https://jasonparent.bandcamp.com/album/the-wave
inri053: clarity ep-single:
https://jasonparent.bandcamp.com/album/clarity
inri054: 9:46 ep-single
https://jasonparent.bandcamp.com/album/9-46-outside-the-magenta-box
inri055: time single:
https://jasonparent.bandcamp.com/album/time
inri056: rabit is wolf lp. inri011.
https://jasonparent.bandcamp.com/album/rabit-is-wolf
inri057: trepanation nation. symph007.
https://jasonparent.bandcamp.com/album/trepanation-nation
inri058: the imaginary tour ep.
https://jasonparent.bandcamp.com/album/the-imaginary-tour-demo-ep
inri060: untitled double ep single.
https://jasonparent.bandcamp.com/album/untitled
inri061: la la la la single
https://jasonparent.bandcamp.com/album/la-la-la-la
inri062: jjjjjjjjjjjjjjjjjjjjjjjj^2 lp. sixth record. lp012.
https://jasonparent.bandcamp.com/album/jjjjjjjjjjjjjjjjjjjjjjjjjjjjjjjjjjjjjjjjjjjjj-2
4) most of the ftaa sequence (2001-2004)
inri050: noise ep #1
https://jasonparent.bandcamp.com/album/give-em-hell-harry-strung-out
inri057: trepanation nation. symph007.
https://jasonparent.bandcamp.com/album/trepanation-nation
inri059: noise ep #2
https://jasonparent.bandcamp.com/album/atoms-taught-to-twist-the-affected-so-low
5) start of the trivial group sequence (2002-2006)
inri061: la la la la single
https://jasonparent.bandcamp.com/album/la-la-la-la
inri063: flying ep
https://jasonparent.bandcamp.com/album/flying
inri064: reflections (track) ep-single:
https://jasonparent.bandcamp.com/album/refractions
inri069: reflections (ep). symph008:
https://jasonparent.bandcamp.com/album/reflections
6) period 2 compilation sequence (2000-2003)
inri065: ry30 compilation. lp013.
https://jasonparent.bandcamp.com/album/electronic-pieces-in-a-primitive-style
inri066: vst compilation. lp014-015.
https://jasonparent.bandcamp.com/album/thru
inri067: ambient works vol 1-2. lp016-017.
https://jasonparent.bandcamp.com/album/ambient-works-vol-1-2
inri068: orchestral works vol 1. lp018.
https://jasonparent.bandcamp.com/album/orchestral-works-vol-1
======
yes. that's 70 releases, now. and there's still plenty to come...
slow start of the day...
after i ate last night, i sat down to figure out which version i wanted to use for the vocal mix and i ended up falling asleep. i slept a long time, too. i dunno.
but, i'm up now and i've decided that i need to mix it to the album mix for timing reasons and then experiment by listening. only way to find out.
but, i've also republished my discography in full. and i'll need a new post for that...
https://jasonparent.bandcamp.com/music
after i ate last night, i sat down to figure out which version i wanted to use for the vocal mix and i ended up falling asleep. i slept a long time, too. i dunno.
but, i'm up now and i've decided that i need to mix it to the album mix for timing reasons and then experiment by listening. only way to find out.
but, i've also republished my discography in full. and i'll need a new post for that...
https://jasonparent.bandcamp.com/music
Monday, December 5, 2016
Sunday, December 4, 2016
and, we need another update, i think.
near the end of the day on wednesday, i decided that something had to break in the temperature down here, so i turned the heat down while the window was open. i spent the entire day thursday trying to get the thermostat in here to 15 degrees.
i just felt i needed to reset it. these electronic heaters seem to rely more on a relative concept of temperature than an absolute one, and i've come to not trust them as a result of it. you need to recalibrate scales every once in a while. i think that's the right way to think about it. and, i think it was the right choice. but the day was lost...
i had an appointment on friday and spent the rest of the day grocery shopping. so, when i woke up today, i was picking up where i left off on tuesday.
i noticed that the files were too quiet, so i increased their volumes. and, i finished a mastering decision for the seventh track. it sounds like a small amount of work, but it's actually quite large in the scheme of things.
i have re-uploaded 5, 6,7 and 11 with final mixes. i will need to re-upload 8,9,10 tomorrow or the next day. and, what remains is the vocal lead and a couple of undefined extras.
baby steps. slowly but surely. i'll get there, eventually. promise.
