file: 07. a pissed-off 50-foot ian curtis has descended upon the city and is shooting precision laser strikes from his eyes.mp3
composition: useless (cut-up & edited segment of 2013 remaster of 1998 cd demo)
status: completed mp3 file
Tuesday, January 7, 2014
inricycled B is just about done.
...and i've had to mix this up a bit for a few reasons. here's the updated list up to this point:
***inri/young phase***
inri001 - first cassette demo (2xlp) [1996]
inri002 - second cassette demo (lp) [1997]
inri003/jam001 - inricycled A (lp) [1997]
inri004/jam002 - inrisampled (ep) [1997]
inri005/jam003 - inri (lp) [1998]
inri006 - eat my fuck (ep) [1998]
inri007/jam004 - inriched (lp) [1999]
inri008/jam005 - inrijected (ep) [1999]
inri009/jam006 - inrimixed (ep) [1999]
inri010/jam007 - inricycled B (ep) [1999]
inri011 - gene-o's (single) [1999]
inri012/jam008 - pop music (single) [1999]
inri013/jam009 - warning (ep) [1999]
inri014/jam010 - liquify (ep/single) [1999]
inri015/jam011 - inrimake (lp) [1999]
inri016/jam012 - inridiculous (lp) [1999]
inri017/jam013 - book it! (single) [1999]
***end of inri/young phase***
***beginning of intermediate phase***
inri018/jam014 - deny everything [2000]
inri019/jam015 - accept nothing [2000]
i'll probably also splice off a single for 'ignorance is bliss'. i have ten cd-rs of deny everything to sort through. it could be a while. but the inri phase is now FINAL.
...and i've had to mix this up a bit for a few reasons. here's the updated list up to this point:
***inri/young phase***
inri001 - first cassette demo (2xlp) [1996]
inri002 - second cassette demo (lp) [1997]
inri003/jam001 - inricycled A (lp) [1997]
inri004/jam002 - inrisampled (ep) [1997]
inri005/jam003 - inri (lp) [1998]
inri006 - eat my fuck (ep) [1998]
inri007/jam004 - inriched (lp) [1999]
inri008/jam005 - inrijected (ep) [1999]
inri009/jam006 - inrimixed (ep) [1999]
inri010/jam007 - inricycled B (ep) [1999]
inri011 - gene-o's (single) [1999]
inri012/jam008 - pop music (single) [1999]
inri013/jam009 - warning (ep) [1999]
inri014/jam010 - liquify (ep/single) [1999]
inri015/jam011 - inrimake (lp) [1999]
inri016/jam012 - inridiculous (lp) [1999]
inri017/jam013 - book it! (single) [1999]
***end of inri/young phase***
***beginning of intermediate phase***
inri018/jam014 - deny everything [2000]
inri019/jam015 - accept nothing [2000]
i'll probably also splice off a single for 'ignorance is bliss'. i have ten cd-rs of deny everything to sort through. it could be a while. but the inri phase is now FINAL.
flashback.
"you know, if you're really not interested then you could always drop out."
"no, actually, i can't."
"parents?"
"sort of. not really. it's either school or work, and i can't find a job so i'm stuck at university until...."
"....well, if your interest level doesn't pick up..."
"...actually, i'm hoping i'll finally get a call back from one of the local coffee shops, soon."
*pause*
"who is paying for this?"
"the state, mostly."
"do you think that's..."
"i told you what my options are. right now, it reduces to school or homelessness. i'd rather be in a government training program for something working class than solving algebraic equations because it's about the only thing i can find in this place that i don't think is absolute bullshit. take it up with the government. it's their policies that put a massive focus on education."
"yeah. i see what you mean. i've just never seen anything like this, or at least anybody so honest about it."
"it's right out of a kafka novel. but if things don't change, i think it might become normal. university is quickly becoming the place that apathetic young people are forced to go to when they're not able to find a job, rather than a place people go to to advance their goals and ambitions. it's on the brink of becoming a form of social welfare. that kind of dystopia serves nobody."
"you won't reconsider?"
"i have no future here."
"ok"
*end phone call from academic adviser*
i'm sort of a space cadet. that just got thrown back at me while splicing some wave files.
"you know, if you're really not interested then you could always drop out."
"no, actually, i can't."
"parents?"
"sort of. not really. it's either school or work, and i can't find a job so i'm stuck at university until...."
"....well, if your interest level doesn't pick up..."
"...actually, i'm hoping i'll finally get a call back from one of the local coffee shops, soon."
*pause*
"who is paying for this?"
"the state, mostly."
"do you think that's..."
"i told you what my options are. right now, it reduces to school or homelessness. i'd rather be in a government training program for something working class than solving algebraic equations because it's about the only thing i can find in this place that i don't think is absolute bullshit. take it up with the government. it's their policies that put a massive focus on education."
"yeah. i see what you mean. i've just never seen anything like this, or at least anybody so honest about it."
"it's right out of a kafka novel. but if things don't change, i think it might become normal. university is quickly becoming the place that apathetic young people are forced to go to when they're not able to find a job, rather than a place people go to to advance their goals and ambitions. it's on the brink of becoming a form of social welfare. that kind of dystopia serves nobody."
"you won't reconsider?"
"i have no future here."
"ok"
*end phone call from academic adviser*
i'm sort of a space cadet. that just got thrown back at me while splicing some wave files.
Monday, January 6, 2014
Sunday, January 5, 2014
i singled that pic out for a reason. yikes. ahahahaha...
anyways, the inri phase (and related playlists) is now completely constructed on youtube. there are a few genre-specific playlists (jazz/prog, song-oriented, noise, ambient) as well as a full playlist of all uploaded tracks and also one that starts off the beginning of the next phase, which i'm calling a transitional phase (from kiddie phase into serious phase).
i'm sort of struck by how productive and exploratory '99 was for me. the transitional bleed in is two hours, all from '99. and it's about a quarter of what i finished that year.
timed out near 80. ugh. i'm only going to try it one more time before i give a reinstall a try.
....and now it just rebooted, so here comes an attempt at a reinstall....
i don't want to delete the partition yet. it would be nice to recover my open tabs. yeah. lol. well, it would. i don't see why a reinstall would wipe them out...
