jessica
i'm just wondering if you'd be willing to consider the idea of packaging collections of downloads together?
so,
let's say my discography has 20 releases and it's split into four
phases that are conceptually linked. it may make sense for me to package
these releases in 5 record subsets.
more specifically,
i've added what are essentially dvd-length torrents as physical purchase
items and i'd like to offer them as downloads without the redundancy.
example:
jasonparent.bandcamp.com/album/flac-dvd-disc-volume-1
there's 15 releases on the dvd. could i package them all together as a download?
maybe another way to ask this is if you're considering allowing the attachment of multiple downloads.
bandcamp
Hey Jessica,
There
isn't an official bundling option yet (though that's something we're
definitely considering), but there is a fairly simple workaround.
Create a set of codes for each album (https://bandcamp.com/help/codes_how_to), and create a package for each album (as if there was a physical component to the sale, details here: http://bandcamp.com/merch_how_to).
Explain
in the package info that anyone who purchases it will also receive
codes for the other albums within a few days of purchasing. For anyone
who purchases the bundle, just shoot them the respective album codes. It
is a bit more work, but until we have an official option it will work a
treat.
Sunday, October 30, 2016
Friday, October 28, 2016
i'm too old for hallowe'en.
i was too old for hallowe'en when i was about 8. alter-reality post?
wait. was that the year we brought the news paper box to....no. that must have been grade 11. or even....no. i did 'shrooms with greg in grade 12. grade 11.
i don't know what i did in grade 10 for hallowe'en. actually. wait. i do. yeah. that's right. lol...
at the top of the hill. but, it didn't work the first time. that's typical.
anyways.
i'm too old for hallowe'en.
i'm still going to have fun this weekend...
i feel like i made some progress this week. i'll be back at it monday or tuesday.
i was too old for hallowe'en when i was about 8. alter-reality post?
wait. was that the year we brought the news paper box to....no. that must have been grade 11. or even....no. i did 'shrooms with greg in grade 12. grade 11.
i don't know what i did in grade 10 for hallowe'en. actually. wait. i do. yeah. that's right. lol...
at the top of the hill. but, it didn't work the first time. that's typical.
anyways.
i'm too old for hallowe'en.
i'm still going to have fun this weekend...
i feel like i made some progress this week. i'll be back at it monday or tuesday.
ok. so, i'm shutting the browser down and heading to the other room. i think i should get a rough idea of inri017 planned out by the night, at least.
i'm going to have to do a mild remix to balance it out. i remastered the second part of it for inriclamed, but it was already instrumental, and the source was corrupt. the first part didn't get touched at all - and iirc the source is incomplete. what that means is that i have the task of resplicing a few files that are basically already dealt with. but, i'm going to be thorough.
there is an off chance that i could even finish it this morning.
i'm going to have to do a mild remix to balance it out. i remastered the second part of it for inriclamed, but it was already instrumental, and the source was corrupt. the first part didn't get touched at all - and iirc the source is incomplete. what that means is that i have the task of resplicing a few files that are basically already dealt with. but, i'm going to be thorough.
there is an off chance that i could even finish it this morning.
Thursday, October 27, 2016
i also need to take note of this before i move to inri017. sort of. this
is actually what i did between inri017 and inri018, but the track that i
contributed to it was done in july. so, i'm going to post it now....
i'm not labeling or distributing this because it's not my release. but, the full track (not the edit, here) ends up released on a covers disc dated to the end of 1999.
this is the full track:
"so, i'm going through some old files and decided to put this up...
the backstory is connected to a covers compilation put together by cleopatra records called "hymns of the warlock", as well as a remix compilation put together by nettwerk records called "remix dystemper". this compilation was put together between the releases of those two compilations.
the easiest thing to say is simply that there were always two different types of skinny puppy fans, related to a now historical split in electronic music between those who preferred "ebm" (that is electronic booty/body music) and "idm" (intelligent dance music). ebm is only reasonably listened to in clubs because it's simplistic and repetitive; idm is the kind of thing you put on when you're doing homework or reading a book. the separation has been much maligned, but it is intuitively obvious that there are some types of electronic music that do not have much depth (and yet are fun to dance to) and some types of electronic music with dozens of layers to disentangle (and may be less danceable), so i see little point in getting silly about it. skinny puppy existed in a middle point; they always had the ability to attract both audiences because their music was both highly danceable and yet also in an art rock and political/punk rock tradition. this is not unique within electronic music, but it *is* rare. they're not considered to be the high point of electronic art music in the modern era for no reason.
throughout the 90s, skinny puppy fans connected with each other and discussed various topics over the epilogue internet mailing list. within this list, there was much derision directed at the cleopatra compilation due to it's over-representation of the ebm side of the band's sound. the more musically inclined members of the list claimed they could put together a better record, were challenged to do so and eventually did.
i was a fairly recent addition to the list and volunteered for distribution for the sole reason that i had the tools to do so (cd burners were still relatively rare in 1998). the cover art was put together by other members of the list and sent to me for reproduction.
while i would argue that the disc more accurately represents the experimental aspect of the band than either of the officially released compilations did, i listen to it now and wish i would have been more selective. the reality is that i didn't really have the standing necessary in the list (you have to have an understanding of 90s internet communications to get that, i guess) to act as a filter on material coming in. nor did i receive enough material to have the luxury of cutting tracks. there's some interesting remixes/reconstructions, but some of it is very blatantly the work of amateur musicians. i should also point out that i considered some of those amateur musicians to be my friends.
it's up here, as is, for listening ears. should either of the kevins express an opposition to this (i doubt that, but i am not able to tap into their consciousnesses from a distance), they own it and get to make the choices.
tracklisting:
1) the intonarumori project: rain (souless mix)
*2) dmt: blackout
3) animoid row: jahya (meld)
4) livesidog: smothered hope
5) pool-a: downlode
6) krewl: meat flavour
7) inri: hexonxonx (featuring ogrebot)
8) j deell: 200 years
9) triptamine: circustance (vitriol remix)
10) amputate: shore lined poison (deformed)
11) lunar caustic: worlock
12) dmso : anger (adrenergic brap)
13) jesus h. christ: assimilate (ambient mix)
14) lichaem: who's laughing now? (offended)
15) j deell: basement
*16) dj billpheus and oscar the grouch (with special guest vocals by the infinite hheathen): love
* - features bill van roy, later briefly of download"
i'm not labeling or distributing this because it's not my release. but, the full track (not the edit, here) ends up released on a covers disc dated to the end of 1999.
this is the full track:
"so, i'm going through some old files and decided to put this up...
the backstory is connected to a covers compilation put together by cleopatra records called "hymns of the warlock", as well as a remix compilation put together by nettwerk records called "remix dystemper". this compilation was put together between the releases of those two compilations.
the easiest thing to say is simply that there were always two different types of skinny puppy fans, related to a now historical split in electronic music between those who preferred "ebm" (that is electronic booty/body music) and "idm" (intelligent dance music). ebm is only reasonably listened to in clubs because it's simplistic and repetitive; idm is the kind of thing you put on when you're doing homework or reading a book. the separation has been much maligned, but it is intuitively obvious that there are some types of electronic music that do not have much depth (and yet are fun to dance to) and some types of electronic music with dozens of layers to disentangle (and may be less danceable), so i see little point in getting silly about it. skinny puppy existed in a middle point; they always had the ability to attract both audiences because their music was both highly danceable and yet also in an art rock and political/punk rock tradition. this is not unique within electronic music, but it *is* rare. they're not considered to be the high point of electronic art music in the modern era for no reason.
throughout the 90s, skinny puppy fans connected with each other and discussed various topics over the epilogue internet mailing list. within this list, there was much derision directed at the cleopatra compilation due to it's over-representation of the ebm side of the band's sound. the more musically inclined members of the list claimed they could put together a better record, were challenged to do so and eventually did.
i was a fairly recent addition to the list and volunteered for distribution for the sole reason that i had the tools to do so (cd burners were still relatively rare in 1998). the cover art was put together by other members of the list and sent to me for reproduction.
while i would argue that the disc more accurately represents the experimental aspect of the band than either of the officially released compilations did, i listen to it now and wish i would have been more selective. the reality is that i didn't really have the standing necessary in the list (you have to have an understanding of 90s internet communications to get that, i guess) to act as a filter on material coming in. nor did i receive enough material to have the luxury of cutting tracks. there's some interesting remixes/reconstructions, but some of it is very blatantly the work of amateur musicians. i should also point out that i considered some of those amateur musicians to be my friends.
it's up here, as is, for listening ears. should either of the kevins express an opposition to this (i doubt that, but i am not able to tap into their consciousnesses from a distance), they own it and get to make the choices.
tracklisting:
1) the intonarumori project: rain (souless mix)
*2) dmt: blackout
3) animoid row: jahya (meld)
4) livesidog: smothered hope
5) pool-a: downlode
6) krewl: meat flavour
7) inri: hexonxonx (featuring ogrebot)
8) j deell: 200 years
9) triptamine: circustance (vitriol remix)
10) amputate: shore lined poison (deformed)
11) lunar caustic: worlock
12) dmso : anger (adrenergic brap)
13) jesus h. christ: assimilate (ambient mix)
14) lichaem: who's laughing now? (offended)
15) j deell: basement
*16) dj billpheus and oscar the grouch (with special guest vocals by the infinite hheathen): love
* - features bill van roy, later briefly of download"
this is something i did between inri demos. i needed a break from structured writing. just wanted to make some noise...
i suppose this is the biggest sample collage of them all, but it's best not to take it too seriously. the idea here eventually morphed into a project called "fuel true anarchy in the americas" (jasonparent.bandcamp.com/album/ftaa), a play on the ftaa trade agreement, which itself got toned down in scope.
there's everything from science docs to hitler in here. it's meant to be a passive trip through real and imaginary time that is experienced with the aid of psychedelic drugs, rather than any kind of political statement. it's quite consciously absurd, often juxtaposing ironic statements with their contradictions.
the core of the ambience was produced by a program called sound raider. i then took the sound it created and shaped it by adding in vocal samples, looping certain parts, running things through effects, sequencing the noise into a more melodic shape, etc. it's consequently a sort of a collaboration between myself and the machine, rather than the work of the machine itself.
no sane person could really listen to this passively. you basically *need* drugs to get anything out of this at all.
...and i think i'm probably the only person that ever experienced it properly. hey, it's never too late...
created in the summer of 1998. released as a standalone ep on nov 16, 2013. audio permanently closed on oct 12, 2016. release finalized on oct 27, 2016. as always, please use headphones.
this track also appears on my third record:
jasonparent.bandcamp.com/album/inridiculous
this release is compiled on inriℵ4:
jasonparent.bandcamp.com/merch/inri-box-set
this release also includes a printable jewel case insert and will also eventually include a comprehensive package of journal entries from all phases of production (1998, 2013, 2016).
i suppose this is the biggest sample collage of them all, but it's best not to take it too seriously. the idea here eventually morphed into a project called "fuel true anarchy in the americas" (jasonparent.bandcamp.com/album/ftaa), a play on the ftaa trade agreement, which itself got toned down in scope.
there's everything from science docs to hitler in here. it's meant to be a passive trip through real and imaginary time that is experienced with the aid of psychedelic drugs, rather than any kind of political statement. it's quite consciously absurd, often juxtaposing ironic statements with their contradictions.
the core of the ambience was produced by a program called sound raider. i then took the sound it created and shaped it by adding in vocal samples, looping certain parts, running things through effects, sequencing the noise into a more melodic shape, etc. it's consequently a sort of a collaboration between myself and the machine, rather than the work of the machine itself.
no sane person could really listen to this passively. you basically *need* drugs to get anything out of this at all.