near the end of the day on wednesday, i decided that something had to break in the temperature down here, so i turned the heat down while the window was open. i spent the entire day thursday trying to get the thermostat in here to 15 degrees.
i just felt i needed to reset it. these electronic heaters seem to rely more on a relative concept of temperature than an absolute one, and i've come to not trust them as a result of it. you need to recalibrate scales every once in a while. i think that's the right way to think about it. and, i think it was the right choice. but the day was lost...
i had an appointment on friday and spent the rest of the day grocery shopping. so, when i woke up today, i was picking up where i left off on tuesday.
i noticed that the files were too quiet, so i increased their volumes. and, i finished a mastering decision for the seventh track. it sounds like a small amount of work, but it's actually quite large in the scheme of things.
i have re-uploaded 5, 6,7 and 11 with final mixes. i will need to re-upload 8,9,10 tomorrow or the next day. and, what remains is the vocal lead and a couple of undefined extras.
baby steps. slowly but surely. i'll get there, eventually. promise.
Wednesday, November 30, 2016
i think we need an update, here.
i've been refraining from uploading until i'm completely done. it wasn't supposed to take a long time. but, i've had to cycle back.
i slept on sunday night right after i posted. so, i tried to spend monday doing some real listening. this led me to the conclusion that the mix sounded flat, and i found a mastering error in the source file. but, it was a short day and i crashed quickly.
so, i tried to start the listening process again on tuesday morning with the corrected files and realized it still did not sound good. i spent the day remastering, and only got about halfway done.
i woke up today to more air quality issues and had to keep the windows open. it was also the end of the month, so i had bills to pay and the month to plan, broadly. i decided to keep the windows open all day to get air turned over, and focus on the concert schedule instead.
i've closed the windows, but the air quality remains poor, and i'm about to open them again. it seems like the day is likely lost. this is probably a net benefit, as it will give my ears time to rest.
i've been refraining from uploading until i'm completely done. it wasn't supposed to take a long time. but, i've had to cycle back.
i slept on sunday night right after i posted. so, i tried to spend monday doing some real listening. this led me to the conclusion that the mix sounded flat, and i found a mastering error in the source file. but, it was a short day and i crashed quickly.
so, i tried to start the listening process again on tuesday morning with the corrected files and realized it still did not sound good. i spent the day remastering, and only got about halfway done.
i woke up today to more air quality issues and had to keep the windows open. it was also the end of the month, so i had bills to pay and the month to plan, broadly. i decided to keep the windows open all day to get air turned over, and focus on the concert schedule instead.
i've closed the windows, but the air quality remains poor, and i'm about to open them again. it seems like the day is likely lost. this is probably a net benefit, as it will give my ears time to rest.
Sunday, November 27, 2016
publishing inri019
this is
the final section of the last proper inri demo, which was written as
somewhat of a suite, but only in a fleeting moment, and then forgotten.
it's a sort of sardonic take on the jesus story, in that it follows a
persecuted person through a suicide and a resurrection, with tongue in
cheek commentary.
initially, it was a song suite about being young and not listened to, culminating in a rather dramatic overreaction - that i ridiculed as counter-productive, partly by reference to kurt cobain, whose suicide is an event that hangs over the childhood of my generation. people that were adults at the time might want to think of it in the same way that they interpreted watching kennedy get his brains blown out on live tv. as i grew up (stated loosely - i was still 17/18, here), i realized this is a general condition of society that is not limited to young people. so, i generalized it to reflect the illusion of what we call "democracy", and gave it an exaggerated persecution complex. the cynicism was targeted at the clinton administration, but in a broader sense i'm sort of ridiculing the rather cartoonish perception of generation x as this kind of raelian mass of fatalist children....
my final vocal edit for viewless focused on a small part of the verse and cut the chorus out altogether. i then distributed that small part into the rest of the song by cutting into parts and pasting it in where i wanted. this drops the more general commentary, which seems like an anachronism, in favour of refocusing the listener on the direct storyline of individual persecution. for suicide, i left the vocal track largely in tact, except to remove the suicide note, which in hindsight also seems like a giant distraction from the satirical storyline. what's left is more direct.
i also want to note that there was a conscious decision to move to a more recited vocal style on the 1999 rerecording (and subsequent 2016 reconstruction), rather than the screamy style that dominates the initial 1996 demo. at the time, i considered screaming to be sort of contrived and passe. the recitation is actually a very considered reaction to something i interpreted as largely cartoonish. i was certainly still heavily influenced by the screamy stuff i grew up with, but it wasn't a characteristic of much of anything i was attracted to after about '97 or so and actually something that i really wanted to distance myself from.