....and now it just rebooted, so here comes an attempt at a reinstall....
i don't want to delete the partition yet. it would be nice to recover my open tabs. yeah. lol. well, it would. i don't see why a reinstall would wipe them out...
on
the other hand, it just jumped very quickly through 30,000 segments - a
quarter of the partition. it went from 50% to 75% in a flash. so, it
may still balance out. and 5% of the partition is still less than 1% of
the drive....
(i'm also making the error of attaching file segments to physical segments, which i know is an error, but can't really be applied like that)
which is to say i'm talking about the percentage of the mft, rather than the percentage of the disc. i'll probably keep doing that. intuition. but knowing that 5-10% of the file records are unreadable doesn't *actually* tell me how much of the disc is "bad". and knowing this is a drive with a windows os, office and other programs with lots of little files means it really honestly might not be as bad as it looks. i mean, it could be 5000 corrupt 10K files. no, it could. an optimistic projection, but it could.
...and that's why we run the utilities.
(i'm also making the error of attaching file segments to physical segments, which i know is an error, but can't really be applied like that)
which is to say i'm talking about the percentage of the mft, rather than the percentage of the disc. i'll probably keep doing that. intuition. but knowing that 5-10% of the file records are unreadable doesn't *actually* tell me how much of the disc is "bad". and knowing this is a drive with a windows os, office and other programs with lots of little files means it really honestly might not be as bad as it looks. i mean, it could be 5000 corrupt 10K files. no, it could. an optimistic projection, but it could.
...and that's why we run the utilities.
i
don't know whether it's normal or not, but it's a little relieving to
realize that 3% means 30%, 4% means 40%, etc. seems like a bug in the
program.
so, i'm at a little over 40% after 18 hours, indicating it should be done by this time tomorrow.
well, the first pass anyways.
of the first partition. i'm really hoping i don't need to do this for the second partition. it's roughly 10x the size. yeah. but size isn't the only factor. in fact, i'll try a reinstall before i do it. i'm kind of still hoping it's just the boot sector.
it's kind of got me wondering if i should defrag the fucker from time to time. the conventional wisdom is not to defrag large drives. but is a 50 gb partition that big?
there were a lot of errors at the front of the mft, but now i'm going 10-20K sectors between problems.
see, it never told me it couldn't find a hard drive, or there wasn't an os. the hard drive test failed, but that's not the same thing as "no hd" or "no os". it bootstrapped itself into a 100 MB startup utility partition - on the hd. yet, it couldn't find the boot database thing (whatever it is now, i should know this, i went over it in vista support training, but in practice all i ever had to tell anybody was to run the utility, which i can't get to start because i can't read the partition). that says dead partition, meaning dead database shit, not dead disc.
i just can't parse randomly dying drives. but i've seen mbrs evaporate.
it hit a rough spot around when i fell asleep this afternoon and may even still be in it. its still hard to say if its salvageable, but the damage report is going to be bad. upwards of 5% of the partition, even, maybe.
it's a big drive. as mentioned, i could halve it and still have too much space. but that indicates imminent mass failure.
so, i'm at a little over 40% after 18 hours, indicating it should be done by this time tomorrow.
well, the first pass anyways.
of the first partition. i'm really hoping i don't need to do this for the second partition. it's roughly 10x the size. yeah. but size isn't the only factor. in fact, i'll try a reinstall before i do it. i'm kind of still hoping it's just the boot sector.
it's kind of got me wondering if i should defrag the fucker from time to time. the conventional wisdom is not to defrag large drives. but is a 50 gb partition that big?
there were a lot of errors at the front of the mft, but now i'm going 10-20K sectors between problems.
see, it never told me it couldn't find a hard drive, or there wasn't an os. the hard drive test failed, but that's not the same thing as "no hd" or "no os". it bootstrapped itself into a 100 MB startup utility partition - on the hd. yet, it couldn't find the boot database thing (whatever it is now, i should know this, i went over it in vista support training, but in practice all i ever had to tell anybody was to run the utility, which i can't get to start because i can't read the partition). that says dead partition, meaning dead database shit, not dead disc.
i just can't parse randomly dying drives. but i've seen mbrs evaporate.
it hit a rough spot around when i fell asleep this afternoon and may even still be in it. its still hard to say if its salvageable, but the damage report is going to be bad. upwards of 5% of the partition, even, maybe.
it's a big drive. as mentioned, i could halve it and still have too much space. but that indicates imminent mass failure.
Saturday, January 4, 2014
well, my laptop's hard drive just fizzed out. it's too early to say
how bad it is. it's running a chkdsk from a dvd boot, and could
literally take a week to finish. i think my data's safe, and i could get
by with a reinstall. we'll have to see.
none of my music was on the drive, but it was my only internet access point. my router disappeared in the move to windsor. best i can tell, it got thrown away in a pile of boxes. my pcs are both running custom images with the dhcp ripped out, so they need a router to connect. i've been moving over files on a usb key (which also literally crumbled the other day).
so, what it really means, worst case, is that i need to prioritize replacing the router.
one of the more annoying things is that my youtube password is on the drive i can't currently mount. so, i need to put that part of things aside.
right now, i'm on a 90s laptop that has proven itself virtually indestructible. but it's slow, because it's ancient. and that's going to probably limit me slightly in what i can and cannot do in the next week.
i have plenty of things to work on. there just might be a lag here in updating.
=====
i've had a lot of bad luck with storage over the last few days and it's probably going to be a few days, if not longer, before it gets entirely fixed. i'm typing this from a compaq evo that was manufactured in the 90s, that's missing half it's keys and in all honesty probably belongs in a museum.
but note that it still boots. that's better than i can say for two far newer laptops that are even made by the same company. proof that everything was better in the 90s? fuck, this thing has *rust* on it. laptops with rust is a weird idea, but think of it like a reliable old chevy. it was probably actually even manufactured on this continent.
i even have an old quantum fireball drive that came with windows '98 on it that still boots. yet, the hard drive in the fancy windows 7 machine that my dad left me imploded after less than a year. it's not that we can't do better than this, it's that it isn't profitable to make electronics that don't break after a year. it's fucking pathetic, really.
it started yesterday when one of my usb drives just snapped. nothing out of the ordinary happened, it just disintegrated - almost as though it was timed to fritz out after the first. it might actually have been designed that way. engineers actually take full credit courses in a concept called "forced obsolescence". they spend as much time designing things to break as they do designing things to work. because profit. it's fucking pathetic.