...and i think i'm probably the only person that ever experienced it properly. hey, it's never too late...
created in the summer of 1998. released as a standalone ep on nov 16, 2013. audio permanently closed on oct 12, 2016. release finalized on oct 27, 2016. as always, please use headphones.
this track also appears on my third record:
jasonparent.bandcamp.com/album/inridiculous
this release is compiled on inriℵ4:
jasonparent.bandcamp.com/merch/inri-box-set
this release also includes a printable jewel case insert and will also eventually include a comprehensive package of journal entries from all phases of production (1998, 2013, 2016).
credits
released July 1, 1998
j - sound raider, sampling, cool edit synthesis/sequencing, digital effects processing, digital wave editing, flute
gauntk9 - anti-social quip
j - sound raider, sampling, cool edit synthesis/sequencing, digital effects processing, digital wave editing, flute
gauntk9 - anti-social quip
Wednesday, October 26, 2016
that was an unexpected detour, but it came out of the process of closing inri015 and i do think it was necessary and productive. that is the first two aleph discs. there will be a third up on the inriched disc, relatively soon - but that's the disc i'm turning over to.
i'm on try #4 in a row for an all nighter tonight, and i think i'm kind of required to do it, as i have some shopping to do in the morning. i need to finish the liner notes for aleph-1, then get something to eat and should finish the liner notes for inri016 by the end of the night, too. i may get started on inri017.
inri017 is largely about compiling existing sources. i do not think i have any actual remixing of any tracks to do.
i'm on try #4 in a row for an all nighter tonight, and i think i'm kind of required to do it, as i have some shopping to do in the morning. i need to finish the liner notes for aleph-1, then get something to eat and should finish the liner notes for inri016 by the end of the night, too. i may get started on inri017.
inri017 is largely about compiling existing sources. i do not think i have any actual remixing of any tracks to do.
flac dvd containing material originally recorded from 1997-1998 and
completed between 2013 and 2016. inri003-inri007, inri009,
inri011-inri015, inri030, inri046 & extras. numbered with a cd
printer and shipped in a jewel case. inriℵ1.
full contents:
/inri003: inrisampled
jasonparent.bandcamp.com/album/inrisampled
/inri004: fuck the dead
jasonparent.bandcamp.com/album/fuck-the-dead
/inri005: skaters
jasonparent.bandcamp.com/album/skaters
/inri006: useless
jasonparent.bandcamp.com/album/useless
/inri007: confused
jasonparent.bandcamp.com/album/confused-2
/inri009: i did your mom
jasonparent.bandcamp.com/album/i-did-your-mom-2
/inri011: nope
jasonparent.bandcamp.com/album/nope-2
/inri012: i think i feel much better now
jasonparent.bandcamp.com/album/i-think-i-feel-much-better-now
/inri013: on confusion in sexual adolescence
jasonparent.bandcamp.com/album/on-sexual-confusion-in-adolescence-2
/inri014: schizoid terrorist
jasonparent.bandcamp.com/album/schizoid-terrorist-2
/inri015: inri
jasonparent.bandcamp.com/album/inri-3
/inri030: war
jasonparent.bandcamp.com/album/war
/inri046: the intersection of two identical particles moving in completely opposite directions
jasonparent.bandcamp.com/album/the-intersection-of-two-identical-particles-moving-in-completely-opposite-directions
/extras:
- original loose mp3s from 1997 & 1998
- flac cd-r rip of original 1998 version of inri015
- 320 kbps mp3s of failed 2013 remaster of inri015
- phantom of the opera (washing machine mix)
total disc size is 4.607 gb.
total running time of official releases is 12:30:11.
absolute total running time is 16:14:57.
purchasing this release comes with the immediate download of inri015 only.
inri003: created in mid 1997. sequenced and converted to stereo in november, 2013. released on nov 9, 2013. corrected in september, 2014. finalized on july 5, 2016.
inri004: originally written in 1997 and first created in 1998. a failed rescue was attempted in 2013. finally reconstructed in the summer of 2015 and extrapolated upon over the first half of 2016. released on july 4, 2016. finalized on july 5, 2016.
inri005: initially written in 1997. recreated in jan, 1998. a failed rescue was attempted in 2013. reclaimed july 1, 2015. deconstructed dec 18, 2015. released on jan 4, 2016. finalized on july 6, 2016. lead track added and refinalized july 20, 2016.
inri006: originally created in 1998. a failed rescue was attempted in 2013. reconstructed in the summer of 2015 and then manipulated further in the summer of 2016. released & finalized on july 7, 2016. hidden track added and re-finalized on july 18, 2016.
inri007: initially written in 1997. recreated in feb, 1998. a failed rescue was attempted in 2013. reclaimed july 5, 2015. remixed july 12, 2015. electronics added on july 16, 2015. released on jan 4, 2016. sequenced on jan 6-8, 2016. finalized on july 10, 2016. hidden track added and refinalized on july 21, 2016.
inri009: initially written in 1994. first full recording in 1996. recreated in mar, 1998. a failed rescue was attempted in 2013. reclaimed & remixed on july 18, 2015. released jan 5, 2016. sequenced jan 6-8, 2016. finalized on july 20, 2016.
inri011: originally created in april, 1998. a failed rescue was attempted in 2013. reclaimed july 4, 2015. remixed july 15, 2015. vocals added jan 6, 2016. released on jan 6, 2016. finalized on july 23, 2016.
inri012: initially written in 1996. recreated in the spring of 1998. a failed rescue was attempted in 2013. reclaimed june 29, 2015. corrected to control for malfunctioning electronics on nov 26, 2015. sequenced on jan 10, 2016. released & finalized on july 24, 2016.
inri013: written and demoed from 1994-1998. initially constructed in this form in june, 1998. a failed rescue was attempted in 2013. sequenced on jan 6-7, 2016 from parts that were rebuilt over 2013-2016. released jan 7, 2016. finalized on july 29, 2016. symph001.
inri014: initially written in 1996. recreated mostly in feb, 1998 (schizoid, terrorists) but also partly in june, 1998 (abusive). sequenced in this form in june, 1998. a failed rescue was attempted in 2013. "terrorists" was reclaimed june 28-29, 2015 & remixed july 15, 2015. the main mix was corrected on nov 19, 2015. "schizoid" was reclaimed on july 12, 2015 & reprogrammed on dec 31, 2015. the main mix was corrected on jan 3, 2016 and remixed repeatedly jan 3-5, 2016. the lead track was sequenced on jan 5, 2016 and split back apart on jan 8, 2016. released on jan 5, 2016. audio permanently closed on aug 1, 2016. release finalized on oct 9, 2016.
inri015: written and demoed in multiple stages from 1994-1998. initially constructed in this form in june, 1998. a failed rescue was attempted in dec, 2013. reconstructed and resequenced jan 6-10, 2016 from parts that were rebuilt over 2013-2016. re-released jan 10, 2016. audio permanently closed on aug 10, 2016. finalized on oct 10, 2016. lp001.
inri030: initially created in sept, 1997. remixed and reimagined repeatedly over 1998 and 1999. a failed rescue was attempted in 2013. partially reclaimed dec 8, 2014. rebuilt and resequenced on jan 9, 2016. reimagined again on oct 26, 2016. not yet released. audio not yet permanently closed. release not yet finalized.
inri046: written june, 1998. reimagined june, 2001. slightly rearranged and re-rendered at the end of july, 2014. released july 24, 2016. rearranged again at the end of may, 2015 and one last time at the beginning of jan, 2016. audio not yet permanently closed. release not yet finalized.
originally created from 1996-1998. this compilation is dated to june 21, 1998. slowly remastered, reconstituted, compiled, reconstructed, released and finalized from 2013-2016. compilation finalized on oct 26, 2016. as always, please use headphones.
credits
released June 21, 1998
j - guitars, effects, bass, keyboards, synthesizers, orchestral & other sequencing, drum programming, drum kit, percussion, pick scrapes, metronomes, vocals, tapes, found sounds, sampling, cool edit wave synthesis, noise generators, soundraider, hammerhead, sound design, strategies, digital wave editing, loops, production.
the various rendered electronic orchestras include piano, organ, synthesizer effects, pc card, electric guitar, sitar, orchestra hit, pizzicato strings, synth pads, violin, viola, cello, contrabass, electric bass, tubular bells and flute.
https://jasonparent.bandcamp.com/album/inri-box-set
full contents:
/inri003: inrisampled
jasonparent.bandcamp.com/album/inrisampled
/inri004: fuck the dead
jasonparent.bandcamp.com/album/fuck-the-dead
/inri005: skaters
jasonparent.bandcamp.com/album/skaters
/inri006: useless
jasonparent.bandcamp.com/album/useless
/inri007: confused
jasonparent.bandcamp.com/album/confused-2
/inri009: i did your mom
jasonparent.bandcamp.com/album/i-did-your-mom-2
/inri011: nope
jasonparent.bandcamp.com/album/nope-2
/inri012: i think i feel much better now
jasonparent.bandcamp.com/album/i-think-i-feel-much-better-now
/inri013: on confusion in sexual adolescence
jasonparent.bandcamp.com/album/on-sexual-confusion-in-adolescence-2
/inri014: schizoid terrorist
jasonparent.bandcamp.com/album/schizoid-terrorist-2
/inri015: inri
jasonparent.bandcamp.com/album/inri-3
/inri030: war
jasonparent.bandcamp.com/album/war
/inri046: the intersection of two identical particles moving in completely opposite directions
jasonparent.bandcamp.com/album/the-intersection-of-two-identical-particles-moving-in-completely-opposite-directions
/extras:
- original loose mp3s from 1997 & 1998
- flac cd-r rip of original 1998 version of inri015
- 320 kbps mp3s of failed 2013 remaster of inri015
- phantom of the opera (washing machine mix)
total disc size is 4.607 gb.
total running time of official releases is 12:30:11.
absolute total running time is 16:14:57.
purchasing this release comes with the immediate download of inri015 only.
inri003: created in mid 1997. sequenced and converted to stereo in november, 2013. released on nov 9, 2013. corrected in september, 2014. finalized on july 5, 2016.
inri004: originally written in 1997 and first created in 1998. a failed rescue was attempted in 2013. finally reconstructed in the summer of 2015 and extrapolated upon over the first half of 2016. released on july 4, 2016. finalized on july 5, 2016.
inri005: initially written in 1997. recreated in jan, 1998. a failed rescue was attempted in 2013. reclaimed july 1, 2015. deconstructed dec 18, 2015. released on jan 4, 2016. finalized on july 6, 2016. lead track added and refinalized july 20, 2016.
inri006: originally created in 1998. a failed rescue was attempted in 2013. reconstructed in the summer of 2015 and then manipulated further in the summer of 2016. released & finalized on july 7, 2016. hidden track added and re-finalized on july 18, 2016.
inri007: initially written in 1997. recreated in feb, 1998. a failed rescue was attempted in 2013. reclaimed july 5, 2015. remixed july 12, 2015. electronics added on july 16, 2015. released on jan 4, 2016. sequenced on jan 6-8, 2016. finalized on july 10, 2016. hidden track added and refinalized on july 21, 2016.
inri009: initially written in 1994. first full recording in 1996. recreated in mar, 1998. a failed rescue was attempted in 2013. reclaimed & remixed on july 18, 2015. released jan 5, 2016. sequenced jan 6-8, 2016. finalized on july 20, 2016.
inri011: originally created in april, 1998. a failed rescue was attempted in 2013. reclaimed july 4, 2015. remixed july 15, 2015. vocals added jan 6, 2016. released on jan 6, 2016. finalized on july 23, 2016.
inri012: initially written in 1996. recreated in the spring of 1998. a failed rescue was attempted in 2013. reclaimed june 29, 2015. corrected to control for malfunctioning electronics on nov 26, 2015. sequenced on jan 10, 2016. released & finalized on july 24, 2016.
inri013: written and demoed from 1994-1998. initially constructed in this form in june, 1998. a failed rescue was attempted in 2013. sequenced on jan 6-7, 2016 from parts that were rebuilt over 2013-2016. released jan 7, 2016. finalized on july 29, 2016. symph001.
inri014: initially written in 1996. recreated mostly in feb, 1998 (schizoid, terrorists) but also partly in june, 1998 (abusive). sequenced in this form in june, 1998. a failed rescue was attempted in 2013. "terrorists" was reclaimed june 28-29, 2015 & remixed july 15, 2015. the main mix was corrected on nov 19, 2015. "schizoid" was reclaimed on july 12, 2015 & reprogrammed on dec 31, 2015. the main mix was corrected on jan 3, 2016 and remixed repeatedly jan 3-5, 2016. the lead track was sequenced on jan 5, 2016 and split back apart on jan 8, 2016. released on jan 5, 2016. audio permanently closed on aug 1, 2016. release finalized on oct 9, 2016.
inri015: written and demoed in multiple stages from 1994-1998. initially constructed in this form in june, 1998. a failed rescue was attempted in dec, 2013. reconstructed and resequenced jan 6-10, 2016 from parts that were rebuilt over 2013-2016. re-released jan 10, 2016. audio permanently closed on aug 10, 2016. finalized on oct 10, 2016. lp001.
inri030: initially created in sept, 1997. remixed and reimagined repeatedly over 1998 and 1999. a failed rescue was attempted in 2013. partially reclaimed dec 8, 2014. rebuilt and resequenced on jan 9, 2016. reimagined again on oct 26, 2016. not yet released. audio not yet permanently closed. release not yet finalized.
inri046: written june, 1998. reimagined june, 2001. slightly rearranged and re-rendered at the end of july, 2014. released july 24, 2016. rearranged again at the end of may, 2015 and one last time at the beginning of jan, 2016. audio not yet permanently closed. release not yet finalized.
originally created from 1996-1998. this compilation is dated to june 21, 1998. slowly remastered, reconstituted, compiled, reconstructed, released and finalized from 2013-2016. compilation finalized on oct 26, 2016. as always, please use headphones.
credits
released June 21, 1998
j - guitars, effects, bass, keyboards, synthesizers, orchestral & other sequencing, drum programming, drum kit, percussion, pick scrapes, metronomes, vocals, tapes, found sounds, sampling, cool edit wave synthesis, noise generators, soundraider, hammerhead, sound design, strategies, digital wave editing, loops, production.
the various rendered electronic orchestras include piano, organ, synthesizer effects, pc card, electric guitar, sitar, orchestra hit, pizzicato strings, synth pads, violin, viola, cello, contrabass, electric bass, tubular bells and flute.
https://jasonparent.bandcamp.com/album/inri-box-set
Tuesday, October 25, 2016
flac dvd containing material originally recorded from
1996-1998 and completed between 2013 and 2016. inri000-inri014. numbered
with a cd printer and shipped in a jewel case. inriℵ0.
full contents:
/inri000: cassette demo #1
jasonparent.bandcamp.com/album/inri-cassette-demo-1
/inri001: cassette demo #2
jasonparent.bandcamp.com/album/inri-cassette-demo-2
/inri002: inricycled
jasonparent.bandcamp.com/album/inricycled-a
/inri003: inrisampled
jasonparent.bandcamp.com/album/inrisampled
/inri004: fuck the dead
jasonparent.bandcamp.com/album/fuck-the-dead
/inri005: skaters
jasonparent.bandcamp.com/album/skaters
/inri006: useless
jasonparent.bandcamp.com/album/useless
/inri007: confused
jasonparent.bandcamp.com/album/confused-2
/inri008: hey god
jasonparent.bandcamp.com/album/hey-god-2
/inri009: i did tour mom
jasonparent.bandcamp.com/album/i-did-your-mom-2
/inri010: why
jasonparent.bandcamp.com/album/why
/inri011: nope
jasonparent.bandcamp.com/album/nope-2
/inri012: i think i feel much better now
jasonparent.bandcamp.com/album/i-think-i-feel-much-better-now
/inri013: on confusion in sexual adolescence
jasonparent.bandcamp.com/album/on-sexual-confusion-in-adolescence-2
/inri014: schizoid terrorist
jasonparent.bandcamp.com/album/schizoid-terrorist-2
total disc size is 4.462 gb.