i've pulled back from insisting on recited vocals in order to minimize that contrivedness, but the truth is that the vast majority of music released after about '97 that has screamed vocals very much *is* contrived. time has only cemented my rejection of falsely emotionalized vocals in punk-derived genres.
written and demoed from 1996-1999. initially constructed in this form in january, 1999. a failed rescue was attempted in 2013. compiled on nov 13, 2016. sequenced on nov 22-24, 2016 from parts that were rebuilt over 2013-2016. audio permanently closed on nov 24, 2016. release finalized on nov 27, 2016. this is my second symphony; as always, please use headphones.
section one ("epilag"): initially created in early 1999. remastered on nov 23, 2016.
section two ("viewless"): initially written in 1996. recreated over 1998 and finalized in dec, 1998. a failed rescue was attempted in 2013. reclaimed july 19, 2015. corrected to control for malfunctioning electronics on dec 29, 2015. sequenced nov 22, 2016. vocals added on nov 23, 2016. corrected to remove an errand click on nov 24, 2016.
section three ("anticipation"): background noise built in 1996. rebuilt in late 1998. edited in late 2013. remastered on nov 24, 2016.
section four ("suicide"): initially written in 1996. recreated over 1998 and finalized in dec, 1998. a failed rescue was attempted in 2013. reclaimed july 20, 2015. corrected to control for malfunctioning electronics on dec 27, 2015. sequenced nov 22, 2016. vocals added on nov 23, 2016.
section five ("resurrection"): initially written and recorded on january 4, 1999.
the album version of this track appears on my second record:
jasonparent.bandcamp.com/album/inriched
this release is compiled in the following places:
this release also includes a printable jewel case insert and will also eventually include a comprehensive package of journal entries from all phases of production (1996, 1998, 1999, 2013, 2014, 2015, 2016).
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initially, it was a song suite about being young and not listened to, culminating in a rather dramatic overreaction - that i ridiculed as counter-productive, partly by reference to kurt cobain, whose suicide is an event that hangs over the childhood of my generation. people that were adults at the time might want to think of it in the same way that they interpreted watching kennedy get his brains blown out on live tv. as i grew up (stated loosely - i was still 17/18, here), i realized this is a general condition of society that is not limited to young people. so, i generalized it to reflect the illusion of what we call "democracy", and gave it an exaggerated persecution complex. the cynicism was targeted at the clinton administration, but in a broader sense i'm sort of ridiculing the rather cartoonish perception of generation x as this kind of raelian mass of fatalist children....
my final vocal edit for viewless focused on a small part of the verse and cut the chorus out altogether. i then distributed that small part into the rest of the song by cutting into parts and pasting it in where i wanted. this drops the more general commentary, which seems like an anachronism, in favour of refocusing the listener on the direct storyline of individual persecution. for suicide, i left the vocal track largely in tact, except to remove the suicide note, which in hindsight also seems like a giant distraction from the satirical storyline. what's left is more direct.
i also want to note that there was a conscious decision to move to a more recited vocal style on the 1999 rerecording (and subsequent 2016 reconstruction), rather than the screamy style that dominates the initial 1996 demo. at the time, i considered screaming to be sort of contrived and passe. the recitation is actually a very considered reaction to something i interpreted as largely cartoonish. i was certainly still heavily influenced by the screamy stuff i grew up with, but it wasn't a characteristic of much of anything i was attracted to after about '97 or so and actually something that i really wanted to distance myself from.
i've pulled back from insisting on recited vocals in order to minimize that contrivedness, but the truth is that the vast majority of music released after about '97 that has screamed vocals very much *is* contrived. time has only cemented my rejection of falsely emotionalized vocals in punk-derived genres.
written and demoed from 1996-1999. initially constructed in this form in january, 1999. a failed rescue was attempted in 2013. compiled on nov 13, 2016. sequenced on nov 22-24, 2016 from parts that were rebuilt over 2013-2016. audio permanently closed on nov 24, 2016. release finalized on nov 27, 2016. this is my second symphony; as always, please use headphones.
section one ("epilag"): initially created in early 1999. remastered on nov 23, 2016.
section two ("viewless"): initially written in 1996. recreated over 1998 and finalized in dec, 1998. a failed rescue was attempted in 2013. reclaimed july 19, 2015. corrected to control for malfunctioning electronics on dec 29, 2015. sequenced nov 22, 2016. vocals added on nov 23, 2016. corrected to remove an errand click on nov 24, 2016.