i snapped the plastic off and the solder just gave way. nothing complicated about it, no fault on my behalf - it was just designed to break. just cheap garbage.
this morning, i take the laptop out of sleep (as mentioned, it's practically brand new) and the video spazzes out into static to reveal a blank screen. wait. fuck. reboot. nothing. memory is fine, but the hard drive test is failing. again, there was no strain on the device. worse, it came with no warning - it wasn't clicking or whirring or buzzing. it's almost like it has a timer in it....
i'm running it through a chkdsk right now, which should hopefully be done by the end of the week, and it looks like, in the end, i may get away with a corrupt boot sector and a reinstall; hard to say at this point, but it appears like i may be able to partition out the bad part. but, there's no reason for this. it's just badly designed (accidentally on purpose) garbage.
the laptop is sort of gravy. it was a gift, to replace one that came to me on a grant (another compaq with another dead hard drive). if i can't get it back up, it just means i'll have to get that router fixed sooner than later. it's not devastating.
in the mean time, it's this museum piece with 650 MB of obsolete RAM that is the one that's still kicking - rusty joints and all. and hp/compaq should be fucking embarrassed about that. except not. 'cause profit.
(it turns out it won't be necessary to actually partition anything out because chkdsk does that in the mft. i did know how mfts work, but i wasn't clear on whether the information coming at me related to the physical sectors or the mft; it's the latter. which makes things easier. a chkdsk is enough; the file system will take it from there. and, thankfully, it does seem, right now, that the corruption is just at the front of the mft.)
i should point out that i've got the disc split into a small operating system partition and a large file partition. it seems like that's going to save my data, even as the os needs a fresh install. which is why i did it like that.
1% after 10 hours. 1000 hours is 42 days. and that's just the os partition. it'd better pick up.
it doesn't look unusable, so far. even if i can just get what's there off...
...and this ancient 90s compaq actually isn't bad once it got tweaked to a bigger pagefile. it can only handle a few tabs, sure. but it's at least as functional as an iphone...
if you want to run a 90s computer on the existing internet, you'd better get used to adblock. i don't need more RAM, websites need to stop loading their pages with crap. seriously.
as an aside, i get why i need to block twitter. i think its useless, but it's popular. why, though, do i need to block aol? why are websites still linking to aol? who uses aol? it's a 90s computer, not a time machine back there...
bonus: one can block entire commenting systems.
none of my music was on the drive, but it was my only internet access point. my router disappeared in the move to windsor. best i can tell, it got thrown away in a pile of boxes. my pcs are both running custom images with the dhcp ripped out, so they need a router to connect. i've been moving over files on a usb key (which also literally crumbled the other day).
so, what it really means, worst case, is that i need to prioritize replacing the router.
one of the more annoying things is that my youtube password is on the drive i can't currently mount. so, i need to put that part of things aside.
right now, i'm on a 90s laptop that has proven itself virtually indestructible. but it's slow, because it's ancient. and that's going to probably limit me slightly in what i can and cannot do in the next week.
i have plenty of things to work on. there just might be a lag here in updating.
=====
i've had a lot of bad luck with storage over the last few days and it's probably going to be a few days, if not longer, before it gets entirely fixed. i'm typing this from a compaq evo that was manufactured in the 90s, that's missing half it's keys and in all honesty probably belongs in a museum.
but note that it still boots. that's better than i can say for two far newer laptops that are even made by the same company. proof that everything was better in the 90s? fuck, this thing has *rust* on it. laptops with rust is a weird idea, but think of it like a reliable old chevy. it was probably actually even manufactured on this continent.
i even have an old quantum fireball drive that came with windows '98 on it that still boots. yet, the hard drive in the fancy windows 7 machine that my dad left me imploded after less than a year. it's not that we can't do better than this, it's that it isn't profitable to make electronics that don't break after a year. it's fucking pathetic, really.
it started yesterday when one of my usb drives just snapped. nothing out of the ordinary happened, it just disintegrated - almost as though it was timed to fritz out after the first. it might actually have been designed that way. engineers actually take full credit courses in a concept called "forced obsolescence". they spend as much time designing things to break as they do designing things to work. because profit. it's fucking pathetic.
i snapped the plastic off and the solder just gave way. nothing complicated about it, no fault on my behalf - it was just designed to break. just cheap garbage.
this morning, i take the laptop out of sleep (as mentioned, it's practically brand new) and the video spazzes out into static to reveal a blank screen. wait. fuck. reboot. nothing. memory is fine, but the hard drive test is failing. again, there was no strain on the device. worse, it came with no warning - it wasn't clicking or whirring or buzzing. it's almost like it has a timer in it....
i'm running it through a chkdsk right now, which should hopefully be done by the end of the week, and it looks like, in the end, i may get away with a corrupt boot sector and a reinstall; hard to say at this point, but it appears like i may be able to partition out the bad part. but, there's no reason for this. it's just badly designed (accidentally on purpose) garbage.
the laptop is sort of gravy. it was a gift, to replace one that came to me on a grant (another compaq with another dead hard drive). if i can't get it back up, it just means i'll have to get that router fixed sooner than later. it's not devastating.
in the mean time, it's this museum piece with 650 MB of obsolete RAM that is the one that's still kicking - rusty joints and all. and hp/compaq should be fucking embarrassed about that. except not. 'cause profit.
12:00
(it turns out it won't be necessary to actually partition anything out because chkdsk does that in the mft. i did know how mfts work, but i wasn't clear on whether the information coming at me related to the physical sectors or the mft; it's the latter. which makes things easier. a chkdsk is enough; the file system will take it from there. and, thankfully, it does seem, right now, that the corruption is just at the front of the mft.)
i should point out that i've got the disc split into a small operating system partition and a large file partition. it seems like that's going to save my data, even as the os needs a fresh install. which is why i did it like that.
15:00
1% after 10 hours. 1000 hours is 42 days. and that's just the os partition. it'd better pick up.
it doesn't look unusable, so far. even if i can just get what's there off...