total running time of official releases, inri000-inri014, is 14:18:39.
full contents:
/inri000: cassette demo #1
jasonparent.bandcamp.com/album/inri-cassette-demo-1
/inri001: cassette demo #2
jasonparent.bandcamp.com/album/inri-cassette-demo-2
/inri002: inricycled
jasonparent.bandcamp.com/album/inricycled-a
/inri003: inrisampled
jasonparent.bandcamp.com/album/inrisampled
/inri004: fuck the dead
jasonparent.bandcamp.com/album/fuck-the-dead
/inri005: skaters
jasonparent.bandcamp.com/album/skaters
/inri006: useless
jasonparent.bandcamp.com/album/useless
/inri007: confused
jasonparent.bandcamp.com/album/confused-2
/inri008: hey god
jasonparent.bandcamp.com/album/hey-god-2
/inri009: i did tour mom
jasonparent.bandcamp.com/album/i-did-your-mom-2
/inri010: why
jasonparent.bandcamp.com/album/why
/inri011: nope
jasonparent.bandcamp.com/album/nope-2
/inri012: i think i feel much better now
jasonparent.bandcamp.com/album/i-think-i-feel-much-better-now
/inri013: on confusion in sexual adolescence
jasonparent.bandcamp.com/album/on-sexual-confusion-in-adolescence-2
/inri014: schizoid terrorist
jasonparent.bandcamp.com/album/schizoid-terrorist-2
total disc size is 4.462 gb.
total running time of official releases, inri000-inri014, is 14:18:39.
ships out within 3 days
edition of 5000
https://jasonparent.bandcamp.com/merch/flac-dvd-disc-vol-1
i'm rethinking my aleph-discs and introducing a flac disc of inri000-inri014 as inriℵ0. this is 13 hours and will run for $130. i'm also bringing in an inriℵ1 around inri015 that will be 10 hours and run for $100.
these are the new rules. until i make different ones. but, with the discography stabilizing, i think this is likely final. the fact that i'm making it flexible also means it's like final, unless i start noticing patterns and just lock some prices into place.
the idea behind the aleph discs is that they're dvd sized torrents. that's what people do nowadays, right? they just download torrents. well, here's a kind of concept of how much these torrents ought to actually cost, if split into dvd-sized chunks of data.
and, who would buy these? it's not going to be long before i have some mp3-dvds up for well over $200. wtf? well, think of it like this - i'm giving you the opportunity to send me money in a larger chunk of cash than $7. it's a donation to an artist. you have to think of it like that. and, have you seen what people pay for ink blots?
i think there's a kind of deeper concept to this, too, though. the internet is eliminating the music market, which is going to force artists to rely on larger donations. the future is probably not spotify because nobody gets paid. it probably looks more like this.
i'll probably have links up by the end of the night.
and, yes, this is a math joke.
these are the new rules. until i make different ones. but, with the discography stabilizing, i think this is likely final. the fact that i'm making it flexible also means it's like final, unless i start noticing patterns and just lock some prices into place.
the idea behind the aleph discs is that they're dvd sized torrents. that's what people do nowadays, right? they just download torrents. well, here's a kind of concept of how much these torrents ought to actually cost, if split into dvd-sized chunks of data.
and, who would buy these? it's not going to be long before i have some mp3-dvds up for well over $200. wtf? well, think of it like this - i'm giving you the opportunity to send me money in a larger chunk of cash than $7. it's a donation to an artist. you have to think of it like that. and, have you seen what people pay for ink blots?
i think there's a kind of deeper concept to this, too, though. the internet is eliminating the music market, which is going to force artists to rely on larger donations. the future is probably not spotify because nobody gets paid. it probably looks more like this.
i'll probably have links up by the end of the night.
and, yes, this is a math joke.
Shipping and return policies for jessica murray
- Shipping Info
-
format:
single: $5
ep: $7
lp: $10
double ep (split digital/physical): $10
double ep (both physical): $14
double lp: $20
releases are categorized conceptually, rather than by length.
there are 70 minute eps and 65 minute records.
compilation formats (dvd, bd) will be priced at $10/hour of music.
so, a 7.5 hour dvd flac disc will be priced at $75.
i've been unable to derive a flat pricing that makes sense.
types of compilation discs will be:
- dvd flac "box sets" of all singles around an lp. max 10 hours.
- dvd/bd flac "period discs" of all releases in a period.
- dvd/bd mp3/flac compilation discs are a running chronological total with no overlap.
note that flac is higher quality than mp3.
therefore, mp3 discs contain more music.
pricing is relative to length, only.
be sure to purchase what you WANT.
shipping:
$5 - can
$10 - us/intl
shipping rates are flat to the max, meaning i may gain slightly but i won't lose on shipping. it's otherwise about $3 to make a package. 20% of the sale price goes to transaction fees. this is as cheap as it can be while still being worthwhile to produce. if you buy a very large package (five cds or more), shipping will come down substantially and i'll contact you to talk about ways to make it more fair.
for right now, all discs will have planned limited edition, numbered handmade runs and will be made on demand up to 5000 copies sold, at which point they will be professionally pressed without numbers.
if you want me to send you something twice, you'd better be able to prove it got lost. there will be very few exceptions. sorry.
Sunday, October 23, 2016
more alter-reality posts:
1) http://therealinri.blogspot.ca/1996/10/overall-life-is-indeed-fairly-peachy.html
2) http://therealinri.blogspot.ca/1996/10/demo-8-boogeyman.html
this week just never got started. i think the biggest issue was that i had two doctor's appointments, which screwed up my schedule. i've really done nothing of value since i got back from lansing.
i have resolved to stop with the ranting on google+, and i've now finished what may be my last routine recitation. these vlogs are coming up right now and may very well be a huge pivot for me.
i need to finish some cleaning this morning, but i think i can finally get back to work tomorrow...
1) http://therealinri.blogspot.ca/1996/10/overall-life-is-indeed-fairly-peachy.html
2) http://therealinri.blogspot.ca/1996/10/demo-8-boogeyman.html
this week just never got started. i think the biggest issue was that i had two doctor's appointments, which screwed up my schedule. i've really done nothing of value since i got back from lansing.
i have resolved to stop with the ranting on google+, and i've now finished what may be my last routine recitation. these vlogs are coming up right now and may very well be a huge pivot for me.
i need to finish some cleaning this morning, but i think i can finally get back to work tomorrow...
Thursday, October 13, 2016
Tuesday, October 11, 2016
i made it to the post office yesterday, only to realize that it was thanksgiving in canada...
caddywhompus was last night. solid. they didn't play last, though. there was a band called "mover shaker" that played last and also delivered a very strong set.
i got the package out today.
fwiw, i haven't really slept in two days. there was a short nap yesterday before the show (2:30-5:30, much of it awake) and a short nap this morning (3:00-6:30) that i expected to be sleep, but didn't take. i woke up about 9 pm on the 9th.
that's ok - i love this, actually. i like these long, winding days. and, they make for good vlogs. but i do prefer them to be a tad more productive. hey, the concert in the middle is pretty cool, right?
i'm going to have another long day starting thursday night and taking me all the way to saturday afternoon. two concerts. a bus ride to lansing. life is good.
for however long today lasts for, and for tomorrow, i need to do a lot of loose ends. budgets. cleaning. editing.
i promised i was getting back on track, and i will be starting on sunday. i don't expect to get anything done the rest of the week.
caddywhompus was last night. solid. they didn't play last, though. there was a band called "mover shaker" that played last and also delivered a very strong set.
i got the package out today.
fwiw, i haven't really slept in two days. there was a short nap yesterday before the show (2:30-5:30, much of it awake) and a short nap this morning (3:00-6:30) that i expected to be sleep, but didn't take. i woke up about 9 pm on the 9th.
that's ok - i love this, actually. i like these long, winding days. and, they make for good vlogs. but i do prefer them to be a tad more productive. hey, the concert in the middle is pretty cool, right?
i'm going to have another long day starting thursday night and taking me all the way to saturday afternoon. two concerts. a bus ride to lansing. life is good.
for however long today lasts for, and for tomorrow, i need to do a lot of loose ends. budgets. cleaning. editing.
i promised i was getting back on track, and i will be starting on sunday. i don't expect to get anything done the rest of the week.
Monday, October 10, 2016
i'm still not quite ready to ship in the morning, but i'm just going to give an update on what's coming here before hallowe'en.
inri016 - eat my fuck
inri017 - idiotic single (with wish-noise-idiotic super track & outtakes)
inri018 - circus single
inri019 - teenage jesus single
inri020 - boogeyman single
inri021 - inriched (lp 2)
this is the hump.
then: period 1.2 comps
then: period 1.3
.....before i take another listening pause.
inri016 - eat my fuck
inri017 - idiotic single (with wish-noise-idiotic super track & outtakes)
inri018 - circus single
inri019 - teenage jesus single
inri020 - boogeyman single
inri021 - inriched (lp 2)
this is the hump.
then: period 1.2 comps
then: period 1.3
.....before i take another listening pause.
finalizing inri015
it took eighteen years and multiple attempts at a construction, but this
record is finally permanently completed as an instrumental electronic
work and i am finally proud to refer to it as my first record.
while most of these songs have defined concepts underlying them, i have ejected these concepts from the final recording and left them in a series of singles. i would prefer that this album be understood solely as the instrumental recording of electronic music that i am presenting it as.
written and demoed in multiple stages from 1994-1998. initially constructed in this form in june, 1998. a failed rescue was attempted in 2013. reconstructed and resequenced jan 6-10, 2016 from parts that were rebuilt over 2013-2016. audio permanently closed on aug 10, 2016. finalized on oct 10, 2016. this is my first official record; as always, please use headphones.
the original, unaltered files are also available (along with the original 1998 cd sequence, the failed 2013 remasters and the final reconstructions - all in flac) as 112 kbps mp3s, as i found them, on inriℵ0:
jasonparent.bandcamp.com/merch/inri-box-set
this release also includes a printable jewel case insert and will also eventually include a comprehensive package of journal entries from all phases of production (1996, 1997, 1998, 2013, 2014, 2015, 2016).
credits
released June 20, 1998
j - guitars, effects, bass, synthesizers, drum programming, orchestral & other sequencing, sampling, vocal relics, cool edit synthesis, windows 95 sound recorder, production, found sounds, strategies, soundraider, hammerhead, sound design, metronome, digital wave editing, production
the rendered electronic orchestra includes piano, organ, electric guitar, orchestra hit, pizzicato strings, synth pads, violin, viola, cello, contrabass, electric bass, sitar, tubular bells, tinkle bells, synthesizer effects and flute.
while most of these songs have defined concepts underlying them, i have ejected these concepts from the final recording and left them in a series of singles. i would prefer that this album be understood solely as the instrumental recording of electronic music that i am presenting it as.
written and demoed in multiple stages from 1994-1998. initially constructed in this form in june, 1998. a failed rescue was attempted in 2013. reconstructed and resequenced jan 6-10, 2016 from parts that were rebuilt over 2013-2016. audio permanently closed on aug 10, 2016. finalized on oct 10, 2016. this is my first official record; as always, please use headphones.
the original, unaltered files are also available (along with the original 1998 cd sequence, the failed 2013 remasters and the final reconstructions - all in flac) as 112 kbps mp3s, as i found them, on inriℵ0:
jasonparent.bandcamp.com/merch/inri-box-set
this release also includes a printable jewel case insert and will also eventually include a comprehensive package of journal entries from all phases of production (1996, 1997, 1998, 2013, 2014, 2015, 2016).
credits
released June 20, 1998
j - guitars, effects, bass, synthesizers, drum programming, orchestral & other sequencing, sampling, vocal relics, cool edit synthesis, windows 95 sound recorder, production, found sounds, strategies, soundraider, hammerhead, sound design, metronome, digital wave editing, production
the rendered electronic orchestra includes piano, organ, electric guitar, orchestra hit, pizzicato strings, synth pads, violin, viola, cello, contrabass, electric bass, sitar, tubular bells, tinkle bells, synthesizer effects and flute.