section three ("anticipation"): background noise built in 1996. rebuilt in late 1998. edited in late 2013. remastered on nov 24, 2016.
section four ("suicide"): initially written in 1996. recreated over 1998 and finalized in dec, 1998. a failed rescue was attempted in 2013. reclaimed july 20, 2015. corrected to control for malfunctioning electronics on dec 27, 2015. sequenced nov 22, 2016. vocals added on nov 23, 2016.
section five ("resurrection"): initially written and recorded on january 4, 1999.
the album version of this track appears on my second record:
jasonparent.bandcamp.com/album/inriched
this release is compiled in the following places:
this release also includes a printable jewel case insert and will also eventually include a comprehensive package of journal entries from all phases of production (1996, 1998, 1999, 2013, 2014, 2015, 2016).
*download only
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released January 13, 1999
j - guitars, effects, bass, synthesizers, electric piano, vocals, drum kit, drum programming, sequencing, cool edit synthesis, sampling, light-wave synthesis, noise generators, sound design, loops, tapes, digital wave editing, production
j - guitars, effects, bass, synthesizers, electric piano, vocals, drum kit, drum programming, sequencing, cool edit synthesis, sampling, light-wave synthesis, noise generators, sound design, loops, tapes, digital wave editing, production
i'm mildly detouring.
this idea of a purely vocal compilation was going to come up one way or another. i was toying with putting it at the end of period 1, or even midway into period 2...
...but it needs to be at the end of period 1.2 and i'm dropping it in right now. it's not going to be completely done for a few days, as i need to complete the new vocals for boogeyman and remaster too cold.
this idea of a purely vocal compilation was going to come up one way or another. i was toying with putting it at the end of period 1, or even midway into period 2...
...but it needs to be at the end of period 1.2 and i'm dropping it in right now. it's not going to be completely done for a few days, as i need to complete the new vocals for boogeyman and remaster too cold.
Saturday, November 26, 2016
i crashed on the first listen through, but i got some listening done when i woke up. i then lost pretty much the entire day to pulling shit out of my face and then running around in the afternoon. it was a long day, all in all - and i crashed long and hard. i've been trying to get going since about 6 am. i've done lots of ranting, at least...
i want to finish the write-up for inri019 before i eat and then at least finish inri020 by the end of the night. that would make it likely that i'll start editing on sunday night, with a potential upload date of tuesday or wednesday.
on some reflection, i've decided that if the aim is really to dissuade stalkers then the two week target is more appropriate because i tend to talk about what i'm doing a week or two in advance. i'm actually even considering moving it up to a month. if i make that decision, it will be in the new year.
for now, i'd say to expect the vlog for the 15th to come up at 00:30 on the 30th - and for me to hold to at least that kind of separation, moving forwards.
i want to finish the write-up for inri019 before i eat and then at least finish inri020 by the end of the night. that would make it likely that i'll start editing on sunday night, with a potential upload date of tuesday or wednesday.
on some reflection, i've decided that if the aim is really to dissuade stalkers then the two week target is more appropriate because i tend to talk about what i'm doing a week or two in advance. i'm actually even considering moving it up to a month. if i make that decision, it will be in the new year.
for now, i'd say to expect the vlog for the 15th to come up at 00:30 on the 30th - and for me to hold to at least that kind of separation, moving forwards.
Thursday, November 24, 2016
i'm going to spend a little time listening to inri019 this afternoon,
and hopefully get the cover art mostly done. it's probably going to be
the extent of labour completed for the day.
i've got running around to do for tomorrow. but, inri20 and the remaining three tracks for inri021 are what is up, next.
i've got running around to do for tomorrow. but, inri20 and the remaining three tracks for inri021 are what is up, next.
it turns out that i had a click in the track "viewless", and that it had been there from the start. when i finish this, i'm going to do a proper completion of the listening phase i aborted, previously. if i find further clicks, i will address them. but, i've been nulling regularly, so i think it's unlikely...
that means, i've had to update everything with the track in it.
1) inriclaimed:
2) the entire end sequence of inriched:
3) all relevant tracks on inri019, which is also now permanently closed. note the addition of the frustrated mix, too.
that means, i've had to update everything with the track in it.
1) inriclaimed:
2) the entire end sequence of inriched:
3) all relevant tracks on inri019, which is also now permanently closed. note the addition of the frustrated mix, too.