...and this ancient 90s compaq actually isn't bad once it got tweaked to a bigger pagefile. it can only handle a few tabs, sure. but it's at least as functional as an iphone...
if you want to run a 90s computer on the existing internet, you'd better get used to adblock. i don't need more RAM, websites need to stop loading their pages with crap. seriously.
as an aside, i get why i need to block twitter. i think its useless, but it's popular. why, though, do i need to block aol? why are websites still linking to aol? who uses aol? it's a 90s computer, not a time machine back there...
bonus: one can block entire commenting systems.
17:00
excited about new mt zion record
i'm actually pretty excited about this. the last really amazing one was back in '08. they're due for something consciousness-altering. you can't take this band out of context, but the excerpt sounds focused.
actually, it seems to have been leaked.
(https://www.youtube.com/playlist?list=PLnpQFjefXCRPozHrQgQnQ4_djW51IA_fk)
little borrowed melody from ka-spel to start things off. gotta keep things clean, clean, clean....
you can almost instantly tell if they're "on" or not. they're on. the recording quality on the youtube up is not so good, though. and that matters for this band.
(wait)
wow. as always, this is going to require some disassembling. not the kind of thing that you can listen to once or twice. i'm impressed on first listen, though.
actually, it seems to have been leaked.
(https://www.youtube.com/playlist?list=PLnpQFjefXCRPozHrQgQnQ4_djW51IA_fk)
little borrowed melody from ka-spel to start things off. gotta keep things clean, clean, clean....
you can almost instantly tell if they're "on" or not. they're on. the recording quality on the youtube up is not so good, though. and that matters for this band.
(wait)
wow. as always, this is going to require some disassembling. not the kind of thing that you can listen to once or twice. i'm impressed on first listen, though.
Friday, January 3, 2014
publishing inridiculous (inri033)
except to split out the last track as a single, i've decided not to alter this in any way.
i was moving, conceptually, to more serious styles of music. i wanted to write these epic 20-minute trips that reached into every genre imaginable. you can hear that shift over the last few things i posted, and it really accelerates moving into the year 2000. this is my last kiddy recording...but it isn't really a kiddy recording.....
see, i had a bunch of noise tracks that i'd been putting aside for a third demo, trinri, that was meant to carry on with the same concept as the first two: "songs" and "collages" would alternate over 19 tracks. the problem i ran up against with trinri was that i was no longer interested in writing songs. what was coming out, instead, were these fifteen minute journeys. that's ultimately the driving reason that i switched things up: the format had worn itself thin.
so, i pulled the noise collages together (along with some older collages that i had pulled from various sources as far back as my first demo tape) into this thing. i became aware at some point, very suddenly, that the whole idea and product was sort of ridiculous. hence the title.
this recording is consequently void of actual songs. it isn't easy to listen to, and offers few reprieves, but if you're a fan of the genre that includes bands like coil, psychic tv, dvoa, nurse with wound and hafler trio (i hesitate to use the i word in context) then you may find something of enjoyment here.
cover art is from 1999. how the hell did the greeks think mesopotamia was an ocean, anyways? surely, they had contact with babylonians, if not indians. that's never made sense to me.
the last track just got tagged on as an afterthought. it never really fit the theme. so, i've removed it (as of january, 2014) and placed it here: http://jasonparent.bandcamp.com/album/book-it.
recorded from 1996-1999. this is my third record. as always, please use headphones.
credits:
j - guitar, effects, bass, keyboards, tapes, synthesizers, live drums, drum programming, hammerhead (909 emulator), sound raider, sampling, cool edit synthesis/sequencing, loops, digital effects processing, digital wave editing, flute
released december 10, 1999
the track i've split off into a single:
AND THAT COMPLETES MY INRI RUN THROUGH.
well, i have an inricycled to construct, still. that should be fun. but it's a different thing.
i was moving, conceptually, to more serious styles of music. i wanted to write these epic 20-minute trips that reached into every genre imaginable. you can hear that shift over the last few things i posted, and it really accelerates moving into the year 2000. this is my last kiddy recording...but it isn't really a kiddy recording.....
see, i had a bunch of noise tracks that i'd been putting aside for a third demo, trinri, that was meant to carry on with the same concept as the first two: "songs" and "collages" would alternate over 19 tracks. the problem i ran up against with trinri was that i was no longer interested in writing songs. what was coming out, instead, were these fifteen minute journeys. that's ultimately the driving reason that i switched things up: the format had worn itself thin.
so, i pulled the noise collages together (along with some older collages that i had pulled from various sources as far back as my first demo tape) into this thing. i became aware at some point, very suddenly, that the whole idea and product was sort of ridiculous. hence the title.
this recording is consequently void of actual songs. it isn't easy to listen to, and offers few reprieves, but if you're a fan of the genre that includes bands like coil, psychic tv, dvoa, nurse with wound and hafler trio (i hesitate to use the i word in context) then you may find something of enjoyment here.
cover art is from 1999. how the hell did the greeks think mesopotamia was an ocean, anyways? surely, they had contact with babylonians, if not indians. that's never made sense to me.
the last track just got tagged on as an afterthought. it never really fit the theme. so, i've removed it (as of january, 2014) and placed it here: http://jasonparent.bandcamp.com/album/book-it.
recorded from 1996-1999. this is my third record. as always, please use headphones.
credits:
j - guitar, effects, bass, keyboards, tapes, synthesizers, live drums, drum programming, hammerhead (909 emulator), sound raider, sampling, cool edit synthesis/sequencing, loops, digital effects processing, digital wave editing, flute
released december 10, 1999
the track i've split off into a single:
AND THAT COMPLETES MY INRI RUN THROUGH.
well, i have an inricycled to construct, still. that should be fun. but it's a different thing.
publishing inrimake (inri032)
....and that closes this down.
it's weird how this represents such a segue. it's on the ass-end of my kiddy releases, but it's reaching towards something more mature and realized. on that note, i need to be clear that, while these are technically remixes and/or covers and/or reinterpretations, they often differ so far from the source material that the connection is barely discernible. the ones that are instrumental are really original compositions in the style of something like the art of noise.
if you're going to listen to this, it absolutely requires headphones and some serious focus. pretty much all these songs are built around very dramatic and very hard panning effects. it's not just a little sci-fi kind of gimmicky sort of thing, the disorientation that the panning creates is really key to interacting with this.
as with most of my more extensive releases, this touches on a wide array of outsider genres: 60s garage-psych, experimental trip-hop, idm, prog, jazz fusion, psychedelia, synth pop, skate punk and several others. at it's core, though, this is both on the art rock fringe of the experimental/industrial genre and on the electronic fringe of the psychedelic genre. that's how to interpret this.