Sunday, October 9, 2016
finalizing inri014
i'm moving slower than i'd like, but here's the first one, anyways:
--
this single was created by running tracks 9,10 and 11 on the cd together; it was never meant to be a unified track. 9 and 11 are proper tracks, whereas 10 is an experimental segue directly into 11. the process of compiling singles kind of accidentally led to this construction as a very natural combination and i'm now very content with it as the permanent home for both of these pieces.
these songs were both always musically driven, with kind of throwaway vocals that i don't really have any meaningful analysis for. neither of these tracks was ever conceptual or confessional or ever meant much to me on a personal level, so they don't have the kind of stories or explanations that the other tracks that were important to me do. i have not remixed the vocals into either of these songs; all of the tracks on the physical release are entirely instrumental. why bother releasing a single, then?
the reason is that i ended up with a number of mixes for both of them and just needed a place to house them. of course, that's not actually any kind of an interesting concept to build a single around. it was precisely because there was no retained concept underlying either of these tracks that the singles seemed pointless. but, once they were connected via the segue, the purpose of a single became readily apparent in that connection, itself.
the decision was sealed by a curious synchronicity in time. they were both originally written for the 1996 cassette demo, and separated there by a guitar/bass cover of "mellon collie and the infinite sadness". the entanglement is probably not entirely coincidental; i have a vague recollection of checking the tape to ensure i didn't forget any songs, and i may very well have repeated recording them in succession for that reason. however that happened to be, the synchronicity is a big part of what allowed me to create this ep the way that i've created it as it allowed me to label demo versions of the track with the same title.
while neither of these tracks have meaningful vocals, they are both important in my musical development. schizoid features my first multi-part string accompaniment and terrorists is a serious step forward in harmonic complexity. even the segue (titled "abusive") is something different: it's my first run at a 909 emulator, and a step out to lunch in abstract sound design.
so, as the last piece completed for my first record, this is somewhat of a portal to transit through, in terms of the developing complexity in my compositional abilities. but, it does not and never did have any worthwhile conceptual meaning to me. as such, there is no story to tell.
initially written in 1996. recreated mostly in feb, 1998 (schizoid, terrorists) but also partly in june, 1998 (abusive). sequenced in this form in june, 1998. a failed rescue was attempted in 2013. "terrorists" was reclaimed june 28-29, 2015 & remixed july 15, 2015. the main mix was corrected on nov 19, 2015. "schizoid" was reclaimed on july 12, 2015 & reprogrammed on dec 31, 2015. the main mix was corrected on jan 3, 2016 and remixed repeatedly jan 3-5, 2016. the lead track was sequenced on jan 5, 2016 and split back apart on jan 8, 2016. audio permanently closed on aug 1, 2016. release finalized on oct 9, 2016. as always, please use headphones.
the album version of this track appears on my first record:
jasonparent.bandcamp.com/album/inri-3
this release is compiled on inriℵ0.
jasonparent.bandcamp.com/merch/inri-box-set
this release also includes a printable jewel case insert and will also eventually include a comprehensive package of journal entries from all phases of production (1996, 1998, 2013, 2015, 2016).
* - download only
credits
released June 16, 1998
j - guitars, effects, bass, vocals, synths, drum kit, drum programming, sequencing, soundraider, hammerhead, cool edit synthesis, tapes, noises, found sounds, sound design, sampling, digital wave editing, production.
the rendered electronic orchestra includes organ, sitar, bells, violin, viola, cello, contrabass and synthesizer effects.
--
this single was created by running tracks 9,10 and 11 on the cd together; it was never meant to be a unified track. 9 and 11 are proper tracks, whereas 10 is an experimental segue directly into 11. the process of compiling singles kind of accidentally led to this construction as a very natural combination and i'm now very content with it as the permanent home for both of these pieces.
these songs were both always musically driven, with kind of throwaway vocals that i don't really have any meaningful analysis for. neither of these tracks was ever conceptual or confessional or ever meant much to me on a personal level, so they don't have the kind of stories or explanations that the other tracks that were important to me do. i have not remixed the vocals into either of these songs; all of the tracks on the physical release are entirely instrumental. why bother releasing a single, then?
the reason is that i ended up with a number of mixes for both of them and just needed a place to house them. of course, that's not actually any kind of an interesting concept to build a single around. it was precisely because there was no retained concept underlying either of these tracks that the singles seemed pointless. but, once they were connected via the segue, the purpose of a single became readily apparent in that connection, itself.
the decision was sealed by a curious synchronicity in time. they were both originally written for the 1996 cassette demo, and separated there by a guitar/bass cover of "mellon collie and the infinite sadness". the entanglement is probably not entirely coincidental; i have a vague recollection of checking the tape to ensure i didn't forget any songs, and i may very well have repeated recording them in succession for that reason. however that happened to be, the synchronicity is a big part of what allowed me to create this ep the way that i've created it as it allowed me to label demo versions of the track with the same title.
while neither of these tracks have meaningful vocals, they are both important in my musical development. schizoid features my first multi-part string accompaniment and terrorists is a serious step forward in harmonic complexity. even the segue (titled "abusive") is something different: it's my first run at a 909 emulator, and a step out to lunch in abstract sound design.
so, as the last piece completed for my first record, this is somewhat of a portal to transit through, in terms of the developing complexity in my compositional abilities. but, it does not and never did have any worthwhile conceptual meaning to me. as such, there is no story to tell.
initially written in 1996. recreated mostly in feb, 1998 (schizoid, terrorists) but also partly in june, 1998 (abusive). sequenced in this form in june, 1998. a failed rescue was attempted in 2013. "terrorists" was reclaimed june 28-29, 2015 & remixed july 15, 2015. the main mix was corrected on nov 19, 2015. "schizoid" was reclaimed on july 12, 2015 & reprogrammed on dec 31, 2015. the main mix was corrected on jan 3, 2016 and remixed repeatedly jan 3-5, 2016. the lead track was sequenced on jan 5, 2016 and split back apart on jan 8, 2016. audio permanently closed on aug 1, 2016. release finalized on oct 9, 2016. as always, please use headphones.
the album version of this track appears on my first record:
jasonparent.bandcamp.com/album/inri-3
this release is compiled on inriℵ0.
jasonparent.bandcamp.com/merch/inri-box-set
this release also includes a printable jewel case insert and will also eventually include a comprehensive package of journal entries from all phases of production (1996, 1998, 2013, 2015, 2016).
* - download only
credits
released June 16, 1998
j - guitars, effects, bass, vocals, synths, drum kit, drum programming, sequencing, soundraider, hammerhead, cool edit synthesis, tapes, noises, found sounds, sound design, sampling, digital wave editing, production.
the rendered electronic orchestra includes organ, sitar, bells, violin, viola, cello, contrabass and synthesizer effects.
Saturday, October 8, 2016
i got some sleep yesterday, and this was good. i'm unfortunately a little slow transferring over, as i have some conservatives trying to win an argument with me on youtube (they're persistent, anyways). these are trained propagandists. i can tell by the talking points. they're trying to talk me into caring about deficits, but i frankly don't think they even realize how wrong what they're saying is. if they did, they'd just give up.
--
this individual was (is, i guess) a fiscal conservative. he insisted i take a position that defends the liberal party of ontario. what he was trying to do was constrain the discussion to a "legitimate debate" between liberals and conservatives.
but, i am not a liberal - i am a socialist. and, i was resisting this attempt to "legitimize" the discussion by avoiding his bait as long as i could.
i accidentally took the bait, and there wasn't a way out. but, i need to be clear: i didn't want to have this debate. it's not a topic i'm interested in. and, it's very hard for me to have these debates because i'm so far to the left that i constantly have to redefine terms with any opponent.
the bit about money being an artificial construct, for example. i understand his point, from his perspective. but, if you reject the concept of money, my position does follow.
you might suggest that i have no business having a detailed policy discussion about the liberal party's budget if i reject the concept of money - to which i would respond that i didn't want to have that discussion in the first place.
if this was in real life, i would have gotten up and walked away. you can't do that online. you can't ignore somebody. you have to block them.
--
it was a long exchange, and it took me all day and now i'm hungry again :\. i hadn't eaten in a few days, and filled my stomach up quickly so i only had half what i usually eat...
but, i am going to be back to finishing the write-ups for inri014 and inri015 by the end of the night. i plan to ship in the morning...
--
this individual was (is, i guess) a fiscal conservative. he insisted i take a position that defends the liberal party of ontario. what he was trying to do was constrain the discussion to a "legitimate debate" between liberals and conservatives.
but, i am not a liberal - i am a socialist. and, i was resisting this attempt to "legitimize" the discussion by avoiding his bait as long as i could.
i accidentally took the bait, and there wasn't a way out. but, i need to be clear: i didn't want to have this debate. it's not a topic i'm interested in. and, it's very hard for me to have these debates because i'm so far to the left that i constantly have to redefine terms with any opponent.
the bit about money being an artificial construct, for example. i understand his point, from his perspective. but, if you reject the concept of money, my position does follow.
you might suggest that i have no business having a detailed policy discussion about the liberal party's budget if i reject the concept of money - to which i would respond that i didn't want to have that discussion in the first place.
if this was in real life, i would have gotten up and walked away. you can't do that online. you can't ignore somebody. you have to block them.
--
it was a long exchange, and it took me all day and now i'm hungry again :\. i hadn't eaten in a few days, and filled my stomach up quickly so i only had half what i usually eat...
but, i am going to be back to finishing the write-ups for inri014 and inri015 by the end of the night. i plan to ship in the morning...
Friday, October 7, 2016
ok, so i have another alter-reality update...
i've got a pile of bureaucracy to do over the next few days. i got through a chunk of it overnight, but i'm going to have to sleep at some point, too. inri014-inri016 should be closed by the end of the weekend.....
alter-reality posts:
1) sneaking in to use my sister's keyboard
http://therealinri.blogspot.ca/1996/10/sneaking-in-to-use-my-sisters-keyboard.html
2) demo track #6:
http://therealinri.blogspot.ca/1996/10/demo-track-6.html
3) did i hear this on the radio today?
http://therealinri.blogspot.ca/1996/10/did-i-hear-this-on-radio-today.html
i've got a pile of bureaucracy to do over the next few days. i got through a chunk of it overnight, but i'm going to have to sleep at some point, too. inri014-inri016 should be closed by the end of the weekend.....
alter-reality posts:
1) sneaking in to use my sister's keyboard
http://therealinri.blogspot.ca/1996/10/sneaking-in-to-use-my-sisters-keyboard.html
2) demo track #6:
http://therealinri.blogspot.ca/1996/10/demo-track-6.html
3) did i hear this on the radio today?
http://therealinri.blogspot.ca/1996/10/did-i-hear-this-on-radio-today.html
Tuesday, October 4, 2016
also....
i've made a choice to back off of the listening, for now, and just get on with it.
i lost the month of september altogether. august was messy, but september just evaporated. so, i'm very far behind and want to get a move on things.
on top of that, i've certainly listened to these recordings quite a bit through my mp3 player and i'm absolutely confident that they are not going to be altered. so, what am i doing, really? i've lost a lot of time and don't want to waste any more.
finally, i know i'm going to come back to this when i'm done the next section, anyways.
so, here's the new plan: fill up the mp3 player and then come back to it. that's 2 gb of mp3s. when i get there, i'll stop and do a massive listening run over all of period 1 before moving back on to period 2.
that means i need to finish the final close on inri014 and inri015 tonight and then move on to inri016 when i finish cleaning, in a few days. my new goal is to completely finish period 1 by halloween. and, i think we can do this.
i've made a choice to back off of the listening, for now, and just get on with it.
i lost the month of september altogether. august was messy, but september just evaporated. so, i'm very far behind and want to get a move on things.
on top of that, i've certainly listened to these recordings quite a bit through my mp3 player and i'm absolutely confident that they are not going to be altered. so, what am i doing, really? i've lost a lot of time and don't want to waste any more.
finally, i know i'm going to come back to this when i'm done the next section, anyways.
so, here's the new plan: fill up the mp3 player and then come back to it. that's 2 gb of mp3s. when i get there, i'll stop and do a massive listening run over all of period 1 before moving back on to period 2.
that means i need to finish the final close on inri014 and inri015 tonight and then move on to inri016 when i finish cleaning, in a few days. my new goal is to completely finish period 1 by halloween. and, i think we can do this.
this has been painful. i started this post almost two weeks ago and am just posting it now.
but, several alter-reality updates are up, now.
1) demo #2 (hey god):
http://therealinri.blogspot.ca/2016/09/new-song-2.html
http://therealinri.blogspot.ca/1996/09/the-song-from-yesterday.html
2) new adventures in hi-fi review:
http://therealinri.blogspot.ca/1996/09/new-adventures-with-old-favourite.html
3) first concert (smashing pumpkins, mcis tour, ottawa):
http://therealinri.blogspot.ca/1996/09/my-first-ever-concert-smashing-pumpkins.html
4) demo #3 (i did your mom):
http://therealinri.blogspot.ca/1996/09/track-3-i-did-your-mom.html
5) demo #4 (neglected):
http://therealinri.blogspot.ca/1996/09/track-4-neglected.html
6) pinkerton review:
http://therealinri.blogspot.ca/1996/09/the-new-weezer-record-is-horrible.html
7) demo #5:
http://therealinri.blogspot.ca/1996/09/good-afternoon-i-have-another-song-for.html
but, several alter-reality updates are up, now.
1) demo #2 (hey god):
http://therealinri.blogspot.ca/2016/09/new-song-2.html
http://therealinri.blogspot.ca/1996/09/the-song-from-yesterday.html
2) new adventures in hi-fi review:
http://therealinri.blogspot.ca/1996/09/new-adventures-with-old-favourite.html
3) first concert (smashing pumpkins, mcis tour, ottawa):
http://therealinri.blogspot.ca/1996/09/my-first-ever-concert-smashing-pumpkins.html
4) demo #3 (i did your mom):
http://therealinri.blogspot.ca/1996/09/track-3-i-did-your-mom.html
5) demo #4 (neglected):
http://therealinri.blogspot.ca/1996/09/track-4-neglected.html
6) pinkerton review:
http://therealinri.blogspot.ca/1996/09/the-new-weezer-record-is-horrible.html
7) demo #5:
http://therealinri.blogspot.ca/1996/09/good-afternoon-i-have-another-song-for.html
Friday, September 23, 2016
i've had a really off the wall month - i spent this week sick in bed and the week before it trying to work through what passing out in detroit and waking up in a stranger's car actually means. listening left off on the 6th. and, i'm several weeks behind on the alter-reality....
what i'm going to do this morning is catch up on the alter-reality, and i will post those updates here as they come in. i'll then need to finish up all the things i need to finish as quickly as i can finish them.
it's kind of important to me that i'm able to get over this hump and into the next phase by the end of this season. it's going to be tight. very tight. but, this is currently my goal.
the temperature is coming down over the weekend and i can't imagine we'll continue to get these kinds of hot days much further into autumn. so, i should also be able to move back into the other room - which i'm going to need to have filled up again by the summer to avoid this scenario happening again.
one thing at a time. alter-reality. real-life shit. then, back to listening. and on to finalizing my second record.
what i'm going to do this morning is catch up on the alter-reality, and i will post those updates here as they come in. i'll then need to finish up all the things i need to finish as quickly as i can finish them.
it's kind of important to me that i'm able to get over this hump and into the next phase by the end of this season. it's going to be tight. very tight. but, this is currently my goal.
the temperature is coming down over the weekend and i can't imagine we'll continue to get these kinds of hot days much further into autumn. so, i should also be able to move back into the other room - which i'm going to need to have filled up again by the summer to avoid this scenario happening again.
one thing at a time. alter-reality. real-life shit. then, back to listening. and on to finalizing my second record.