Wednesday, November 23, 2016
i thought i had inri019 done, but i realized at the last minute that i have a noisy plugin. so, i'll need to isolate it and re-render.
i should also double check that everything i've uploaded over the last few days is outputting cleanly, as a sanity check.
inri019 is done. and, i can probably upload the last five tracks for inri021, too. just give me some time to double check that there aren't clicks or pops.
i should also double check that everything i've uploaded over the last few days is outputting cleanly, as a sanity check.
inri019 is done. and, i can probably upload the last five tracks for inri021, too. just give me some time to double check that there aren't clicks or pops.
Tuesday, November 22, 2016
i spent all night fighting with the interference, and specifically ruling out various ways out of the problem. for example, i learned when the power went out that i have two circuits in the unit. is the wiring better, or the load lighter, on the other circuit? nothing worked.
i eventually got a few hours of clear listening in, but all the experience did was uphold my previous hypothesis: the interference is caused by a magnetic field that is generated by electrical usage in the neighbourhood. so, i need to mix when the neighbourhood goes quiet, until i can find some way to block the magnets.
today, that was from about 6:00-9:00 am. that was it. three hours...
i had to take a break to renew my prescription online. i'll be back offline again in a few minutes, and probably until it's done, this time.
as mentioned, there will be no vlogs edited or uploaded until this is completed.
i got a few more tracks up, now. all in all, that's 1-8 + 12. i don't think i'm going to need to listen much in order to complete the mixes for 13-17, which seems to be what i'm doing next (unless the interference subsides, unexpectedly. but i think i'm going to need to wait until at least after midnight.).
i eventually got a few hours of clear listening in, but all the experience did was uphold my previous hypothesis: the interference is caused by a magnetic field that is generated by electrical usage in the neighbourhood. so, i need to mix when the neighbourhood goes quiet, until i can find some way to block the magnets.
today, that was from about 6:00-9:00 am. that was it. three hours...
i had to take a break to renew my prescription online. i'll be back offline again in a few minutes, and probably until it's done, this time.
as mentioned, there will be no vlogs edited or uploaded until this is completed.
i got a few more tracks up, now. all in all, that's 1-8 + 12. i don't think i'm going to need to listen much in order to complete the mixes for 13-17, which seems to be what i'm doing next (unless the interference subsides, unexpectedly. but i think i'm going to need to wait until at least after midnight.).
Monday, November 21, 2016
i'm back online because my tongue is tingling and i wanted to look it up. the technical explanation seems to be reduced blood flow to my lingual nerve. but it seems to have a large number of possible causes.
what it actually feels like is as though i have giant hair in my mouth. like, a foot long or something. i know there's nothing in there. there's also a mild taste of blood in my mouth.
i first noticed it when i just woke up at about 4 pm on the 20th but it was brief and minor. it's come back after eating.
the precise sensation ceases when i move it around and bathe it within saliva - it comes back when it dries. if it's tingling due to low blood flow, that makes sense.
i'm going to sit still until it passes. presuming it passes.
i spent the night constructing remixes for boogeyman, which is going to have a larger single than initially planned. and that's ok. we'll have to see what happens with my tongue before i determine what's going on with the rest of the day.
one of the things this is associated with is ms. again. everything is a symptom of ms. down the list. but, it could be anything. nerve damage. a blood clot. who knows...
i don't have any other symptoms, except some anxiety. no chest pains. the same mild background headache i've had all week.
i dunno. i know i don't want to have a seizure when i'm doing the dishes. so, i'm staying in bed until it passes.
what it actually feels like is as though i have giant hair in my mouth. like, a foot long or something. i know there's nothing in there. there's also a mild taste of blood in my mouth.
i first noticed it when i just woke up at about 4 pm on the 20th but it was brief and minor. it's come back after eating.
the precise sensation ceases when i move it around and bathe it within saliva - it comes back when it dries. if it's tingling due to low blood flow, that makes sense.
i'm going to sit still until it passes. presuming it passes.
i spent the night constructing remixes for boogeyman, which is going to have a larger single than initially planned. and that's ok. we'll have to see what happens with my tongue before i determine what's going on with the rest of the day.
one of the things this is associated with is ms. again. everything is a symptom of ms. down the list. but, it could be anything. nerve damage. a blood clot. who knows...
i don't have any other symptoms, except some anxiety. no chest pains. the same mild background headache i've had all week.
i dunno. i know i don't want to have a seizure when i'm doing the dishes. so, i'm staying in bed until it passes.
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