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something that happened in the late 90s, when fans of bands started getting together and talking on the internet, was the phenomena of the unauthorized remix. schemes were hatched all over the internet to create remix records, tribute discs, fan collaborations and whatnot. in hindsight, given what the internet turned into, it was actually a refreshingly productive use of networking.
different artists have reacted in different ways. i got yelled at by the now deceased singer of god lives underwater for one of these. trent reznor, on the other hand, eventually went so far as to set up a competition (which i didn't take part in, as i'd moved beyond the idea by that point).
once i'd put a few remixes/recreations together, and received more positive feedback doing it than with any of my own songs, i began to realize that if i could get somebody's attention then i could construct myself a launching pad. it seems like that's what a lot of people were thinking; it didn't work out, but i did end up with a number of remixes.
unfortunately, i've lost a lot of them. about a third of them ended up on a cd-r i threw together at the end of 1999. a third just sat on my hard drive, and a third disappeared into the internet. i'm putting them all together here under the title of the 1999 release, 'inrimake'. the initial release ended after "the day inri messed the world up"; the last five songs are 'bonus tracks'. i've further split off the first two tracks to a standalone ep, liquify (inri031), partially because they never fit here properly and partially because it pares the augmented version down to under 80 minutes.
now, i should point out that i was very much going for the *abstract* remix sound rather than the club-friendly mix. you can't really dance to these. you're not supposed to. you're supposed to blare them through headphones and trip out into them.
in terms of my own work, this record very much extends a bridge from the inri period into the deny everything period, to the extent that it arguably realizes the goals of both phases better than either phase does.
recorded sporadically, and without cohesive intent, over '98 and '99. originally compiled in the fall of '99. augmented and minimally altered in january, 2014.
HEADPHONES ARE MANDATORY TO EXPERIENCE THIS AS INTENDED.
credits:
j - guitars, effects, bass, synths, drum programming, digital wave editing, cool edit synthesis, sampling, sequencers, loops, remixes, reconstructions, reinterpretations
released october 15, 1999
it's weird how this represents such a segue. it's on the ass-end of my kiddy releases, but it's reaching towards something more mature and realized. on that note, i need to be clear that, while these are technically remixes and/or covers and/or reinterpretations, they often differ so far from the source material that the connection is barely discernible. the ones that are instrumental are really original compositions in the style of something like the art of noise.
if you're going to listen to this, it absolutely requires headphones and some serious focus. pretty much all these songs are built around very dramatic and very hard panning effects. it's not just a little sci-fi kind of gimmicky sort of thing, the disorientation that the panning creates is really key to interacting with this.
as with most of my more extensive releases, this touches on a wide array of outsider genres: 60s garage-psych, experimental trip-hop, idm, prog, jazz fusion, psychedelia, synth pop, skate punk and several others. at it's core, though, this is both on the art rock fringe of the experimental/industrial genre and on the electronic fringe of the psychedelic genre. that's how to interpret this.
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something that happened in the late 90s, when fans of bands started getting together and talking on the internet, was the phenomena of the unauthorized remix. schemes were hatched all over the internet to create remix records, tribute discs, fan collaborations and whatnot. in hindsight, given what the internet turned into, it was actually a refreshingly productive use of networking.
different artists have reacted in different ways. i got yelled at by the now deceased singer of god lives underwater for one of these. trent reznor, on the other hand, eventually went so far as to set up a competition (which i didn't take part in, as i'd moved beyond the idea by that point).
once i'd put a few remixes/recreations together, and received more positive feedback doing it than with any of my own songs, i began to realize that if i could get somebody's attention then i could construct myself a launching pad. it seems like that's what a lot of people were thinking; it didn't work out, but i did end up with a number of remixes.
unfortunately, i've lost a lot of them. about a third of them ended up on a cd-r i threw together at the end of 1999. a third just sat on my hard drive, and a third disappeared into the internet. i'm putting them all together here under the title of the 1999 release, 'inrimake'. the initial release ended after "the day inri messed the world up"; the last five songs are 'bonus tracks'. i've further split off the first two tracks to a standalone ep, liquify (inri031), partially because they never fit here properly and partially because it pares the augmented version down to under 80 minutes.
now, i should point out that i was very much going for the *abstract* remix sound rather than the club-friendly mix. you can't really dance to these. you're not supposed to. you're supposed to blare them through headphones and trip out into them.
in terms of my own work, this record very much extends a bridge from the inri period into the deny everything period, to the extent that it arguably realizes the goals of both phases better than either phase does.
recorded sporadically, and without cohesive intent, over '98 and '99. originally compiled in the fall of '99. augmented and minimally altered in january, 2014.
HEADPHONES ARE MANDATORY TO EXPERIENCE THIS AS INTENDED.
credits:
j - guitars, effects, bass, synths, drum programming, digital wave editing, cool edit synthesis, sampling, sequencers, loops, remixes, reconstructions, reinterpretations
released october 15, 1999
publishing book it! (inri034)
this is another lost track that exists in a sort of an ill-defined alter-reality. the track mixes idm, new age, jazz fusion and progressive rock into a ridiculous, hyperfruity masterpiece. it's a mash-up of return to forever and mike oldfield, as remixed by coil.
it came out of a jam in my basement that fall. i was feeling a little more lonely than usual. see, i was quite literally the only person in my social group that bothered doing grade 13. so, school was converted from my only real social grounding (and i was always an extremely introverted loner) into a place of isolation and alienation. i skipped a lot of classes, actually, in a desire to escape the people. looking back, i sort of regret not reaching out to the people around me a bit more; it would have helped in more than just a social context. but, in hindsight, i'm also able to understand the separation better as one of class; as much as i regret keeping myself isolated, i think i would have been better off not carrying on with school at all.
i mean, i did well. my average was over 90. but i felt hopelessly out of place. i knew i didn't belong there....that they would never accept me unless i became the kind of pretentious jerk i despised. nor did i want anything to do with them, anyways. i really hated the superior attitude that i found myself immersed within. so, i just kept my physical distance and my mouth shut, hoping the condition was temporary (it wasn't).
the flip side of this is that i was also working a part-time job in a fast-food restaurant and i hated it just as much. i didn't fit in any better there, amongst the kids with no aspirations in life except to work in order to exist.
so, i found myself stuck between worlds, not wanting anything to do with either. in both cases, though, what i found the problem was was the people. "i don't mind the job, but i'm repulsed by the staff".
what i really wanted was just to be able to lock myself in a room and never have to engage with anybody ever again. i think that i'm the only person that could have written this. it exudes my idiosyncrasies in surreal, tongue-in-cheek humour. but it's also dead serious.