Sunday, September 18, 2016
Friday, September 16, 2016
i had the view count disabled...
57,000? what?
i have 4,000 views on youtube, guys. that's a pretty dramatic difference. you know i have a youtube page, right?
or a bandcamp site? in the description. pinned, even.
i got about 250,000 views with my dtk account over roughly two years (and 40,000 views on youtube). i've got 50,000 k here in almost a year, but only 4,000 views on youtube. that's half as much traffic, but a tenth of the views.
i get that my vlogs may be less interesting than my music. but, i want you to go to bandcamp to listen. youtube is useless to me, as a musician.
i'm more curious about why i have 60,000 views. what are people coming here for? the political analysis?
ok, you guys know these are only sketches, right? that the real political analysis is in the videos, right? i'm not just reading things verbatim. that is where i have the really interesting discussions of things, not here.
but, on another note? you could try interacting a little bit. i don't bite. well, at least not unless you ask.
(i actually do bite :P)
no, really. 60,000 views but no comments? c'mon. let me know who you are....
i mean, i suppose i could starting posting videos here, but that would be kind of silly, wouldn't it? every day, guys. 12:30 am...
57,000? what?
i have 4,000 views on youtube, guys. that's a pretty dramatic difference. you know i have a youtube page, right?
or a bandcamp site? in the description. pinned, even.
i got about 250,000 views with my dtk account over roughly two years (and 40,000 views on youtube). i've got 50,000 k here in almost a year, but only 4,000 views on youtube. that's half as much traffic, but a tenth of the views.
i get that my vlogs may be less interesting than my music. but, i want you to go to bandcamp to listen. youtube is useless to me, as a musician.
i'm more curious about why i have 60,000 views. what are people coming here for? the political analysis?
ok, you guys know these are only sketches, right? that the real political analysis is in the videos, right? i'm not just reading things verbatim. that is where i have the really interesting discussions of things, not here.
but, on another note? you could try interacting a little bit. i don't bite. well, at least not unless you ask.
(i actually do bite :P)
no, really. 60,000 views but no comments? c'mon. let me know who you are....
i mean, i suppose i could starting posting videos here, but that would be kind of silly, wouldn't it? every day, guys. 12:30 am...
Thursday, September 15, 2016
Wednesday, September 14, 2016
a quick concert turned into a night of drinking (got a little paranoid walking home...)
there's really no meaningful review, here. i showed up a few minutes before they came on at the bar down the street, and they did a short set that was similar (if not identical) to the one i had seen a few months previously.
the reason i showed up on this night was more to send a message to the bar that this kind of music can bring in a crowd. the bar was far more lively than most shows i see there. unfortunately, most of that crowd left as they were playing.
i hadn't been out for a while, though, so i turned around from going home and instead found myself at a karaoke bar, where i ended up drinking too much.
the band suffered from a lack of monitors, and was clearly just trying to get through the set and move on. this is a very small bar, as you can see.
here is some footage from the show:
here is a full set from earlier in the year:
here is the vlog for the day:
http://dghjdfsghkrdghdgja.appspot.com/categories/shows/2016/09/07.html
the reason i showed up on this night was more to send a message to the bar that this kind of music can bring in a crowd. the bar was far more lively than most shows i see there. unfortunately, most of that crowd left as they were playing.
i hadn't been out for a while, though, so i turned around from going home and instead found myself at a karaoke bar, where i ended up drinking too much.
the band suffered from a lack of monitors, and was clearly just trying to get through the set and move on. this is a very small bar, as you can see.
here is some footage from the show:
here is a full set from earlier in the year:
here is the vlog for the day:
http://dghjdfsghkrdghdgja.appspot.com/categories/shows/2016/09/07.html
Tuesday, September 13, 2016
yeah.
i've decided to finally get rid of my testicles. if i can. this is not the sex change operation, which i simply don't want to do out of sequence. it would be done by now if i could find a way to fund electrolysis, but that will likely remain impossible for the foreseeable future. i just think it's crazy to try and get a full sex change while i'm still growing chin hair. and, there's a bureaucracy in canada that is actually unnecessarily restrictive - the process takes forever and rejects a lot of candidates. i wouldn't expect to be approved pre-electrolysis. but, i can't fund the electrolysis until i'm post-op. catch-22. the rational procedure is to go on hormones for a while, get the hair removal done and then get the testicles removed with the sex change. i'm just stuck at the hormone stage for financial reasons.
but, i'm getting restless. i see no conceivable way to fund the hair removal. and, i've just been on pause, waiting, for too long. i need a way forward.
the thing is that i may be able to get the testicle removal done under ohip. i don't know yet. it's ambiguous. but, if it's conceivable, i should do it. it's a next step that could be very positive.
why now?
what i'm noticing over the last four or five days (it's been building for the last few months....) is that i'm in need of a boost in dosage for the anti-androgens. this is after i just boosted my estrogen a few months ago. i'm getting to the point where dosage boosts may begin to get dangerous. and then what?
i think i should acknowledge that i have a choice: i can boost the anti-androgens (and keep up this arms war with my body), or i can just get my testicles taken out.
if i can do the latter, i should notice a lot of positive benefits:
1) i can go off the anti-androgens altogether.
2) reduced hair growth.
3) because the estrogen i take orally will no longer be fighting with the testosterone i produce naturally, it should be more effective.
i probably should have done this years ago. but, i figured i would eventually find a way to fund hair removal and do this in the usual order. and, the testosterone suppressors were working. they're starting to fade, and i don't want to just keep boosting dosages, so i need to take a different approach.
i'm going to have to talk to some doctors.
my argument is going to be that it's a path of least harm. and, i'll have to hope that they can find a way to get it covered.
fwiw, i have no interest in kids. that has little to do with gender identity - i made that choice when i was about 12. somebody talked me into freezing sperm once, but i don't even know if it's still in the freezer. or even care.
actually, it was that doctor in ottawa that got shut down for handing out the wrong sperm. so, i may have kids out there after all.
but, i'm just not remotely interested in spending any time at all with anybody under the age of 15 for any reason. sorry.
i've decided to finally get rid of my testicles. if i can. this is not the sex change operation, which i simply don't want to do out of sequence. it would be done by now if i could find a way to fund electrolysis, but that will likely remain impossible for the foreseeable future. i just think it's crazy to try and get a full sex change while i'm still growing chin hair. and, there's a bureaucracy in canada that is actually unnecessarily restrictive - the process takes forever and rejects a lot of candidates. i wouldn't expect to be approved pre-electrolysis. but, i can't fund the electrolysis until i'm post-op. catch-22. the rational procedure is to go on hormones for a while, get the hair removal done and then get the testicles removed with the sex change. i'm just stuck at the hormone stage for financial reasons.
but, i'm getting restless. i see no conceivable way to fund the hair removal. and, i've just been on pause, waiting, for too long. i need a way forward.
the thing is that i may be able to get the testicle removal done under ohip. i don't know yet. it's ambiguous. but, if it's conceivable, i should do it. it's a next step that could be very positive.
why now?
what i'm noticing over the last four or five days (it's been building for the last few months....) is that i'm in need of a boost in dosage for the anti-androgens. this is after i just boosted my estrogen a few months ago. i'm getting to the point where dosage boosts may begin to get dangerous. and then what?
i think i should acknowledge that i have a choice: i can boost the anti-androgens (and keep up this arms war with my body), or i can just get my testicles taken out.
if i can do the latter, i should notice a lot of positive benefits:
1) i can go off the anti-androgens altogether.
2) reduced hair growth.
3) because the estrogen i take orally will no longer be fighting with the testosterone i produce naturally, it should be more effective.
i probably should have done this years ago. but, i figured i would eventually find a way to fund hair removal and do this in the usual order. and, the testosterone suppressors were working. they're starting to fade, and i don't want to just keep boosting dosages, so i need to take a different approach.
i'm going to have to talk to some doctors.
my argument is going to be that it's a path of least harm. and, i'll have to hope that they can find a way to get it covered.
fwiw, i have no interest in kids. that has little to do with gender identity - i made that choice when i was about 12. somebody talked me into freezing sperm once, but i don't even know if it's still in the freezer. or even care.
actually, it was that doctor in ottawa that got shut down for handing out the wrong sperm. so, i may have kids out there after all.
but, i'm just not remotely interested in spending any time at all with anybody under the age of 15 for any reason. sorry.
again, i'm sorry, but i'm not trying to present a false image to sell t-shirts; i'm trying to document my life as a composer for the historical record. i had a messy week. the vlogs will reflect that. if that upsets you, too bad.
but you might want to get ready for it.
real life gets messy sometimes. and, i'm trying to keep it as real as i can.
but, i also need to be clear that there is only one character here, and it's me. i'll admit that this makes things a lot easier in terms of the dynamics of the thing. but, it actually also necessitates that i open up, because that's the entire point.
when your vlog is essentially a video-based journal, it doesn't make sense to be fake. it's real or it just doesn't exist.
maybe think of it like this: most vlogs are g rated sitcoms meant to run in the after school time slot. i'm aiming more for a late night cable drama, with an older and more mature audience.
i don't really know of any parallels.
but you might want to get ready for it.
real life gets messy sometimes. and, i'm trying to keep it as real as i can.
but, i also need to be clear that there is only one character here, and it's me. i'll admit that this makes things a lot easier in terms of the dynamics of the thing. but, it actually also necessitates that i open up, because that's the entire point.
when your vlog is essentially a video-based journal, it doesn't make sense to be fake. it's real or it just doesn't exist.
maybe think of it like this: most vlogs are g rated sitcoms meant to run in the after school time slot. i'm aiming more for a late night cable drama, with an older and more mature audience.
i don't really know of any parallels.
Monday, September 12, 2016
let's get some context, so i'm not confusing anybody.
i didn't die my hair red in some kind of act of protest against something. i died it red because i think i look sexy with red hair. so, let's post a few links of fiery red heads, for context.
i mean, if you saw me face to face, you'd see that. it's an issue of trying to communicate over the internet...
and, remember: i'm from the 90s.
the first awesome redhead that jumps to mind is tori amos. she rocks the red well: smart, sexy and ridiculously talented. but, also simultaneously violent and delicate. very put together, but also kind of broken. arguably the perfect representation of red headedness.
http://www.nndb.com/people/756/000025681/tori-amos.jpg
then, there is of course gillian anderson who is and will forever be dana scully. so, let's talk more about scully. again: smart. sexy. a very rational woman - she projects a lot of strength. but, she has her insecurities, too. perfect redhead.
i was a huge garbage fan in the 90s, and it's the same basic formula. the intelligence here always came out more as dry wit. she found a way to balance raw power with oozing femininity that was rare before and after her.
it's true, though: we hit a peak in the 90s. we've been slowly regressing since about 1998.
the funny thing is that i actually think that millennials would want to reverse the decline if they were aware of it. but, they actually seem to be - almost universally - convinced by the theory of progress. it's just bedrock, to them. they've been told their whole lives that things are getting better, and believe it as an article of faith, while being unable to see (and how could they? they have no context) that things are actually getting worse.
i have a math degree. i started off in physics. it might seem a little weird for me to cite the scully effect, and the way i experienced it is no doubt different than others, but her influence on me was not trivial.
http://www.yesmagazine.org/happiness/less-big-bang-theory-more-dana-scully
i didn't die my hair red in some kind of act of protest against something. i died it red because i think i look sexy with red hair. so, let's post a few links of fiery red heads, for context.
i mean, if you saw me face to face, you'd see that. it's an issue of trying to communicate over the internet...
and, remember: i'm from the 90s.
the first awesome redhead that jumps to mind is tori amos. she rocks the red well: smart, sexy and ridiculously talented. but, also simultaneously violent and delicate. very put together, but also kind of broken. arguably the perfect representation of red headedness.
http://www.nndb.com/people/756/000025681/tori-amos.jpg
then, there is of course gillian anderson who is and will forever be dana scully. so, let's talk more about scully. again: smart. sexy. a very rational woman - she projects a lot of strength. but, she has her insecurities, too. perfect redhead.
i was a huge garbage fan in the 90s, and it's the same basic formula. the intelligence here always came out more as dry wit. she found a way to balance raw power with oozing femininity that was rare before and after her.
it's true, though: we hit a peak in the 90s. we've been slowly regressing since about 1998.
the funny thing is that i actually think that millennials would want to reverse the decline if they were aware of it. but, they actually seem to be - almost universally - convinced by the theory of progress. it's just bedrock, to them. they've been told their whole lives that things are getting better, and believe it as an article of faith, while being unable to see (and how could they? they have no context) that things are actually getting worse.
i have a math degree. i started off in physics. it might seem a little weird for me to cite the scully effect, and the way i experienced it is no doubt different than others, but her influence on me was not trivial.