"i'd rather have a book than a friend.
it's loyalty will never end,
doesn't succumb to fashion or trend,
and all the information it sends,
will never get lost along the way.
when things get as tough as they may,
it will always know exactly what to say,
'cause books don't hurt...
...or do they?"
musically, there's some fancy playing here. everything is completely live: no loops (except the drums, programmed into a 909 emulator). that guitar part is sort of tricky. and check the bass part in the breakdown.
the thing i really like about this the most, though, is the gorgeous kosmische ending section, which is built up on overlapping sixths and is just the most dreamy thing to escape into ever. dramatic ending chord care/of a day in the life.
and, indeed, this is the dramatic ending chord for inri.
recorded in the fall of 1999. as always, please use headphones.
credits:
j - guitars, effects, bass, synths, sequencers, drum programming, flute, digital wave editing, vocals, production
released december 15, 1999
it came out of a jam in my basement that fall. i was feeling a little more lonely than usual. see, i was quite literally the only person in my social group that bothered doing grade 13. so, school was converted from my only real social grounding (and i was always an extremely introverted loner) into a place of isolation and alienation. i skipped a lot of classes, actually, in a desire to escape the people. looking back, i sort of regret not reaching out to the people around me a bit more; it would have helped in more than just a social context. but, in hindsight, i'm also able to understand the separation better as one of class; as much as i regret keeping myself isolated, i think i would have been better off not carrying on with school at all.
i mean, i did well. my average was over 90. but i felt hopelessly out of place. i knew i didn't belong there....that they would never accept me unless i became the kind of pretentious jerk i despised. nor did i want anything to do with them, anyways. i really hated the superior attitude that i found myself immersed within. so, i just kept my physical distance and my mouth shut, hoping the condition was temporary (it wasn't).
the flip side of this is that i was also working a part-time job in a fast-food restaurant and i hated it just as much. i didn't fit in any better there, amongst the kids with no aspirations in life except to work in order to exist.
so, i found myself stuck between worlds, not wanting anything to do with either. in both cases, though, what i found the problem was was the people. "i don't mind the job, but i'm repulsed by the staff".
what i really wanted was just to be able to lock myself in a room and never have to engage with anybody ever again. i think that i'm the only person that could have written this. it exudes my idiosyncrasies in surreal, tongue-in-cheek humour. but it's also dead serious.
"i'd rather have a book than a friend.
it's loyalty will never end,
doesn't succumb to fashion or trend,
and all the information it sends,
will never get lost along the way.
when things get as tough as they may,
it will always know exactly what to say,
'cause books don't hurt...
...or do they?"
musically, there's some fancy playing here. everything is completely live: no loops (except the drums, programmed into a 909 emulator). that guitar part is sort of tricky. and check the bass part in the breakdown.
the thing i really like about this the most, though, is the gorgeous kosmische ending section, which is built up on overlapping sixths and is just the most dreamy thing to escape into ever. dramatic ending chord care/of a day in the life.
and, indeed, this is the dramatic ending chord for inri.
recorded in the fall of 1999. as always, please use headphones.
credits:
j - guitars, effects, bass, synths, sequencers, drum programming, flute, digital wave editing, vocals, production
released december 15, 1999
Thursday, January 2, 2014
publishing liquify (inri031)
i've split this ep off from inrimake. it never really belonged there in the first place. that's a remix/cover album, and this is two forgotten experiments. it makes more sense to spin it off here. it also pulls the augmented version of inrimake back under 80 minutes. inrimake is now solely remixes and covers.
i should clarify, actually, that this 20-minute burst would be labelled progressive rock by most people. it takes in ideas from industrial and related types (post-punk, generally), jazz fusion and minimalism but it's really very much prog to the core - whether prog in an electro-branca sense (first track) or prog in a zappa-meets-genesis sense (second track).
HEADPHONES ARE MANDATORY TO EXPERIENCE THIS AS INTENDED
credits:
j - guitar, effects, bass, synths, loops, drum programming, vocals, samples, cool edit synthesis, sequencing, digital wave editing, production
released august 1, 1999
http://jasonparent.bandcamp.com/album/liquify
i should clarify, actually, that this 20-minute burst would be labelled progressive rock by most people. it takes in ideas from industrial and related types (post-punk, generally), jazz fusion and minimalism but it's really very much prog to the core - whether prog in an electro-branca sense (first track) or prog in a zappa-meets-genesis sense (second track).
recorded in the spring and summer of 1999. originally
released on inrimake in october, 1999. minimally altered and split into it's
own ep in january, 2014.
credits:
j - guitar, effects, bass, synths, loops, drum programming, vocals, samples, cool edit synthesis, sequencing, digital wave editing, production
released august 1, 1999
http://jasonparent.bandcamp.com/album/liquify
liquify (original album mix)
this is the headache track for this disc. filtering is actually going to be minimal for inrimake and most projects from here on in. the source has moved to digital. i've left this as is, except to fade the track out about a minute early. there's no use in taking the truman show ending to it's conclusion on each listen.
in truth, this is an impressively thick, warped and very messy piece of music. it'd be nice if i could turn the vocals down a tad and the lead guitars up just a bit in a few places, but the mix isn't going to allow that.
1) i've hinted at my mixing method being a type of synthesis. usually, one records parts separately and allows the interference to develop on playback. i've recorded the parts separately and electronically synthesized the interference, which creates secondary interference on playback. that creates a unique sound that is, overall, an asset to the track (and others), but it makes separating out fundamental frequencies virtually impossible. it also just flat out swallows entire sections. the depth on the bass is devoured by the guitar distortion and it's never, ever separating itself out (my only theoretical hope is something like (but not exactly) de-convolving it, but i don't have the right signal to use).
2) the bizarre vocal effects i used here (and note this is mid 99, before the early 00s vocal sampling craze) saturate the frequency spectrum. there's no way to cut them without cutting something else - the best option is to hollow them by zeroing out a series and it just doesn't sound good. boosting any frequency at all is going to boost the vocals. it's a total gloss.
3) the tactic i was using to fatten the bass cannot be used for the tracks on this record because it blurs the stereo separation and the extreme panning in these tracks is a part of what they are, on the level of the compositions themselves.
4) the above, combined with the saturation on the track, suggests that any modification is ultimately arbitrary. see, here's the thing: this needs to be listened to carefully through headphones, anyways. any attempt to actually do that is going to order the sound. so, regardless of whether i actually can isolate the frequencies i want to isolate, the reasons i want to isolate them collapse when the required listening approach is contemplated.
5) through repeated listening, i've reminded myself how weird this is anyways. ultimately, this is a weird song that is hard to digest on first listen, but it needs to be deconstructed by the listener, not cleaned up by the composer/engineer. the drums, for example, are constructed out of low quality samples for most of it. i can't pull out a bass drum because there isn't one. instead, there's a deep tom that's ultimately in the middle of the spectrum. etc.
i have to recommend this, though. there's a further lengthy write-up on the page that explains why the vocals caused me grief. musically, though, the track is very lush prog. it really explodes through a pair of headphones around 7:00 in.
recorded in the summer of 1999. edited jan 2, 2014.
https://jasonparent.bandcamp.com/track/liquify-2014-edit
in truth, this is an impressively thick, warped and very messy piece of music. it'd be nice if i could turn the vocals down a tad and the lead guitars up just a bit in a few places, but the mix isn't going to allow that.
1) i've hinted at my mixing method being a type of synthesis. usually, one records parts separately and allows the interference to develop on playback. i've recorded the parts separately and electronically synthesized the interference, which creates secondary interference on playback. that creates a unique sound that is, overall, an asset to the track (and others), but it makes separating out fundamental frequencies virtually impossible. it also just flat out swallows entire sections. the depth on the bass is devoured by the guitar distortion and it's never, ever separating itself out (my only theoretical hope is something like (but not exactly) de-convolving it, but i don't have the right signal to use).
2) the bizarre vocal effects i used here (and note this is mid 99, before the early 00s vocal sampling craze) saturate the frequency spectrum. there's no way to cut them without cutting something else - the best option is to hollow them by zeroing out a series and it just doesn't sound good. boosting any frequency at all is going to boost the vocals. it's a total gloss.
3) the tactic i was using to fatten the bass cannot be used for the tracks on this record because it blurs the stereo separation and the extreme panning in these tracks is a part of what they are, on the level of the compositions themselves.
4) the above, combined with the saturation on the track, suggests that any modification is ultimately arbitrary. see, here's the thing: this needs to be listened to carefully through headphones, anyways. any attempt to actually do that is going to order the sound. so, regardless of whether i actually can isolate the frequencies i want to isolate, the reasons i want to isolate them collapse when the required listening approach is contemplated.
5) through repeated listening, i've reminded myself how weird this is anyways. ultimately, this is a weird song that is hard to digest on first listen, but it needs to be deconstructed by the listener, not cleaned up by the composer/engineer. the drums, for example, are constructed out of low quality samples for most of it. i can't pull out a bass drum because there isn't one. instead, there's a deep tom that's ultimately in the middle of the spectrum. etc.
i have to recommend this, though. there's a further lengthy write-up on the page that explains why the vocals caused me grief. musically, though, the track is very lush prog. it really explodes through a pair of headphones around 7:00 in.
recorded in the summer of 1999. edited jan 2, 2014.
https://jasonparent.bandcamp.com/track/liquify-2014-edit
Wednesday, January 1, 2014
so, i wanted to be done the "old material" by the first. then my phones died for a full month.
i think i can get done by the 15th.
filtering is actually going to be minimal for inri013 and most projects from here on in. the source has moved to uncompressed digital, and i had a clearer understanding of what i was doing.
i think i can get done by the 15th.
filtering is actually going to be minimal for inri013 and most projects from here on in. the source has moved to uncompressed digital, and i had a clearer understanding of what i was doing.
i'm going to lay this down.
something i want to change this year (and i don't usually do that, but i've been thinking about this for a bit and it's kind of a coincidence with the time of year) is minimizing the amount of time i spend arguing on the internet. that's not the amount of time i spend reading, or discussing, or conversing or even debating - it's arguing, with people that i don't agree with and that i'm never going to agree with.
i've wasted a lot of time doing this in the past. not just here on facebook, but on forums and newsgroups. i mean, this goes back almost twenty years now. what it actually is is a bad habit, bordering into an addiction. when i say the time is wasted, i mean that quite literally. yet, i felt i had more time to waste in the past than i feel i do now.
i've actually taken a number of steps over the last few months that are slowly converting this into a one-way flow of information. i'm not there yet, and don't want to push myself there; it might even reverse. yet, i feel it's given me back some time to spend on music and reading things that aren't related to debating or trolling.
why do we debate on the internet, anyways? i have three answers that i think are true in varying amounts:
(1) it helps us form our own opinions. for me, that's actually the dominant thing. and it's not really about challenging myself, it's more about going over the same points over and over and working out the bugs. in the sense that the debate is a challenge, it's a challenge to see the ideas from different input variables. for the most part, i'm talking over the person i'm debating with. those that have debated with me or seen me debate know this is true. there's no real consideration on my behalf that i might actually be wrong. (well, if i make a factual error, i'm known to correct myself, but that's not what i mean).
(2) it's an opportunity to learn. that is to say that it directs research topics in a way that is lively and organic. it's not a reading list somebody is pushing down from above. i find this does drive me, but it's also the biggest reason i want to reclaim the time. at this point, i've constructed a reading list for myself and the debating is getting in the way...