http://www.yesmagazine.org/happiness/less-big-bang-theory-more-dana-scully
j reacts to the ideological equivalence between mainstream and counter culture
when i say i reject the culture, that also means i reject the counter-culture, which is also the culture. i get this accusation from time to time that, because i don't reflect counter-cultural values, i must be some kind of faker that is really completely mainstream. what this does is set up a false binary between sanctioned culture and counter-culture, which is actually really just a choice between the culture and the culture. and, in fact, you're so brainwashed that you can't even fathom an alternative...
i actually really don't think that your "cool" emo/metal/hardcore/whatever band is any less stupid than anything you get from mass media. in a lot of cases, i think it's even more stupid. it's all designed for profit at the expense of expression or protest.
somebody that is really outside the culture will not create these kinds of distinctions, but rather reject them as illusory. what is the difference between taylor swift and evanescence? it's marketing. that's it, really. it's fundamentally the same product.
i'm less interested in what is mainstream or counter-cultural or rebellious or whatever else, and more interested in what is real and what isn't. unfortunately, for you, i may happen to be the one to burst your bubble and point out that the things you think are real are actually not.
i actually really don't think that your "cool" emo/metal/hardcore/whatever band is any less stupid than anything you get from mass media. in a lot of cases, i think it's even more stupid. it's all designed for profit at the expense of expression or protest.
somebody that is really outside the culture will not create these kinds of distinctions, but rather reject them as illusory. what is the difference between taylor swift and evanescence? it's marketing. that's it, really. it's fundamentally the same product.
i'm less interested in what is mainstream or counter-cultural or rebellious or whatever else, and more interested in what is real and what isn't. unfortunately, for you, i may happen to be the one to burst your bubble and point out that the things you think are real are actually not.
i just want to be clear that my primary intoxicant the other night was alcohol. marijuana does not produce blackouts and could not have done that to me no matter how much i smoked.
i had two rockstar vodkas, 6 shots of jager and 3 bottles of beer. i also had a few puffs. no more than that.
but, it wasn't even the booze that knocked me out. i can drink that on an average night. i've done that countless times and avoided the blackout. what knocked me out was that i didn't really sleep the night before.
i go over this in the vlog, but the important thing is not to avoid alcohol but to make sure that if you are going to get drunk then you don't drink heavily on an empty stomach and don't drink heavily on little sleep.
it will build up as the vlogs from the last week publish, but when i say i had almost no sleep it's no exaggeration. well, you can see it from the last few weeks. i simply haven't been sleeping well for the last few weeks. and, in fact i've only actually slept a few hours since i got home.
again: drinking is fun. sometimes. but, drinking on no sleep is dangerous.
i had two rockstar vodkas, 6 shots of jager and 3 bottles of beer. i also had a few puffs. no more than that.
but, it wasn't even the booze that knocked me out. i can drink that on an average night. i've done that countless times and avoided the blackout. what knocked me out was that i didn't really sleep the night before.
i go over this in the vlog, but the important thing is not to avoid alcohol but to make sure that if you are going to get drunk then you don't drink heavily on an empty stomach and don't drink heavily on little sleep.
it will build up as the vlogs from the last week publish, but when i say i had almost no sleep it's no exaggeration. well, you can see it from the last few weeks. i simply haven't been sleeping well for the last few weeks. and, in fact i've only actually slept a few hours since i got home.
again: drinking is fun. sometimes. but, drinking on no sleep is dangerous.
Sunday, September 11, 2016
i don't care about family entertainment. fuck your family...
i mean, you want to slap an 18+ on this? go ahead. i've actually already slapped a 30+ on it...
i think there's enough options for kids, guys. if you want to shelter them, i'm frankly in solidarity with them. you don't have the right.
there's just no pretense. and no reason there should be one.
i mean, you want to slap an 18+ on this? go ahead. i've actually already slapped a 30+ on it...
i think there's enough options for kids, guys. if you want to shelter them, i'm frankly in solidarity with them. you don't have the right.
there's just no pretense. and no reason there should be one.
i stopped by the emergency room this morning. there simply aren't any clinics open within walking distance of where i am. why? because it's sunday.
in 2016. no clinics open. because sunday. fuck. did i wake up in an amish country or what? wtf? weirder: most of the doctors around here are actually muslims. or come from muslim places. if your day of rest is saturday, why are you booking sunday off? isn't that supposed to be one of the benefits of being diverse about superstitions? that you can get them to stagger, so somebody is always open?
as an aside, the statement:
"i couldn't go to work today, because the bible said so."
...is just about the last thing i want to hear from a doctor.
i know. what is this the fucking spanish inquisition? well, that's my point! i hear that from a doctor and the next thing i want is a waiver indicating that i do not consent to bloodletting.
fuck...
so, i went to the emergency room instead. and, i feel i'm bloody well entitled to do it, too. i at least made sure to go at what is probably the deadest time of the day: 7:00 am on sunday morning. when the drunks are cleared out and everybody else is still asleep.
i bet you think i had a terrible wait time, right? that i was there for hours and hours and didn't even get to see the...
no. actually, i basically walked right in. i was in the hospital for less than an hour.
diagnosis: it's a bruise, not a clot. that's relieving.
see, i need you to think about this. i take the amount of estrogen in a single day that women on steady birth control will take in 2 months. 6 mg is 60x the dosage in your average birth control pill. and, they say merely taking birth control is a clot risk.
so, this is something i need to be keenly aware of at all times. and, it is the actual reason i quit smoking. note that i was smoking at the bar. hence, my concern was very well placed.
but, no. it's just a series of bruises. some of them make more sense than others.
i'm going to wait until i get the mri results before i get a test, because i could end up testing for lyme disease at the same time.
in 2016. no clinics open. because sunday. fuck. did i wake up in an amish country or what? wtf? weirder: most of the doctors around here are actually muslims. or come from muslim places. if your day of rest is saturday, why are you booking sunday off? isn't that supposed to be one of the benefits of being diverse about superstitions? that you can get them to stagger, so somebody is always open?
as an aside, the statement:
"i couldn't go to work today, because the bible said so."
...is just about the last thing i want to hear from a doctor.
i know. what is this the fucking spanish inquisition? well, that's my point! i hear that from a doctor and the next thing i want is a waiver indicating that i do not consent to bloodletting.
fuck...
so, i went to the emergency room instead. and, i feel i'm bloody well entitled to do it, too. i at least made sure to go at what is probably the deadest time of the day: 7:00 am on sunday morning. when the drunks are cleared out and everybody else is still asleep.
i bet you think i had a terrible wait time, right? that i was there for hours and hours and didn't even get to see the...
no. actually, i basically walked right in. i was in the hospital for less than an hour.
diagnosis: it's a bruise, not a clot. that's relieving.
see, i need you to think about this. i take the amount of estrogen in a single day that women on steady birth control will take in 2 months. 6 mg is 60x the dosage in your average birth control pill. and, they say merely taking birth control is a clot risk.
so, this is something i need to be keenly aware of at all times. and, it is the actual reason i quit smoking. note that i was smoking at the bar. hence, my concern was very well placed.
but, no. it's just a series of bruises. some of them make more sense than others.
i'm going to wait until i get the mri results before i get a test, because i could end up testing for lyme disease at the same time.
am i rationalizing?
the bruise on my ass is a scary size, now. if that was from fucking, it wasn't consensual. i'm going to the clinic in the morning to get a blood test, and check for clots.
i've never really contemplated whether rape kits can be used for possible anal penetration on a genetic male.
i wouldn't necessarily press charges. that's not exactly what i'm getting at. i know what the law says, and i support it as it is - it shouldn't be legal to have sex with a blacked out person. but, i also know how i get when i'm drunk....
the reality is that there's every reason for me to conclude i was probably all over him. i don't mean in the sense that i went across the bar to get him. i mean in the sense that...
...if somebody was in the room, they may very well have thought i was the one raping him.
i know that i'm like that. when i say i got fucked hard, that doesn't necessarily mean i was on the bottom.
i'm a girl. i fuck like a girl.
so, i mean...i can't know. i don't remember. i just don't. but, the doubt is pretty reasonable in my own mind given the evidence. i wouldn't want to jump to that conclusion.
but the bruise is out of control, too. i dunno....like i say, i never really thought about it.
i don't know how i could get the proper evidence to know whether i should pursue it or not. and, to me, erring on the side of caution means upholding the presumption of innocence.
the bruise on my ass is a scary size, now. if that was from fucking, it wasn't consensual. i'm going to the clinic in the morning to get a blood test, and check for clots.
i've never really contemplated whether rape kits can be used for possible anal penetration on a genetic male.
i wouldn't necessarily press charges. that's not exactly what i'm getting at. i know what the law says, and i support it as it is - it shouldn't be legal to have sex with a blacked out person. but, i also know how i get when i'm drunk....
the reality is that there's every reason for me to conclude i was probably all over him. i don't mean in the sense that i went across the bar to get him. i mean in the sense that...
...if somebody was in the room, they may very well have thought i was the one raping him.
i know that i'm like that. when i say i got fucked hard, that doesn't necessarily mean i was on the bottom.
i'm a girl. i fuck like a girl.
so, i mean...i can't know. i don't remember. i just don't. but, the doubt is pretty reasonable in my own mind given the evidence. i wouldn't want to jump to that conclusion.
but the bruise is out of control, too. i dunno....like i say, i never really thought about it.
i don't know how i could get the proper evidence to know whether i should pursue it or not. and, to me, erring on the side of caution means upholding the presumption of innocence.
if my 'rave kids like hanging out in green spaces' quip doesn't make
sense to you, let me remind you that i'm from the 90s. 90s rave culture does
still exist, you just need to look past the candy girls and bottle
services and try and find smaller venues with more real people in them.
cover last night was $10.
and, no, it's not the 90s. nobody had giant pants on. but, you get the point.
i should also clarify that i'm too young for 90s rave culture. my prime dancing years were in the intellectual dearth of the late 90s early 00s, and i lived in a town that simply didn't have the kind of scene i would actually be able to associate with from a distance.
https://www.buzzfeed.com/summeranne/rave-kids-in-the-90s-vs-rave-kids-today
and, no, it's not the 90s. nobody had giant pants on. but, you get the point.
i should also clarify that i'm too young for 90s rave culture. my prime dancing years were in the intellectual dearth of the late 90s early 00s, and i lived in a town that simply didn't have the kind of scene i would actually be able to associate with from a distance.
https://www.buzzfeed.com/summeranne/rave-kids-in-the-90s-vs-rave-kids-today
Saturday, September 10, 2016
my pants and shoes from last night are both demoed, like they've been over used heavily by some skate kids. for the shoes, it's the kind of thing that shoe goo fixes, although the pants are eaten right away at the cuffs. the pants were previously a little ripped, but it was nothing like that. i must have been running through a field or something. they look like they were for real cut up...
i'm not a fan of ripped jeans as a fashion statement. it's bourgeois.
i must have been with at least one other person, otherwise i would have vlogged. i refuse to vlog when i'm near people. but, as soon as i get walking..
see, if i had left the bar alone, i would have recorded it. even if i was too drunk to remember it, i would have recorded it. eventually. there's no exception to this, basically. it's routine. therefore, i left the bar with somebody.
i regained consciousness around 5:30ish. i have every reason to think i was probably at the bar until close to 4:00 - and i wouldn't have vlogged this, i would have just danced. i got my last shots in around 1:30, on closer inspection. the rain didn't get heavy until nearly 5:00, and i could not have gotten that wet otherwise, so i couldn't have been in the car long, either.
so, the idea that he picked me up makes sense: i was clearly out in the rain right before i woke back up. that means i was near gratiot & chene, no doubt wanting to walk home, some time a little after 5:00 am.
i probably got in the car to escape the rain. not smart, but i was blacked out, and it is at least rational. i can't imagine getting picked up on the street, otherwise - unless i thought i could hitchhike.
yes, i think he thought i was streetwalking.
the part of the night that needs to be reconstructed, then, is going to be from about 3:45-5:15. i left the bar with somebody. i must have taken a car from michigan to gratiot as i couldn't have walked that distance that quickly. then, what?
it seems that two things happened in some unknown order or connection.
1) i seem to have ended up in a park or a field or something. this is actually not particularly bizarre. we used to do campfires in wooded urban spaces during occupy. i've randomly followed hippie kids into the woods to do drugs. i've been to pagan dance parties. sometimes, people just have particularly overgrown backyards. somebody probably offered to smoke me, and i ended up with a group of people in an overgrown space. raver kids are just like that. it's just the only way that the shoes get like that - they were sitting in wet grass for at least an hour.
2) it remains obvious that i had sex with somebody, at some point.
i'm not a fan of ripped jeans as a fashion statement. it's bourgeois.
i must have been with at least one other person, otherwise i would have vlogged. i refuse to vlog when i'm near people. but, as soon as i get walking..
see, if i had left the bar alone, i would have recorded it. even if i was too drunk to remember it, i would have recorded it. eventually. there's no exception to this, basically. it's routine. therefore, i left the bar with somebody.
i regained consciousness around 5:30ish. i have every reason to think i was probably at the bar until close to 4:00 - and i wouldn't have vlogged this, i would have just danced. i got my last shots in around 1:30, on closer inspection. the rain didn't get heavy until nearly 5:00, and i could not have gotten that wet otherwise, so i couldn't have been in the car long, either.
so, the idea that he picked me up makes sense: i was clearly out in the rain right before i woke back up. that means i was near gratiot & chene, no doubt wanting to walk home, some time a little after 5:00 am.
i probably got in the car to escape the rain. not smart, but i was blacked out, and it is at least rational. i can't imagine getting picked up on the street, otherwise - unless i thought i could hitchhike.
yes, i think he thought i was streetwalking.
the part of the night that needs to be reconstructed, then, is going to be from about 3:45-5:15. i left the bar with somebody. i must have taken a car from michigan to gratiot as i couldn't have walked that distance that quickly. then, what?
it seems that two things happened in some unknown order or connection.