(3) ego. but, believe it or not, it's not that strong a force for me. my debating tone can be brutally condescending, but that's far less about how i interpret myself than may be initially apparent (and those who know me know my ego is not powerful. i'm actually driven by a super-ego that seems to be extra-terrestrial in origin.).
i just feel i've exhausted the possibilities with (1). i've had every debate that the internet offers so many times that i'm no longer working things out. it's consequently become sort of boring for me. in conjunction with the feeling that it's getting in the way of my productivity, that presents the aforementioned context of feeling as though i'm engaging in a bad habit that needs to be corrected.
i dunno. maybe i'll switch it around. maybe i'll be the nicest person ever on the internet and an impossible tyrant irl. maybe i'll lose my release. or maybe i'll channel it back into my guitar. who knows...
what i know is that this is not the beginning of this slow winding down. i'm several months into a process that will likely accelerate with the new year.
something i want to change this year (and i don't usually do that, but i've been thinking about this for a bit and it's kind of a coincidence with the time of year) is minimizing the amount of time i spend arguing on the internet. that's not the amount of time i spend reading, or discussing, or conversing or even debating - it's arguing, with people that i don't agree with and that i'm never going to agree with.
i've wasted a lot of time doing this in the past. not just here on facebook, but on forums and newsgroups. i mean, this goes back almost twenty years now. what it actually is is a bad habit, bordering into an addiction. when i say the time is wasted, i mean that quite literally. yet, i felt i had more time to waste in the past than i feel i do now.
i've actually taken a number of steps over the last few months that are slowly converting this into a one-way flow of information. i'm not there yet, and don't want to push myself there; it might even reverse. yet, i feel it's given me back some time to spend on music and reading things that aren't related to debating or trolling.
why do we debate on the internet, anyways? i have three answers that i think are true in varying amounts:
(1) it helps us form our own opinions. for me, that's actually the dominant thing. and it's not really about challenging myself, it's more about going over the same points over and over and working out the bugs. in the sense that the debate is a challenge, it's a challenge to see the ideas from different input variables. for the most part, i'm talking over the person i'm debating with. those that have debated with me or seen me debate know this is true. there's no real consideration on my behalf that i might actually be wrong. (well, if i make a factual error, i'm known to correct myself, but that's not what i mean).
(2) it's an opportunity to learn. that is to say that it directs research topics in a way that is lively and organic. it's not a reading list somebody is pushing down from above. i find this does drive me, but it's also the biggest reason i want to reclaim the time. at this point, i've constructed a reading list for myself and the debating is getting in the way...
(3) ego. but, believe it or not, it's not that strong a force for me. my debating tone can be brutally condescending, but that's far less about how i interpret myself than may be initially apparent (and those who know me know my ego is not powerful. i'm actually driven by a super-ego that seems to be extra-terrestrial in origin.).
i just feel i've exhausted the possibilities with (1). i've had every debate that the internet offers so many times that i'm no longer working things out. it's consequently become sort of boring for me. in conjunction with the feeling that it's getting in the way of my productivity, that presents the aforementioned context of feeling as though i'm engaging in a bad habit that needs to be corrected.
i dunno. maybe i'll switch it around. maybe i'll be the nicest person ever on the internet and an impossible tyrant irl. maybe i'll lose my release. or maybe i'll channel it back into my guitar. who knows...
what i know is that this is not the beginning of this slow winding down. i'm several months into a process that will likely accelerate with the new year.
i'm not somebody that's lived a lunch pail life. i've tried to make
things interesting, which has meant taking some chances. it's meant
uncertainties in things most of us take for granted. it's meant sleeping
in some weird places. it's meant that you win some and...
that was probably the most intense year of my life so far. it feels like a decade of time went by; i can barely even contemplate where i was this time last year, except as part of a past existence. i'm 800 km away in space and even further in mind. if i'm not a decade older physically, i feel like i'm a decade older, mentally.
taking it from the context of 2011 as a rock bottom, and 2012 as a needed recovery followed by a slow crawl out, i feel i turned a corner on a lot of things over 2013 - and not just things that had carried on since 2011 but things that had carried on longer than that. everything seemed to go wrong all at once at the end of 2011, and it all seemed to pass all at once in the middle of 2013. it's remarkable, really, how total and sudden both events were. so, there's a lot of legitimate newness for me in the new year. if things continue on the same trajectory, it looks positive.
that was probably the most intense year of my life so far. it feels like a decade of time went by; i can barely even contemplate where i was this time last year, except as part of a past existence. i'm 800 km away in space and even further in mind. if i'm not a decade older physically, i feel like i'm a decade older, mentally.
taking it from the context of 2011 as a rock bottom, and 2012 as a needed recovery followed by a slow crawl out, i feel i turned a corner on a lot of things over 2013 - and not just things that had carried on since 2011 but things that had carried on longer than that. everything seemed to go wrong all at once at the end of 2011, and it all seemed to pass all at once in the middle of 2013. it's remarkable, really, how total and sudden both events were. so, there's a lot of legitimate newness for me in the new year. if things continue on the same trajectory, it looks positive.
Tuesday, December 31, 2013
Monday, December 30, 2013
Sunday, December 29, 2013
Saturday, December 28, 2013
music video for ‘inertia’
i'm sure this won't be the last traditional music video i put
together, although i don't have much respect for the medium and have no
interest in doing it as something mandatory.
this footage just struck me as very powerful, and fitting to the track.
https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=fdjPvgGh2qw
original video taken from here without requesting permission:
http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=cS_oLmWlG8s
this footage just struck me as very powerful, and fitting to the track.
https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=fdjPvgGh2qw
original video taken from here without requesting permission:
http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=cS_oLmWlG8s
(no subject)
well, then.
happy things. merry stuff.
weirdness prevails.
hey, check this out:
https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=fdjPvgGh2qw
those images hit me sort of deeply, so i orchestrated them. there's such an ambiguous overlap between love and parasitism....the video wasn't shot with this is mind, but the exploration it presents of that overlap is just sort of wow.
i cried making it. are the images as powerful as i see them, or am i just insane?
wait, don't answer.
you should come visit.
j
happy things. merry stuff.
weirdness prevails.
hey, check this out:
https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=fdjPvgGh2qw
those images hit me sort of deeply, so i orchestrated them. there's such an ambiguous overlap between love and parasitism....the video wasn't shot with this is mind, but the exploration it presents of that overlap is just sort of wow.
i cried making it. are the images as powerful as i see them, or am i just insane?
wait, don't answer.
you should come visit.
j
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