1) i seem to have ended up in a park or a field or something. this is actually not particularly bizarre. we used to do campfires in wooded urban spaces during occupy. i've randomly followed hippie kids into the woods to do drugs. i've been to pagan dance parties. sometimes, people just have particularly overgrown backyards. somebody probably offered to smoke me, and i ended up with a group of people in an overgrown space. raver kids are just like that. it's just the only way that the shoes get like that - they were sitting in wet grass for at least an hour.
2) it remains obvious that i had sex with somebody, at some point.
i was just checking to see where the beaches even are around detroit,
and something is coming back to me: the guy in the car said i was "up
near chene park." i don't see any beaches right there. there are some on
belle isle...
it's beach sand. or at least sandbox sand :o.
you know....the light, grainy stuff. you don't get that from a field or something.
i can't confirm the beach. it may have been a park.
it's beach sand. or at least sandbox sand :o.
you know....the light, grainy stuff. you don't get that from a field or something.
i can't confirm the beach. it may have been a park.
when, after trying all day to shit, you finally get it out and your shit
smells like condom lubrication. that's when you know you got fucked
hard last night. i know i looked good, but i didn't realize i looked
that good. he really smashed me. i really don't remember, but i suspect
he will for a while :).
and, that answers that question. i still need to get a blood test. but, that's the actually concerning part about the situation.
maybe i should keep the hair colour?
:P
and, that answers that question. i still need to get a blood test. but, that's the actually concerning part about the situation.
maybe i should keep the hair colour?
:P
so, i'm pretty sure that what happened last night is that i had sex
on a beach, due to the amount of sand i brought home with me and the
enlarged size of my asshole. and i'm pretty sure it was consensual
because my clothes are otherwise not ripped. but i don't have any memory
of this at all. and i don't know why i woke up in a stranger's car
rather than with the person i had sex with (i don't think they were the
same person...)
i mean, i'd kind of like to know who i spent the night with. if they'd like to let me know. maybe see them again, in a state i can remember?
this is a still shot from last night, before i left.
i'm not the type to fuck strangers at all, let alone fuck them and run. the only thing i can seriously think of is that he was leaving immediately in the other direction...
the reason i don't think it was the guy in the car is that he was legitimately surprised by my penis. he could not have just fucked me.
but, i mean....
i'mma stay for breakfast. what you makin'? you know?
the situation is uncharacteristic. all around.
but, there is no question that i was penetrated last night. and rather vigorously, at that.
i mean, i'd kind of like to know who i spent the night with. if they'd like to let me know. maybe see them again, in a state i can remember?
this is a still shot from last night, before i left.
i'm not the type to fuck strangers at all, let alone fuck them and run. the only thing i can seriously think of is that he was leaving immediately in the other direction...
the reason i don't think it was the guy in the car is that he was legitimately surprised by my penis. he could not have just fucked me.
but, i mean....
i'mma stay for breakfast. what you makin'? you know?
the situation is uncharacteristic. all around.
but, there is no question that i was penetrated last night. and rather vigorously, at that.
i'm not joking. this is what i sobered up to.....
"i got a rubber. i can't believe you got a penis. but i still want to.."
"why am i in your car?"
"you was walking up gratiot..."
"i was on michigan last night."
"you was on gratiot."
"can you get me to the tunnel?"
"i still want to."
"listen, i don't remember getting in your car. i would normally never do that. you have to understand this."
"no, i get it. but i can't believe i still want to, even though i know you got a cock."
"how far are we?"
"it's right there...."
"i got a rubber. i can't believe you got a penis. but i still want to.."
"why am i in your car?"
"you was walking up gratiot..."
"i was on michigan last night."
"you was on gratiot."
"can you get me to the tunnel?"
"i still want to."
"listen, i don't remember getting in your car. i would normally never do that. you have to understand this."
"no, i get it. but i can't believe i still want to, even though i know you got a cock."
"how far are we?"
"it's right there...."
waking up with a bruise on your ass is a little unsettling when you
have a black hole of five hours that ends in a stranger's car.
"yo. you have a penis? what the fuck?" <--- you don't want to hear that within minutes after sobering up, either.
i'm walking straight, anyways. it was maybe hard enough to leave a bruise, but not hard enough that i can't walk.
i have no memory of this.
i may have been drugged, actually.
i have no footage. last starlog is my third round of shots, about 1 am.
"yo. you have a penis? what the fuck?" <--- you don't want to hear that within minutes after sobering up, either.
i'm walking straight, anyways. it was maybe hard enough to leave a bruise, but not hard enough that i can't walk.
i have no memory of this.
i may have been drugged, actually.
i have no footage. last starlog is my third round of shots, about 1 am.
Friday, September 9, 2016
i look so much ridiculously better as a blonde. but, if i'm going out today, i'm going red.
i had a bit of a pattern: red in the fall, black in the winter, blond in the summer. i haven't been keeping up with that....
my last black job was really disappointing. black hair makes me look more masculine. if i get back into regular die jobs, it will probably be to jump between red and blonde to get that kind of faded strawberry, and various shades of orange.
my last black job was really disappointing. black hair makes me look more masculine. if i get back into regular die jobs, it will probably be to jump between red and blonde to get that kind of faded strawberry, and various shades of orange.
i had a bit of a pattern: red in the fall, black in the winter, blond in the summer. i haven't been keeping up with that....
my last black job was really disappointing. black hair makes me look more masculine. if i get back into regular die jobs, it will probably be to jump between red and blonde to get that kind of faded strawberry, and various shades of orange.
my last black job was really disappointing. black hair makes me look more masculine. if i get back into regular die jobs, it will probably be to jump between red and blonde to get that kind of faded strawberry, and various shades of orange.
considering blackgummy
haven't gone dancing in a while.
this is more my thing. a little minimalist. but, the bro is toned down. i'm not a fan of the bro....
so, thinking about it.
https://soundcloud.com/blackgummy/sets/dancing-astronaut-the-radar-51
this is more my thing. a little minimalist. but, the bro is toned down. i'm not a fan of the bro....
so, thinking about it.
https://soundcloud.com/blackgummy/sets/dancing-astronaut-the-radar-51
i'm ok with a 90s revival. but, where's the smart side of it?
a sarcastic criticism of hypercapitalism would actually be really relevant, right now.
i don't photoshop, fwiw. i don't even wear much makeup. i'm rare.
https://scholarsandrogues.com/2008/04/17/even-better-than-the-real-thing/
a sarcastic criticism of hypercapitalism would actually be really relevant, right now.
i don't photoshop, fwiw. i don't even wear much makeup. i'm rare.
https://scholarsandrogues.com/2008/04/17/even-better-than-the-real-thing/
Thursday, September 8, 2016
i stopped for karaoke last night (i didn't sing on stage, but helped
out a little from my seat. doors. pearl jam.) and got hit on a little at
the bar....
i'm used to this. i don't get offended.
"so, i don't know....were you born a girl?"
"i was born XY"
"wow. so you have both genders?"
biology. you got it or you don't, i guess.
at one point, somebody guessed that i was a 24 year-old genetic female, and i had every right to feel complimented.
my actual age is nearly 36.
i'm used to this. i don't get offended.
"so, i don't know....were you born a girl?"
"i was born XY"
"wow. so you have both genders?"
biology. you got it or you don't, i guess.
at one point, somebody guessed that i was a 24 year-old genetic female, and i had every right to feel complimented.
my actual age is nearly 36.
07-09-2016: a quick concert turned into a night of drinking (got a little paranoid walking home...)
concert footage:
https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=SU_KkRzm-IM
review:
http://dghjdfsghkrdghdgja.appspot.com/categories/shows/2016/09/07.html
tracks worked on in this vlog:
https://jasonparent.bandcamp.com/album/period-1
https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=SU_KkRzm-IM
review:
http://dghjdfsghkrdghdgja.appspot.com/categories/shows/2016/09/07.html
tracks worked on in this vlog:
https://jasonparent.bandcamp.com/album/period-1
Wednesday, September 7, 2016
Tuesday, September 6, 2016
Saturday, September 3, 2016
Friday, September 2, 2016
i never vomit. i think that was the first time since moving to windsor. legit.
i bought a coffee a few hours ago, and there was a leak at the corner. i was about to walk into a grocery store when i noticed. i didn't want to trail coffee around the store, so i chugged it on a pretty empty stomach.
i'm guessing that's what came up. otherwise, i caught a bug somewhere. hope not.
extra large size.
i bought a coffee a few hours ago, and there was a leak at the corner. i was about to walk into a grocery store when i noticed. i didn't want to trail coffee around the store, so i chugged it on a pretty empty stomach.
i'm guessing that's what came up. otherwise, i caught a bug somewhere. hope not.
extra large size.
01-09-2016: updating the alter-reality
tracks worked on in this vlog:
http://therealinri.blogspot.ca
https://jasonparent.bandcamp.com/album/period-1
http://therealinri.blogspot.ca
https://jasonparent.bandcamp.com/album/period-1
Thursday, September 1, 2016
alter-reality update
i have finished the listening through the sansa, as well as the first run through the laptop. i don't see any use in updating this here because it's monotonous. it's in the vlog.
but, i'm also pushing forward with the alter-reality for the day.
1) new blog post:
sept 1, 1996
happy new year!
well, it's not really the new year, i guess, but it kind of feels like it. the roman calendar is heliocentric and resets when the sun reverses course and starts coming back towards us. how did we escape the victorian era without reconfiguring the calendar to the start of the school year, anyways? there are new beginnings to be found in the innocence of youth. yet, maybe such a concept of yearly rebirth was a little too pagan.
it's labour day tomorrow, which means i go back to school on tuesday. i'll be starting grade ten. it's not just a new year, though: i'm also being sent to nerd school. yuck :(. this is not consensual!
it's a little bit of my own fault, though. i tend to fool around in class. a lot. while i get almost solid As, the kids i'm distracting are not doing nearly as well. one may kneejerk into blaming the kids with the lower marks, but i've actually been fingered repeatedly as the root cause of the distractions. so, i'm a kind of an enigma. they haven't been able to figure out what to do with me; while they ought to expel me based on my behaviour, they just can't justify it because i'm an A student. what happened around the end of last year was that a cabal of teachers conspired with my parents to take me out of advanced courses and put me into enriched classes. the argument is that i'll be less bored that way, but that, more importantly, i won't be so much of a distraction to the students around me. everybody should win out...
...except that i know that the reality of it is that i'm actually going to be even more bored because i'm going to have to hang out with the nerds all of the time. the thing is that the nerds aren't really nerds. if they were legit nerds, i'd probably like them. the legit nerds are all in the advanced courses. what the enriched class "nerds" actually are are really the rich kids and they're actually mostly wannabe jocks. these are the kids that walk around in sports jerseys but can't make the school team. the only reason that most of them got separated out is because their parents demanded they get special treatment. there was no testing. there were no interviews. entry to enriched classes is dependent solely on maintaining an A average and being recommended by a teacher, which only happens with outside pressure. there are plenty of students in the advanced stream with higher grade averages.
how do i get out of this? well, i didn't have the choice. my parents would never do this to me under normal circumstances, but the cabal of teachers was absolutely insistent and they ultimately relented. the only way out of this next year is to get Bs this year. nobody's going to care, right? nobody's going to check my grade ten marks, right? i'm already thinking about a scorched earth policy...
what about the last week?
well, i picked up the new pearl jam record, no code. to be entirely honest, i'm kind of still processing it. i'm not too young to remember early pearl jam, but i'm pretty close; i was ten years old when ten was released (oddly enough...) and not really a fan of what i interacted with. i liked jeremy, but it was a distant appreciation rather than an active experience. i didn't like the other singles nearly as much. you have to understand that the headspace i was in at the time was not very open to anything that might be interpreted as "heavy metal". the reason is that i was growing up with a set of influences that saw metal as the refuge of violent drunks and uneducated losers. it took me a few years to realize that i was actually conflating an idea with it's anti-thesis and that my inability to differentiate between pearl jam and guns 'n' roses (and grunge and glam, more generally) was really just youthful ignorance on my behalf. in fact, pearl jam was exactly the kind of rock band i could get into, i just didn't realize it. i was eventually able to get into vs a little near the end of it's run, but it wasn't until vitalogy was released that i was actively converted into a fan. on some level, and notwithstanding my age, i may be a better actualization of what the band really desires as a fan. but, that itself - combined with my near violent aversion to 80s metal - makes me a very atypical listener. i actually tend to prefer their more experimental tendencies, as well as their punk sensibilities, over the cliches and muscular riffs. of their four released records, i like ten the least! but, the thing i like about pearl jam the most is actually the lyrics.
i'm finding this new record to really be pretty good on the few listens i've had over all night civ 2 sessions. it's kind of uneven, though, and i'm not sure how it's going to ultimately hold up as a result of it. vitalogy was also uneven, but it wasn't as pronounced. see, the flip of that is that some of the high points on no code are just that much stronger. the irony is that this exaggerates the weakness of the weaker tracks, which makes it less cohesive, overall. i'm still enjoying the record, mind you. i just wish they had cut a few of the slower tracks out. i don't mean the artsy ones, i mean the rural ones: off he goes & around the bend, specifically.
something, i did listen to a lot of in the early 90s, though, was REM, who were definitely my favourite band. so, i'm super hyped about the new REM album. i didn't like monster as much as their older stuff. it seemed kind of shallow, to me, in comparison. it didn't breathe or flow and kind of got boring under the monotony. but, i really really like the new single...
i don't know who the female singer is, though. is she actually singing or is she just an actress?
i've also been spending a lot of time in the recording studio in the basement. on the last update, i wondered out loud whether i should keep waiting for band members or just go ahead and start recording on my own. i've decided that i will be recording songs on my own with the intent of teaching them to other people when they're done. in fact, i have already finished my first song! in my next post, i will provide links to stream my very first song, recorded in my basement studio over the last week.
http://therealinri.blogspot.ca/1996/09/there-is-no-code-to-get-into-enriched_1.html
2) second part of the blog post:
sept 1, 1996
this is my very first recording!
i initially wrote this song in the wee hours of a morning in 1995, where it was recorded for future use by notating it on loose leaf (using a mix of tablature and chord blocks). it was slowly mutated into a final form over the next few years through solitary performance, and was eventually recorded in the summer of 1996.
the dream in the song is something that actually happened, although the concept was exaggerated for the track. there is a clear underlying misanthropy. but, it's more hands-off than the term usually implies. the song is not about starting fires, it's about not interfering in fires that are burning. all young people contemplate ways they can make a difference and "save the world" - literally or figuratively. but, is the world really worth saving?
i've also set up a youtube channel...
https://www.youtube.com/channel/UCXlH5Ds5mqClkdAUFJwQCNQ/
http://therealinri.blogspot.com/1996/09/external-links-to-recorded-music.html
3) the alter-reality bandcamp site is now up and running:
https://jnrj.bandcamp.com
4) the alter-reality youtube page will be up soon, too:
https://www.youtube.com/channel/UCXlH5Ds5mqClkdAUFJwQCNQ/
i'll be back to listening soon, too.
but, i'm also pushing forward with the alter-reality for the day.
1) new blog post:
sept 1, 1996
there is no code to get into enriched classes, but i wish there was one....
happy new year!
well, it's not really the new year, i guess, but it kind of feels like it. the roman calendar is heliocentric and resets when the sun reverses course and starts coming back towards us. how did we escape the victorian era without reconfiguring the calendar to the start of the school year, anyways? there are new beginnings to be found in the innocence of youth. yet, maybe such a concept of yearly rebirth was a little too pagan.
it's labour day tomorrow, which means i go back to school on tuesday. i'll be starting grade ten. it's not just a new year, though: i'm also being sent to nerd school. yuck :(. this is not consensual!
it's a little bit of my own fault, though. i tend to fool around in class. a lot. while i get almost solid As, the kids i'm distracting are not doing nearly as well. one may kneejerk into blaming the kids with the lower marks, but i've actually been fingered repeatedly as the root cause of the distractions. so, i'm a kind of an enigma. they haven't been able to figure out what to do with me; while they ought to expel me based on my behaviour, they just can't justify it because i'm an A student. what happened around the end of last year was that a cabal of teachers conspired with my parents to take me out of advanced courses and put me into enriched classes. the argument is that i'll be less bored that way, but that, more importantly, i won't be so much of a distraction to the students around me. everybody should win out...
...except that i know that the reality of it is that i'm actually going to be even more bored because i'm going to have to hang out with the nerds all of the time. the thing is that the nerds aren't really nerds. if they were legit nerds, i'd probably like them. the legit nerds are all in the advanced courses. what the enriched class "nerds" actually are are really the rich kids and they're actually mostly wannabe jocks. these are the kids that walk around in sports jerseys but can't make the school team. the only reason that most of them got separated out is because their parents demanded they get special treatment. there was no testing. there were no interviews. entry to enriched classes is dependent solely on maintaining an A average and being recommended by a teacher, which only happens with outside pressure. there are plenty of students in the advanced stream with higher grade averages.
how do i get out of this? well, i didn't have the choice. my parents would never do this to me under normal circumstances, but the cabal of teachers was absolutely insistent and they ultimately relented. the only way out of this next year is to get Bs this year. nobody's going to care, right? nobody's going to check my grade ten marks, right? i'm already thinking about a scorched earth policy...
what about the last week?
well, i picked up the new pearl jam record, no code. to be entirely honest, i'm kind of still processing it. i'm not too young to remember early pearl jam, but i'm pretty close; i was ten years old when ten was released (oddly enough...) and not really a fan of what i interacted with. i liked jeremy, but it was a distant appreciation rather than an active experience. i didn't like the other singles nearly as much. you have to understand that the headspace i was in at the time was not very open to anything that might be interpreted as "heavy metal". the reason is that i was growing up with a set of influences that saw metal as the refuge of violent drunks and uneducated losers. it took me a few years to realize that i was actually conflating an idea with it's anti-thesis and that my inability to differentiate between pearl jam and guns 'n' roses (and grunge and glam, more generally) was really just youthful ignorance on my behalf. in fact, pearl jam was exactly the kind of rock band i could get into, i just didn't realize it. i was eventually able to get into vs a little near the end of it's run, but it wasn't until vitalogy was released that i was actively converted into a fan. on some level, and notwithstanding my age, i may be a better actualization of what the band really desires as a fan. but, that itself - combined with my near violent aversion to 80s metal - makes me a very atypical listener. i actually tend to prefer their more experimental tendencies, as well as their punk sensibilities, over the cliches and muscular riffs. of their four released records, i like ten the least! but, the thing i like about pearl jam the most is actually the lyrics.
i'm finding this new record to really be pretty good on the few listens i've had over all night civ 2 sessions. it's kind of uneven, though, and i'm not sure how it's going to ultimately hold up as a result of it. vitalogy was also uneven, but it wasn't as pronounced. see, the flip of that is that some of the high points on no code are just that much stronger. the irony is that this exaggerates the weakness of the weaker tracks, which makes it less cohesive, overall. i'm still enjoying the record, mind you. i just wish they had cut a few of the slower tracks out. i don't mean the artsy ones, i mean the rural ones: off he goes & around the bend, specifically.
something, i did listen to a lot of in the early 90s, though, was REM, who were definitely my favourite band. so, i'm super hyped about the new REM album. i didn't like monster as much as their older stuff. it seemed kind of shallow, to me, in comparison. it didn't breathe or flow and kind of got boring under the monotony. but, i really really like the new single...
i don't know who the female singer is, though. is she actually singing or is she just an actress?
i've also been spending a lot of time in the recording studio in the basement. on the last update, i wondered out loud whether i should keep waiting for band members or just go ahead and start recording on my own. i've decided that i will be recording songs on my own with the intent of teaching them to other people when they're done. in fact, i have already finished my first song! in my next post, i will provide links to stream my very first song, recorded in my basement studio over the last week.
http://therealinri.blogspot.ca/1996/09/there-is-no-code-to-get-into-enriched_1.html
2) second part of the blog post:
sept 1, 1996
external links to recorded music
this is my very first recording!
i initially wrote this song in the wee hours of a morning in 1995, where it was recorded for future use by notating it on loose leaf (using a mix of tablature and chord blocks). it was slowly mutated into a final form over the next few years through solitary performance, and was eventually recorded in the summer of 1996.
the dream in the song is something that actually happened, although the concept was exaggerated for the track. there is a clear underlying misanthropy. but, it's more hands-off than the term usually implies. the song is not about starting fires, it's about not interfering in fires that are burning. all young people contemplate ways they can make a difference and "save the world" - literally or figuratively. but, is the world really worth saving?
i've also set up a youtube channel...
https://www.youtube.com/channel/UCXlH5Ds5mqClkdAUFJwQCNQ/
http://therealinri.blogspot.com/1996/09/external-links-to-recorded-music.html
3) the alter-reality bandcamp site is now up and running:
https://jnrj.bandcamp.com
4) the alter-reality youtube page will be up soon, too:
https://www.youtube.com/channel/UCXlH5Ds5mqClkdAUFJwQCNQ/
i'll be back to listening soon, too.
the new youtube rules are not going to bother me, because i don't upload for the cash, anyways.
but i think, in the end, that youtube may find that the family-friendly market is less lucrative than it thinks.
this is an error. it could produce a set of serious competitors.
i don't have a problem with it. people just don't get the business model.
youtube is selling advertising space, not acting as a speech platform. they give you a cut of their revenue, but they don't even have to, really. it's just an incentive for you to upload. in the end, you're just being used as a conduit.
the actual financial transaction that occurs is that youtube sells space in your videos to advertisers. it's consequently entirely up to the advertisers as to whether they want to be associated with your videos or not. i think that's in their rights. and, if the advertisers don't want to be associated with you? that's their choice.
imagine your girlfriend breaking up with you because she doesn't like your politics. is that censorship? no. you have every right to keep talking. she just doesn't want to hang out with you.
https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=Gbph5or0NuM
this playlist may increase in size.
no biggie.
but i think, in the end, that youtube may find that the family-friendly market is less lucrative than it thinks.
this is an error. it could produce a set of serious competitors.
i don't have a problem with it. people just don't get the business model.
youtube is selling advertising space, not acting as a speech platform. they give you a cut of their revenue, but they don't even have to, really. it's just an incentive for you to upload. in the end, you're just being used as a conduit.
the actual financial transaction that occurs is that youtube sells space in your videos to advertisers. it's consequently entirely up to the advertisers as to whether they want to be associated with your videos or not. i think that's in their rights. and, if the advertisers don't want to be associated with you? that's their choice.
imagine your girlfriend breaking up with you because she doesn't like your politics. is that censorship? no. you have every right to keep talking. she just doesn't want to hang out with you.
https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=Gbph5or0NuM
this playlist may increase in size.
no biggie.
Wednesday, August 31, 2016
there's actually no reason that you couldn't have a 20th note, you just couldn't express it in terms of quarter notes because you get an infinite series. it's convergent. but it doesn't help the notation.
you couldn't count it, but you could feel it.
i flipped my fraction over and thought i had an answer (i do this, flip the fraction over, to myself all the time), because i'm actually used to dealing with these kinds of weird conversions as a relic of writing drum sequences in a scorewriter. there's lots of ways to convert weird signatures. the series just has to terminate. it doesn't here, but that's just bad luck.
if you split the bar into five equal temporal spaces, each one will be four fifths of a quarter note. .8/4 = 0.2. so, a 20th note would be 20% of a quarter note - which is 40% of an eighth note and 80% of a sixteenth note. indeed, .8*(1/16) = 1/20. you can't notate this using western music theory (because the series happens not to terminate....), but that doesn't mean it's undefined or unplayable
80%(1/16th) =
160% (1/32nd) =
1/32nd + 60%(32nd) =
1/32nd + 1.2(64th) =
1/32nd + 1/64th + .2(64th) =
1/32nd + 1/64th + .4(128th) =
1/32nd + 1/64th + .8(256th) =
1/32nd + 1/64th + epsilon =
3/64th + epsilon
you simply couldn't hear 80% of a 256th note. that's indistiguishable from human error.
so, a 20th note would be indistinguishable from a triplet of 64th notes. that means that 4/20 would be four triplets of 64th notes.
....which is a blast beat.
http://thehardtimes.net/2016/08/29/stoner-tech-metal-band-trying-really-hard-write-song-420-time/?fb_comment_id=1161463340592034_1163796750358693
you couldn't count it, but you could feel it.
i flipped my fraction over and thought i had an answer (i do this, flip the fraction over, to myself all the time), because i'm actually used to dealing with these kinds of weird conversions as a relic of writing drum sequences in a scorewriter. there's lots of ways to convert weird signatures. the series just has to terminate. it doesn't here, but that's just bad luck.
if you split the bar into five equal temporal spaces, each one will be four fifths of a quarter note. .8/4 = 0.2. so, a 20th note would be 20% of a quarter note - which is 40% of an eighth note and 80% of a sixteenth note. indeed, .8*(1/16) = 1/20. you can't notate this using western music theory (because the series happens not to terminate....), but that doesn't mean it's undefined or unplayable
80%(1/16th) =
160% (1/32nd) =
1/32nd + 60%(32nd) =
1/32nd + 1.2(64th) =
1/32nd + 1/64th + .2(64th) =
1/32nd + 1/64th + .4(128th) =
1/32nd + 1/64th + .8(256th) =
1/32nd + 1/64th + epsilon =
3/64th + epsilon
you simply couldn't hear 80% of a 256th note. that's indistiguishable from human error.
so, a 20th note would be indistinguishable from a triplet of 64th notes. that means that 4/20 would be four triplets of 64th notes.
....which is a blast beat.
http://thehardtimes.net/2016/08/29/stoner-tech-metal-band-trying-really-hard-write-song-420-time/?fb_comment_id=1161463340592034_1163796750358693
if you want to watch or take part in pornography, go ahead. what do i care? and, you don't need my permission, either. just don't insult my intelligence by referring to your pornography as 'art'.
if you want to go to a strip club, go ahead. just don't pretend that you're going to a 'concert'.
...and if you want to let your kids watch strippers on tv, that's your choice. well, at least it is in the sense that you own the tv. your kids aren't your property. just, stop fooling yourself into thinking it's a 'music video'. it's not. they're strippers. and it's porn.
if you want to go to a strip club, go ahead. just don't pretend that you're going to a 'concert'.
...and if you want to let your kids watch strippers on tv, that's your choice. well, at least it is in the sense that you own the tv. your kids aren't your property. just, stop fooling yourself into thinking it's a 'music video'. it's not. they're strippers. and it's porn.
Monday, August 29, 2016
i'm just getting through the listening phase through my laptop
without phones, and i have to publicly plead yet again: don't do it.
this isn't a cheap laptop. and i'll acknowledge, even, that the highs
sound pretty good. but you just simply get no bass out of laptop
speakers, and you need bass.
when it comes to audio, your laptop is a fucking potato. stop.
and don't even think about using your phone...
when it comes to audio, your laptop is a fucking potato. stop.
and don't even think about using your phone...
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